vent thread 4 all

Boy, everyone here is talking about actual mental health problems and getting some serious shit off their chests, and I'm just here fuming at the alfredo elitists on reddit. 

I didn't ask how to make my own alfredo with this super easy recipe, Karen. I asked why none of my grocery stores have had jarred alfredo for the last six weeks. 

 No idea, I can't say I'm well-versed in Bolognese. 

@woofmallow that's one of the nicest things someone has ever said to me c:
I also try really hard to be a nice person and try to help others so the same goes for you, if you ever want to talk about anything even just goof off you can talk to me, I'll do my best to reply c:
All I have to say is thank you cuz you really worded a lot of my feelings and fears perfectly and it's sort of nice knowing I'm not the only one even tho those feelings suck

Overall your message has really brightened my morning and put a smile on my face, thank you so much :3

tfw you thought you were over a traumatic experience and you haven't thought about it in YEARS and suddenly it smacks you in the face like an effing semi. 

literally scared to death of getting my test grade back. going in i thought i was gonna do better this time but i didn't even have enough time to finish one of the problems worth the most points ):

i am doing a lot better but my baritone ukulele broke so i'm gonna write all over it and hang it up somewhere

Mental breakdowns have become increasingly common as the situation at my university gets increasingly 1984ish. Working to cancel my housing agreement now... 2 days before my scheduled move-in day, lol. 

Editing this post to just say the entire family is screwed up and it's taking a toll on both of our mental health. 

I know this may seem so stupid but I’m really upset that I no longer like my favorite drinks. I used to love Dr Pepper and sweet tea. Now, I hate them. I used to hate unsweet tea. Now I like it. I like water a lot more now. This is so all of a sudden, and it’s genuinely bothering me. Been reading about taste aversion and it’s not quite the same thing. I’ve also been reading about how COVID can alter your sense of taste. Idk I’m just a upset about it sorry if it seems lame

This happened to me a lot between the ages of 15-19 where things I used to like became gross and things that were gross were appealing. I guess it was just adult tastebuds kicking in. They ruined one of my favorite foods-- sweet potato fries.

almost had to call the police on my dad. then he threatened to call himself in. i can't live like this anymore

dudes I have an osu tourney coming up and I've been working my butt off for it and I feel like if anything I've gotten worse and its just a really sucky feeling to go into practice as the highest rank "best" player of the team with most experience and still manage to drag everyone down. It's not even that I'm doing poorly, I'm just missing randomly and my consistency is trash and that's exactly not how I need to be to play in tourney. I just want to contribute to my team and do well, esp cuz our team is considered one of the 'underdogs' for this split and I KNOW we're all good enough to win which is why its so humiliating and frustrating that I just keep messing up on the "easy" stuff that I should know by now but can never get perfect with enough consistency to be an asset, I really don't want to let everyone down but I don't know what more I can do. If it was something mechanical or a skill to learn that would be an easy fix, but I don't know how to fix just... random misses and consistency.

On another note, I've been trying to put myself out there more in the real world and it's been really hard and everyone around me aren't being the most encouraging. Most the time I get sarcastic "see, it wasn't that hard" with the stare of "I expect you to never have problems with x task ever again" or "finally, took long enough" and it's really beating me down. its hard enough to find motivation for me to do anything but it's been feeling like every time I make a breakthrough it's just the bare minimum of other people's "normal" and it hurts that I only have a few friends that I can go to when I'm proud of myself and want validation for my struggles instead of being told "it shouldn't be hard" or "just do it" when it's really, really not that simple for me :\ I don't think they understand that I'm internally screaming at myself the same thing over and over and that I feel just as frustrated and trapped and that when I finally am able to overcome something, even if it is small, that it does feel like a huge accomplishment. I just want to be proud of myself, I guess, and its hard to keep struggling when all I get for leaving my room and doing things is sarcasm and biting words. I don't want to stop trying but it feels a lot easier to just... not have to deal with that, ya know? I'm just glad I found a few true friends and I'm so glad I can talk to them about things like this but the constant wearing down of everyone else is exhausting.

mossecho

Sameee.

Also, off topic, but I LOVE your signature, it MOVES when you scroll up, it's like you're looking at trees through a window or something, it's sooo cool, it's like magic, I've never seen anything like it, I've been distracted by it for the past 5 minutes XD.

Oh awesome! They are extremely talented.
That's fantastic! How'd it go?