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Post by EliDarling on Aug 17, 2022 11:55:14 GMT -5
I still don't know what I'll do with Darkstripe, well I do but I'm not sure. I know he will be the one killing Tigerstar, but most writers would tell me he has to die to complete his redemption, and I get it, make the ladies cry and that's it it works, but I'm tired of this. I want a redemption where it allows him to be happy and not to be sent in StarClan with Tigerstar. I feel like, him being allowed to redeem himself by becoming the next leader would be great for him. Well of course the pressure and all, some people would still doubt him mostly in Riverclan, but in the end he will prove himself. And I think he would choose Longtail as the deputy.
The angst would be endless after it hehe, between Darkstripe killing the cat he adored, who mentored him, who ended up being bloodthirsty, Sandstorm who lose a leg to the dogs, Swiftpaw being close to death because of them too, Fernpaw losing her brother, Ravenpaw being mentored by Tigerstar and much more.
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Post by EliDarling on Aug 17, 2022 11:55:54 GMT -5
Why the **** is there so many views on my den? HIII! Every time I see a new post I must click to see what it is even though I don't always respond. You are being PERCIEVED. *stress intensifies* /j |
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Post by EliDarling on Aug 17, 2022 11:56:59 GMT -5
Actually that whole AU won't be the story of Princess, but the whole clan, I really want them all to be developed.
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Post by EliDarling on Aug 18, 2022 5:21:31 GMT -5
I have so many AMV/PMV/other types in mind I can't- I know I would need 10 lifetimes to do them all but damn... I really wanna
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Post by EliDarling on Aug 18, 2022 5:53:23 GMT -5
Crazy how even in my dreams I'm stressed by love, I ended up in a relationship somehow with a man, but actually it was not cause it was through a game or something, it was a girl behind him, and even there my brain was like "yuck you'll have to kiss that person, how can you accept to be in a relationship, you don't even like that, get a hold of yourself damn"
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Post by EliDarling on Aug 18, 2022 6:01:52 GMT -5
I want to kill a medicine cat between Spottedleaf and Yellowfang, Yellowfang would be logical because she's older, but Spottedleaf would impact more with her death, a public death. Tigerstar killing her as a warning or something.
Also, at first Tigerstar and Brokenstar are going to be allies, ruling together on the two clans, but Tigerstar of course wants to rule alone, so as he searches for an excuse when Brokenstar wants to train his kits early, he sees it as the perfect opportunity and kills him. Shadowclan doesn't fight him as they're a bit scared.
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Post by EliDarling on Aug 18, 2022 6:02:11 GMT -5
Ok maybe he'll just kill him like that.
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Post by EliDarling on Aug 18, 2022 8:57:17 GMT -5
I think Princess will be autistic coded, I won't make it official since I'm scared of not being able to represent it the right way, but I'll try. Having other characters have ADHD would be interesting too.
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Post by EliDarling on Aug 18, 2022 9:22:03 GMT -5
I'm less scared of doing ADHD/ADD I have some friends who are diagnosed but yeah, I have some beta readers I can rely on for this, I was thinking of an HP cat, maybe Tawnypelt, she seems like a fitting one, I don't know why it's just a vibe I have from her. She could know the whole code by heart and would often question it, some people already have expressed a desire for a storyteller role, and I was thinking of the same thing. Tawnypelt as an HP has the right memory for it, she can memorise the whole code, the many events she has seen, the events some StarClan cats may have described to her and many other things. That role would be useful to remember where they come from, “Those who fail to learn from history are doomed to repeat it.”-Churchill... So I guess it is important. That role would keep her in camp most of the day, but would still allow her to hunt. Though she would teach, tell stories, it would be a good to have a kind of session every evening where they settle together while she describe the tale of StarClan cats. I also feel like it would be a more suiting role to have a connection with StarClan, since my version of StarClan is just dead cats, nothing else, no powers except communicating with the living from time to time, it would be better to have somebody who spends their life on understanding the past to talk with them. They would be messagers to, since they like to tell stories they talk better, in that case they would be suitable for a messager role between the leaders. The different storytellers could meet like the medicine cats meet. When they do they could walk to the moonstone to talk with StarClan, not to gather signs or anything but to discover the story of a random cat, after that, each storyteller would practice on telling it by sharing it with the others. That way they would learn at least 4 new stories. I imagine Tawnypelt would be the one initiating the role, leading to the other clans choosing a cat to become storyteller. Of course, the first storytellers don't have much to say, it's slowly with every trip to the Moonstone, by witnessing, that they build their library of stories. I imagine they would care for the elders, while there are queens caring for the nursery only, well the storytellers would be taking care of the elder-den. indeed it's the most interesting part of the clan to them, they have the most knowledge, they witnessed a lot and like to share whatever they want to share to the kits.
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Post by EliDarling on Aug 18, 2022 9:46:18 GMT -5
The storyteller would take an apprentice, mostly kits who have a connection to StarClan or a good memory. They wouldn't be forced on the role of course, since storytellers mostly stay in camp, they are less likely to die young. Some people would argue it could be a part of the medicine cat role, but I would argue medicine cats already have to search for plants, care for the sick and the wounded, and when they share dreams with StarClan it would be to learn specific ways of healing from ancient medicine cats or some other things. Medicine cats wouldn't have the same code, they can have families. I don't want to follow the same ridicule code Moth Flight decided to create. They would be able to hunt, but just a bit in case they find prey while searching for herbs, and they would commonly wander out the clans' territories to discover more spots for plants. Actually wandering out of borders could be a possibility for the warriors too, mostly during leaf-bare.
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Post by EliDarling on Aug 18, 2022 16:19:58 GMT -5
Ok I'll have to modify some things with Darkstripe, first he wasn't mentored by Tigerstar, and he is much closer to his age, so he cannot be Willowpelt's son. Actually that whole generation is messed up in canon cause it would mean Willowpelt is Spottedleaf's age, but she already had Darkstripe, Graystripe and Sorreltail's litter which would make a year and half at least to kit,-
okay there's a lot to think about but... there's about 18 moons passing during the first arc.
Wait the wiki says they're from the same generation... okay so Tigerclaw mentored Darkstripe and then Darkstripe mentored Longtail in about 5 years? that was damn quick. It means that they had their apprentices at about- no it's actually possible but... okay... so Tigerclaw is closer to Darkstripe, or not. okay so by the end of the first arc Darkstripe would be 4-5 years old in canon... okay he will actually be mentored by someone else, that's better, yeah was mentored- I DON'T KNOW, the mentor/apprentice seems bad but at the same time changing canon timeline would break everything. okay I'll keep the canon
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Non-binary
#F4B548
Name Colour
Dark Sun
Sage of the Stars
I'm devious, I'm devilish, I'm ever so deliciously evil
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Post by Dark Sun on Aug 18, 2022 17:42:09 GMT -5
Ok I'll have to modify some things with Darkstripe, first he wasn't mentored by Tigerstar, and he is much closer to his age, so he cannot be Willowpelt's son. Actually that whole generation is messed up in canon cause it would mean Willowpelt is Spottedleaf's age, but she already had Darkstripe, Graystripe and Sorreltail's litter which would make a year and half at least to kit,- okay there's a lot to think about but... there's about 18 moons passing during the first arc. Wait the wiki says they're from the same generation... okay so Tigerclaw mentored Darkstripe and then Darkstripe mentored Longtail in about 5 years? that was damn quick. It means that they had their apprentices at about- no it's actually possible but... okay... so Tigerclaw is closer to Darkstripe, or not. okay so by the end of the first arc Darkstripe would be 4-5 years old in canon... okay he will actually be mentored by someone else, that's better, yeah was mentored- I DON'T KNOW, the mentor/apprentice seems bad but at the same time changing canon timeline would break everything. okay I'll keep the canon My advice: Don't take timelines and ages too seriously.  Canon is just a whole jumbled soup at this point when it comes to that. |
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Post by EliDarling on Aug 20, 2022 3:03:03 GMT -5
ok so to hell the timelines it's a mess indeed.
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Post by EliDarling on Aug 20, 2022 5:16:51 GMT -5
I don't know why sometimes my hand shakes without any warning, and it's often because of anxiety but still it's annoying, cause often I'm anxious while writing something important so I write like a mouse-brain, it's ugly and shaky and the people who have to read whatever I've written die from ugliness. Anyway, anxiety sucks.
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Post by EliDarling on Aug 20, 2022 6:32:46 GMT -5
I've drawn for the first time with the trackpad of my laptop only, it's weird, I mean it's not precise, but it's actually cool, it allows you to draw while acknowledging mistakes and keeping them :)  an example, not the most beautiful I did it in a few minutes but I like the vibe of the sketchy lines, it's cool to have the vibe rather than perfection. |
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Post by EliDarling on Aug 20, 2022 8:11:55 GMT -5
I can't stand people who try to gather attention to themselves by saying something, hoping the other person will ask about it or something like "oh my god I'm so stupid" without context and they're not writing... like they just wait for you to answer so that they can explain while faking the interest you have for them. So I like to not answer the way they want, and just start a whole new convo about something else. Don't waste my time trying to catch my attention, either I have it or I don't. That's why I love my friends, they just speak when they want to speak. And I can just shrug it off if the convo isn't taking ya know. Often I manage to keep it going by sending gifs and doing jokes, I mean they're my closest friends I know how to speak to them. But people who just try to focus the attention onto themselves are sickening, I am not an empath and fight difficult to have interest in other people's life if I don't know them, I like talking about myself I know that. And I only allow myself to talk about my stuff if I do the effort to read and answer to people's vent, personal stuff and all. I see it as a task, a chore. It's annoying. I don't care that you achieved that or this, I don't care about your love life, I just want to send memes. That's all. You don't have the "close to the third wheel" role... I don't know you and I don't want friends online so keep your life out of mine. That's where I agree I am an a**hole. That trait has defined my whole life, I am not a nice person. But I am not a monster. if I do the effort to talk to you somehow online... then welcome in that thin list of people who managed that. I don't understand how empath can do it. Mostly with things you can't relate to, when I have to deal with my friends' problems, I just use logic. "okay do that cause it will affect that way, but don't do that cause human behaviour will make it so it happens more" I can't put feelings into this. Does it mean I don't like helping my friends? Absolutely not, they're there for me so I'll be here for them. I'm a good ear, I listen and don't judge, now you can ask for advice or not, but if you do it might seem like harsh advice. If you ask stuff about bad relationship with your parents know I don't put the kid as the only victim. It goes both ways and I may not protect your side of the story. If you ask about love advice, know that I am 100% sure I cannot provide any tips when it comes to sexuality, except of it's about finding yourself. I often advise therapists as many people underestimate the power it can have, even if you're not depressed, why? I'm a therapist's child, I know a ton of stuff about psychology and know the power one session with a good therapist can have. If it's about drinking, smoking, drugs or parties, then you're out of my DMs. If it's to debate, out too (unless it's about thesis and theories about the universe, death and all that kind of stuff). About politics? out. You finding that my art suck? OUT. I don't care about your opinion on what I draw, I don't draw problematic stuff, that's the only thing you should care about. I don't want to know if his neck looks weird, or you don't like the mood, or the shape, the outline, the sketchy style, I DON'T CARE. Art is made for fun, passion and personal view of beauty. I tell stories and share emotions I don't care of it's wonky looking, if you don't like my style just go away. If I ship people, unless it's problematic there is no reason for it to be a debate.
Anyway I don't like people I don't know, and I'm sorry for that, cause it's not personal, it's just... me.
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Post by EliDarling on Aug 20, 2022 14:03:28 GMT -5
I don't like sleeping in my bedroom, knowing two people are sleeping in a 10 meters radius is unsettling. So I often move to the ground floor where the therapists ( and so my mom ) have their office. I remove the large strap of cushion from one of the relaxing chairs and put it on the ground, I steal a blanket from my mom's office and lie down there for 6 hours. Sleeping there allows me to sleep less, otherwise I oversleep quite easily even if my body doesn't need it. It's peaceful, there's only the sound of cars passing by the avenue, and the clock. Though I often end up falling asleep to YouTube videos on my phone. I don't know if my mom knows it, she just sees the lack of bags under my eyes, which used to be common before that habit, so I guess she won't say anything. I still sleep in my bedroom from time to tie, I like the feeling of the mattress and it's great to be able to oversleep sometimes. So every night from Friday to Saturday is spent in bed. In fact, I don't even use my bedroom as a whole anymore, now that many therapists left their office here to work somewhere else, I can spend my whole day in there. It's fresher down there anyway, and there's more light, and it's peaceful. It's my little safe space.
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Post by EliDarling on Aug 20, 2022 14:55:12 GMT -5
I think that's the only thing keeping me from living in a tiny house, the offices are huge, spacious, there's room to dance and vibe, but I like the crushed atmosphere of the tiny houses, though it's often hot in tiny houses in summer. But it's cool, tiny houses have such a good aesthetic and it's a dream I've had since my early childhood. I would buy a piece of land close to a forest and settle a tiny house there. The money I have from my father's will should allow me to buy both at my 18. I'm kind of scared of the rising prices but I'll have to do with it. My mom says the economy is at its end, but... I don't know, in the worst case scenario we'll just switch our way to buy and sell, nothing more, nothing less.
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Post by EliDarling on Aug 20, 2022 15:15:14 GMT -5
I'm a senior warrior, god... I'm a big boy now òwó
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Non-binary
#F4B548
Name Colour
Dark Sun
Sage of the Stars
I'm devious, I'm devilish, I'm ever so deliciously evil
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Post by Dark Sun on Aug 20, 2022 15:17:42 GMT -5
Oh gosh I also just realized I'm Clan leader.  |
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Post by EliDarling on Aug 20, 2022 15:46:08 GMT -5
one day I'll be up there
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Post by EliDarling on Aug 20, 2022 15:46:55 GMT -5
If in 20 days I can do 250 then in a few months I'll be a three-star member
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Post by EliDarling on Aug 20, 2022 15:52:42 GMT -5
AAAAAAAH fake nice people... I hate them, they seem nice, but they're just there for themselves. Happily I don't give them attention cause I'm a douche uwu
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Post by EliDarling on Aug 20, 2022 15:53:19 GMT -5
be a a**hole, it keeps you far from the even worse a**holes
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Post by EliDarling on Aug 20, 2022 15:55:26 GMT -5
I wanna do video essays, it's so cool, but my mic is dung so... not today, but I'll be so happy to do videos one day, talking for 2h about something you hate or love, what a wonderful concept, anyway gotta go, peppermint-moss's premiere starts soon :)
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Non-binary
#F4B548
Name Colour
Dark Sun
Sage of the Stars
I'm devious, I'm devilish, I'm ever so deliciously evil
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Post by Dark Sun on Aug 20, 2022 16:18:39 GMT -5
be a a**hole, it keeps you far from the even worse a**holes An interesting perspective. Personally I follow a different philosophy - I act out of the most solid kindness whenever I can, and to anyone who doesn't meet those standards (and falls below neutrality), they get the boot. Not challenging your way, I just find it fascinating that there are many different paths to take and they can all end up at the same destination. You're good though. There's a difference between being an a**hole and being a d***. |
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Post by EliDarling on Aug 21, 2022 6:48:01 GMT -5
why is the collection of Grape Lemons the most hit fanfic on AO3? ok I remove whatever I said about that fandom.
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Post by EliDarling on Aug 21, 2022 6:52:32 GMT -5
be a a**hole, it keeps you far from the even worse a**holes An interesting perspective. Personally I follow a different philosophy - I act out of the most solid kindness whenever I can, and to anyone who doesn't meet those standards (and falls below neutrality), they get the boot. Not challenging your way, I just find it fascinating that there are many different paths to take and they can all end up at the same destination. You're good though. There's a difference between being an a**hole and being a d***. ;) wow that's so... kind... I'm actually not a a**hole, I'm a victim, I don't speak up and am a little sheep. I'm a a**hole on the internet, mostly by accident, but yeah I think I can be nice to people in real life. Maybe not like you, like all the time. To get bad people out of my way I just... don't talk, when they're there and by text... if they get close to me I'll just look at them in hope they'll think I'm a creep. |
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Post by EliDarling on Aug 21, 2022 6:54:16 GMT -5
If I have the choice between fight or flight, I'll choose flight, I can be fast if I have too. I must have been a stag in my anterior life cause I'm absolutely not a wolf.
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Post by EliDarling on Aug 21, 2022 7:00:52 GMT -5
"I'm going to teach you how to draw like a pro in 20 minutes" no you won't... It takes years of practice to draw, it's muscle memory, a brain trained to recognise shapes, colours, hue, saturation, contrast, lines of action, and much more. So no, beginners cannot become pros in 20 minutes, I hate those titles and they shouldn't exist.
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Canon is just a whole jumbled soup at this point when it comes to that.
