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Post by 🎃*:.｡. Rain .｡.:*🦇 on Mar 16, 2024 8:57:45 GMT -5
color codes: purplemy sister-in-law may have had a miscarriage... and I may never get to meet my nephew or niece. and worst of all, I can't cry. i-i don't remember how, I feel so much pain and I can't let it out and it's driving me insane. I... don't know how long I can take it... I’m so sorry. That’s absolutely horrible for you and your sister in law. I’ve never experienced anything like that but I can tell how hard that is to go through. It’s not fair for you or your sister-in-law to have to go through this struggle, and I hope you and your family are alright. It’s very difficult needing to cry and not being able to. I’ve had a lot of trouble with that and I get it. I wish I could help. If you’re religious (or I guess even if you’re not) I’ll pray for you and your family. |
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Post by Dark on Mar 16, 2024 16:24:37 GMT -5
color codes: purplemy sister-in-law may have had a miscarriage... and I may never get to meet my nephew or niece. and worst of all, I can't cry. i-i don't remember how, I feel so much pain and I can't let it out and it's driving me insane. I... don't know how long I can take it... I'm so sorry. I hope everything turns out to be the best it can be. Don't be so hard on yourself for not being able to let your emotions out. It can be really difficult sometimes. |
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Post by کیوان on Mar 20, 2024 15:54:22 GMT -5
You know what? I’m just gonna say it.
There is no help for people who find being passive-aggressive genuinely funny.
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"Great, let's round up all the useless cats and hope a tree falls on them." ~Jayfeather
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Post by beefur 👻🦇🎃 on Mar 21, 2024 16:07:02 GMT -5
Color code: purple so apparently im not allowed to eat??? like i just wash my hands to eat and my stupid goddamn mother is all "what now?" like can i not eat anything? and also eats half of everything so.
if i try to ask a simple yes or no question she suddenly has to burst into some goddamn rant about some bullshit or another and i literally will not take it anymore. when i try to tell her to just can it and i just wanted "yes" or "no" she just grunts and continues talking.
she irritates everyone and anyone, then she wonders why no one wants to spend time with her.
her stupid guilt tripping makes me hate my whole life.
she randomly and often bursts into stupid rants about how she cant buy anything and my dad will be really mad if she does.
my stupid sister wont understand that im sick and if im rewatching movies it means i cant find any good ones, and idiots all "oh are we watching the same movie for the 5th time?" please shut up and dont want to hear it i cant find another movie idiot.
everyone thinks im clinically insane when in reality i just have a short temper.
and then my stupid mom cant comprehend that she needs to go to english classes cuz she literally cannot do anything remotely related to english without coming to me and is all "fix these 13 emails in one minute" i have enough without your goddamn emails. she refuses to go to work training where all you have to do is sit there? how does that work at all like you just have to go and sit there. "but im on lmao i wrote too much leav-" no one cares. just go and sit there.
my stupid dad doesnt realize that sometimes, when people say they dont want it EVERYDAY, it probably means they dont want it! so stop bothering them with your stupid egg coffee and move on.
i dont understand how some people cant understand short tempers. and i was fortunate (not) enough to land in a family where ALL of them cant understand it.
my stupid mom was all "if you be my height then its not pretty" and is all "i wished your were my height". first of all, how does that first statement work? and this whole thing just does not make sense.
oh and im trying to do my homework and revise for exams and shes yelling at me to fix her goddamn emails |
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Post by Dark on Mar 23, 2024 14:04:52 GMT -5
Color code: purple so apparently im not allowed to eat??? like i just wash my hands to eat and my stupid goddamn mother is all "what now?" like can i not eat anything? and also eats half of everything so.
if i try to ask a simple yes or no question she suddenly has to burst into some goddamn rant about some bullshit or another and i literally will not take it anymore. when i try to tell her to just can it and i just wanted "yes" or "no" she just grunts and continues talking.
she irritates everyone and anyone, then she wonders why no one wants to spend time with her.
her stupid guilt tripping makes me hate my whole life.
she randomly and often bursts into stupid rants about how she cant buy anything and my dad will be really mad if she does.
my stupid sister wont understand that im sick and if im rewatching movies it means i cant find any good ones, and idiots all "oh are we watching the same movie for the 5th time?" please shut up and dont want to hear it i cant find another movie idiot.
everyone thinks im clinically insane when in reality i just have a short temper.
and then my stupid mom cant comprehend that she needs to go to english classes cuz she literally cannot do anything remotely related to english without coming to me and is all "fix these 13 emails in one minute" i have enough without your goddamn emails. she refuses to go to work training where all you have to do is sit there? how does that work at all like you just have to go and sit there. "but im on lmao i wrote too much leav-" no one cares. just go and sit there.
my stupid dad doesnt realize that sometimes, when people say they dont want it EVERYDAY, it probably means they dont want it! so stop bothering them with your stupid egg coffee and move on.
i dont understand how some people cant understand short tempers. and i was fortunate (not) enough to land in a family where ALL of them cant understand it.
my stupid mom was all "if you be my height then its not pretty" and is all "i wished your were my height". first of all, how does that first statement work? and this whole thing just does not make sense.
oh and im trying to do my homework and revise for exams and shes yelling at me to fix her goddamn emails To me it doesn't seem like you have a short temper (though obviously I could be wrong since this is only one situation) but it sounds like your mom is just annoying and dependent. I'm sorry about that though :( |
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Post by seantheskyhunter on Mar 24, 2024 1:30:31 GMT -5
I hate it when... Idiots have a crush on me! Like seriously it's always the DUMB UGLY ones! No offence but really there unhigenic idiots and I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!! Interpret this however you want go crazy  try give them a chance, you dont know whats underneath those unwashed pores (tho if they are troublemakers you should probably stay away) |
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Post by seantheskyhunter on Mar 24, 2024 1:34:16 GMT -5
A place for you to safely vent to our supportive community members. If there is anything that you feel you need to get out, this is the place to let it out without being judged. Please refer to the key below to better meet each other’s needs. Text Color Code:Red = Do not reply to OP. Orange = OP wants gentleness. Yellow = OP wants advice. Green = OP wants validation. Purple = OP wants sympathy or empathy. Black = Dark Humor/Laugh with OP. White = OP is open to any response. Remember to be courteous and kind. ❤️ colors: Orange, yellow, purple, black. Hey guys… anyone got advice? The love and light of my life broke up with me today by TEXT of all things, the explanation being: “we haven’t talked for a little while and I’m losing feelings.” (Not direct quote) I feel horrible and don’t know what to do. I lied and said I was fine and that I would need time to think. It feels like they died. I’ve never been the type of person to hate my ex, and I stay friends with most of em. They said we’d be better off as friends and I’m still numb. What do I do. for anyone who read my above post, it was Honeybee. If you read that it may give you some context to how much I need this person. thats so sad  ( If u really love this person, i hope things will go back lkke before |
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Post by 🎃*:.｡. Rain .｡.:*🦇 on Mar 24, 2024 12:15:00 GMT -5
colors: Orange, yellow, purple, black. Hey guys… anyone got advice? The love and light of my life broke up with me today by TEXT of all things, the explanation being: “we haven’t talked for a little while and I’m losing feelings.” (Not direct quote) I feel horrible and don’t know what to do. I lied and said I was fine and that I would need time to think. It feels like they died. I’ve never been the type of person to hate my ex, and I stay friends with most of em. They said we’d be better off as friends and I’m still numb. What do I do. for anyone who read my above post, it was Honeybee. If you read that it may give you some context to how much I need this person. thats so sad ( If u really love this person, i hope things will go back lkke before Thanks for the sympathy, I did a couple Tarot readings over the weekend and decidedly the universe says it was toxic (they said that many times) and that I will someday find someone for me. It’s still difficult though. |
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Post by lightfur on Mar 25, 2024 19:59:14 GMT -5
(Orange, Purple)
I'm having a migrane now and it is horrible. I hate being focwed to be in pain for hours. I'm also having a aura now and itr SUCKS.
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"Great, let's round up all the useless cats and hope a tree falls on them." ~Jayfeather
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Post by beefur 👻🦇🎃 on Mar 25, 2024 20:09:24 GMT -5
(Orange, Purple) I'm having a migrane now and it is horrible. I hate being focwed to be in pain for hours. I'm also having a aura now and itr SUCKS. man i remember my migraine it was terrible.. im sorry you have to deal with that crap, it better get better in the next 10 minutes otherwise i might just teleport straight to you to whack it away |
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Post by lightfur on Mar 26, 2024 7:51:00 GMT -5
(Orange, Purple) I'm having a migrane now and it is horrible. I hate being focwed to be in pain for hours. I'm also having a aura now and itr SUCKS. man i remember my migraine it was terrible.. im sorry you have to deal with that crap, it better get better in the next 10 minutes otherwise i might just teleport straight to you to whack it away I did not better in 10 minutes But it's gone now, so that's good. |
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Post by 🎃*:.｡. Rain .｡.:*🦇 on Mar 26, 2024 12:34:05 GMT -5
Ukgyrjytrfjyfrfuytryur UGHHHHHH NO energy to explain :I
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Post by {Azure} on Mar 26, 2024 14:58:48 GMT -5
Ukgyrjytrfjyfrfuytryur UGHHHHHH NO energy to explain :I *virtual back pants* I know what that's like |
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Post by Starflower on Mar 27, 2024 19:27:22 GMT -5
Code: Yellow & White (kinda)
I have a friend who recently tried to k1ll himself, and he had to be out of school for a month. Now I have two friends who during my social studies class today I was talking to about how there is so much to do in life and no reason to want to die early (they are both su1cid@l.) they said that we were all gonna die at some point so why live through all this pain when you could just die and not have to deal with it? I tried to tell them again that there is a lot to do in life and they just kept saying that it’s all bad and there is no point.
Keep in mind for this next part, both are AFAB.
My one friend said “Normally eating would make someone feel better but for me I just think about body shaming.” And to that I said: “But you shouldn’t care what people think about you!” They both said “That may be easy for you but you don’t have su1c1d@l thoughts!” And at that point I was practically crying because they started talking about how no one would care if they died.
I am at home now after school and honestly idk what to do.
Please give advice 😔
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they're pinning my wings to a corkboard tomorrow
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Post by Angel on Mar 28, 2024 0:02:15 GMT -5
I'm so sorry for both you and your friends. That sounds like an incredibly difficult situation for everyone involved. I don't have instructions for you that will make everything better, and part of that is because you can't control other people's thoughts, actions, or lives. You can be supportive, and that can make a huge difference, but the truth is, to heal, someone has to want to get better (I didn't want that for a long time, certainly not when I was around the age I'm assuming you and your friends are), and... I won't say it's impossible to heal when you're still in the environment that hurt you, but it can be much harder; and again, when I was younger, I had little control over my environment (like all kids). I'm not telling you it's hopeless, but I'm saying this so you don't put the burden on yourself that you have to 100% cure your friends' mental illnesses. You can definitely help! But please don't put pressure on yourself to fix it. I hope I make sense.
I think what you've been doing- expressing your belief that life is worth living, and that there are good things in the world- is a great thing to keep doing. I wouldn't endlessly entertain arguments about 'Is live worth living?' because that is draining on you (your mental health is important too!) and at some point you've said your piece, but when the subject comes up, say what you want to say and then maybe try and gently guide the conversation elsewhere. I also think it's good to show your friends that you care about them. Remind them that if they're in a dark place they can reach out to you. Invite them to do things, give presents for their birthdays/christmas (or whatever applicable gift-giving holiday), and so on. They may appreciate it more than you even know. It can be hard to show gratitude when you're in a bad headspace.
When I was 14, I significantly isolated myself from all of my friends. I even changed schools, partially to avoid them. There was no blowout fight, I was just depressed/grieving and handling it very poorly. I didn't respond to texts. But there was one friend who kept reaching out to me despite me never responding. Once every month or two, she would text me. This kept on for years. She even kept giving me presents sometimes, despite me never coming to the door to get them (my mom did). Most of the time, I felt nothing in particular about this. But sometimes, when I had my brain telling me that nobody cared about me, I would remember her. I was too deep in it to reach out, but just remembering that someone did care enough about me to be that persistent, even when ignored for months on end, made a huge difference. Hopefully things do not get that drastic for your situation, but I'm sharing that anecdote to emphasize that even if your friends are outwardly doing things like disagreeing with you, they probably appreciate you deep down.
I hope things get better for all of you. Here's a few things that help my mentally ill brain, in case they do ever seem welcome to suggestions. I know these are all stereotypical, but it turns out they're stereotypical for a reason.
-daily gratitude journal (this can feel cheesy and I had to do it for a few months before it really started helping, but it does help... every day at the end of the day I sit down and write at least 3 good things that happened. Sometimes I have pages and pages to write, sometimes the list looks something like '1. saw a pretty flower 2. it was sunny for a bit 3. I'm glad I wasn't born during the black plague'. but it's the repetitive practice that really makes a difference, you're basically rewiring your brain to notice good things) -exercise (There are lots of ways to exercise! dancing, running, biking, even just walking... I think everyone can find some way that's fun for them)
-eating healthy (this seems to be a sensitive subject, so be careful if you bring it up, and judge for yourself whether you should at all; I don't mean eating less. that can make it worse. eating Healthy means vegetables, fruits, protein) -spending time outside
-socializing (This is one you can definitely help with! I usually feel better after spending time with a friend)
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Post by Starflower on Mar 28, 2024 6:20:46 GMT -5
Thank you so much! It is really hard… I will see what happens today and if anything happens I will say it…
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Post by 🎃*:.｡. Rain .｡.:*🦇 on Mar 28, 2024 9:08:17 GMT -5
(SHOOT! I literally had a response and I swear I thought it sent!)
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Post by lazzylake on Mar 28, 2024 9:58:40 GMT -5
Color code: white I don't care anymore
This entire week has really messed up my internal clock since Good Friday is at the end of March. Easter is super early this year, so my school has a four day week. On the Monday we get back, reports for my college classes are due. I'm passing them all but I feel like I need to do more somehow. I've been focusing too much in one of my classes but for the class I need to catch up on my motivation goes out the window. I can't write anything for an assignment due a week ago and I hate it. I can just message my professor but I haven't seen them personally all week and it's very frustrating. I'm fed up because I know I need to do things and I have everything planned out in my head but I can't write.
I'll probably get over my slumpy mood within the hour but I felt the need to rant a little. This may or may not make sense
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Post by Quill on Mar 29, 2024 14:41:57 GMT -5
Code: White
Got waitlisted at Yale Law School, my top choice law school. I guess that's an achievement but it also means that I'm likely not going to get in this year. I'm prepping to take the LSAT and try again next year.
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Post by Starflower on Mar 29, 2024 19:24:52 GMT -5
Quill-
I believe in you! I think that no matter what you will still find a way to do what you want to do!
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Post by Starflower on Mar 29, 2024 19:28:27 GMT -5
Code: Purple, yellow, white (idk)
So imma cut this but recently my family had an accident involving a person crashing into both our cars in the middle of the night in my front yard. It made a loud noise and my dog started barking, and now I kind of have ptsd about loud noises. Earlier this week at school, a kid slammed a door very loud while I was walking down the hallway, and I was walking with my friend and I literally almost started crying. It just reminds me of the accident so much that it scares me every time someone bangs the door/lockers.
If someone makes a loud noise in my house I will kind of get quiet and try not to worry, but I feel like every time it happens someone asks me if I am ok and I feel like it’s stupid to tell them that I have ptsd about loud noises now after the accident….
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Post by 🎃*:.｡. Rain .｡.:*🦇 on Mar 30, 2024 8:36:15 GMT -5
Code: White Got waitlisted at Yale Law School, my top choice law school. I guess that's an achievement but it also means that I'm likely not going to get in this year. I'm prepping to take the LSAT and try again next year. If you do get in this year, that’s amazing! I’m so happy for you. But if you don’t get in, at least they waitlisted you, and if you take the LSAT next year you might be better prepared and have a better chance! |
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Papillon
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how lucky you are to have yourself
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Post by Papillon on Apr 6, 2024 17:31:41 GMT -5
random vent read if u want to or don't it doesn't matter don't rlly have anyone or where left to go to.
i will be doing my best to begin recovery ON 4/18/24. i wish it was sooner, but it might even have to be a few days after. It hasn't even been a full two years for me which is at least some form of positive because it shortens medical recovery time a small amount..but it's still going to be a llong long af treatment process. one which i have yet to share with my best friend irl because I guess I am ashamed about it. maybe someday in the future I will be able to talk about this in real life, face to face
I am trying to begin my recovery already as much as possible before the actual date arrives..starting w a deep cleaning of my room to feel more comfort and focus in my room without the distraction of the thing I'm trying to end. And continuing with me setting up and cleaning my desk enough to where I can again play transformice, or adult color, or journal, or read, or paint, etc. finding my old hobbies and attempting to discover new ones that'll help me not fall into mindless boredom... ending for now w me setting up times to ride my bike for a while, it's always massively helped my mental health and thinking things over
I even have to be vague on here (at least in public discussion..) over what I'm talking about and referring to, annoyingly. But at the same time, I don't need the inevitable people suddenly viewing me differently and in a fully negative and judgemental way.
i know I said it hadn't even been full two years quite yet, but damn, it is insane how fast you can one by one ruin every tiny aspect of life you had any previous control or hold over and the amount I've already lost in that short time.
But I am also much more capable than I have ever been before to directly confront all of this and know I will fully make it through one day.
I do have such an underlying excitement and confidence in life after this is more over with and I cant wait tbh |
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Post by 🎃*:.｡. Rain .｡.:*🦇 on Apr 7, 2024 16:35:38 GMT -5
Ok, so I’m just gonna preface this with the fact that I do not discriminate against anyone other than things that are dangerous (such as zoophilia, ****philia, etc.)
I don’t entirely understand xenogenders, and feel like they might be a bit of a stretch, and quite possibly a huge part of the reason so many people dislike the queer and trans community. I am fully accepting of people using other forms of neopronouns such as it/its, ze/zer/zem, xe/xer/xem, etc. but not so much when people say they’re ’star gender’ or ‘cat gender’, and use star/starself, or similar things. I may not have all the info, but what do you guys think? I don’t want to come across as bigoted or disrespectful of how people identify.
edit: I have looked more into this since making the post originally, and also have realized my tone may have been misinterpreted. I would like to clarify that I did not intend to sound as if I were discriminating against those who use xenogenders, and I fully accept those who do.
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Post by 🎃*:.｡. Rain .｡.:*🦇 on Apr 7, 2024 16:37:03 GMT -5
Open to any response. The following ‘vent’/message is about xenogenders. Ok, so I’m just gonna preface this with the fact that I do not discriminate against anyone other than things that are dangerous (such as zoophilia, ****philia, etc.)
I don’t entirely understand xenogenders, and feel like they might be a bit of a stretch, and quite possibly a huge part of the reason so many people dislike the queer and trans community. I am fully accepting of people using other forms of neopronouns such as it/its, ze/zer/zem, xe/xer/xem, etc. but not so much when people say they’re ’star gender’ or ‘cat gender’, and use star/starself, or similar things. I may not have all the info, but what do you guys think? I don’t want to come across as bigoted or disrespectful of how people identify. |
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Post by کیوان on Apr 7, 2024 19:44:18 GMT -5
Getting scorned for referring to her as "Squelch" has made me realize just how differently we think from other parts of the fandom.
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Post by Chicken on Apr 7, 2024 23:37:08 GMT -5
Getting scorned for referring to her as "Squelch" has made me realize just how differently we think from other parts of the fandom. I saw that, I thought it was hilarious, so if you go down for that, you're not going down alone |
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Post by Katanaheart on Apr 8, 2024 4:57:21 GMT -5
Coming here to complain that I just really want a cat.
Multiple friends have mentioned it would be good for me, with my best friend irl even mentioning that it would give me more reason to move around and be up from bed.
But I can’t have a cat, I can’t get a cat for at least a few more years and even when I’m “allowed,” idk if I’ll be able to afford said cat or be able to take care of them financially.
Also take care of them since even with nearly four years of on/off living with my ex’s cats, they never showed me how to clean a litter box.
For context, my mother is afraid of cats and claims they stink, so not allowed to have cat. (She has panicked when one comes close to her and has been frightened of them since she was young due to alley cats attacking her.)
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Post by 🎃*:.｡. Rain .｡.:*🦇 on Apr 8, 2024 11:30:08 GMT -5
ARGH
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#07B04C
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Ṣanɗypaw™
The Shiny User
🎵Guess that's just the way it goes, easy come, easy go🎵
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Post by Ṣanɗypaw™ on Apr 8, 2024 11:55:26 GMT -5
Open to any response. The following ‘vent’/message is about xenogenders. Ok, so I’m just gonna preface this with the fact that I do not discriminate against anyone other than things that are dangerous (such as zoophilia, ****philia, etc.)
I don’t entirely understand xenogenders, and feel like they might be a bit of a stretch, and quite possibly a huge part of the reason so many people dislike the queer and trans community. I am fully accepting of people using other forms of neopronouns such as it/its, ze/zer/zem, xe/xer/xem, etc. but not so much when people say they’re ’star gender’ or ‘cat gender’, and use star/starself, or similar things. I may not have all the info, but what do you guys think? I don’t want to come across as bigoted or disrespectful of how people identify. Imo you don't have to understand people's identities to accept them. All identities are valid, regardless of whether or not you understand why people identify as it. Rejecting identities is a form of invalidation and just leads to more divides within the LGBTQ+ community and can cause bigotry to spread. |
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