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Post by Sand on Mar 31, 2023 9:13:40 GMT -5
I'm getting annoyed/mad at my mom for wanting me to get brain surgery to take out my brain tumor. Yes I know she's worried about me and wants me to have a normal life but I fear about getting it taken out. It's a tumor that's deep in my brain. I know technology has advanced but I can't stop fearing about it!!!! For everyone who's reading about this just to let you know I was born with this tumor and this tumor is a noncancerous tumor. Plus it has not grown at all it's just giving me seizures. Brain surgery is a super scary thing. Depending on where it is and how big it is it could potentially be riskier to get rid of it than leave it. Ultimately, it is your choice and your decision. If it does grow or become cancerous you should reconsider, cause at that point it would be deadlier to leave it. I have been fearing and putting of my own brain surgery for over 2 years now cause I am equally as scared tbh. I agree with Stargoon here. I’ve had 3 brain surgeries and the first was probably the most scariest one I ever went through. They removed a small piece of brain at that time. Recovery was very quick which was really weird to me. Second and third surgeries were harder to recover from. I think the location and how big the tumor is part of your decision here. If it’s too complex and in a difficult spot, removal is usually up to you and the surgeon. If it’s cancerous or has grown, I think reconsidering would be a better option. I personally believe that living a normal life with seizures is very very very difficult to achieve. |
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Post by whiteflight on Mar 31, 2023 23:55:34 GMT -5
Brain surgery is a super scary thing. Depending on where it is and how big it is it could potentially be riskier to get rid of it than leave it. Ultimately, it is your choice and your decision. If it does grow or become cancerous you should reconsider, cause at that point it would be deadlier to leave it. I have been fearing and putting of my own brain surgery for over 2 years now cause I am equally as scared tbh. I agree with Stargoon here. I’ve had 3 brain surgeries and the first was probably the most scariest one I ever went through. They removed a small piece of brain at that time. Recovery was very quick which was really weird to me. Second and third surgeries were harder to recover from. I think the location and how big the tumor is part of your decision here. If it’s too complex and in a difficult spot, removal is usually up to you and the surgeon. If it’s cancerous or has grown, I think reconsidering would be a better option. I personally believe that living a normal life with seizures is very very very difficult to achieve. I would like to thank you and Stargoon for giving me some advice about all of this. Though I'll still think about it and research about it cause of the huge fear. |
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Arcane Season 2 has got me in a chokehold once again (do not send help)
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Post by Dɾҽαɱƈʅσυԃ on Apr 1, 2023 12:46:26 GMT -5
While it's kind of great that I only get actually sick like every two years or so, it then hitting me full force is never fun and this time's no exception. I can't think properly, can't breathe, smell or even hear and have even more problems with headaches and a stiff jaw than usual. Excited for this cold to be over, hopefully soon...
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Post by whiteflight on Apr 2, 2023 23:19:22 GMT -5
wow realizing the person you are with is not the one really freaking hurts I hope everything is going well/smoothly for you. |
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thank you kate cary
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Post by 🍄🎶✨Brambleheart✨🎶🍄 on Apr 5, 2023 13:34:01 GMT -5
tried (and failed) to get a filling yesterday, thanks a lot autism for making me have a meltdown and being a coward
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Apr 5, 2023 17:55:41 GMT -5
tried (and failed) to get a filling yesterday, thanks a lot autism for making me have a meltdown and being a coward Fillings are scary!! At least to me they are until I’m actually in the dentist’s chair getting it worked on, then I’m like oh okay this is fine. |
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Post by valleylight on Apr 6, 2023 20:09:27 GMT -5
tried (and failed) to get a filling yesterday, thanks a lot autism for making me have a meltdown and being a coward I relate so much, I got my first filling ever today and I was so nervous about it. I was trembling the whole time, but my dentist was super patient. The hygienist put a gel anesthetic on first, and I literally didn’t feel a thing the whole time. I hope it’s okay to share my experience with you! |
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Post by Deleted on Apr 7, 2023 14:24:58 GMT -5
I really don’t know why he thought that was “funny”
Now my friend’s going to get in trouble and I feel awful because I knew what he was like but I didn’t say anything.
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Post by Leapkit on Apr 9, 2023 13:16:34 GMT -5
Disturbed and quite frankly freaked out that another random trans person who is local to me (in the same city) is going on and talking about how much they want to kill transphobes/someone for using the wrong word in an otherwise positive post by sheer ignorance tbh, is trying to lump me either in with them, or as someone they'd shoot too. Looking at their profile is a whole slew of stuff about local policies (which I too am mad about) but also that they seem to be stockpiling guns and this isn't the first unhinged rant they've gone on lately about owning and using weapons on other people.
Hoping to god they don't try to find me and further hoping they seek help and don't turn up into another Nashville shooter.
Like frankly I understand trans rage I've been there but holy shit what's wrong with people?
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Post by Quill on Apr 9, 2023 18:49:51 GMT -5
That's terrifying and sad. Is there a way you can report them so that they don't hurt anyone?
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Post by Leapkit on Apr 9, 2023 18:58:55 GMT -5
I dont know, and I don't really feel comfortable doing that either because i also dont want to put them in danger either. Its complicated.
One of my other friends let me know that they did have a gun pointed at them and threatened in the past so their comments were probably more reactionary than serious but not knowing them or their history it sure didnt come across like that.
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Post by Leapkit on Apr 10, 2023 13:26:16 GMT -5
I think my body is broken ive taken my vitamins and eaten a lot and my body is still continuously telling me im hungry-- like literally sending the signal as if i haven't eaten and feeling ""empty"" stomach squeeze-- even if i have eaten to the point i can't eat anymore or I will throw up.
I don't know what my body needs or is asking for I don't want to be hungry anymore.
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if you need me ill be listening to sweater weather by the neighborhood on repeat
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Post by 🎄ᦓρ꠸ᥴꫀᠻꪖꪀᧁ🎅 on Apr 10, 2023 14:37:01 GMT -5
I think my body is broken ive taken my vitamins and eaten a lot and my body is still continuously telling me im hungry-- like literally sending the signal as if i haven't eaten and feeling ""empty"" stomach squeeze-- even if i have eaten to the point i can't eat anymore or I will throw up. I don't know what my body needs or is asking for I don't want to be hungry anymore. Have you tried drinking lots of water and fluids? I’ve had this happen to me before and it was because I was dehydrated. |
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Post by Leapkit on Apr 10, 2023 14:41:00 GMT -5
I think my body is broken ive taken my vitamins and eaten a lot and my body is still continuously telling me im hungry-- like literally sending the signal as if i haven't eaten and feeling ""empty"" stomach squeeze-- even if i have eaten to the point i can't eat anymore or I will throw up. I don't know what my body needs or is asking for I don't want to be hungry anymore. Have you tried drinking lots of water and fluids? I’ve had this happen to me before and it was because I was dehydrated. Oh. That might be my problem. I'm constantly forgetting/skipping drinking water because I hate having to pee. 🥴 |
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🎄ᦓρ꠸ᥴꫀᠻꪖꪀᧁ🎅
if you need me ill be listening to sweater weather by the neighborhood on repeat
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Post by 🎄ᦓρ꠸ᥴꫀᠻꪖꪀᧁ🎅 on Apr 10, 2023 16:21:09 GMT -5
Have you tried drinking lots of water and fluids? I’ve had this happen to me before and it was because I was dehydrated. Oh. That might be my problem. I'm constantly forgetting/skipping drinking water because I hate having to pee. 🥴 Its fine! If it isn’t this, you may have not had enough sleep or rest. |
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Apr 10, 2023 19:11:44 GMT -5
I also often don’t get “thirsty” and instead confuse it for hunger. And I also hate peeing ten times per day.
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Post by Leapkit on Apr 20, 2023 0:38:06 GMT -5
Sorry for trauma dumping!!! It's because I have literally no good memories lol. :^)
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Post by Shadowfire on Apr 20, 2023 7:01:33 GMT -5
Damn, I simply don't have any friends.
I'm shy, but when I have friends they say "You are following us everytime, please stop being a bubblegum." I can't stop. It's my personality. In my whole life I didn't had a best friend that I was a best friend for them. Bubblegums are made for trowing away, just like me..
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Apr 20, 2023 9:23:42 GMT -5
Just learned my Grandma only has 24-48hrs left. 😖 We were gonna go see her tonight (and still will) but she is unresponsive. Trying to keep it together at work.
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Apr 21, 2023 8:36:13 GMT -5
Just learned my Grandma only has 24-48hrs left. 😖 We were gonna go see her tonight (and still will) but she is unresponsive. Trying to keep it together at work. She passed away during the night. I'm glad it was quick and not drawn out, that's what she would have wanted. And she was ready to go. But the decline and death happened very suddenly and I will really miss her. |
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Post by Leapkit on Apr 21, 2023 14:29:12 GMT -5
Just learned my Grandma only has 24-48hrs left. 😖 We were gonna go see her tonight (and still will) but she is unresponsive. Trying to keep it together at work. She passed away during the night. I'm glad it was quick and not drawn out, that's what she would have wanted. And she was ready to go. But the decline and death happened very suddenly and I will really miss her. I hope you got to see her. If you need anything at all please let me know. //virtual hugs |
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Post by *Ravenpaw* on Apr 21, 2023 22:15:45 GMT -5
Just learned my Grandma only has 24-48hrs left. 😖 We were gonna go see her tonight (and still will) but she is unresponsive. Trying to keep it together at work. She passed away during the night. I'm glad it was quick and not drawn out, that's what she would have wanted. And she was ready to go. But the decline and death happened very suddenly and I will really miss her. Sorry for your loss. ): |
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Apr 26, 2023 12:17:18 GMT -5
Thanks y'all, I appreciate it. I did get to see her the night before she passed, we said a rosary with my mom beside her bed (as she was unconscious). But my last "real" memory of her was from a few weeks ago, when she waved goodbye to us from her apartment window after bingo. A good memory.
Honestly, the hard part isn't so much accepting that she has died. It's more so having to realize on a daily basis that I'm now living in a world without her in it; such a weird feeling, like everything is slightly to the left or something. Also worried about my mom and how she's taking it all.
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how do people make their signatures look so good???? I can't even figure out how to format an image
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Post by Gekko on Apr 27, 2023 13:41:57 GMT -5
My great-uncle recently died of cancer. My mum is really upset about it, but to be honest, I really don't care, and I don't know how to pretend that I do. I've always been like this with death, but it felt like before, I wasn't expected to understand empathy, since I was so much younger than I am now. The funeral is coming up this, and I'm stressed enough with the idea of conversing with relatives I don't know, who's only connection to me is hearing me through my grandpa, who frequently misgenders me (accidentally). It's too late to cancel at this point, but I'm not sure I can face talking to anyone.
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Post by Tealraven on Apr 28, 2023 14:00:19 GMT -5
Had a couple of unexpected health scares with mom this week. Thankfully, none of it was too serious, but still — I’m wiped out and I want things to go back to normal soon. The person I would normally turn to for comfort is the person having health issues, so I’m kind of on my own for now.
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Post by Quill on Apr 30, 2023 11:47:46 GMT -5
Trying to find housing in the Netherlands is freaking impossible, especially for a foreign couple without an income and no "boots on the ground" to go to apartment viewings.
Everyone I try to talk to about it says "oh, there's gotta be a way! Your scholarship is such an amazing opportunity!" They mean well, but as anyone in the urban areas of the Netherlands will tell you, it might actually be impossible.
The most stressful part is the uncertainty. At what point do I give up and move to my Plan B, which is to stay in the US and apply for JD/PhD programs? If I don't expend an insane amount of time/effort/money into finding housing in the Netherlands, will I regret not doing everything in my power to take advantage of a great opportunity to further my education (and leave the US, if only temporarily)? Is it worth flying to the Netherlands just to attend apartment viewings that I might not get?
This situation is really damaging my mental health. It wouldn't be so bad if the persecution of trans people in the US weren't looming over my shoulder. I would never forgive myself if transphobic candidates won the 2024 national elections and started a nationwide campaign against trans people and I didn't do everything in my power to leave when I could. But at the same time, I can't operate under the assumption that this is what will happen. Even if it did, I'm not sure spending 2 years in the Netherland would really help me escape the situation because my student visa would only be valid for a few years. Also, the educational opportunities in the US are more exciting to me and will get me further in my desired career.
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Post by Sand on May 2, 2023 14:23:58 GMT -5
Trying to find housing in the Netherlands is freaking impossible, especially for a foreign couple without an income and no "boots on the ground" to go to apartment viewings. Everyone I try to talk to about it says "oh, there's gotta be a way! Your scholarship is such an amazing opportunity!" They mean well, but as anyone in the urban areas of the Netherlands will tell you, it might actually be impossible. The most stressful part is the uncertainty. At what point do I give up and move to my Plan B, which is to stay in the US and apply for JD/PhD programs? If I don't expend an insane amount of time/effort/money into finding housing in the Netherlands, will I regret not doing everything in my power to take advantage of a great opportunity to further my education (and leave the US, if only temporarily)? Is it worth flying to the Netherlands just to attend apartment viewings that I might not get? This situation is really damaging my mental health. It wouldn't be so bad if the persecution of trans people in the US weren't looming over my shoulder. I would never forgive myself if transphobic candidates won the 2024 national elections and started a nationwide campaign against trans people and I didn't do everything in my power to leave when I could. But at the same time, I can't operate under the assumption that this is what will happen. Even if it did, I'm not sure spending 2 years in the Netherland would really help me escape the situation because my student visa would only be valid for a few years. Also, the educational opportunities in the US are more exciting to me and will get me further in my desired career. I understand your situation because my family did the same. We were looking at apartments or houses to rent from, using a website where the majority of real estate companies or landlords post their properties. It's always uncertain when you can't go check out the place yourself, especially when preparing a move. My parents and I got lucky because we have family in the same country. They were the ones to check it out and we used video calls to see it. The landlord's been nice, he took a gamble on us. I think it may be worth a trip if you are able to check out the apartments in person. I guess if I were in your shoes, I would choose to visit only if I'm 100% sure that I want to live abroad & go to school in the Netherlands. If I was not sure, I wouldn't plan a trip to visit apartments. I know there's a few websites like the one I used. If you want any help, you can let me know. If you don't have the funds to travel, you could always contact the landlord/company who owns it and ask if they can video call you. Sometimes they will allow you to see apartments that way. I'm sorry that is how things are going in the USA.  For a country like it was (at least when I left.. not great whatsoever), the way it is going with its laws... is scary as hell. Transphobic people are disgusting and they do not deserve a place in politics, nor many other places. I hope you can find a solution that works for you and your partner. |
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Post by Quill on May 2, 2023 19:27:35 GMT -5
SandThank you so much for your response. Based on our knowledge of our situation and input from others who are familiar with the housing crisis (including you), my fiancée and I have decided that we will plan on staying in the US unless we win the University's housing lottery.
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For a country like it was (at least when I left.. not great whatsoever), the way it is going with its laws... is scary as hell. Transphobic people are disgusting and they do not deserve a place in politics, nor many other places.