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Post by Harestar on Apr 4, 2021 8:35:57 GMT -5
my mom keeps bringing things up that happened so long ago and keeps blaming things on me. She is always saying for me to do stuff on time but I just have too much to do. Whenever I try to do something to make her happy, it always ends up that she gets mad and starts yelling, she always says bad words to me and that I should stop being lazy, stupid, and a brat. Sometimes I feel like I want to die, but I only stay here because of my friends and that I am wanted somewhere. It sounds like your mom has some deep rooted issues to get through. Even so, there is no excuse for her to be treating her child like this, no reason for her to make you, her child, the person she is supposed to love, protect, and care for, feel this way. I saw an earlier post on here, where you said she is harping on you about your grades as well. And your grades are slipping? Gee, I wonder why, I mean it could not possibly be the fact that the one person who is supposed to be one of your strongest supporters keeps tearing you down. Have you tried telling her how you feel? |
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Post by Pheonix on Apr 4, 2021 9:07:39 GMT -5
my mom keeps bringing things up that happened so long ago and keeps blaming things on me. She is always saying for me to do stuff on time but I just have too much to do. Whenever I try to do something to make her happy, it always ends up that she gets mad and starts yelling, she always says bad words to me and that I should stop being lazy, stupid, and a brat. Sometimes I feel like I want to die, but I only stay here because of my friends and that I am wanted somewhere. It sounds like your mom has some deep rooted issues to get through. Even so, there is no excuse for her to be treating her child like this, no reason for her to make you, her child, the person she is supposed to love, protect, and care for, feel this way. I saw an earlier post on here, where you said she is harping on you about your grades as well. And your grades are slipping? Gee, I wonder why, I mean it could not possibly be the fact that the one person who is supposed to be one of your strongest supporters keeps tearing you down. Have you tried telling her how you feel? I have but she interrupts me with other things that I should keep doing. My grades are getting better, but only because I have been taking double the amounts of notes. And yeah, I do think she has some issues to get through. |
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Post by Harestar on Apr 4, 2021 9:11:11 GMT -5
It sounds like your mom has some deep rooted issues to get through. Even so, there is no excuse for her to be treating her child like this, no reason for her to make you, her child, the person she is supposed to love, protect, and care for, feel this way. I saw an earlier post on here, where you said she is harping on you about your grades as well. And your grades are slipping? Gee, I wonder why, I mean it could not possibly be the fact that the one person who is supposed to be one of your strongest supporters keeps tearing you down. Have you tried telling her how you feel? I have but she interrupts me with other things that I should keep doing. My grades are getting better, but only because I have been taking double the amounts of notes. And yeah, I do think she has some issues to get through. Is there anyone you know of that can help you out? |
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Post by Pheonix on Apr 4, 2021 9:52:32 GMT -5
my counselor could maybe, but there's nothing she can really do so, no, not really.
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Post by ratvich on Apr 5, 2021 10:34:28 GMT -5
my laptop isnt detecting a microphone and im only finding stuff on how to fix output not input !!! this is so frustrating i have no idea how fix it -_-
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Apr 5, 2021 19:40:03 GMT -5
personal mission to make 2021 the year free from relativism
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Post by ✲ριкαƒυєу✲ on Apr 5, 2021 21:19:00 GMT -5
More of a vent/advice post.
My mom recently did something that traumatized me. It seems dumb for it to have affected me as it has.
The jist is, I was home alone as usual. And I always lock up the house, as I live in the city and can't trust people.
Anyways, my mother hadn't come home and it was already midnight. Usually if she isn't home by 10pm, it means she is staying over her boyfriends. No big deal. I'm an adult.
Well, I wake up to a lot of loud noises downstairs and start to panic a bit. So I called my mom to ask if she was downstairs. She said no and I got even more panicked.
So we talk a bit and I start hearing footsteps in the upstairs hallway. So already I'm terrified and hiding in the corner that's blocked up. And we're whispering. I'm thinking I'm going to get killed or something.
Then she burst through the door and started laughing. I didn't find it funny. I was shaking and in a full blown panic attack. I have PTSD and it triggered a lot of things for me.
I know she meant for it to be a joke, but I don't think it was funny at all. Now, even two weeks later, I'm suddenly terrified of being home alone at night. Every little sound sets me off and it's been driving me insane.
It's gotten to the point that I barricade my bedroom door at night now. I never used to be scared. And now being alone scares me a lot when it's time for bed.
Idk what to do. I know I can't vent to my family about this. They have always invalidated my feelings and mental illnesses. I just don't know what to do.
Maybe it's stupid that something so small triggered a new trauma for me, but it did. Whether it's dumb or not.
I'm just...exhausted. I haven't slept well since then.
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Post by Fire the Watcher of the vale on Apr 6, 2021 1:19:41 GMT -5
Idk but a few things that might help you: find something to sleep with, whether that be a pet, a random pillow, something like that. I know for me having something to hold onto is relaxing and helps me sleep easier. also, maybe use a white noise generator or something like that that can keep your mind comfortable and drown out random noises that might put you on edge. you'd probably want something more rhythmic, like waves on a beach. hopefully this'll help you out and if not, I wish you luck finding something that does.
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Post by ✲ριкαƒυєу✲ on Apr 6, 2021 3:05:37 GMT -5
Idk but a few things that might help you: find something to sleep with, whether that be a pet, a random pillow, something like that. I know for me having something to hold onto is relaxing and helps me sleep easier. also, maybe use a white noise generator or something like that that can keep your mind comfortable and drown out random noises that might put you on edge. you'd probably want something more rhythmic, like waves on a beach. hopefully this'll help you out and if not, I wish you luck finding something that does. Thanks! I'll have to give those a try. I just feel really dumb about this upsetting me like it did, honestly. |
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Post by Skunkblaze on Apr 6, 2021 14:51:33 GMT -5
Don't you just love bigotry and false rumors?
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Post by Skypaw13 on Apr 8, 2021 15:41:10 GMT -5
You ever just get super pissed off and have a full on ugly cry over... not having peanut butter in the house?
Cause I have.
PMS freaking sucks.
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Post by Fire the Watcher of the vale on Apr 8, 2021 15:44:23 GMT -5
As a guy I can't relate. I do, however, hate it when other guys think that the way to try to establish themselves in a group is by fighting one of the other people in said group, whether that be physically or otherwise. After getting in like 2 fights it just feels too easy, you know? Especially when you don't look like a threat.
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Post by The One and Only Moongaze on Apr 8, 2021 19:07:05 GMT -5
I am feeling really detached from my friends. I don't really talk much in general anymore and nobody even cares. I feel as though people have never cared about me that much except my mother. Our church never invited us to gatherings because we weren't wealthy like they are. We left and tried to join a mostly white church which also ignored us but for racial reasons. My mother has been searching for another church for us to join but I'm having some serious doubts. I am also overwhelmed with school work because my teachers feel as though because we are online we can handle more school work. I get distracted very easily and when I am working I get confused (usually in math). Math lately has been solving expressions using a bunch of random methods and my brain just can't handle it. It just random numbers, letter, or exponents that don't make sense to me. I am pretty sure my vision is getting worse and I already wear glasses but I don't want my mother to pay more money. She will just blame me for being on my computer even though I have to get my school work done.  |
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Post by Fire the Watcher of the vale on Apr 8, 2021 22:07:54 GMT -5
The One and Only Moongaze hey, if you're looking for a church, not sure what denomination you are, but I'd suggest seeing if there's a church in your area that's connected to north point, which is in atlanta. I go to a sister church of north point and it's really inclusive and more of a contemporary setting. I obviously can't say what it's like at the other churches, but I used to hate going to church and now I've been going pretty much nonstop for years. Just something that might help. 
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Post by mossecho on Apr 10, 2021 1:48:29 GMT -5
take that civ class, I said.
it'll be fine, I said. it'll be fun
I'll be able to survive 150+ pages of dense economic theory every week
on top of my other reading-intensive classes
and regardless of my inability to focus on anything related to The Economy™
definitely
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Post by Copperstar☂ on Apr 13, 2021 15:06:28 GMT -5
i just found this, and I think this is great! I've already vented about my sister to one of my close friends, but I want to get more into detail...I guess. So, my sister and her younger brother were adopted a few weeks ago, and so far it hasn't been that great. My sister has severe anger issues and she disobeys everything everyone tells her. Not even 10 minutes ago, she decides that she's gonna pull my hair and tell me she wants me to die. It's very stressful on me, because my mom expects me to just ignore her behavior and act like it never happened!
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Post by Tealraven on Apr 13, 2021 19:57:22 GMT -5
I wish it wasn't so goddamn hard and exhausting to fight for basic accommodations for my disability. I shouldn't have to fight for it at all. Instead I am always made to feel like I am a special snowflake or entitled brat - as if I am the one who is inconveniencing everyone else (which is something I already feel guilty about and is why I need constant reassurance that I'm not burdening those around me). As if it wasn't already a daily struggle for me to make myself acceptable by neurotypical society's standards. What is the point of having a 504/IEP if it is never respected??? I just wish I didn't have to brace myself to argue and defend my position whenever I have to ask for an accommodation. Just because I "don't look/act like I'm disabled" does not mean that I don't have challenges or don't need accommodations now and then.
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Post by Copperstar☂ on Apr 14, 2021 17:49:13 GMT -5
My sister and her anger issues again. Ugh! I injured my wrist about a month and a half ago, and it was finally healing, but a few nights ago my sister decides to grab and twist it as hard as she can...and now I can barely use it again! It makes it so much harder to draw, write, etc. I have to wear this stupid brace all the time, and I know it's going to help, but it's so annoying to have it on again! I have to take it off if I want to write, eat, draw, and other things too! So it isn't gonna heal as quickly as it would if I kept it on all the time. If I twist it in the slightest wrong way, it sends a shock wave of pain up my arm. Ugh!  |
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Post by Skypaw13 on Apr 22, 2021 22:47:56 GMT -5
Dear teachers/professors/TAs/ anyone in charge of a class,
24 hours between "becoming aware of the assignment's existence" and "assignment is due" is far too short.
Sincerely, stressed tf out because I have an hour's worth of homework on a day where I have several outside-of-school commitments.
Also, while I'm here. Why the HELL would you utilize Canvas Modules organized by week that have every single assignment for that week listed EXCEPT the weekly quiz? (the biggest part of the grade). That's just making it unnecessarily hard on your students to find what they have to do.
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Post by Jademist on Apr 25, 2021 7:33:07 GMT -5
So I was kinda having a bad week mentally and I've had a lot of headaches and low energy. Then thursday I found out someone had driven into my car while it was parked in front of my house. And it didn't leave just one little scratch. No it full on scratched off the blue paint and left multiple dents and scratches from my frontlight to the bumper below. Like what the frick????? Who is so fricking unable to get out of their parking space normally and has like literally NO decency to leave a piece of paper with their data or something?? It probably was one of my neighbours but I couldn't find blue paint on their cars unfortunately. I don't even have this car a year yet and worked really hard to buy it. Idunno it just pushed me over the edge, I've been feeling so depressed. God bleh I hate people.
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Post by ✲ριкαƒυєу✲ on Apr 26, 2021 20:50:33 GMT -5
On the verge of a bad anxiety attack while stuck at work. I've been trying to fight it off for an hour now. Idk what to do
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Post by Skypaw13 on Apr 27, 2021 18:48:54 GMT -5
I know I'm building muscle and all, but I can't shake the negative feeling that comes from my weight loss plateauing. I was doing really well and now it's just... stopped. I know I'm still losing fat and the weight replacing it is muscle (because I started strength training), but I still hate seeing the numbers stay the same or go up. I know that's mad unhealthy, but... I can't help it.
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Post by fishbreeze on Apr 27, 2021 19:55:51 GMT -5
On the verge of a bad anxiety attack while stuck at work. I've been trying to fight it off for an hour now. Idk what to do I hope you're okay. This was posted 22 hours ago, so it will be too late for this event, but hopefully it can help for the next. Let me begin by saying that I'm not an expert, I'm just someone who deals with anxiety on a daily basis. When I start having panic attacks, I like to squeeze something, usually a can, as hard as I can. A lot of other people with anxiety say they like to feel grounded, so touching something that makes them know they're still there can help. I don't really have any doubts that you already know about this stuff though, so I'm going to ask you something, do you have anyone at work that you know who knows about your anxiety? Someone who you can trust to be there for you if you start feeling panicked, someone who can help ground you? |
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Post by ✲ριкαƒυєу✲ on Apr 27, 2021 20:14:36 GMT -5
On the verge of a bad anxiety attack while stuck at work. I've been trying to fight it off for an hour now. Idk what to do I hope you're okay. This was posted 22 hours ago, so it will be too late for this event, but hopefully it can help for the next. Let me begin by saying that I'm not an expert, I'm just someone who deals with anxiety on a daily basis. When I start having panic attacks, I like to squeeze something, usually a can, as hard as I can. A lot of other people with anxiety say they like to feel grounded, so touching something that makes them know they're still there can help. I don't really have any doubts that you already know about this stuff though, so I'm going to ask you something, do you have anyone at work that you know who knows about your anxiety? Someone who you can trust to be there for you if you start feeling panicked, someone who can help ground you? Thank you <3 I'm doing better tonight thankfully. When I got off work I went home and took one of my emergency anxiety pills to help me calm down and sleep. I also talked to some online gaming buddies of mine to help as well. My coworkers and managers know of my anxiety, and they usually let me go compose myself in the bathroom or break room if it gets too overwhelming. Which I am very grateful for |
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Post by fishbreeze on Apr 27, 2021 20:19:08 GMT -5
I hope you're okay. This was posted 22 hours ago, so it will be too late for this event, but hopefully it can help for the next. Let me begin by saying that I'm not an expert, I'm just someone who deals with anxiety on a daily basis. When I start having panic attacks, I like to squeeze something, usually a can, as hard as I can. A lot of other people with anxiety say they like to feel grounded, so touching something that makes them know they're still there can help. I don't really have any doubts that you already know about this stuff though, so I'm going to ask you something, do you have anyone at work that you know who knows about your anxiety? Someone who you can trust to be there for you if you start feeling panicked, someone who can help ground you? Thank you <3 I'm doing better tonight thankfully. When I got off work I went home and took one of my emergency anxiety pills to help me calm down and sleep. I also talked to some online gaming buddies of mine to help as well. My coworkers and managers know of my anxiety, and they usually let me go compose myself in the bathroom or break room if it gets too overwhelming. Which I am very grateful for You're welcome <3 It's a great thing to have supportive people around you, my flatmate can be an arse sometimes, but whenever I start having a panic attack, she is always there to help, unless of course she can't physically be there. I found that gaming is another good tool to help with anxiety, or just anything that takes concentration. |
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Post by Pheonix on Apr 28, 2021 19:16:28 GMT -5
My dad just called and he restated that I cant come back over there unless I follow his directions and be respectful. he specifically said that I must do that or else I can not come back over there. Then, my mom, yesterday told me to go away after walking me around the neighborhood while I was crying. She then ran away and I walked a block home. She keeps on getting mad at me for no reason, just when I say something with a little sigh because I'm overwhelmed she starts to go crazy about what I do and that I'm "b*tchy" all the time. Then she criticizes me for the things she does way more often to me than I do to her. I feel like my parents don't want me anymore, but when my friend becomes 18/19 she could adopt me. That would be hard, but it probably would be way better than getting yelled at on a daily basis.
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Post by fishbreeze on Apr 29, 2021 17:16:15 GMT -5
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Post by 🆉🅴🅻🅳🆁🅸🆂 on May 4, 2021 16:01:29 GMT -5
why can literally no one drive correctly
like since covid it’s been horrendous, no one cares and they drive crazier than me
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Post by Papillon on May 5, 2021 0:30:39 GMT -5
ever since covid EVERYTHING SMEELLS SO BAD and it makes it hard to eat literally anything savory smells like rotting meat like at least I finally got my smell back at all (and STILL not even completely after 5 months) but REALLY
and what also makes it hard to eat is all my teeth and I really do mean every single one hurting so damn bad and not having healthcare to do anything about it bc apparently making the absolute bare minimum means i can afford like $9,000 to fix all my teeth (: haven't had healthcare for years is why it's so bad at all! don't u love america !
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Post by Skypaw13 on May 5, 2021 18:38:51 GMT -5
Midterm exams can go screw themselves.
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