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Post by mossecho on Sept 27, 2020 15:52:31 GMT -5
Chicken : Honestly, all the sig credit goes to Redfleck, they did all the coding. Idk what magic they used for the scrolling, but my goodness it is incredible
Also, minor update: successfully talked to someone! Yay! (: Oh awesome! They are extremely talented. That's fantastic! How'd it go? |
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Post by Deleted on Sept 27, 2020 16:08:52 GMT -5
Oh awesome! They are extremely talented. That's fantastic! How'd it go? I don't think it's silly at all! I have a hard time going up to people I know and initiating a conversation with them, so talking to a stranger would be close to a miracle for me. |
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Sept 27, 2020 18:31:09 GMT -5
Went well! I felt kinda silly feeling so happy afterwards. Talking to a stranger should not seem like such an accomplishment, but it really did. I guess in a way it made me more optimistic, so that's really great. I don't think it's silly at all! I have a hard time going up to people I know and initiating a conversation with them, so talking to a stranger would be close to a miracle for me. Something that helps me at time as someone with social anxiety-- imagine that the other person is equally as socially anxious, which means they will be way too worried about how they act/what they say than anything you do! |
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Post by Deleted on Sept 27, 2020 18:36:07 GMT -5
I don't think it's silly at all! I have a hard time going up to people I know and initiating a conversation with them, so talking to a stranger would be close to a miracle for me. Something that helps me at time as someone with social anxiety-- imagine that the other person is equally as socially anxious, which means they will be way too worried about how they act/what they say than anything you do! Thanks for the advice, it sounds like it could possibly work for me, I'll have to attempt to try it next time I'm in a situation where I have to talk to someone. I know it won't be easy, but it won't hurt to try  |
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Post by mossecho on Sept 27, 2020 19:56:54 GMT -5
I don't think it's silly at all! I have a hard time going up to people I know and initiating a conversation with them, so talking to a stranger would be close to a miracle for me. I don't think it's silly at all! I have a hard time going up to people I know and initiating a conversation with them, so talking to a stranger would be close to a miracle for me. Something that helps me at time as someone with social anxiety-- imagine that the other person is equally as socially anxious, which means they will be way too worried about how they act/what they say than anything you do!
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Post by Deleted on Sept 27, 2020 19:57:56 GMT -5
mossechoThank you! The same goes for you, my inbox is always open
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Post by 🆉🅴🅻🅳🆁🅸🆂 on Sept 29, 2020 11:02:03 GMT -5
my birthday in a few days and im not ready
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Post by Deleted on Oct 2, 2020 20:17:25 GMT -5
Every day, I realize more and more, that I don't really have anything in common with any of my friends, and sometimes I wonder if people actually like me, or if they just tolerate me for some reason.
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Post by Skypaw13 on Oct 2, 2020 21:02:47 GMT -5
Every day, I realize more and more, that I don't really have anything in common with any of my friends, and sometimes I wonder if people actually like me, or if they just tolerate me for some reason. I like you! Given, I've never actually met you in real life (I think), but from what I've seen, I like you! |
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Post by Deleted on Oct 2, 2020 21:16:22 GMT -5
Every day, I realize more and more, that I don't really have anything in common with any of my friends, and sometimes I wonder if people actually like me, or if they just tolerate me for some reason. I like you! Given, I've never actually met you in real life (I think), but from what I've seen, I like you! Thanks that means a lot, I like you too! I highly doubt we've met IRL, but it'd be really interesting if we have lol |
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Oct 2, 2020 22:19:01 GMT -5
Every day, I realize more and more, that I don't really have anything in common with any of my friends, and sometimes I wonder if people actually like me, or if they just tolerate me for some reason. I like you! Given, I've never actually met you in real life (I think), but from what I've seen, I like you! I also like you! You're honest, straightforward, humble, and kind. There's plenty of qualities to like about you from what I've seen over the internet-- just because people IRL miss those virtues, doesn't mean they don't exist! |
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Post by Deleted on Oct 2, 2020 22:53:22 GMT -5
I like you! Given, I've never actually met you in real life (I think), but from what I've seen, I like you! I also like you! You're honest, straightforward, humble, and kind. There's plenty of qualities to like about you from what I've seen over the internet-- just because people IRL miss those virtues, doesn't mean they don't exist! Thank you so much! I like you too, you seem very mature, intelligent, and over all a great person! Oh, I meant internet friends, I can't go up to someone and initiate a conversation with them, unless they're my mom, my brother, or my second sister, even then I don't talk to them much, so making friends IRL is very difficult. |
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Oct 3, 2020 2:29:32 GMT -5
I also like you! You're honest, straightforward, humble, and kind. There's plenty of qualities to like about you from what I've seen over the internet-- just because people IRL miss those virtues, doesn't mean they don't exist! Thank you so much! I like you too, you seem very mature, intelligent, and over all a great person! Oh, I meant internet friends, I can't go up to someone and initiate a conversation with them, unless they're my mom, my brother, or my second sister, even then I don't talk to them much, so making friends IRL is very difficult. I understand that well. I have social anxiety and although it’s been better in recent years, I still have a hard time with approaching people, initiating interactions, and small talk. I think you have it harder than I have but it can still get better! It’s a very common issue (i think 1/5 adults in america have an anxiety disorder?) so you have a lot of people in silent solidarity with you. |
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Post by mossecho on Oct 3, 2020 11:27:51 GMT -5
why in the world am I overwhelmed after a grand total of four days of classes
I do know why: combination of procrastination, denial, and not knowing how to write. Still, why am I like this?
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Post by Deleted on Oct 3, 2020 12:15:03 GMT -5
Thank you so much! I like you too, you seem very mature, intelligent, and over all a great person! Oh, I meant internet friends, I can't go up to someone and initiate a conversation with them, unless they're my mom, my brother, or my second sister, even then I don't talk to them much, so making friends IRL is very difficult. I understand that well. I have social anxiety and although it’s been better in recent years, I still have a hard time with approaching people, initiating interactions, and small talk. I think you have it harder than I have but it can still get better! It’s a very common issue (i think 1/5 adults in america have an anxiety disorder?) so you have a lot of people in silent solidarity with you. Yeah, I've been diagnosed with anxiety, along with a few other things. I'm sorry you have to deal with it as well, but I'm glad that yours has been getting better |
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Post by Deleted on Oct 5, 2020 21:50:41 GMT -5
Sorry for the double post, but misphonia is seriously annoying.
I hear one sound, and I'd literally rather die than have to continue listening to that sound.
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Post by 🆉🅴🅻🅳🆁🅸🆂 on Oct 5, 2020 23:41:31 GMT -5
I’ve been off work for 2 weeks and my paycheck is nonexistent and I can’t claim any relief whatsoever
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Post by mossecho on Oct 9, 2020 22:19:18 GMT -5
I posted on here a while ago about trying to develop healthy habits around food and weight loss and the like. So far... not doing so well. Decided not to eat today (had a lot of junk food the day before yesterday, ~600 cal, that probably isn't actually too much but it feels like a ton). Worried about how proud of myself I feel. I shouldn't be happy about not eating, but I am.
Nervous about tomorrow, I'm going out to dinner with a friend. We don't know where we will be going, so I won't get a chance to check the menu beforehand to see what is okay to eat. I know I should just eat what I want, but I'm scared of eating too many calories. I shouldn't be scared of that. I shouldn't be obsessively document everything I consume, but I am.
Also, wish I could get myself to eat breakfast. Think the last time I had breakfast was September 21st. Feels like a long time ago, but there's still a voice in my head telling me it hasn't been long enough, like I need to go for a full month of breakfastlessness.
I don't know where I'm going with this. I just hate how proud I am for not eating. But whenever I do, I hate myself even more. Just feels like I am losing.
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Oct 9, 2020 22:31:10 GMT -5
I posted on here a while ago about trying to develop healthy habits around food and weight loss and the like. So far... not doing so well. Decided not to eat today (had a lot of junk food the day before yesterday, ~600 cal, that probably isn't actually too much but it feels like a ton). Worried about how proud of myself I feel. I shouldn't be happy about not eating, but I am.
Nervous about tomorrow, I'm going out to dinner with a friend. We don't know where we will be going, so I won't get a chance to check the menu beforehand to see what is okay to eat. I know I should just eat what I want, but I'm scared of eating too many calories. I shouldn't be scared of that. I shouldn't be obsessively document everything I consume, but I am.
Also, wish I could get myself to eat breakfast. Think the last time I had breakfast was September 21st. Feels like a long time ago, but there's still a voice in my head telling me it hasn't been long enough, like I need to go for a full month of breakfastlessness.
I don't know where I'm going with this. I just hate how proud I am for not eating. But whenever I do, I hate myself even more. Just feels like I am losing. sounds like disordered eating. is there a chance there is someone you could talk to about this to help you out? even just a friend who can help encourage you. my sister has struggled with eating disorders for awhile and they're hard--the sooner you tackle it the easier it will be to turn things around. i'm here to talk about it if you ever need some counsel or just someone to listen too <3 |
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Post by mossecho on Oct 9, 2020 23:21:05 GMT -5
I posted on here a while ago about trying to develop healthy habits around food and weight loss and the like. So far... not doing so well. Decided not to eat today (had a lot of junk food the day before yesterday, ~600 cal, that probably isn't actually too much but it feels like a ton). Worried about how proud of myself I feel. I shouldn't be happy about not eating, but I am.
Nervous about tomorrow, I'm going out to dinner with a friend. We don't know where we will be going, so I won't get a chance to check the menu beforehand to see what is okay to eat. I know I should just eat what I want, but I'm scared of eating too many calories. I shouldn't be scared of that. I shouldn't be obsessively document everything I consume, but I am.
Also, wish I could get myself to eat breakfast. Think the last time I had breakfast was September 21st. Feels like a long time ago, but there's still a voice in my head telling me it hasn't been long enough, like I need to go for a full month of breakfastlessness.
I don't know where I'm going with this. I just hate how proud I am for not eating. But whenever I do, I hate myself even more. Just feels like I am losing. sounds like disordered eating. is there a chance there is someone you could talk to about this to help you out? even just a friend who can help encourage you. my sister has struggled with eating disorders for awhile and they're hard--the sooner you tackle it the easier it will be to turn things around. i'm here to talk about it if you ever need some counsel or just someone to listen too <3
I am trying to work myself up to talking about it openly (well, more openly than posting on a forum that no one from my life knows I'm on xD). Right now I'm just finding reasons why not to, but ultimately it comes down to just not wanting help. Part of me knows that I should eat more, but another part is too scared to talk about it. If I talk about this, then I will have to eat more. Which is the whole point, yes, but that is terrifying. I suppose posting something like this on the forums is essentially a cry for help when I'm too scared to ask for it in real life... oh I don't how I feel about this.
Ultimately, thank you. It's so helpful to hear someone else's input. I've been trying to tell myself for so long that this isn't a problem, it's so helpful to hear someone reaffirm that there is actually something wrong. And as stupidly obvious as it seems to say, it's nice to hear someone else cares. Thank you so much <3
Also, all the best to your sister. I don't know how she is doing, but I hope she's doing well. (: |
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Oct 11, 2020 18:18:17 GMT -5
sounds like disordered eating. is there a chance there is someone you could talk to about this to help you out? even just a friend who can help encourage you. my sister has struggled with eating disorders for awhile and they're hard--the sooner you tackle it the easier it will be to turn things around. i'm here to talk about it if you ever need some counsel or just someone to listen too <3
I am trying to work myself up to talking about it openly (well, more openly than posting on a forum that no one from my life knows I'm on xD). Right now I'm just finding reasons why not to, but ultimately it comes down to just not wanting help. Part of me knows that I should eat more, but another part is too scared to talk about it. If I talk about this, then I will have to eat more. Which is the whole point, yes, but that is terrifying. I suppose posting something like this on the forums is essentially a cry for help when I'm too scared to ask for it in real life... oh I don't how I feel about this.
Ultimately, thank you. It's so helpful to hear someone else's input. I've been trying to tell myself for so long that this isn't a problem, it's so helpful to hear someone reaffirm that there is actually something wrong. And as stupidly obvious as it seems to say, it's nice to hear someone else cares. Thank you so much <3
Also, all the best to your sister. I don't know how she is doing, but I hope she's doing well. (:i have a big soft spot for people who struggle with these things because of how it's affected my sister. she's doing a lot better these days, but the mental reasoning is still a challenge for her at times. "disordered eating" just means an unhealthy relationship with food! it doesn't require official diagnosis of anything. you're just recognizing that the way you think about eating is impacted by some bigger psychological fight that's using food as the battle ground. What you said about both wanting help and not wanting to fix it is a sign of it, but also really typical of disordered eating-- outwardly realizing what's wrong but still internalizing the unhealthy schema as what you "need". please let me know if i can ever help in any way! consider it an open invitation. |
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Post by mossecho on Oct 11, 2020 21:50:52 GMT -5
I don't know... I don't want to call it disordered eating, but that's much more me wanting to ignore the problem than anything else. I don't want to claim something that I don't have, but does not mean that I don't, you know?
I am trying to work myself up to talking about it openly (well, more openly than posting on a forum that no one from my life knows I'm on xD). Right now I'm just finding reasons why not to, but ultimately it comes down to just not wanting help. Part of me knows that I should eat more, but another part is too scared to talk about it. If I talk about this, then I will have to eat more. Which is the whole point, yes, but that is terrifying. I suppose posting something like this on the forums is essentially a cry for help when I'm too scared to ask for it in real life... oh I don't how I feel about this.
Ultimately, thank you. It's so helpful to hear someone else's input. I've been trying to tell myself for so long that this isn't a problem, it's so helpful to hear someone reaffirm that there is actually something wrong. And as stupidly obvious as it seems to say, it's nice to hear someone else cares. Thank you so much <3
Also, all the best to your sister. I don't know how she is doing, but I hope she's doing well. (: i have a big soft spot for people who struggle with these things because of how it's affected my sister. she's doing a lot better these days, but the mental reasoning is still a challenge for her at times. "disordered eating" just means an unhealthy relationship with food! it doesn't require official diagnosis of anything. you're just recognizing that the way you think about eating is impacted by some bigger psychological fight that's using food as the battle ground. What you said about both wanting help and not wanting to fix it is a sign of it, but also really typical of disordered eating-- outwardly realizing what's wrong but still internalizing the unhealthy schema as what you "need". please let me know if i can ever help in any way! consider it an open invitation.
Oh really? That's good to know, thanks! The clarification always helps, I really appreciate it. Also it's nice to have a name for something. Thank you so much!
I will, definitely. Thank you so so much, this really helped. Just knowing the right words to describe it feels so... I don't know. Validating? Maybe? idk. Again, and I know I've said this a lot, but thank you <3 |
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Post by Leapkit on Oct 12, 2020 2:37:48 GMT -5
nothing like having a bpd breakdown n ur roommate yelling at u to "be normal"
yeah thanks, i sure would like to do that.
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Post by Skypaw13 on Oct 12, 2020 12:59:14 GMT -5
I know the topic of motivation has been beaten to death in this thread, but gonna add to it by jumping in and saying my motivation is at an all-time-low today.
I love genetics, it's my favorite class and I love learning about it. But somehow I can't even drag up the effort to open the powerpoint for today. Class is in a half hour and I still need to prepare, but I just... can't. I barely got out of bed this morning and I already skipped O Chem today...
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Post by ash on Oct 15, 2020 2:20:09 GMT -5
12 yo me fresh outta elementary school was really wishing they were dead lmao jokes on you kid youre almost 20 now |
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Post by Skypaw13 on Oct 16, 2020 2:10:52 GMT -5
I'm gonna die.
(not like, depression. I have an exam tomorrow morning that I don't know half the material of, and just looking at the study guide is giving me panic attacks.)
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Oct 18, 2020 1:24:03 GMT -5
so i looked ahead at my homework for the rest of the semester. because they're squishing everything to end before thanksgiving, rather than continuing for a few weeks after per usual, it's going to be hell.
this week, one professor randomly sprang a take-home midterm on us that i had 24hrs to complete and it took me 5hrs. i have a 4-page paper due tuesday (not that bad tbh). i have an exam the following tuesday on my birthday (27th). the monday after that (nov 2) i have a 6-page paper for a professor that grades meticulously and harshly on a nuanced subject. during all of this i need to work on my 15-20page thesis, because i have to give a presentation on it the 4th and turn it in the 6th. i'll have a week to get feedback on the presentation so i can edit my thesis accordingly and turn it in the 16th. i also have two 4-7page papers due nov 19th (i.e. day before finals start). my sister's wedding is the 14th, so that's a whole weekend i can't use for homework. i'll have exams that friday, saturday, and monday after the two essays, as well as a take-home final (essay format) due that monday (23rd) too. oh, and a 10 page research paper due somewhere around finals week, too.
none of these essays are the type you can BS the night before and get away with it. they all require thoughtful analysis and at least several days of drafting if i at least want a B (unacceptable, imo). this is all following a midterms week where i had two essays and two exams, with an essay the previous week too, so i had to start grinding two weeks ahead of time.
all in all: one thesis, two 4-page essays, two 5-7page essays, a presentation and corrections, a wedding (which i'm the main planner/coordinator for), five exams, and a 10 page research essay to boot. all in one month.
imma die
EDIT: this isn't even counting that i work 10hrs a week and have other little things to do, like find a internship for winter break and get a degree audit
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Post by Skypaw13 on Nov 4, 2020 19:25:04 GMT -5
bumping because people can't find this threadI put a political rant here, but I can't bring myself to post it because I've literally seen friends of mine get assaulted for expressing conservative ideas, so I have some sort of weird PTSD around sharing my opinions, so we're gonna not do that. |
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Post by 🆉🅴🅻🅳🆁🅸🆂 on Nov 4, 2020 19:27:13 GMT -5
I hate the amount of hate going on regarding politics like we are all brothers and sisters (or whatever they identify as) at the end of the day. we need to love each other more
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Nov 5, 2020 1:40:23 GMT -5
bumping because people can't find this threadI put a political rant here, but I can't bring myself to post it because I've literally seen friends of mine get assaulted for expressing conservative ideas, so I have some sort of weird PTSD around sharing my opinions, so we're gonna not do that. i definitely am NOT trying to carry arguments from previous threads onto this one. but i will say that i think what is so exhausting about it is like...how do you have a conversation with someone who has already determined your views for you? i stopped arguing politics years ago because of this. that weird PTSD thing is definitely valid, though. last time i mentioned i had conservative leanings on here, i was harrassed by people on here for days (not-so-anonymous hate mail, death threats, etc) and i still get panicky thinking about it. |
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