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Leapkit
Finder of Rare Friend Error
Derealizing for the forseeable future
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Post by Leapkit on Sept 20, 2023 16:35:20 GMT -5
he would rather hit the cat or lock him up in the bathroom for hours to punish him for peeing on the floor instead of cleaning the fking litterbox and actually cleaning the carpt so he doesnt keep peeing on the floor. no you throw a paper towel over it "to let it dry" stop "letting it dry" you lazy asshole the entire house smells like cat piss and you won't even let me go in there to clean it for you the next time you hit the cat i'm going to lose my marbles and beat the shit out of you
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Post by Pixie on Sept 20, 2023 21:30:32 GMT -5
Starting to get anxious for the future after seeing how prices for literally everything is going up significantly while wages only gradually increase.
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Sept 21, 2023 21:27:20 GMT -5
saw someone say that memento mori means "life is short so live it the way you want!" and i just |
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Post by valleylight on Sept 21, 2023 22:28:02 GMT -5
I feel like I’ve developed this tendency to overshare and lack levity (and brevity lol) in my posts. Gonna try to work on that after this post. I think I just miss having deep conversations with close friends in college. Everyone’s so busy with work and life now
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Post by brooksie on Sept 21, 2023 22:57:49 GMT -5
i just feel so sad a lot and im still not over stuff that i should be and its frustrating.
i have zero direction in life and very much feel like a failure despite just being a nearly 21 year old dude. so idk if its possible to have failed life at this age but i sure feel like i have after wasting the last 5 years of my life and taking on 20k in debt for a horrible school that just made me more sad
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Asexual
🩶Silverspark🩶
how do I keep getting money?!
Pronouns: She/her or cat pronouns
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Post by 🩶Silverspark🩶 on Sept 22, 2023 14:15:54 GMT -5
I confessed to my crush. The whole friend group is having problems and I think I made them worse. Him and his girlfriend are my besties and I don’t want them to break up at all and everyone is confused and yeah. Sometimes he’s sexist and sus and just not a good person, mots oh the time he’s ok tho
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Agender
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Name Colour
Leapkit
Finder of Rare Friend Error
Derealizing for the forseeable future
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Post by Leapkit on Sept 22, 2023 14:45:30 GMT -5
I confessed to my crush. The whole friend group is having problems and I think I made them worse. Him and his girlfriend are my besties and I don’t want them to break up at all and everyone is confused and yeah. Sometimes he’s sexist and sus and just not a good person, mots oh the time he’s ok tho Just gonna say it but if he is sexist and sus even just a little bit of the time he just isn't relationship material until he makes some major changes. Things like that might be ignorable in a casual friendship if but they are NOT in a romantic one. They're huge red flags that you're better off avoiding entirely. If he is willing to be that way in public I guarantee he is worse in private and that will lead to abuse I do not want to see you go through friend. Also if I could give you future advice if someone is already in a relationship it really isn't appropriate to confess to them unless you know they're already poly/open or something. And with a guy like that I very much worry he is going to weaponize your feelings against you or go behind her back. I know you're kinda young but "emotional cheating" is also absolutely a thing if he decides he wants to string both of you along. |
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Asexual
🩶Silverspark🩶
how do I keep getting money?!
Pronouns: She/her or cat pronouns
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Post by 🩶Silverspark🩶 on Sept 22, 2023 14:49:48 GMT -5
I confessed to my crush. The whole friend group is having problems and I think I made them worse. Him and his girlfriend are my besties and I don’t want them to break up at all and everyone is confused and yeah. Sometimes he’s sexist and sus and just not a good person, mots oh the time he’s ok tho Just gonna say it but if he is sexist and sus even just a little bit of the time he just isn't relationship material until he makes some major changes. Things like that might be ignorable in a casual friendship if but they are NOT in a romantic one. They're huge red flags that you're better off avoiding entirely. If he is willing to be that way in public I guarantee he is worse in private and that will lead to abuse I do not want to see you go through friend. Also if I could give you future advice if someone is already in a relationship it really isn't appropriate to confess to them unless you know they're already poly/open or something. And with a guy like that I very much worry he is going to weaponize your feelings against you or go behind her back. I know you're kinda young but "emotional cheating" is also absolutely a thing if he decides he wants to string both of you along. I know he doesn’t like me back and doesn’t wanna date me and I don’t care because I’ve liked him for over three years now and there’s no chance but it’s just been a stressful thing and he understands and we are still friends. The friend group’s relationship with him is shaky though |
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Post by Quill on Sept 27, 2023 19:17:39 GMT -5
My mom is considering putting down our cat (the one in my pfp), but he's not even that sick. He has a combination of herpes and allergies that make his tear ducts clog and drip this horrific goopy tar, and it looks painful but he's acting normally and is otherwise completely healthy. The problem is that his eye goop drips onto the floor, which is difficult for my mom to clean up. Her reasoning for wanting to put him down is that "it's hard to look at him" and "his eye goop is so hard to clean up all of the time," but those reasons aren't good enough in my opinion!? I would support putting him down if he was in pain/suffering, but he doesn't appear to be.
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Agender
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Leapkit
Finder of Rare Friend Error
Derealizing for the forseeable future
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Post by Leapkit on Sept 27, 2023 20:10:13 GMT -5
My mom is considering putting down our cat (the one in my pfp), but he's not even that sick. He has a combination of herpes and allergies that make his tear ducts clog and drip this horrific goopy tar, and it looks painful but he's acting normally and is otherwise completely healthy. The problem is that his eye goop drips onto the floor, which is difficult for my mom to clean up. Her reasoning for wanting to put him down is that "it's hard to look at him" and "his eye goop is so hard to clean up all of the time," but those reasons aren't good enough in my opinion!? I would support putting him down if he was in pain/suffering, but he doesn't appear to be. That's definitely not a reason to put him down. If she is determined to get rid of him though I would talk to your vet or someone about just rehoming him maybe to someplace that would be hypoallergenic and better able to care for it before it becomes an infection. I got a random hunch and a question though: does your mom use diffusers or other scents around the house a lot? |
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Post by Quill on Sept 27, 2023 20:27:49 GMT -5
My mom is considering putting down our cat (the one in my pfp), but he's not even that sick. He has a combination of herpes and allergies that make his tear ducts clog and drip this horrific goopy tar, and it looks painful but he's acting normally and is otherwise completely healthy. The problem is that his eye goop drips onto the floor, which is difficult for my mom to clean up. Her reasoning for wanting to put him down is that "it's hard to look at him" and "his eye goop is so hard to clean up all of the time," but those reasons aren't good enough in my opinion!? I would support putting him down if he was in pain/suffering, but he doesn't appear to be. That's definitely not a reason to put him down. If she is determined to get rid of him though I would talk to your vet or someone about just rehoming him maybe to someplace that would be hypoallergenic and better able to care for it before it becomes an infection. I got a random hunch and a question though: does your mom use diffusers or other scents around the house a lot? Nope, she doesn't use any diffusers or anything scented. And both she and my dad are veterinarians, so it's hard to figure there's a better home for him out there in terms of care. They've worked hard to try different medications and eliminate possible allergens in the house, even going so far as to keep the windows shut at all times. I appreciate the suggestion, though. I think if my fiancee and I protest enough she'll listen to us, but it's still sad to hear her talk like that. |
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Post by {Azure} on Sept 28, 2023 9:28:07 GMT -5
holy f*ck do i have to rant today
my homophobic mother found out about me being bi yesterday and talked to me for an hour about it. i know i have it better than most but it still made me feel like shit, she was using a condesending tone as if i was a 5 year old and started getting off topic talking about all the shit in the world today, to addiction, to dui and brought up the time my friend died in a dui car accident and painted the woman who caused like an "irresponsible bitch" when that same woman got charged with dui and 1st degree manslaughter when she had no one to get her home that day because she was abused and conteplated suicide after my friend died (not excusing her from killing my friend but still being a little sympathetic) my mom had the audacity to open that wound after i cried for weeks after she died. back to the topic at hand, she thinks "bisexuality doesn't exist" and "theres no in between, you're either straight or gay" she also told me to stay away from my lgbtq friends at school (which i obviously won't do) and called trans people "mentally ill"
so yeah thank you for listening to me rant and blow off some steam
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Omnisexual
🅃🄴🄼🄿🄾
Being a theater kid
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Post by 🅃🄴🄼🄿🄾 on Sept 28, 2023 21:29:06 GMT -5
Tw: Talk of su*c*de and self-harm + my huge, long vents At school we had a talk about su*c*de and preventing it and stuff. I texted my mom about it, letting her know how my day was going and what we'd been learning. So she was like, "How did you feel about that?" I responded with "Meh" And she mentioned about how the other night we'd talked about self-harm and how if I did it that my family would be devastated. I obviously had to play it off like I'd never done that before. I told her no, because it literally had no affect on me rather than making me feel nervous. I then asked her, "Did you think I was su*c*dal?" Again, playing it off like I wasn't. And she told me that, yes, she was worried I was. I know I should probably tell somebody, other than strangers on the internet, about it, but I don't want them to judge me. I have a much better life than most people and I don't want them to be like, "Your life is so good though, you have no reason to be like this. You just want attention."
I also don't know if my mom is suspicious of me being transgender. I've told her that I'm very insecure about my chest and that I'd like to cut my hair shorter. Upon asking about cutting my hair, she asked me if I wanted it boy short and I said no, cause that would probably turn into a whole spiel about how girls can't have short hair or something. We're currently trying to do something about my chest, starting with physical therapy. If the physical therapy doesn't help that much, which it hasn't, then we could get insurance to pay for surgery. |
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Post by dahliadove - #1 nightpelt fan on Oct 3, 2023 5:33:13 GMT -5
I hate when I watch a new show and suddenly I have a cast of characters from that show constantly sitting as an audience to my every move and judging me
I hate that I've had a fictional world in my head since 2020 full of dozens of characters and I'm always lost daydreaming about it so I never have time to do work or take care of myself or do my physiotherapy because I can't tear myself away from the daydreaming and now I have really AWFUL knees and might need surgery soon (but I'm being borderline medically neglected and my mother would probably forget to schedule the surgery)
I hate that I always think people are watching me judging me and every time I have an interaction with someone, even one of my close friends, I'll analyse every last detail and every outcome for every possible thing I could've said and how it would affect their perception of me. I hate that I think I did or said the wrong things after I've fully analysed the situation and that they hate me forever now
I hate that my hearing is so terrible and people get mad at me for it, because they have to repeat things several times for me to be able to hear
I hate that one little slip-up will make me think some of my closest friends hate me. I hate that I hate some things. That sounds weird. I hate when my body is in constant aching pain, I hate when I hide things from people, I hate that I sprained my wrist yesterday and was struggling to do mundane tasks this morning like buttoning up my shirt and putting on a jacket.
I hate that my brain works differently from other people's, and I hate how that makes me sound like I think I'm "unique" or "quirky". I hate that I go to school feeling like nobody actually understands who I am, and then I hate myself for thinking that because it just sounds corny even though I genuinely don't feel like I show my true personality to anyone. I hate that when I do anything I'll think to myself "this isn't how I actually act" because my own personality feels foreign to myself despite me having it for 14 years.
And my god, I ****ing HATE MATH
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Post by User33 on Oct 3, 2023 20:12:08 GMT -5
I can never remember stuff in specific moments and I hate it so much like Lord why did I have to be born stupid. Messed up a couple orders at work one time a while back and I still just wonder why I did WHEN I WAS TAUGHT HOW TO DO IT. Like damn. Maybe Im just incompetent f
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*Ravenpaw*
Warrior Fanatic
*reads books in a corner*
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Post by *Ravenpaw* on Oct 3, 2023 22:09:50 GMT -5
Hate when I feel so uncomfortable around people irl. :/
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Agender
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Leapkit
Finder of Rare Friend Error
Derealizing for the forseeable future
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Post by Leapkit on Oct 3, 2023 23:09:26 GMT -5
i regret saying anything right after posting this so its gone now
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Aroace
#b6efff
Name Colour
Dɾҽαɱƈʅσυԃ
Villain Enjoyer
Arcane Season 2 has got me in a chokehold once again (do not send help)
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Post by Dɾҽαɱƈʅσυԃ on Oct 6, 2023 4:16:14 GMT -5
I stan fall (or autumn). It's my favorite season. But the weather changes are messing me up (due to weather sensitivity induced headaches and migraines). Oh look, here comes one now. Ugh.
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Post by theblueberrycat on Oct 11, 2023 9:15:53 GMT -5
Recently kicked out of a friend group for being a furry sand mlp fan. I wasn’t active all the time in the group but it still hurt. I think they may have been transphobic as well so may not have been a total loss but I hate that I can never just be myself for very long before someone is like “ew a trans person” “ew a furry” or “oh no an autistic mlp fan!” I know it’s not that big of a deal but still
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Agender
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Leapkit
Finder of Rare Friend Error
Derealizing for the forseeable future
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Post by Leapkit on Oct 11, 2023 18:58:12 GMT -5
very cool and not at all threatening that my ex sends me an email over the weekend about what a terrible person i am and then messages me pictures of weapons he bought over discord.
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Aroace
🎄ᦓρ꠸ᥴꫀᠻꪖꪀᧁ🎅
if you need me ill be listening to sweater weather by the neighborhood on repeat
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Post by 🎄ᦓρ꠸ᥴꫀᠻꪖꪀᧁ🎅 on Oct 11, 2023 19:04:30 GMT -5
very cool and not at all threatening that my ex sends me an email over the weekend about what a terrible person i am and then messages me pictures of weapons he bought over discord. Okay wtf that’s actually super weird and creepy I’d suggest cutting off all communication with them |
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Leapkit
Finder of Rare Friend Error
Derealizing for the forseeable future
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Post by Leapkit on Oct 11, 2023 19:07:32 GMT -5
very cool and not at all threatening that my ex sends me an email over the weekend about what a terrible person i am and then messages me pictures of weapons he bought over discord. Okay wtf that’s actually super weird I’d suggest cutting off all communication with them Yeah I've vented about him before and just to tldr I basically can't, cause he already knows where i live and I feel safer giving him little bits of attention he asks for so he doesn't like. completely flip out and come to my house. |
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Leapkit
Finder of Rare Friend Error
Derealizing for the forseeable future
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Post by Leapkit on Oct 11, 2023 19:10:24 GMT -5
Oh to make things worse he is moving closer to me and is still somehow under the impression that will make it easier to see me and get back together and im like hmmmm i am not doing that.
i really love where i live but im gonna have to move sometime within the next year when the lease is up cause i want no part of being threatened anymore. after i make sure he doesn't know where i am i am going back to blocking him everywhere immediately.
thank god i already got a new phone so he doesnt know my new number.
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Post by Tealraven on Oct 11, 2023 19:59:09 GMT -5
It’s weird that I felt more at home in another state than in my own.
In Utah there was no trash or human feces on the sidewalk, no needles on the floor in public bathrooms, no constant smell of weed, no tents on public property or shopping carts full of garbage bags on the side of the road, no mentally ill shirtless dudes hollering at me from street corners or sharpening machetes outside the drugstore, no panhandling, hardly any graffiti, and things like camping gear and toiletries weren’t locked up in glass cases to keep people from walking out with it - all things I’ve experienced in my hometown. In Utah everything felt so much cleaner and safer.
It’s such a shame because Oregon really is a beautiful place, but the idiots in Portland and Salem seem determined to drag the rest of us down with them.
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Post by ! Wisp ! on Oct 11, 2023 21:31:06 GMT -5
Istg I'm too nice to people. My ex & were friends until she implied that a friend of mine and I's friendship was the eventual downfall of our former relationship. Which is not the case at all, it's bc of mental health. Now why this specific friend you may ask? Bc this is the one who I have really bad attachment issues with; and I explained that to her but she said that I "shouldn't be attached to seniors still". While she has not said that friendship was the cause of it; she has heavily implied that. I even think she's still in love with me, trying to get me back somehow.
Now, I would stop talking to her if she didn't keep coming up to me and start talking. I even avoided her to 2 days, and she didn't catch on. I would tell that I don't want to hang out with her anymore; but I don't want to sound like a bitch. Plus, every time I sit down boundaries w/certain ppl, I'm always either the villain or get shitted on for no reason. But I think Im just gonna ignore her to the best my abilities starting tomorrow. I don't want to hang out with an ex bc she thought a friendship was the fall of our relationship & not my mental health.
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Post by Quill on Oct 11, 2023 21:32:04 GMT -5
very cool and not at all threatening that my ex sends me an email over the weekend about what a terrible person i am and then messages me pictures of weapons he bought over discord. Oh my god! That's terrifying. I'm so sorry you're in that position. |
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Post by whiteflight on Oct 14, 2023 1:25:15 GMT -5
I feel guilty for the death of one of my dad's favorite chicken. We have hawks and falcons around the area we live in but they learned to stay away from the farm because we're always there protecting our chickens, because of that we let our chickens run around free outside. We have two places we keep the chickens one at the barn and the other at the garage.
One day I let the chickens at the garage go outside while I went back into the house to eat. I forgot to open the kitchen window so I can listen to them to tell if a hawk/falcon is attacking them. The next day my dad saw that one if his favorite chicken is gone and all that's left of it is some chicken feathers. We went into the forest to search for it, into it's hiding places, and to it's hangout area but we couldn't find it at all so we knew a hawk/falcon took it. I feel guilty because I'm suppose to protect them while my parents are gone and because of that hawk/falcon attack that chicken's brother and sister are acting differently. The brother use to be brave, and strong, now he's scared and panicking every time he's alone. The sister is too afraid to even go outside of the garage and just stays inside all day.
I know it's the circle of life and that animals eat each other but I just feel like I could have prevented that chickens death if I had opened the window that day. I prevented so many chickens/baby chicks death but why did I have to mess up this one time.
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Post by Quill on Oct 17, 2023 19:57:40 GMT -5
My university forgot to charge my tuition, so I reminded them about it. Then, today they charged me £188,000!!!! Tuition is only £20,000, and I have a scholarship for £13,000. Needless to say I'm freaking out right now, and I will call them in the morning when they open. On top of that, these incompetent people (they've messed up other things, too) are in charge of sending a paper transcript to the law school admissions council. If they don't do it correctly, I won't be able to submit any of my applications.
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