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Post by Sand on Aug 27, 2024 17:33:49 GMT -5
I’m gonna have to take out my broom to clean up the f-bombs /lh /j. But it’s okay, and know that we support you here <3 Thanks, I appreciate it. I’m gonna work on using the minimal amount of cuss words tho lol. The easiest replacement word I can recommend is “freaking”. You’re welcome! |
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Post by 🎃*:.｡. Rain .｡.:*🦇 on Aug 28, 2024 15:33:09 GMT -5
Starting antidepressants again.
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Post by 🎃*:.｡. Rain .｡.:*🦇 on Aug 28, 2024 19:06:25 GMT -5
I need help. Nothing is fun, nothing really makes me happy. I haven’t had any type of motivation for weeks, I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to die, I’m just feeling really hopeless. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. I want to feel SOMETHING, even if it’s negative, i just don’t want to feel like this. I want to be mad, or happy, or excited, but the minute I start to feel something, I start to feel like I’m living, it goes away. I want to cry and I can’t. I’m not anxious, I’m not sad, I don’t know what it is. Please, I don’t know what to do. Somebody please help me.
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Post by Viperstrike on Aug 29, 2024 18:46:22 GMT -5
im finding it really hard to keep going. i feel like everything is closing in around me, and i can’t do one single thing to change it. i have no control over anything. i don’t think im going to be able to put up with this for another decade. im really tired. |
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Post by Dark on Sept 1, 2024 11:05:05 GMT -5
I need help. Nothing is fun, nothing really makes me happy. I haven’t had any type of motivation for weeks, I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to die, I’m just feeling really hopeless. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. I want to feel SOMETHING, even if it’s negative, i just don’t want to feel like this. I want to be mad, or happy, or excited, but the minute I start to feel something, I start to feel like I’m living, it goes away. I want to cry and I can’t. I’m not anxious, I’m not sad, I don’t know what it is. Please, I don’t know what to do. Somebody please help me. I'm sorry to hear that. I can't guarantee if this will work, but maybe try to hang out with friends or family. Don't isolate! Try to do activities that you used to enjoy, or haven't tried yet. Also, numbness could be a symptom of your meds, so try to talk to a professional about that. |
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Post by 🎃*:.｡. Rain .｡.:*🦇 on Sept 1, 2024 12:24:40 GMT -5
I need help. Nothing is fun, nothing really makes me happy. I haven’t had any type of motivation for weeks, I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to die, I’m just feeling really hopeless. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. I want to feel SOMETHING, even if it’s negative, i just don’t want to feel like this. I want to be mad, or happy, or excited, but the minute I start to feel something, I start to feel like I’m living, it goes away. I want to cry and I can’t. I’m not anxious, I’m not sad, I don’t know what it is. Please, I don’t know what to do. Somebody please help me. I'm sorry to hear that. I can't guarantee if this will work, but maybe try to hang out with friends or family. Don't isolate! Try to do activities that you used to enjoy, or haven't tried yet. Also, numbness could be a symptom of your meds, so try to talk to a professional about that. Thanks. That’s pretty much exactly what my therapist said lol and I started antidepressants again yesterday, and I’m gonna hang out with some friends tomorrow! ^^ I’m doing much better today |
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Post by beefur 👻🦇🎃 on Sept 3, 2024 9:04:59 GMT -5
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i did henna on my feet the other day as a joke, now my dads scolding me for doing "halloween" stuff and not knowing what im doing. like i did it for fun, and it was really fun, now hes gone and ruined it. they never like anything i do, even when im grinding out work they just tell me to do something else, then when i do something else on my own they tell me to study. like what. theyre genuinely making me excited for school, i dont want to be at home and listen to them te!lling me to do something else. they dont let me use music to study. they have stupid reasons for everything and i hate it. i wish theyd leave me alone.
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Post by 🎃*:.｡. Rain .｡.:*🦇 on Sept 3, 2024 12:07:24 GMT -5
yellow, purple, black i did henna on my feet the other day as a joke, now my dads scolding me for doing "halloween" stuff and not knowing what im doing. like i did it for fun, and it was really fun, now hes gone and ruined it. they never like anything i do, even when im grinding out work they just tell me to do something else, then when i do something else on my own they tell me to study. like what. theyre genuinely making me excited for school, i dont want to be at home and listen to them te!lling me to do something else. they dont let me use music to study. they have stupid reasons for everything and i hate it. i wish theyd leave me alone. That really sucks, I wish I had an idea of what to do. I totally get it, my parents are the same way for most of that. I’m always here to talk if you ever want to, just shoot me a pm! ^^ |
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Post by whiteflight on Sept 3, 2024 23:59:03 GMT -5
Is it bad that I can't cry in front of my dad because of what he just said? He just recently told me that he wished that he never had kids and lost all hope because of the actions of my older brothers. I wanted to ask him if he also regrets having me because I have a medical condition, I dropped out of college, tried to kill myself, and tried to run away. But I knew if I asked that I would cry and he would yell at me for crying. I know I shouldn't feel bad for myself cause my dad suffered more than me, he lost his father, his mom abandoned him when he was a child, and he had to run away from war. I just feel like a failure, and that I should leave so he doesn't have to suffer anymore. I'm trying my hardest to stop having seizures but I can't control it but it's taking too long for me to get back to being normal again, I'm 23 now and can't drive, I don't have a car, I'm single and don't have children. I really need to stop feeling sorry for myself, it's really selfish.
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Post by Bramblestar of Stormclan on Sept 4, 2024 1:41:38 GMT -5
Is it bad that I can't cry in front of my dad because of what he just said? He just recently told me that he wished that he never had kids and lost all hope because of the actions of my older brothers. I wanted to ask him if he also regrets having me because I have a medical condition, I dropped out of college, tried to kill myself, and tried to run away. But I knew if I asked that I would cry and he would yell at me for crying. I know I shouldn't feel bad for myself cause my dad suffered more than me, he lost his father, his mom abandoned him when he was a child, and he had to run away from war. I just feel like a failure, and that I should leave so he doesn't have to suffer anymore. I'm trying my hardest to stop having seizures but I can't control it but it's taking too long for me to get back to being normal again, I'm 23 now and can't drive, I don't have a car, I'm single and don't have children. I really need to stop feeling sorry for myself, it's really selfish. You're not being selfish. You are being normal. Never think otherwise. Never devalue your feelings and invalidate them because someone else may have had a harder life. Everything you feel is important. I can't give the ultimate advice or magical words to make you feel better, life is full of hardships and sadly we must all face them. But you'll always come out a better person in some way at the end. If your father feels like he regrets having you, then find the worth of yourself, for yourself. It's sometimes difficult to do, I struggle with self-worth myself. Keep in mind, you're the main character of your story. You don't live in someone else's story, you live in yours. You're always important, and you're never a failure. Something I've always said - imperfection is true perfection within our chaotic world. |
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Post by beefur 👻🦇🎃 on Sept 4, 2024 18:34:10 GMT -5
im in a 4 split enhanced class, and some of the graduates graduated. like i know its not the end of the world but like. i miss them. it feels like im in a spinoff of the world i was once in. it doesnt feel real. the new 9s are so chaotic. not in the way we were, where it was funny and calm? theyre pissing the teachers off, something my class like never does. and im so so scared that we arent as good as we were last year. im scared that once this year's whole class had graduated, we wont be the same. as in we wont be as smart as we were. because im looking at the 9s and im like, how are they gonna carry us? cuz you know, the older grades sorta lead the class. and i really really miss this one guy. i really liked him. i wish we could have something that would make us a class again for one more year. i wasnt ready. i have a new teacher this year too, and i dont like her. we have to sit in groups, and shes strict. lasts years teacher was soo good but she left midyear and she cant be our teacher anymore. i keep thinking, how is this real? like, how am i going to graduate this year? i had great teachers last year and now i dont. i have like 2 old teachers the whole year. great. bro i just wanna go back to last year and not mess everything up or just meet them again i didnt even think i would miss them this much. |
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Post by Dark on Sept 4, 2024 18:42:23 GMT -5
half of my ap world class is filled with dummies... this one person asked if there were countries in australia :(
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Post by 🎃*:.｡. Rain .｡.:*🦇 on Sept 4, 2024 21:18:58 GMT -5
Just general burnout and stuff. Not as much severe depression though, that’s getting much better.
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Post by boragesky on Sept 5, 2024 5:46:26 GMT -5
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I just want to understand it all. Why don't I understand the tones I speak in? Why don't I understand other people's tones? Why don't I understand whether people are actually flat out yelling at me or if their tone just seems loud? Why do I get yelled at for my tone, when I hear clearly that it wasn't even that bad of a tone? TONE.
THE WORD CURSES ME TO THIS DAY.
IS THIS GENUINELY VALID THAT I DON'T UNDERSTAND?
OR IS IN INSENSITIVITY.
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Post by Quill on Sept 5, 2024 9:48:27 GMT -5
half of my ap world class is filled with dummies... this one person asked if there were countries in australia  Good lord. |
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Post by ! (Ġray) ! on Sept 5, 2024 19:30:29 GMT -5
tw ableism guys you know the mean girl to nurse pipeline the ableist girl in my psychology class wants to be a psychologist... sorry honey if you think DID isn't real you need to pick a different career 😭😭😭 also my teacher is not taking the class seriously "I'm a little bipolar you guys" sounds like someone needs to repeat their four year psychology degree!!!!
She said way worse things (both that girl and the teacher) but i am not repeating them they were wild
also my teacher said that mental disorders aren't real because "we don't know the cause of a lot of them" im-
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Post by dahliadove - #1 nightpelt fan on Sept 6, 2024 11:55:32 GMT -5
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i could have a brain tumour but my mom wants to postpone my mri scans for another 2 weeks so she can go on a vacation to thailand with my sister. because my sister cried about not getting to keep her favourite puppy (she gets to keep the 2nd favourite). i was also supposed to be on that trip because i needed a mental health break. my mom replaced me with my sister on that trip. i need a psychosis diagnosis as well but seeing a psychiatrist will be delayed by another 2 weeks because my mom wants to go to thailand. i'm 15 and have no parents in my life because my dad passed away when i was 10 from the same thing that i could have right now. it killed him in one year and my mom wants to go to thailand on a vacation. my mom does not know my favourite colour, she cannot name 3 of my friends, she cannot remember my birthday or my age. she sends my oldest brother money, buys my brothers gaming setups and takes my sister on month-long overseas vacations. i am 15 and i have to do all the housework while marinating in the fact that i could have a tumour that kills me. that, or it's a label that could damage my future permanently. and she will be in thailand. with my sister. lounging around and sitting on the beach. while i am still attending school and keeping my grades up. and doing all the housework and taking care of said puppies that my sister cried over. my sister is 20 years old. she has no job and still lives with us and has no interest in changing that fact. i am 15 and have every health problem under the sun. but she gets to go to thailand. and i have to wrangle with the fact that a tumour could be eating at my brain as im doing all the housework and attending school and getting my antidepressants (that don't work potentially because of the brain tumour or the psychosis) dosages doubled every week and having all my health-related appointments postponed by 2 weeks. because my mom wants to go to thailand with my sister.
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Post by 🎄ᦓρ꠸ᥴꫀᠻꪖꪀᧁ🎅 on Sept 6, 2024 14:56:20 GMT -5
white i could have a brain tumour but my mom wants to postpone my mri scans for another 2 weeks so she can go on a vacation to thailand with my sister. because my sister cried about not getting to keep her favourite puppy (she gets to keep the 2nd favourite). i was also supposed to be on that trip because i needed a mental health break. my mom replaced me with my sister on that trip. i need a psychosis diagnosis as well but seeing a psychiatrist will be delayed by another 2 weeks because my mom wants to go to thailand. i'm 15 and have no parents in my life because my dad passed away when i was 10 from the same thing that i could have right now. it killed him in one year and my mom wants to go to thailand on a vacation. my mom does not know my favourite colour, she cannot name 3 of my friends, she cannot remember my birthday or my age. she sends my oldest brother money, buys my brothers gaming setups and takes my sister on month-long overseas vacations. i am 15 and i have to do all the housework while marinating in the fact that i could have a tumour that kills me. that, or it's a label that could damage my future permanently. and she will be in thailand. with my sister. lounging around and sitting on the beach. while i am still attending school and keeping my grades up. and doing all the housework and taking care of said puppies that my sister cried over. my sister is 20 years old. she has no job and still lives with us and has no interest in changing that fact. i am 15 and have every health problem under the sun. but she gets to go to thailand. and i have to wrangle with the fact that a tumour could be eating at my brain as im doing all the housework and attending school and getting my antidepressants (that don't work potentially because of the brain tumour or the psychosis) dosages doubled every week and having all my health-related appointments postponed by 2 weeks. because my mom wants to go to thailand with my sister. virtual hugging <3 |
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Post by 🎄ᦓρ꠸ᥴꫀᠻꪖꪀᧁ🎅 on Sept 7, 2024 21:20:20 GMT -5
Color: White I’m so done with hearing my parents fight all night long. I think things are getting better and then as soon as my parents assume I’m asleep (which is a stupid assumption, I have insomnia) they start screaming at each other. Like my walls aren’t sound proof, I can hear my mom screeching at my dad. It’s so stupid and unfair. I just want to have a happy family again where everyone loves each other and we enjoying spending time doing stuff together. I don’t want to fall asleep to screaming every night. I want to have nice family dinners again, I want to actually be able to appreciate family moments. Christmas is going to be here before you know it and it’s going to be the same as last year. It’s not going to feel as magical as it always does when my parents never arguing. I have a six year old little brother, he has no idea why our mom sometimes takes off during the day— hell, even for multiple days— and leaves him with either me or my father. I have enough stress starting school back up, why must family issues have to add onto that? I just want everything to go back to normal, when everyone was happy. Or maybe my parents were never happy, maybe they were just too good at hiding it from younger me, just like they are hiding it from mh brother. Maybe I wish I was clueless. Maybe I wish I didn’t know about they’re disagreements. But this issue is I don’t want them to get divorced either- that would just make things worse. A lot of people say they would rather their parents get divorced so they don’t have to listen to the endless screaming every night, I used to say the same, but now I disagree. Financially that won’t work and I don’t want to even imagine how custody would be. It would most likely be 50/50, I would have to live in two different houses. I don’t want that. I don’t like change, I want everything to be the same. I don’t want to lie awake listening to screaming with my dog sitting next to me all confused because of the the noise. I want my parents to love each other again. Is that too much to ask? |
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Post by whiteflight on Sept 10, 2024 22:02:58 GMT -5
I hate it my dad still keeps on acting like I can control my seizures, and that I'm not doing anything to stop it. I'm going to get a testing to see what is causing me to have seizures/where is it coming from in December and he's mad that I won't automatically do the surgery, so when we were driving back home he's been yelling at me that the doctors are going to grab a knife and stab it into my head like a pumpkin, and they're going to put something into my brain to control me, etc. Seriously I need to tape his mouth shut.
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Post by 🆉🅴🅻🅳🆁🅸🆂 on Sept 11, 2024 21:05:56 GMT -5
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I’m growing quite tired of being let down or feeling like I’m on my own. I seem to always be expecting myself (dedication, effort, loyalty, initiative, patience, etc.) out of others.
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Post by Papillon on Sept 13, 2024 15:13:24 GMT -5
physical abuse warning so .... mom attacked me twice at home and once in public by hitting me w/ a solid metal bar in front of a camera even and leaving a red painful streak. first time she tried to get me to the ground, next time she charged at me across the hallway..
JC (bro) was on the verge of calling 911.. said he literally thought she was going to kill me
idk y im posting this here whatever gues i just needed somewhere to go
don't like or have any social media, lost all contact or became distant w/ any previous ppl i mightve turned to, have no one besides bro, who I've been trying to comfort n stay near as everything that happened w mom today caused him to be suicidal, or want to run away, and so angry and frustrated and sad in ways so severe it's legit first time ive ever seen him that way ....... ...
and confused. bc literally neither of us knew or know still wtf she was acting that way for... my mom's merely not a great person so she'll get mad at one person or object or w.e for some minor thing and spend the day building up that anger for every teeny tiny reason she thinks up then blows up like she does. I've spent hours sobbing and racking my brain so beyond confused wtf I did or someone did to her.. felt like The type of gaslighting my dad used to do which left me nearly in severe psychosis.. like her waste of oxygen scumbag worthless manipulative idiotic abusive "boyfriend" gets her mad? Intensely take it out on me
and usually just me too
but we literally did nothing to her we were not even home all night and morning b4 she did this
and her despisale of me is to the point 4 diff people, 3 of which are almost NEVER around mom and I at same time, ask why my mom seems to hate me or is always so mean to me lmaoooaoaoaoaooaoa...............
yeah idk it was Just terrifying and absolutely love this newest traumatic experience to pile on all the gd others
and yet she'll still delude herself that SHE'S the poor wittle victim here. and I'm like. Four different people, JCs fiends, who are almost never in the same room as my mom, have asked him 'why does your mom hate Legopants", "why is your mom so mean to legopants"...even my other bro who I almost never see ever mentioned it too !!!! I do not understand why she hates me so much but holy bfjwlskdmdgri if it isn't the most depressing and hurtful st ever
unrelated side note? I am going strait to my upper level manager or probably the owner himself on Monday to confront about my pay. Because I've been there for 2 almost 3 years and have saved their stupid selves more than once w customer products and shipments, and make them more revenue with my billing i do weekly. and literally the owner of a company called me directly, lowest level in the job, instead of any manager or even my supervisor. Every customer addresses me in emails instead of my supervisor. I do every tradeshow we have 100% on my own every time. I'm not listing everything. Point is - being less than the STARTING PAY??? That is a degree of insulting ive not felt before. So I keep bringing it up, hey, why am I not even at starting pay? literally some brand new first day here employee is making more than me after my 2.5 years. so that gets brought up to the next level of management and they have the nerve to LIE that I'm at $20 an hr when my paystub consistently still says $17.50 an hr. My theory is the very sexist (every single woman who works w him mentions thAg), greedy, complete bleep hole who owns the whole company, lied to the manager in at $20, so he'd stop going to him saying I deserve a raise, but he never actually gave me one. I've no problem confronting him about it, I've done it before at other jobs. and no not bc I'm greedy and thinking I deserve more money just because i want it or whatever. I simply know my worth and the value of what I do for the entire company on a daily basis, how hard I work, the work always being done well and right, you get the point |
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Post by Sand on Sept 14, 2024 4:30:38 GMT -5
physical abuse warning so .... mom attacked me twice at home and once in public by hitting me w/ a solid metal bar in front of a camera even and leaving a red painful streak. first time she tried to get me to the ground, next time she charged at me across the hallway..
JC (bro) was on the verge of calling 911.. said he literally thought she was going to kill me
idk y im posting this here whatever gues i just needed somewhere to go
don't like or have any social media, lost all contact or became distant w/ any previous ppl i mightve turned to, have no one besides bro, who I've been trying to comfort n stay near as everything that happened w mom today caused him to be suicidal, or want to run away, and so angry and frustrated and sad in ways so severe it's legit first time ive ever seen him that way ....... ...
and confused. bc literally neither of us knew or know still wtf she was acting that way for... my mom's merely not a great person so she'll get mad at one person or object or w.e for some minor thing and spend the day building up that anger for every teeny tiny reason she thinks up then blows up like she does. I've spent hours sobbing and racking my brain so beyond confused wtf I did or someone did to her.. felt like The type of gaslighting my dad used to do which left me nearly in severe psychosis.. like her waste of oxygen scumbag worthless manipulative idiotic abusive "boyfriend" gets her mad? Intensely take it out on me
and usually just me too
but we literally did nothing to her we were not even home all night and morning b4 she did this
and her despisale of me is to the point 4 diff people, 3 of which are almost NEVER around mom and I at same time, ask why my mom seems to hate me or is always so mean to me lmaoooaoaoaoaooaoa...............
yeah idk it was Just terrifying and absolutely love this newest traumatic experience to pile on all the gd others
and yet she'll still delude herself that SHE'S the poor wittle victim here. and I'm like. Four different people, JCs fiends, who are almost never in the same room as my mom, have asked him 'why does your mom hate Legopants", "why is your mom so mean to legopants"...even my other bro who I almost never see ever mentioned it too !!!! I do not understand why she hates me so much but holy bfjwlskdmdgri if it isn't the most depressing and hurtful st ever
unrelated side note? I am going strait to my upper level manager or probably the owner himself on Monday to confront about my pay. Because I've been there for 2 almost 3 years and have saved their stupid selves more than once w customer products and shipments, and make them more revenue with my billing i do weekly. and literally the owner of a company called me directly, lowest level in the job, instead of any manager or even my supervisor. Every customer addresses me in emails instead of my supervisor. I do every tradeshow we have 100% on my own every time. I'm not listing everything. Point is - being less than the STARTING PAY??? That is a degree of insulting ive not felt before. So I keep bringing it up, hey, why am I not even at starting pay? literally some brand new first day here employee is making more than me after my 2.5 years. so that gets brought up to the next level of management and they have the nerve to LIE that I'm at $20 an hr when my paystub consistently still says $17.50 an hr. My theory is the very sexist (every single woman who works w him mentions thAg), greedy, complete bleep hole who owns the whole company, lied to the manager in at $20, so he'd stop going to him saying I deserve a raise, but he never actually gave me one. I've no problem confronting him about it, I've done it before at other jobs. and no not bc I'm greedy and thinking I deserve more money just because i want it or whatever. I simply know my worth and the value of what I do for the entire company on a daily basis, how hard I work, the work always being done well and right, you get the point TW: physical abuse I don’t know if you’re willing to do this, but if you have video evidence of what your mom did, you need to report this to the police. Especially if it still left a mark, the police can take photos as evidence + you can take photos to give them as evidence.
I’ve got no clue where you live, but safe housing exists— if there’s any way you can find it, try to. Being in an abusive environment is not safe or healthy for anyone. Two times is two too many, it should never happen. I’m sorry, if you need anyone to chat with I’m around.
Also about your upper level manager, I hope they will listen to you and raise your pay. That’s unfair and ridiculous that they haven’t been paying you properly. |
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Post by tumblepaw on Sept 14, 2024 19:05:58 GMT -5
My job is indirectly complaining about one of my disabilities. It’s gotten worse recently, and there’s no cure for it. I’m at the point where I think I might need surgery.
They think I’m goofing off. 🙄 It’s frustrating because I was denied disability benefits recently (which is common in SC) so I don’t know what to do besides reapply. The person who interviewed me for coverage didn’t even seem to know what it was. It might not even be recognized as a disability! It wasn’t when I was first diagnosed with it. If that’s the case, my job doesn’t have to accommodate for it.
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Post by 🎃*:.｡. Rain .｡.:*🦇 on Sept 14, 2024 19:37:01 GMT -5
My job is indirectly complaining about one of my disabilities. It’s gotten worse recently, and there’s no cure for it. I’m at the point where I think I might need surgery. They think I’m goofing off. 🙄 It’s frustrating because I was denied disability benefits recently (which is common in SC) so I don’t know what to do besides reapply. The person who interviewed me for coverage didn’t even seem to know what it was. It might not even be recognized as a disability! It wasn’t when I was first diagnosed with it. If that’s the case, my job doesn’t have to accommodate for it. that really sucks. What disability is it? |
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Post by tumblepaw on Sept 14, 2024 19:46:27 GMT -5
My job is indirectly complaining about one of my disabilities. It’s gotten worse recently, and there’s no cure for it. I’m at the point where I think I might need surgery. They think I’m goofing off. 🙄 It’s frustrating because I was denied disability benefits recently (which is common in SC) so I don’t know what to do besides reapply. The person who interviewed me for coverage didn’t even seem to know what it was. It might not even be recognized as a disability! It wasn’t when I was first diagnosed with it. If that’s the case, my job doesn’t have to accommodate for it. that really sucks. What disability is it? I rather not say. There’s still a lot of mean jokes about it and people making fun of those of us with it. I learned to keep quiet about it and just refer to it in general terms. It’s not my only disability. Just the one acting up right now. |
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Post by 🎃*:.｡. Rain .｡.:*🦇 on Sept 14, 2024 19:48:54 GMT -5
tumblepaw that really sucks. What disability is it? I rather not say. There’s still a lot of mean jokes about it and people making fun of those of us with it. I learned to keep quiet about it and just refer to it in general terms. It’s not my only disability. Just the one acting up right now. Oh that’s ok. That is sad that there’s mean jokes about it, and even thought I can’t really understand, I think I can relate cuz of how many mean spirited jokes there are about those of us on the spectrum. Actually that was a really roundabout way of saying I’m autistic lol sorry. |
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Post by beefur 👻🦇🎃 on Sept 15, 2024 18:04:58 GMT -5
tw mrdr sucde yesterday my mom said she wanted to de and she wanted to kll me and then de and she expected:
a: that i wouldnt get mad?
b: that i would want to spend time with her after?
c: not emotionally meltdown?
sounds like unrealistic goals!
no more tw im also like dunno what i want anymore. like in the future i want to be a lawyer yeah but like now? i just dont know what i want to do. i dont know how to explain it just like. questioning everything. and my mom just told me to delete all games and that games should never enter this household and shit and it made me so angry this is why i dont want to fcking spend time with you like do you ever understand anything? and whenever i say i want to be alone she says "no you shouldnt think like that" like what the fck let me be by my fcking self if i want to be by myself doesnt mean im crazy what even is going on in that brain. i dont want to "talk" to her because talk means get lectured for who knows how long on shit that i already know and it just fcking repeats over and over and i dont know why she thinks i want to do that like am i supposed to be sad that im not being lectured? what. this guy in my class was yapping the other day about how life was pointless or smth and im like, "yo why is this guy like acc right". i also dont know what i want still whyyyyy |
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Post by 𝓣𝓲𝓷𝓾𝓿𝓲𝓮𝓵 on Sept 16, 2024 19:40:59 GMT -5
Two: death My grandmother may be passing away soon. Family's been trying to prepare for the worst. |
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Post by Bramblestar of Stormclan on Sept 17, 2024 8:23:51 GMT -5
tw mrdr sucde yesterday my mom said she wanted to de and she wanted to kll me and then de and she expected:
a: that i wouldnt get mad?
b: that i would want to spend time with her after?
c: not emotionally meltdown?
sounds like unrealistic goals!
no more tw im also like dunno what i want anymore. like in the future i want to be a lawyer yeah but like now? i just dont know what i want to do. i dont know how to explain it just like. questioning everything. and my mom just told me to delete all games and that games should never enter this household and shit and it made me so angry this is why i dont want to fcking spend time with you like do you ever understand anything? and whenever i say i want to be alone she says "no you shouldnt think like that" like what the fck let me be by my fcking self if i want to be by myself doesnt mean im crazy what even is going on in that brain. i dont want to "talk" to her because talk means get lectured for who knows how long on shit that i already know and it just fcking repeats over and over and i dont know why she thinks i want to do that like am i supposed to be sad that im not being lectured? what. this guy in my class was yapping the other day about how life was pointless or smth and im like, "yo why is this guy like acc right". i also dont know what i want still whyyyyy Sounds a bit like my mother. Never is happy with anything you do, doesn't try to understand you or anyone else, but wants all the attention. It's tough living with people like that. |
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