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Post by Tealraven on Aug 17, 2023 11:47:41 GMT -5
It’s happening again. My state is on fire again. Several more popped up overnight thanks to lightning strikes.
They’re all at least 30 miles away this time, so it’s not a physical threat to me, but it’s still unsettling to be surrounded by wildfires and drowning in smoke. A major highway has been shut down and some 22,000 people could soon be without power indefinitely.
Stupid summer thunderstorm.
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Post by ! Wisp ! on Aug 20, 2023 20:38:16 GMT -5
TW/CW- Self-Harm/C*tting & Mention of Suicidal Thoughts More of a half-vent, but something I want to get off my chest. Ever since last night, I've been trying to unscrew a pencil sharpener, and tonight, I got it. I stood there for a moment before c*tting myself once. I started to panic once I realized I basically screwed up (bc I have family at home rn). I've been having really bad suicidal thoughts, but it just got bad today. So, I did what any person would do in this situation, texted my friend about what just happened to get help. And, that's what he did. Gave me steps on what to do, and talked for almost half an hour on the phone afterwards. I feel better than I was before, but shout out to him dude. A really chill & nice person. So, hopefully no one notices the scar, and we'll be good. |
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Post by Dɾҽαɱƈʅσυԃ on Aug 21, 2023 2:21:06 GMT -5
Heatwaves. Just heatwaves.
And sunburn despite applying sunscreen and staying in the shade for most of the day yesterday except for like ten minutes of walking in the sun because that one path leading to the animal park DID NOT HAVE A TREE IN SIGHT. Sorry for yelling.
My head hurts again...
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Post by Leapkit on Aug 21, 2023 14:40:02 GMT -5
I made an anonymous post somewhere about something and I am immediately overwhelmingly triggered by the response of "leave them" when it literally isn't that serious and I just wanted to vent where no one would know me.
The internet culture has completely rotted peoples ability to show sympathy for different points of view or the idea that personal relationships with other human beings take work and sometimes a lot of it and that that work is usually worth it. Everyone wants to abandon each other and label them "abusive" "narcissists" "toxic" over the slightest bump in the road and then wonder why personality disorders and feelings of loneliness are on the rise in the general population.
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Post by whispering on Aug 21, 2023 15:49:30 GMT -5
agh ready to move
i live in a neighborhood community that is not fenced unless your a homeowner and you built it yourself. this is a hazard for dog owner's like myself, so when i take my girl out she has a tie-off in the backyard or we walk around. she's a lab/bully mutt and she's on the smaller side. however my neighbor has two dogs that are never leashed. one xl bully and a pitbull mutt.
our yards are separated by a ditch but there's a small patch of land that can easily be crossed. because of this, i constantly have to check when i take out my girl because they are incredibly dog reactive and will cross over.
my girl knows her recall. these dogs don't seem to have one or if they do its not very good.
anyway, this is, what the 5th time now? that they've came into my yard while we were out(i had her on her tie-off today as its pretty hot out. and i am extremely pregnant), both of them jump on her aggressively, this is probably the worst instance. to the point my neighbor couldn't get control of them and i had to grab a shovel to get them away from my dog.
there has never been a time where they draw blood from my girl but still, its incredibly dangerous. especially with my current condition and my fiancee out on orders. he can only come home during the weekends so during the week i'm her sole provider. its just so frustrating. you would think after the first time the neighbors would take more precautions??? i sure have. i never leave her on her tie off alone anymore because i'm always paranoid they'll come out at any second.
thankfully my girls not injured but we're both pretty shaken up.
just ready to not have to worry about letting my dog out.
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Post by stupidflower on Aug 23, 2023 16:44:53 GMT -5
Got stung by a school of jellyfish. They wrapped all around my legs, one of my feet and a on my hand. My two cousins who were with me go stung too. It hurts like hell, especially when getting it treated with vinegar and whatever else. It didn’t ruin my vacation because I’m still having fun, but heck the burning sensation is annoying and is definitely painful. Holy crap! Are you doing better? Now I feel bad for occasionally trying to push washed up jellyfish back into the ocean |
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Post by Leapkit on Aug 23, 2023 17:27:07 GMT -5
its so hot im having trouble breathing and because i cant sweat im like dying in my own house. i sat in the bathtub full of cold water for 40 minutes just so i could have some relief but the air conditioner isn't really working at this point going into day 4 of this with at least 2-3 days left to go before the heat bubble collapses. i feel like my brain has turned to mush i can't take this.
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Post by 🎄ᦓρ꠸ᥴꫀᠻꪖꪀᧁ🎅 on Aug 24, 2023 20:55:23 GMT -5
Got stung by a school of jellyfish. They wrapped all around my legs, one of my feet and a on my hand. My two cousins who were with me go stung too. It hurts like hell, especially when getting it treated with vinegar and whatever else. It didn’t ruin my vacation because I’m still having fun, but heck the burning sensation is annoying and is definitely painful. Holy crap! Are you doing better? Now I feel bad for occasionally trying to push washed up jellyfish back into the ocean I’m feeling way better now. Thankfully the jellyfish weren’t very venomous, so the pain went away after a day or so. |
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Post by {Azure} on Aug 24, 2023 23:16:56 GMT -5
I made an anonymous post somewhere about something and I am immediately overwhelmingly triggered by the response of "leave them" when it literally isn't that serious and I just wanted to vent where no one would know me. The internet culture has completely rotted peoples ability to show sympathy for different points of view or the idea that personal relationships with other human beings take work and sometimes a lot of it and that that work is usually worth it. Everyone wants to abandon each other and label them "abusive" "narcissists" "toxic" over the slightest bump in the road and then wonder why personality disorders and feelings of loneliness are on the rise in the general population. sounds like a clasic case of uhhhhhh. prescription, stay away from twitter |
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Post by {Azure} on Aug 24, 2023 23:19:00 GMT -5
its so hot im having trouble breathing and because i cant sweat im like dying in my own house. i sat in the bathtub full of cold water for 40 minutes just so i could have some relief but the air conditioner isn't really working at this point going into day 4 of this with at least 2-3 days left to go before the heat bubble collapses. i feel like my brain has turned to mush i can't take this. that is not a house, that is hell. go in your fridge for a minute or two. |
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Post by Leapkit on Aug 25, 2023 6:08:05 GMT -5
I made an anonymous post somewhere about something and I am immediately overwhelmingly triggered by the response of "leave them" when it literally isn't that serious and I just wanted to vent where no one would know me. The internet culture has completely rotted peoples ability to show sympathy for different points of view or the idea that personal relationships with other human beings take work and sometimes a lot of it and that that work is usually worth it. Everyone wants to abandon each other and label them "abusive" "narcissists" "toxic" over the slightest bump in the road and then wonder why personality disorders and feelings of loneliness are on the rise in the general population. sounds like a clasic case of uhhhhhh. prescription, stay away from twitter im not on twitter. |
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Post by ! Wisp ! on Aug 25, 2023 11:55:35 GMT -5
Thank god Band Camp is over. Ik it technically ended yesterday, but we're going to a game today, so yeah. Tbh, I think it made my mental health worse, but I'm doing slightly better (key word here is- slightly). Hopefully when school starts in like, two days, everything will be better, and I can finally improve somewhat.
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Aug 25, 2023 13:23:12 GMT -5
Can my heart like. Stop with the palpitations already. It's been ten days.
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Post by Leapkit on Aug 25, 2023 13:42:17 GMT -5
Can my heart like. Stop with the palpitations already. It's been ten days. That is very concerning, I hope youre okay. It might be time to see someone about that.  |
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Post by Dark on Aug 25, 2023 13:51:27 GMT -5
ahghgghghg I hate psoriasis... it causes my hair to come out in small clumps (not ones that would be noticeable) but it's just annoying
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Aug 26, 2023 9:59:32 GMT -5
Can my heart like. Stop with the palpitations already. It's been ten days. That is very concerning, I hope youre okay. It might be time to see someone about that. I talked to my eldest brother about it last week, since he's a D.O. My heart flutters are not strong or close together, and he said as long as I'm not exhibiting any other symptoms then it's highly unlikely that it's something concerning. Sometimes they can be caused by really minor things like specific electrolyte deficiency. I checked with my sister too, since she's a P.A., and she agreed. At my brother's recommendation to be on the safe side, we got a portable EKG monitor. He said if anything were truly wrong (which he stressed was very unlikely for me) then it would be atrial fibrillation. But the EKG readings consistently say I have normal sinus rhythm so it's all good. It's just frustrating because the whole thing has also triggered an anxiety episode. I'm perfectly fine mentally, it's only the physical symptoms because my body's like "oueghh whats wrong whats happeningggg". Because, y'know, the heart ain't supposed to flutter like that normally so it puts the whole system on red alert. The palpitations are getting better and decreasing in frequency, but unfortunately it'll probably take a few weeks for the anxiety response to simmer down and realize everything is fine. |
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Post by Dɾҽαɱƈʅσυԃ on Aug 26, 2023 12:13:13 GMT -5
Having weather sensitivity induced headaches (due to rapid weather changes) once again is so much fun...
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Post by 🅃🄴🄼🄿🄾 on Aug 27, 2023 17:26:09 GMT -5
TW Mentions of Self-harm + Suicidal thoughts. A singular bad word. Very VERY long. So... the cutting situation hasn't gotten any better. If anything, it's gotten worse. I literally cannot stop, no matter what I do. I feel like I can't talk to anybody about because I don't want to be a burden or have somebody say, "But your life is perfect" or "you're just doing it for attention." Like, no, not really. I just want to take a knife and stab it into my chest and die, but I also don't want to die at the same time. My friends have no idea how I feel. I don't want to talk to my counselor about it or she might tell my parents and then they'll start to pity me.
On another note. My mom has no sisters and it shows. My sister and I don't necessarily fight, but we do have very different opinions. For example, her friend's son was going to have a birthday party and invite my niece, but my niece was going to be with her dad that weekend. My sister tells her friend not to invite the dad and my niece just because she isn't on good terms with the dad. Her friend does it anyways and then their friendship is broken. My take on this is that it's about the kids. Don't keep my niece away from her friend on his birthday just because you're on bad terms with her dad. I understand that her friend should've respected my sister's wishes, but still. You really wanna do that to the kids? Anyways, my mom and I were on a bike ride and my mom was like, "you need to stop fighting with your sister. It doesn't just effect you two, it also effects those around you." I was obviously kinda annoyed by her statement. I don't disagree, because, yes, it does effect the people around us. But she also needs to understand that my sister is a bit of a bitch and is very dramatic and selfish. My mom grew up with five brothers and no sisters. She has no idea what it's like to have a sister, so she just needs to stay out of it and let us handle it by ourselves. I understand she's trying to be a good mother, but still. |
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Post by Quill on Aug 27, 2023 19:30:38 GMT -5
That is very concerning, I hope youre okay. It might be time to see someone about that. I talked to my eldest brother about it last week, since he's a D.O. My heart flutters are not strong or close together, and he said as long as I'm not exhibiting any other symptoms then it's highly unlikely that it's something concerning. Sometimes they can be caused by really minor things like specific electrolyte deficiency. I checked with my sister too, since she's a P.A., and she agreed. At my brother's recommendation to be on the safe side, we got a portable EKG monitor. He said if anything were truly wrong (which he stressed was very unlikely for me) then it would be atrial fibrillation. But the EKG readings consistently say I have normal sinus rhythm so it's all good. It's just frustrating because the whole thing has also triggered an anxiety episode. I'm perfectly fine mentally, it's only the physical symptoms because my body's like "oueghh whats wrong whats happeningggg". Because, y'know, the heart ain't supposed to flutter like that normally so it puts the whole system on red alert. The palpitations are getting better and decreasing in frequency, but unfortunately it'll probably take a few weeks for the anxiety response to simmer down and realize everything is fine. If it makes you feel any better, I had a similar problem with heart palpitations and it turned out to be absolutely nothing; I got an EKG for it and everything. It got really bad (like, constant) for a while but then stopped and I haven't had problems since. My doctor said it's pretty common for some people to have palpitations and it isn't dangerous. Hopefully that's what's going on with you, too. Edit: It definitely can be scary while it's happening, though, because it seems like something is terribly wrong! |
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Post by Deleted on Aug 28, 2023 17:06:01 GMT -5
Minor vent, I know, but someone stole my cross chain and I’m in a bad mood because of it. I just left it at my desk for a few minutes and then it was gone. I don’t know who took it, or why they did, it’s just, ugh.
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Post by Leapkit on Aug 30, 2023 8:33:29 GMT -5
I wanna cut my hair so fricking bad right now, but I can't because my parents will freak out. Even if I ask to cut it really short, they'd be like, "you already got a hair cut this summer." I mean... I did, but it's not as short as I'd like it. Like, I want it to be SHORT, like boy hair short. Any tips? Honestly if you are alone one day I'd say just go for it, that's what I did. They can't un-cut your hair. I feel like that may cause a fight but I think your overall comfort matters more than their opinions of it. I understand your family is... not great to put it gently but sometimes you just gotta choose yourself and your own wants and needs and I think hair is the perfect amount of rebellion that won't harm anyone. You deserve that kind of freedom of choice about your own body. I have heard of people retaliating by shaving their kids bald though so I guess, be prepared that that could be a possibility if they want to be real assholes about it. But in this kind of a summer, that might not even be a terrible thing. It's hot hair sucks. |
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Post by Pixie on Aug 30, 2023 20:43:03 GMT -5
No one ever talks about how hard it is to make friends in your 20s or just close friends in general. All of my classes are online this year, but even when they weren’t, I wasn’t close to anyone at school save for one person. My friendships aren’t what they used to be and I just feel so lonely. My sister shipped off into the military like a month ago and I’m stuck in this house with my parents who argue and scream at each other and sometimes get physical (not as much as they used to though, thankfully). It’s so uncomfortable. My car is also not drivable currently, so I can’t come and go whenever. I don’t feel like I really have anyone to talk to. I’ve gained like 30 pounds within the past 6 months and even still, I don’t have the motivation to do anything about it. |
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Post by Dɾҽαɱƈʅσυԃ on Sept 5, 2023 2:44:32 GMT -5
I need the weather to be consistent (like good character writing) for once. These weather sensitivity induced headaches and sometimes migraines are getting on my last nerve (the amount of ibuprofen pills I have consumed is not great).
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Post by ! Wisp ! on Sept 6, 2023 21:53:44 GMT -5
TW-Mention of Suicide + Attempt at overd*sing I'm crying rn because I realized how much if I would've taken those pills in the bathroom stall at the past two games I've been at. I'm also starting to reconsider what I've been doing / planned out. Maybe it's because I told my senior friend what I was going to do the day after our first BOA (Bands of America) competition. Or maybe it's slowly re-learning what empathy feels like again. Idk if I'm getting better, but whatever it is- I'm glad for it. It's probably band + friends & gf, but I guess we'll never know. I'm also planning to write my friend a note to say thank you for listening to me and other stuff. Ik I could just text him that, but I feel like writing it down would be more effective than typing it.
Also, I am seeking help if you're worried about that. I just don't really have the confidince to tell my therapist everything. I also just don't want to go to the mental hospital lol. |
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Post by Tealraven on Sept 7, 2023 1:35:14 GMT -5
I don’t know how to get my dad to stop eating my personal snacks. I’ve tried putting them in a labeled box with a lid and he still takes them.
I’ve stopped buying some snacks altogether because they disappear too fast. I’ll buy myself a package of cookies and they’re half gone before I even get a chance to have one. Sometimes I eat dessert every night even if I don’t feel like it, because I’m afraid I won’t get to have any if I don’t.
I can’t tell if this is normal. I assume it is in big families with lots of kids. Maybe I’m just making a big deal out of nothing. Still, there’s only three of us, it shouldn’t be so hard to keep track of my snacks.
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Sept 7, 2023 8:44:54 GMT -5
I don’t know how to get my dad to stop eating my personal snacks. I’ve tried putting them in a labeled box with a lid and he still takes them. I’ve stopped buying some snacks altogether because they disappear too fast. I’ll buy myself a package of cookies and they’re half gone before I even get a chance to have one. Sometimes I eat dessert every night even if I don’t feel like it, because I’m afraid I won’t get to have any if I don’t. I can’t tell if this is normal. I assume it is in big families with lots of kids. Maybe I’m just making a big deal out of nothing. Still, there’s only three of us, it shouldn’t be so hard to keep track of my snacks. as someone from a big family, no that's not normal. i mean it's one thing if you bought snacks and people ate them up without knowing they were "yours". or if it was a general pot for the household. but if someone made it clear to everyone that those snacks were theirs and even labeled them in the pantry, someone else eating them would not fly in my fam. |
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Post by rabbit on Sept 7, 2023 16:16:03 GMT -5
Content warning: Ohio I hate transphobes, I hate that parental rights garbage spiel, I hate those pregnancy crisis centers that prey on desperate and poor people while spreading fear mongering lies about abortion (they are literally disinformation centers as their main function, don’t be fooled by ultrasounds and diapers they will give out to bait people in). I cannot wait to vote yes in October to protect reproductive rights and I hope most of Ohio agrees with me. I’ve been getting political ads about it recently coming from the aforementioned hated things, so it pissed me off. lol |
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Post by 🅃🄴🄼🄿🄾 on Sept 10, 2023 17:40:50 GMT -5
Another one of my long vents I miss my ex-best friend so much. We go to the same school, but we don't have any classes, except lunch, and we never talk to each other. Sometimes when I see her I just want to say hi or something and try and talk things out, but I never do. She held the door for me the other day and I told her thanks and almost started crying. I told my mom this and she told be it was because I cared about her and am a caring and kind person. That's not it though. I loved her as more than a best friend. Only a few select people knew this. She even knew, but she never did say if she liked me back or not. What hurts most is that we suddenly stopped speaking and never said a word about not being friends anymore. I love and hate her at the same time. I still have feelings for her, but I can't get them to go away. I remember when we were friends she would lay her head on my shoulder sometimes and she tried to hold my hand once, but it was in public so I wouldn't let her. If only I'd stayed in the same school last year we might still be friends. If only I wasn't so sensitive about being told what to do. If only I knew how to tell her I'm sorry. But I guess it's too late. I don't even know if she still wants to talk to me. I have urges to text her, but I can't. I changed my number and my mom doesn't want me trying to talk to her again. On a side note, I almost cut my hair today, but decided against it. I have school tomorrow and don't want my hair to look like a wreck, I might do it this weekend or something. A person at school told me I have to stop letting my parents control my life and that I'm a teenager and can make my own decisions. |
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