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Post by jess on Feb 26, 2024 19:34:57 GMT -5
i feel like i can't really talk about my feelings regarding my boyfriend's death with many people bc the responses i get are usually very unhelpful lol, or people just get bummed and that's not what i want. so i'll always come to you, wcf, for some sweet anonymity.
i'm not doing well, obviously, but i also don't know what to do with my loneliness besides just feel it. i'm so lonely it's phsyically painful, lol. there's an ever-present ache in my chest and my stomach hurts perpetually. we're three months out and i am feeling every moment of it. people tell me it's up to me when i move on and i just want to shake them and say yes, i know that. still, i think about how much i want someone, how much i want to be held and comforted, and the guilt hits me like a ton of bricks. i don't want to 'move on.' not right now.
i am starved of his company and his touch and his comfort—all of these are his. i need him back and that's the only answer, so there's no answer at all. it's just a loneliness i have to sit with. and it's eating me alive
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Post by lazzylake on Feb 26, 2024 19:35:22 GMT -5
Saint Ambrosef Sorry, I should’ve specified this: both of my brothers are on the autism spectrum, and they both don’t have the mental capacity to make meals for themselves. We don’t trust them around the kitchen. I normally just put something in the microwave leftovers from dinner since I don’t have enough time to cook them something properly. I just kind of assume it’s normal at this point (which it’s not) since I’ve become accustomed to it and I tend to forget details concerning them. And yes, I am responsible for doing laundry for everyone in the house. Concerning dinner, the meals have been figured out already! They’re easy for me to make since I know the recipes. One is a type of salad with some over pork chops and the other is a slow cooker meal. I appreciate the help though; this is just going to be an especially tough week for me to get everything situated.
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Post by 𝕊’𝕞𝕠𝕣𝕖 on Feb 26, 2024 19:36:04 GMT -5
I don’t often vent here, but I kind of just need to get out my feelings a little. TW: emotional abuse, homophobia, estrangement, eating disorders, and mental illness. December-March is a really hard time for me, it covers anniversary after anniversary of events that kinda messed me up. I’ve had my sister estrange herself from my whole family because of me, spreading lies about me and my family to anyone who will listen to try and ruin our reputation. All because I stood up to her after 20+ years of her abuse. She was awful to me, my entire life, she would tell me things like “you’ll never go to heaven because you’re not straight” or “if our religion ever changed their mind on the queer community, I’d rather leave it than accept them”, she constantly put me down, gaslit me, manipulated me, stonewalled me, and emotionally abused me, and I finally told her “enough” I told her to respect me or give me space and she reacted by leaving the entire family and doing everyone in her power to turn everyone that knows us against us. This was back in December 2021 (if I’m mathing correctly, it was either 2021 or 2022), and years later she is still out there, spreading lies and everyone would rather believe her. I’ve had aunts tell me that my sister is just more “normal” than I am, so it’s easier to side with her. I’ve had people I knew as a child turn on me because I’m autistic and weird and they’ve just been waiting for a reason to justify their treatment toward me and my sister just gave one to them.
In addition to that, it was early March, last year, when the one person I thought I could always count on, left me too. She knows I have abandonment issues, she knows that I’ve been going through so much, she knew I was trying so hard to go to therapy, improve myself, and keep her in my life. She just…didn’t care. Once again another person decided I wasn’t worth a little patience and understanding and left.
And now, now I don’t know how to let anyone new in, I don’t trust people to get close anymore, because they’re all going to leave too, because that’s what people do, they leave the moment I’m not this happy, emotional punching bag for them to use, they leave. I’m so sick of people leaving. I have my parents and my younger siblings, but it’s different. They need me, they went through all of that because of me, I have to look out for them. I also have some friends, and I love them, but I feel like I should be better by now, and I’m not. I’m still struggling and I’m in therapy but it’s not enough and I just….i dunno, I’m just tired.
I’m emotionally exhausted.
And then! To just add the icing to the cake, I was recently diagnosed with ARFID, and nobody understands it, nobody! But honestly? I don’t even understand it! How am I supposed to explain to people that eating food gives me so much anxiety that I’d rather starve? That I struggle to trust food even if I’ve had it before and that I can’t just “get over it.” I’d love to get over it! I would love to eat freely without this mental block! I’m horribly underweight, I never feel well, and it sucks! I would rather not have this at all!
But that’s not how it works!
And I can’t afford a specialist! Because I can’t hold down a “normal” job, because I get overstimulated and overwhelmed and I literally cannot do it. So I’m trying to work from home, I’m publishing books because I love writing! It’s my passion and my escape and honestly my stories are probably the only thread of sanity I have left right now, but hey! People get mad at me for focusing on my writing! Because I should be doing what they want instead, so it’s all just hopeless really.
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Post by 🅃🄴🄼🄿🄾 on Feb 27, 2024 19:06:39 GMT -5
TW: Mentions of split up parents Tempo's long, lovely vents <3 Ah yes, I love being the smartest of my siblings. At least, that's what my mom tells me. I know that I should be grateful that I'm so smart and that I have such high grades, but I feel like it puts a lot more expectations on me. I feel like if I don't have at least an A or A- in my class that I'm a failure. I know I'm not. I know it's not a big deal, so why does it feel like the world is ending when I get a lower grade? My principal talked to me about it after I'd told my parents how stressed I was about AP Biology when in reality it wasn't that bad, I had a B+, but it didn't really help. All I learned from that talk was that I was a "perfectionist". Now I've started to get invited to certain academic things and my parents couldn't be happier. I'm happy too, but now I'm starting to feel the pressure of being the perfect kid with the perfect grades and I hate it. And now my mom has started complimenting me on how smart I am more often. I know it shouldn't bother me and I should be happy about it, but I'm not. If anything, it makes me even more stressed to be the perfect kid.
So my niece has split up parents and lucky me gets to hear my sister talking shit about the dad. These conversations are mostly with my mom. I have told my mom and sister multiple times that it makes me uncomfortable when they talk about that stuff in front of me, but do they respect that? No. And then my mom gets mad at me whenever I get upset when they're talking about that stuff in front of me. The most recent time is when my sister was at our house for lunch and started talking about it. I got upset and stormed off into my room. My mom comes into my room and tells me that people cope differently and that this is my sister's way of coping. Basically making me feel bad about it. But I still think that if I don't want them to talk about it in front of me that they should respect that.
Last thing. I get really uncomfortable when somebody touches me without my permission. Especially my legs. I haven't told anybody in my family about this cause I'm sure they'll either ignore me or invalidate my feelings. My niece is 4, so she doesn't know any better, but she touches my legs a lot and it makes me extremely uncomfortable so I kind of try and move away. Of course my mom sees this and thinks it's just me being rude to her and gets a little upset at me. I want to tell her how I feel, but I don't want her to get mad or anything like that, so I just keep quiet. If anybody has any advice about this, I'd love if you shared it. |
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Post by whiteflight on Feb 28, 2024 5:20:24 GMT -5
I really wonder can a person with seizures go "back to normal" like having no seizers at all? My mom wants to me to stop having them since I never had them but when I was 16 that was when I got seizures. But I'm also annoyed at my mom always blaming me for "not taking my medication" I take them every day but once I suddenly have a seizure/mini seizure on a random day after a long time she suddenly blames me. I swear next time she says that I'm gonna yell at her, I'm sick and tired of her always saying "you see you don't take your medication that's why you keep having seizures" she gets mad if I swear at her but imo she deserves it she needs to stop blaming me for a medical condition that even my doctors don't know why I'm having them.
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Post by Sand on Feb 28, 2024 17:50:54 GMT -5
I really wonder can a person with seizures go "back to normal" like having no seizers at all? My mom wants to me to stop having them since I never had them but when I was 16 that was when I got seizures. But I'm also annoyed at my mom always blaming me for "not taking my medication" I take them every day but once I suddenly have a seizure/mini seizure on a random day after a long time she suddenly blames me. I swear next time she says that I'm gonna yell at her, I'm sick and tired of her always saying "you see you don't take your medication that's why you keep having seizures" she gets mad if I swear at her but imo she deserves it she needs to stop blaming me for a medical condition that even my doctors don't know why I'm having them. I don't know if you want a response or not, but I feel this vent really hard. I've had people blame me for not taking my medication despite the fact that I do (and will always) continue to take it. We can't blame allow others to blame us for having seizures, that's not how it should work. Your mom needs to realize that seizures just pop up at random-- they're not scheduled :/. hell, if they were scheduled, we would choose to never have them in the first place. My doctors have never figured out why I have epilepsy at all which is fine. I'm not looking for an answer because it's not there. If you ever want someone to talk to about seizures (or anything in general), I'm always around. |
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Mar 1, 2024 11:40:11 GMT -5
note to self: don't read medical horror stories on reddit before you do a medical thing 🙃
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Post by mintleaf2 on Mar 1, 2024 17:45:29 GMT -5
my teacher of 3 years is leaving. we all know everyone is emotional and its just so. sad. she taught my sister before me too. i just cant believe it, and i want to talk about it with someone but i have no one. edit: im really bad at expressing my gratitude, so if anyone has an idea of how i can express my gratitude to her for teaching me and my sister for so long i would be pleased to hear it! honestly a really nice, sincere card or letter can go a long way. It’s something she can keep and feel like she made a difference |
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Post by mintleaf2 on Mar 1, 2024 19:50:56 GMT -5
I’m really nervous about something tomorrow and I know it’s gonna be okay, but I can’t seem to stop moping about it. Appreciate any prayers for strength so I stop being so anxious about it.
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Mar 1, 2024 21:21:59 GMT -5
my teacher of 3 years is leaving. we all know everyone is emotional and its just so. sad. she taught my sister before me too. i just cant believe it, and i want to talk about it with someone but i have no one. edit: im really bad at expressing my gratitude, so if anyone has an idea of how i can express my gratitude to her for teaching me and my sister for so long i would be pleased to hear it! honestly a really nice, sincere card or letter can go a long way. It’s something she can keep and feel like she made a difference Seconding this from personal experience. In college, there was one professor in particular who I took several classes with that I felt helped shape me into a more confident student, and introduced me to some areas of study in my major that I really enjoyed. To the point where my thesis topic was inspired by something we studied in his class and I asked him to attend the presentation. I never like, had much one-on-one time with him, I just really appreciate his teaching style. So when I graduated, I wrote him a little letter telling him as much and left it in his office mailbox. He ended up reaching out to me via email a week later. He said (actual quote), "There are times when a professor wonders exactly how much he is accomplishing, and a note like yours buttresses my faith that my teaching has been worthwhile." He ended up retiring after that semester, which made my letter probably the last expression of appreciation he received from a student of his. Definitely do not underestimate a genuine, heartfelt letter of gratitude, it goes so far in a profession that is underappreciated. |
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Post by ! (Ġray) ! on Mar 2, 2024 7:43:18 GMT -5
Green, purple, black, whiterant about my dad yipee so idk how to put this but. He doesn't believe in neurodivergence or sensory issues or really any mental condition unless its like extremely obvious (like dementia). Anyway, i have a ton of problems with noise and have earplugs that i used to wear everywhere, until my brothers stopped making sounds that were triggering me at home, then i only wore them at school and I kind of stopped recently because i got better at coping without blocking stuff out. Anyway when i wore my earphones my dad used to call me ******ed and stuff, but it never really bothered me idk. So in my classes for this year there are a ton of annoying people who never shut up, always talking loudly and snapping their fingers and stuff, and because I don't have my earplugs at school and I'm not allowed to listen to music on school grounds I just sit there and try not to cry. Also my brother recently decided to beatbox around the house, and wet mouth sounds drive me insane. So I have been on the edge of having a violent breakdown for like a week, and i've been staying in my room and putting in white noise or heavy metal at max volume whenever I have to leave because the earplugs only muffle sounds. My dad called me out on this just a few days ago. But then tonight after work i was like "I really liked work and it calmed me down because there were no loud sounds and everything was repetitive and simple" and my dad was saying that I can't choose to just hate sounds (as in I'm ruining my life by choosing to hate certain noises) and he was saying that I've been great the past few months by not wearing my earplugs and pretty much that because i wasn't acting as "******ed" as I used to i must have been faking the whole time. He ignored when I said i haven't been dealing with noises because he literally just pointed out a few days ago that i always have my headphones in and he didn't listen and said "if your brothers annoy you go for a walk" and told me to stop choosing to be annoyed by sounds when I said i can't do that because I know the noise will still be there when i get back and it won't help
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Post by seantheskyhunter on Mar 8, 2024 5:41:07 GMT -5
Everytime my crush spends time with her friends im getting jealous. I feel bad, i shoudnt feel this way. I dont even know what to do about this situation anymore. Maybe ill show something to her today, hope shes gonna notice.
(i think it went fine i dunno x33)
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Post by 🎃*:.｡. Rain .｡.:*🦇 on Mar 8, 2024 17:18:13 GMT -5
Colors: green, purple, black. TW: mentions of homophobia, antifurs, cussing, + C-PTSD, mentions of assault with a ‘d@gg3r’/kitchen tool, mentions of $u!c!d3, all caps Colors: red
I cannot do my homework and I’m failing every class but art. I can’t focus, even when I’ve taken my meds. I don’t have motivation and I can’t think straight. Ha. Cuz I’m gay. And my f*cking parents don’t support. I literally am the worst. I’m ruining my chances of having a decent future. I’ve got so much overdue art debt and homework I can’t DO IT. Moon top of that, my therapist just told me she doesn’t support furries and therians!! Wtf?? I just pretended to agree with her. I hate this. On top of that, I’ve got C-PTSD and I can’t be in kitchens or anything because of the FVCKING SHARP THINGS. MY WHOLE FVCKING LIFE MIGHT BE RUINED BY THIS STUPID THING. I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT IT, AND ITS SO STUPID. I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE JOKE LIKE “Oh I’m GoNnA <redacted I can’t even look at the word because of how bad it is to me> YoU” and stuff. SHE LITERALLY TRIED TO K!LL HIM!! WTF?!? YOU DATED HIM YOU B!TCH. ITS NOT HIS FAULT HES TRANS!! YES HE CHEATED ON YOU, WITH MY PARTNER, BUT DID I WANT TO K!LL THEM?! NO! YOUR STUPID RAGE LITERALLY RUINED MY LIFE.
ONE SMALL THING. BUT ITS THE SCHOOL’S FAULT TOO!!!! THEY LET YOU SIT IN THE ROOM ACROSS FROM US!! YOU STAREDAT US FOR AGES! THEY SEPERATED US AND LEFT US TO BE ALONE. WE. COULD. HAVE. DIED. IT HASNT EVEN BEEN A FULL YEAR YET! WE’RE JUST A MONTH FROM THE SWEET ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY. IM TERRIBLE. I DONT WANT TO GO BACK TO THE HOSPITAL. KITHY TRIED TO OFF HIMSELF, AND HONEY BEE ALONG WITH HIM!! IS THIS WHAT YOU WANTED? IF YOU HAD SUCCEEDED…. WHAT WOULD WE BE LIKE NOW.
KITHY LEFT THE ENTIRE STATE. ITS LIKE YOU SUCCEEDED. I SOB MY HEART OUT SOMETIMES BECAUSE I NEVER SAID GOODBYE.ITS YOUR FAULT! HE WOULDNT BE LIKE THIS IF YOU HADNT GONE AND TRIED TO K!LL HIM.
Then again, what if Honeybee had really tried to stop you. What if you’d k!ll3d them? I can’t live without them. They left the school because of you. They were already fragile! You didn’t have to go and fvck them up too. I was going to stop you. I didn’t know you’d threatened Honey’s life. If I’d died, or if Kithy had, or if Honey had, could you forgive yourself? I don’t know.
Sometimes I think I see you, I turn around, but you’re not there. You may have been expelled, sent to juvy, and left for good, but you still haunt my dreams and my nightmares. I’ve had hour long panic attacks, horrible feelings tied in with my own thoughts and Kithy and Honey’s attempt. Tied in with my grief for Kithy and the fact that I may never see him again. I loved him! You only met him the year before, I’d known him since third. Fvcking. Grade. I can’t believe you.
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Post by seantheskyhunter on Mar 9, 2024 1:18:55 GMT -5
Colors: green, purple, black. TW: mentions of homophobia, antifurs, cussing, + C-PTSD, mentions of assault with a ‘d@gg3r’/kitchen tool, mentions of $u!c!d3, all caps Colors: red
I cannot do my homework and I’m failing every class but art. I can’t focus, even when I’ve taken my meds. I don’t have motivation and I can’t think straight. Ha. Cuz I’m gay. And my f*cking parents don’t support. I literally am the worst. I’m ruining my chances of having a decent future. I’ve got so much overdue art debt and homework I can’t DO IT. Moon top of that, my therapist just told me she doesn’t support furries and therians!! Wtf?? I just pretended to agree with her. I hate this. On top of that, I’ve got C-PTSD and I can’t be in kitchens or anything because of the FVCKING SHARP THINGS. MY WHOLE FVCKING LIFE MIGHT BE RUINED BY THIS STUPID THING. I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT IT, AND ITS SO STUPID. I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE JOKE LIKE “Oh I’m GoNnA <redacted I can’t even look at the word because of how bad it is to me> YoU” and stuff. SHE LITERALLY TRIED TO K!LL HIM!! WTF?!? YOU DATED HIM YOU B!TCH. ITS NOT HIS FAULT HES TRANS!! YES HE CHEATED ON YOU, WITH MY PARTNER, BUT DID I WANT TO K!LL THEM?! NO! YOUR STUPID RAGE LITERALLY RUINED MY LIFE.
ONE SMALL THING. BUT ITS THE SCHOOL’S FAULT TOO!!!! THEY LET YOU SIT IN THE ROOM ACROSS FROM US!! YOU STAREDAT US FOR AGES! THEY SEPERATED US AND LEFT US TO BE ALONE. WE. COULD. HAVE. DIED. IT HASNT EVEN BEEN A FULL YEAR YET! WE’RE JUST A MONTH FROM THE SWEET ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY. IM TERRIBLE. I DONT WANT TO GO BACK TO THE HOSPITAL. KITHY TRIED TO OFF HIMSELF, AND HONEY BEE ALONG WITH HIM!! IS THIS WHAT YOU WANTED? IF YOU HAD SUCCEEDED…. WHAT WOULD WE BE LIKE NOW.
KITHY LEFT THE ENTIRE STATE. ITS LIKE YOU SUCCEEDED. I SOB MY HEART OUT SOMETIMES BECAUSE I NEVER SAID GOODBYE.ITS YOUR FAULT! HE WOULDNT BE LIKE THIS IF YOU HADNT GONE AND TRIED TO K!LL HIM.
Then again, what if Honeybee had really tried to stop you. What if you’d k!ll3d them? I can’t live without them. They left the school because of you. They were already fragile! You didn’t have to go and fvck them up too. I was going to stop you. I didn’t know you’d threatened Honey’s life. If I’d died, or if Kithy had, or if Honey had, could you forgive yourself? I don’t know.
Sometimes I think I see you, I turn around, but you’re not there. You may have been expelled, sent to juvy, and left for good, but you still haunt my dreams and my nightmares. I’ve had hour long panic attacks, horrible feelings tied in with my own thoughts and Kithy and Honey’s attempt. Tied in with my grief for Kithy and the fact that I may never see him again. I loved him! You only met him the year before, I’d known him since third. Fvcking. Grade. I can’t believe you.
you’ve ruined my life. </333 :[[ i know this may feel generic, but things will get better. Dont let yourself down because of those horrible peeps |
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Post by Dark on Mar 12, 2024 17:50:58 GMT -5
my friend just ended our friendship... thanks for adding another person who left me onto the list.
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Post by aquatail on Mar 13, 2024 0:27:57 GMT -5
I hate it when... Idiots have a crush on me! Like seriously it's always the DUMB UGLY ones! No offence but really there unhigenic idiots and I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!! Interpret this however you want go crazy  |
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Post by The One and Only Moongaze on Mar 13, 2024 18:31:15 GMT -5
I have no idea why the people at my school think that being an absolute jerk is "funny" or that a simple "my bad" will make everything okay.
- On Saturday I went to take the SAT at a local high school. About 100 of us were gathered in the cafeteria waiting to be sent to the classrooms. I spotted one of my best friends who was sitting at a table with like 4 other people. I approached the table and greeted everyone when one girl sitting on the opposite side where I was standing started shouting "YOU CAN'T SIT HERE!" "GO AWAY" and THREW herself across the table to further prove her point. I've talked to that girl a couple of times and most of what she says is at the expense of someone else, but she doesn't see anything wrong with that.
- Another incident: At the end of one of my classes I was on my phone waiting for the bell to ring when another one of my friends turned around in her seat (she was in front of me) and smacked my phone out of hand. It barely misses a metal bar that is on my desk and face down on the floor. My phone was fine, but I was freaking out because my phone screen could have cracked. I instantly called her out for it and her response was "haha I have ADHD sorry" but if my phone had cracked, I would have been the one who got in trouble for something SHE did. She then blamed me for overreacting.
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Post by 🎃*:.｡. Rain .｡.:*🦇 on Mar 13, 2024 20:35:21 GMT -5
A place for you to safely vent to our supportive community members. If there is anything that you feel you need to get out, this is the place to let it out without being judged. Please refer to the key below to better meet each other’s needs. Text Color Code:Red = Do not reply to OP. Orange = OP wants gentleness. Yellow = OP wants advice. Green = OP wants validation. Purple = OP wants sympathy or empathy. Black = Dark Humor/Laugh with OP. White = OP is open to any response. Remember to be courteous and kind. ❤️ colors: Orange, yellow, purple, black. Hey guys… anyone got advice? The love and light of my life broke up with me today by TEXT of all things, the explanation being: “we haven’t talked for a little while and I’m losing feelings.” (Not direct quote) I feel horrible and don’t know what to do. I lied and said I was fine and that I would need time to think. It feels like they died. I’ve never been the type of person to hate my ex, and I stay friends with most of em. They said we’d be better off as friends and I’m still numb. What do I do. for anyone who read my above post, it was Honeybee. If you read that it may give you some context to how much I need this person. |
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Post by aquatail on Mar 14, 2024 2:31:24 GMT -5
A place for you to safely vent to our supportive community members. If there is anything that you feel you need to get out, this is the place to let it out without being judged. Please refer to the key below to better meet each other’s needs. Text Color Code:Red = Do not reply to OP. Orange = OP wants gentleness. Yellow = OP wants advice. Green = OP wants validation. Purple = OP wants sympathy or empathy. Black = Dark Humor/Laugh with OP. White = OP is open to any response. Remember to be courteous and kind. ❤️ colors: Orange, yellow, purple, black. Hey guys… anyone got advice? The love and light of my life broke up with me today by TEXT of all things, the explanation being: “we haven’t talked for a little while and I’m losing feelings.” (Not direct quote) I feel horrible and don’t know what to do. I lied and said I was fine and that I would need time to think. It feels like they died. I’ve never been the type of person to hate my ex, and I stay friends with most of em. They said we’d be better off as friends and I’m still numb. What do I do. for anyone who read my above post, it was Honeybee. If you read that it may give you some context to how much I need this person. Oh noooooo. I feel so sorry for you that hasn't happened to me yet (luckily) I hope that you find each other again. Sorry I can't provide advice but best of luck! - Aqua |
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Post by 🎃*:.｡. Rain .｡.:*🦇 on Mar 14, 2024 14:35:10 GMT -5
Color codes: yellowMy dog through up blood and I don’t know what to do and it was a good amount too. My mom called the vet and he has an appointment in like 30 minutes but I just got out of school and I wasn’t there when it happened. He has had a bit of diarrhea lately and we were gonna call the vet to get him tested for parasites anyways but then this happened. I’m really nervous . He’s acting normal but I still don’t know what to do and it’s stressing me out. I wish I knew what to do, but I hope he’s ok. Would you mind adding an edit when you get results from his appt? |
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Post by 🎄ᦓρ꠸ᥴꫀᠻꪖꪀᧁ🎅 on Mar 14, 2024 14:38:11 GMT -5
Color codes: yellowMy dog through up blood and I don’t know what to do and it was a good amount too. My mom called the vet and he has an appointment in like 30 minutes but I just got out of school and I wasn’t there when it happened. He has had a bit of diarrhea lately and we were gonna call the vet to get him tested for parasites anyways but then this happened. I’m really nervous . He’s acting normal but I still don’t know what to do and it’s stressing me out. I wish I knew what to do, but I hope he’s ok. Would you mind adding an edit when you get results from his appt? I’ll update on the situation. Thank you for hoping he’s okay, I think he’ll be fine but still. |
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Post by Leapkit on Mar 14, 2024 14:51:02 GMT -5
Hope it's nothing serious and the dog just ate something he wasn't supposed to. Vet stuff is always scary especially when it's something sudden...
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Post by 🎃*:.｡. Rain .｡.:*🦇 on Mar 14, 2024 19:31:24 GMT -5
Update: Vet said he should be fine since it was a one time thing and he hasn’t shown any other symptoms. They suspect it’s a parasite or possibly something he ate but they don’t want to test him to see if he ate a foreign object just yet because they don’t feel it’s necessary. They are testing his stool for parasites and put him on some medications. He seems fine, just tired but that’s most likely because he was at the vet for like an hour and he’s always tired after appointments. Me and my mom will be keeping a close eye on him though and will be patiently waiting for the results. Thank goodness he’s alright. Hope he gets better soon! |
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Post by Dark on Mar 15, 2024 17:56:58 GMT -5
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I hate the feeling of feeling like I don't exist and when everything just feels blurry. I want to feel like I'm real and I want to be present in the moment. I feel numb. I hate it. I'm either totally numb or too sensitive. Why can't I find a middle ground? Why can't I be normal? I feel broken.
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Derealizing for the forseeable future
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Post by Leapkit on Mar 15, 2024 19:38:33 GMT -5
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(Mentions of dissociation and depersonalization)
I hate the feeling of feeling like I don't exist and when everything just feels blurry. I want to feel like I'm real and I want to be present in the moment. I feel numb. I hate it. I'm either totally numb or too sensitive. Why can't I find a middle ground? Why can't I be normal? I feel broken.
As someone who dissociates a lot the best first thing you should do is actually figure out why or when you started dissociating as soon as you either catch yourself doing it or finally come out of it. A lot of people, including even some of my therapists have just gone "well you need to ground yourself uwu" when that's difficult to impossible. Not to mention if you're dissociating from overstimulation that's just going to make it worse if you're focusing on the environment that triggered hour flight response to begin with. I find it easier to just be mindful of it and take it as it comes and goes. If you can realize what the cause is its a lot easier to treat the issue instead of the symptom. |
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Post by whiteflight on Mar 15, 2024 21:39:43 GMT -5
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I have to vent about my horrible, lying grandma. (I would swear but I'm not going to try and anger myself again.) So what happens every day is that usually my grandma would call one of her daughters on the phone and cry and lie that "she can't walk" "she's too sick she can barely eat" or just talk drama. I would never think that she would do this to me. So she was outside at the campfire area at our yard and was just relaxing, when it was 12 o'clock I went inside the barn to collect the chicken eggs and let the chickens go outside to the net/safe area (we put a net on top so hawks can't get them and the chickens can't escape). Once I was done with checking to see if they had food and water I went back home to prepare food.
Time skip to 5 hours later, my mom came home and asked why the chickens were all outside. I was confused and saw that the barn door was open while the chickens were walking around outside. I told her I didn't open the door for them and that grandma probably did it, and that's when my grandma came home. My mom asked her why were the chickens outside and she said "oh Whiteflight let them outside" I got so mad told my mom that she was lying but my mom glared at me and asked me why I let them outside. Since I have horrible anger issue/control (because I wanted to grab a pan and smash my grandmother's head atm) I went to my room and locked myself for the whole day. Now if you're wondering why I hate my grandma so much it's because when my grandfather died she abandoned my dad and his sister when they were small children with my grandpa's brother and took only her favorites with her. Plus she lies a lot which is very annoying. Aldo my lower back has been in pain for days now and no one wants to massage it so that made me only angrier when all of the mess happened.
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Post by {Azure} on Mar 15, 2024 21:55:54 GMT -5
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my sister-in-law may have had a miscarriage... and I may never get to meet my nephew or niece. and worst of all, I can't cry. i-i don't remember how, I feel so much pain and I can't let it out and it's driving me insane. I... don't know how long I can take it...
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