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Post by Skypaw13 on Nov 5, 2020 3:11:07 GMT -5
bumping because people can't find this threadI put a political rant here, but I can't bring myself to post it because I've literally seen friends of mine get assaulted for expressing conservative ideas, so I have some sort of weird PTSD around sharing my opinions, so we're gonna not do that.  i definitely am NOT trying to carry arguments from previous threads onto this one. but i will say that i think what is so exhausting about it is like...how do you have a conversation with someone who has already determined your views for you? i stopped arguing politics years ago because of this. that weird PTSD thing is definitely valid, though. last time i mentioned i had conservative leanings on here, i was harrassed by people on here for days (not-so-anonymous hate mail, death threats, etc) and i still get panicky thinking about it. I wasn't even talking about this site, lol, though I'm glad you and Madame are paying attention. I mean literally in real life, I've been standing right next to friends who have gotten tackled for standing at a YAF table or spat on for daring to have an eagle print on their hat. Yes, this has happened multiple times. So many people on this site talk about how terrible it is to live in red states or even just red counties and I'm just like.... can't relate, fam. At least you have people to talk to about it. If I complain about my blue state I'll get called a fascist faster than you can blink. I've never been chased off a thread here personally (though I have been heavily discouraged from posting in some in the first place), but I've seen how you're treated, and it's awful. God, even posting this gives me anxiety. |
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Post by 🆉🅴🅻🅳🆁🅸🆂 on Nov 5, 2020 10:20:58 GMT -5
I understand your views but I think we should move on from politics so that we can avoid this thread getting locked again. I’m sorry for the anxiety that this causes everyone. But this is a vent thread and I won’t allow harassment or attacks here. No one on this thread will be a victim. Remember we are all humans in the human race at the end of the day. <3 and I love everyone regardless
I’m anxious about finals, we have less than 3 weeks left and I’m not ready
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Post by Spinel on Nov 5, 2020 10:28:53 GMT -5
tw medical / blood
gotta get some bloodwork soon, first time in probably close to two years, and im so scared at what the results are gonna be. im sure they'll be fine like they were last time, but my health anxiety is driving me crazy. : (
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Post by 🆉🅴🅻🅳🆁🅸🆂 on Nov 5, 2020 10:30:13 GMT -5
I’m sure you’ll be ok!
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Post by Fernshiine on Nov 5, 2020 23:42:17 GMT -5
Canada is too darn expensive for me to live.
Apparently 2-room apartments that cost $1200 is "cheap", and yet disability only covers $700 worth of rent and anything aboves that comes out of the $994 they give you. Normal income assistance is $1010 or so. It's so incredibly stupid and I hate how expensive it is. My family is too proud to ask for help but we've lived in my grandmother's house too long and we have to move so that my partner can move in with us from the U.S. He wants to so bad, and my mom promised we would get a 3+ bedroom house but HOW? Even if she works since my father is on disability the government can take 70% of what she owns since she's married to him.
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Post by Skypaw13 on Nov 6, 2020 1:21:07 GMT -5
*deep breath in*
*big sigh*
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Post by mossecho on Nov 7, 2020 19:40:51 GMT -5
if my paper could write itself and if i could learn not to get myself sidetracked, that would be nice
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Nov 7, 2020 22:35:38 GMT -5
I reached out to a boy from my school I had a crush on a month ago since then we've been talking every day on Snapchat, I knew he did drugs and was fine with that. But it's way worse than I thought he has a serious problem but I don't think he realizes it. I've tried many times to steer him in the right direction, but he won't budge. He wasn't what I thought how he would be, I lost feelings for him, but I think he may be in love with me. He wants to do drugs with me, I have never done drugs and want to try, so I am holding on. But I am genuinely concerned for him and know I can't love him. Though I want to remain friends to support him, I feel uncomfortable with his fixation for me. girl please run away from that as fast as you can even if you only want to dabble, dating someone who is a drug addict will just pull you in too and you’ll find yourself saying yes to stuff you otherwise wouldn’t |
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Post by 🆉🅴🅻🅳🆁🅸🆂 on Nov 7, 2020 23:43:51 GMT -5
I reached out to a boy from my school I had a crush on a month ago since then we've been talking every day on Snapchat, I knew he did drugs and was fine with that. But it's way worse than I thought he has a serious problem but I don't think he realizes it. I've tried many times to steer him in the right direction, but he won't budge. He wasn't what I thought how he would be, I lost feelings for him, but I think he may be in love with me. He wants to do drugs with me, I have never done drugs and want to try, so I am holding on. But I am genuinely concerned for him and know I can't love him. Though I want to remain friends to support him, I feel uncomfortable with his fixation for me. girl please run away from that as fast as you can even if you only want to dabble, dating someone who is a drug addict will just pull you in too and you’ll find yourself saying yes to stuff you otherwise wouldn’t 100% this |
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Post by Deleted on Nov 9, 2020 9:49:32 GMT -5
I hate being reminded that certain people exist.
Discord, please stop your crap.
I really don't like myself, I can't go a day without annoying the heck out of myself.
Everyone says I'm not annoying, but uhhhh, thanks, I really appreciate it.
Another thing is, I get all bitter about how all my friends like their other friends more than me, and I don't really fit into most of my friend groups, because it feels like I can't really connect with anyone.
I like all of my friends, they're all awesome, but I don't really have the same interests.
All of this leads to me to not really conversating with people much, which leads to me feeling left out, even though it's my own dang fault.
I also feel like I don't really contribute much to anyone's lives.
But eh, what can you do?
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Post by Skypaw13 on Nov 9, 2020 13:49:11 GMT -5
I hate being reminded that certain people exist. Discord, please stop your crap. I really don't like myself, I can't go a day without annoying the heck out of myself. Everyone says I'm not annoying, but uhhhh, thanks, I really appreciate it. Another thing is, I get all bitter about how all my friends like their other friends more than me, and I don't really fit into most of my friend groups, because it feels like I can't really connect with anyone. I like all of my friends, they're all awesome, but I don't really have the same interests. All of this leads to me to not really conversating with people much, which leads to me feeling left out, even though it's my own dang fault. I also feel like I don't really contribute much to anyone's lives. But eh, what can you do? Okay, but for an introvert with social anxiety, this is like the most relatable post on the planet. I'm an extreme introvert, so I don't make or keep friends very well. I'm not the type of person that's really hurt by that, but it's totally understandable how other people would be. It gets lonely. |
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Post by Deleted on Nov 9, 2020 14:24:18 GMT -5
I hate being reminded that certain people exist. Discord, please stop your crap. I really don't like myself, I can't go a day without annoying the heck out of myself. Everyone says I'm not annoying, but uhhhh, thanks, I really appreciate it. Another thing is, I get all bitter about how all my friends like their other friends more than me, and I don't really fit into most of my friend groups, because it feels like I can't really connect with anyone. I like all of my friends, they're all awesome, but I don't really have the same interests. All of this leads to me to not really conversating with people much, which leads to me feeling left out, even though it's my own dang fault. I also feel like I don't really contribute much to anyone's lives. But eh, what can you do? Okay, but for an introvert with social anxiety, this is like the most relatable post on the planet. I'm an extreme introvert, so I don't make or keep friends very well. I'm not the type of person that's really hurt by that, but it's totally understandable how other people would be. It gets lonely. I'm the exact same way, I don't think I've had the same friend for more than a year, if that, it's sad, but it's just life I guess. However, I still feel a bit down when I lose connections with people, if that makes any sense at all. |
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Post by Skypaw13 on Nov 9, 2020 14:27:24 GMT -5
Okay, but for an introvert with social anxiety, this is like the most relatable post on the planet. I'm an extreme introvert, so I don't make or keep friends very well. I'm not the type of person that's really hurt by that, but it's totally understandable how other people would be. It gets lonely. I'm the exact same way, I don't think I've had the same friend for more than a year, if that, it's sad, but it's just life I guess. However, I still feel a bit down when I lose connections with people, if that makes any sense at all. It makes sense, yeah. Not something I personally can relate to (like I said, I'm just not the type of person who's affected by it), but several other people can. It's actually a really common feeling-- I know my boyfriend still feels bad about drifting away from friends 5+ years ago. |
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Post by Skypaw13 on Nov 9, 2020 14:29:07 GMT -5
So I skipped class most of election week and now I have to go back and pretend I know what my teacher's talking about. Wish me luck, lol.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 9, 2020 14:42:26 GMT -5
I'm the exact same way, I don't think I've had the same friend for more than a year, if that, it's sad, but it's just life I guess. However, I still feel a bit down when I lose connections with people, if that makes any sense at all. It makes sense, yeah. Not something I personally can relate to (like I said, I'm just not the type of person who's affected by it), but several other people can. It's actually a really common feeling-- I know my boyfriend still feels bad about drifting away from friends 5+ years ago. Oh wow, poor guy, I hope it doesn't affect him too badly. Also, good luck! |
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Post by Skypaw13 on Nov 9, 2020 21:01:07 GMT -5
I'm leaving my office in 10 minutes and I just realized I have done literally nothing of importance today. Where does time even go?
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Post by Deleted on Nov 10, 2020 19:14:27 GMT -5
I hate French Toast cereal!
This stupid cereal gave me sores all on the right side of my mouth, and now, whenever I eat, it hurts greatly.
The worst part is, my right side is my dominant side I chew with, so it's hard to avoid.
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Nov 10, 2020 20:32:50 GMT -5
the twelve days of christmas START on christmas day, not END on it.
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Post by Morior on Nov 11, 2020 1:03:38 GMT -5
when just hearing mom's footsteps around the house always makes part of me panic inside. Unless we're going out in public I always feel a sense of dread before interacting with her alone
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Post by Ṣanɗypaw™ on Nov 11, 2020 11:48:41 GMT -5
when just hearing mom's footsteps around the house always makes part of me panic inside. Unless we're going out in public I always feel a sense of dread before interacting with her alone Same here!! Whenever my mom and I are in the same room where it's only the two of us, I'm always tensed up and can never relax.  |
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Post by Spinel on Nov 11, 2020 15:36:28 GMT -5
bruh I hate myself so much lol
also if my adhd would let me I would love to stop spending hours every single day SCROLLING THROUGH NOTHING ON THE COMPUTER AND FCKING UP MY WRIST EVEN MORE THAN IT ALREADY IS. We’ve talked about this in therapy so much but I just can’t stop doing it what is wrong with me lmao
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Post by Skypaw13 on Nov 11, 2020 16:47:49 GMT -5
What sucks the most is that I know that if I just START working, I'll get a lot of work done. But no, for three days now I've just been ignoring my work. I have a FULL PAGE on my to-do list, and it keeps piling up. I just... need to ****ing do it.
Oh also, I really want more coffee, but I'm an extreme introvert and I know if I go get more coffee I'll have to talk to the front desk people because they're super friendly. Nothing against them, but like... can you guys go to lunch or something so I can get coffee without making small talk? Please?
Edit 40 minutes later: Come on, focus. You can do it. (insert more positive self-encouraging talk here)
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Nov 11, 2020 17:50:35 GMT -5
What sucks the most is that I know that if I just START working, I'll get a lot of work done. But no, for three days now I've just been ignoring my work. I have a FULL PAGE on my to-do list, and it keeps piling up. I just... need to ****ing do it. Oh also, I really want more coffee, but I'm an extreme introvert and I know if I go get more coffee I'll have to talk to the front desk people because they're super friendly. Nothing against them, but like... can you guys go to lunch or something so I can get coffee without making small talk? Please? Edit 40 minutes later: Come on, focus. You can do it. (insert more positive self-encouraging talk here) i have a hard time starting on work too. it just seems so overwhelming trying to figure out where to begin and committing to doing that. what sometimes works for me is to tell myself, "okay, start just five minutes of work/write one paragraph/etc", something really small, and then i'll let myself watch a short yt video, go get a snack, etc. repeat. gradually increase the amount of work you do it one sitting. after awhile you'll be on a roll and you won't need to switch back and forth, but it helps to get started and make it seem more manageable |
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Post by Skypaw13 on Nov 11, 2020 18:07:14 GMT -5
What sucks the most is that I know that if I just START working, I'll get a lot of work done. But no, for three days now I've just been ignoring my work. I have a FULL PAGE on my to-do list, and it keeps piling up. I just... need to ****ing do it. Oh also, I really want more coffee, but I'm an extreme introvert and I know if I go get more coffee I'll have to talk to the front desk people because they're super friendly. Nothing against them, but like... can you guys go to lunch or something so I can get coffee without making small talk? Please? Edit 40 minutes later: Come on, focus. You can do it. (insert more positive self-encouraging talk here) i have a hard time starting on work too. it just seems so overwhelming trying to figure out where to begin and committing to doing that. what sometimes works for me is to tell myself, "okay, start just five minutes of work/write one paragraph/etc", something really small, and then i'll let myself watch a short yt video, go get a snack, etc. repeat. gradually increase the amount of work you do it one sitting. after awhile you'll be on a roll and you won't need to switch back and forth, but it helps to get started and make it seem more manageable Oh, no, see, if I actually start working I won't need to take a break after five minutes, because I can instantly switch my work mode on. The problem is doing the first like... 45 seconds. I don't know what it is, I just really struggle to turn the switch from "relax" to "work" sometimes. To be fair to me, I also really struggle to turn the switch from "work" to "relax" as well. I'll often work for several hours at a time with no breaks and be fine (and then weirdly actually be upset when I have no work left). It's just switching between the two that's difficult. I'm very much an all-or-nothing person. XD |
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Post by what on Nov 13, 2020 0:43:15 GMT -5
man, i’m just tired
i literally had yesterday off from school and i’m already tired again.
i’m trying to coordinate this international trip with my friends (very far in the future, we do not mess with miss rona) and i’ve already done so much mental/emotional gymnastics to get my friends on board, and just when it was all ironed out and we could start planning, my father gets angry with me over the trip. he definitely has the right to be angry in this situation, and if i cant go on the trip because he says so, then alright. it’s only fair. but then i’ll have to tell my (very excited and hyped) friends “oops! sorry guys! can’t take this potentially life changing trip anymore! what can ya do :-D” and i wanna throw myself out of a window just thinking about telling my friends that.
i’ve barely begun planning it all out, and the emotional strain this trip has put me through already is really astounding.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 14, 2020 15:54:29 GMT -5
I'm sick and tired of this stupid, selfish, condescending, bossy guy, I wish he'd disappear off the face of the earth!!!
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