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Post by Leapkit on Mar 14, 2023 15:56:54 GMT -5
Still havent seen her go to the bathroom but she did finally eat a significant amount and i think had some more water but we managed to schedule a vet visit sooner for 530 today so i guess i'll post back in anouther couple hours.
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Post by Leapkit on Mar 14, 2023 18:10:46 GMT -5
They couldn't do an ultrasound there so we gotta call the other animal hospital but she probably has fluid in her lungs on top of her thyroid being a bit worse, and a fever. Also being a little dehydrated which I wasn't surprised since she hasn't drank or ate. They had a hard time listening to her heart since the rattle from breathing is so bad and she's full body breathing and struggling.
They gave her an antibiotic for now, since we can't do anything till tomorrow sinc its late and neither of us wanted to make that kind of decision right away.
I'm not exactly hopeful.
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Post by Leapkit on Mar 14, 2023 18:15:21 GMT -5
He's a mess but I think honestly if it were totally up to me i'd just call them to send someone for at home euthenasia and start making her comfortable because hearing her breathe that heavy and cough just from walking like 2 feet to get food is already killing me inside but it's his cat and I can't make that kind of call when he really wants to wait and try.
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Post by Tealraven on Mar 14, 2023 20:42:05 GMT -5
I wish I wasn’t hypervigilant about whether or not people like me and terrified of confrontation and overly sensitive to criticism
Sharing my opinion often activates my fight-or-flight and whenever someone disagrees with me I take it personally and start bracing myself for an increasingly angry circular debate that I can’t escape until I say “nevermind, sorry”
It’s like a switch I can never turn off and I hate it.
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Post by Leapkit on Mar 14, 2023 22:29:31 GMT -5
I wish I wasn’t hypervigilant about whether or not people like me and terrified of confrontation and overly sensitive to criticism Sharing my opinion often activates my fight-or-flight and whenever someone disagrees with me I take it personally and start bracing myself for an increasingly angry circular debate that I can’t escape until I say “nevermind, sorry” It’s like a switch I can never turn off and I hate it. im really sorry if this has anything to do w the time change, that wasnt my intent just a different perspective to say hey maybe not everyone is as overreacting as you night think and just making discussion. if not then im sorry anyway cause i get the same way and rejection sensitive dysphoria do be a b sometimes. ily friend. |
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Post by Tealraven on Mar 14, 2023 23:21:20 GMT -5
I wish I wasn’t hypervigilant about whether or not people like me and terrified of confrontation and overly sensitive to criticism Sharing my opinion often activates my fight-or-flight and whenever someone disagrees with me I take it personally and start bracing myself for an increasingly angry circular debate that I can’t escape until I say “nevermind, sorry” It’s like a switch I can never turn off and I hate it. im really sorry if this has anything to do w the time change, that wasnt my intent just a different perspective to say hey maybe not everyone is as overreacting as you night think and just making discussion. if not then im sorry anyway cause i get the same way and rejection sensitive dysphoria do be a b sometimes. ily friend. the time change? not at all. i didn’t respond to the thread again bc i had nothing else to say and then forgot about it tbh just me panicking over something i said irl because i thought i offended someone and they were going to yell at me. again. spoiler alert they didn’t, in hindsight it was actually Not A Big Deal, and i didn’t start an argument just by giving my opinion, i was just over analyzing a simple social interaction. again. but thank you, ily too. sorry you have to deal with the same rotten feelings. |
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Post by Leapkit on Mar 15, 2023 15:56:30 GMT -5
I thought she was doing slightly better yesterday but she is twice as bad today.
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Post by Leapkit on Mar 16, 2023 1:10:43 GMT -5
Im so exhausted but i feel like if i sleep im gonna wake up to a dead cat and my hair is literally falling out. I pulled off like a clump of hair in the shower when i was washing it earlier. 🧍
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Post by Leapkit on Mar 16, 2023 16:09:17 GMT -5
emergency vet said that there's probably nothing they can do even without having fully xrayed her chest she is too bad. even if they tapped her chest she might pass anyway.
we're taking her home and making her comfy and calling an at home euthanasia service tomorrow so she doesn't have to be alone or have to deal with another car ride to make her panic cause it feels like shit how bad she is panicking here in a cold room.
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Post by Turin not Torino on Mar 17, 2023 0:06:23 GMT -5
I am so sorry Leap. I feel absolutely gutted for both you and Dakota. At least she'll be comfortable at home in the end?
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Post by Dark Sun on Mar 17, 2023 1:12:25 GMT -5
emergency vet said that there's probably nothing they can do even without having fully xrayed her chest she is too bad. even if they tapped her chest she might pass anyway. we're taking her home and making her comfy and calling an at home euthanasia service tomorrow so she doesn't have to be alone or have to deal with another car ride to make her panic cause it feels like shit how bad she is panicking here in a cold room. I'm so, so sorry. So terribly sorry. Take all the time you need. My DM's are open if you need me, please don't hesitate to reach out if you need extra support. |
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Post by Leapkit on Mar 17, 2023 1:41:02 GMT -5
I really appreciate it I'm sorry im spamming the whole thread the good news is I'll shut up soon.
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Post by Quill on Mar 17, 2023 8:06:40 GMT -5
I wasn't sure if it was appropriate or not, but I also want to express my sympathy for you, Camille, and everyone who loves her. It's a tough situation to be in, and you don't need to apologize for talking about it.
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Mar 17, 2023 8:17:35 GMT -5
I really appreciate it I'm sorry im spamming the whole thread the good news is I'll shut up soon. I can’t think of a more appropriate reason to be spamming the thread. Spam about it all you need. |
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Post by Leapkit on Mar 17, 2023 11:18:09 GMT -5
This is going to be the longest most grueling hour of my entire life.
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Post by Leapkit on Mar 17, 2023 12:50:59 GMT -5
shes gone
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Post by Leapkit on Mar 17, 2023 12:57:04 GMT -5
I really appreciate it I'm sorry im spamming the whole thread the good news is I'll shut up soon. I can’t think of a more appropriate reason to be spamming the thread. Spam about it all you need. you shoulda told me its the patron saint of cats day. and you better pray ol gertrude takes good care of her or im gonna give heaven some hell. |
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Post by Dark Sun on Mar 17, 2023 13:00:36 GMT -5
I'm so terribly sorry for loss. I hope she went away peacefully. Again, my DM's are open if you need me. We're here to support you. |
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Post by Turin not Torino on Mar 18, 2023 2:24:23 GMT -5
I'm so sorry Leap. I would love to hear all about her one day when you're ready.
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Post by *Ravenpaw* on Mar 18, 2023 19:36:29 GMT -5
I'm so sorry. ):
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Post by Leapkit on Mar 19, 2023 22:21:15 GMT -5
I think I'm mostly ok but Fletcher keeps going over to lay in the spot she was staying in this past week and making a chuff sound and that just hurts extra bad. I feel like bursting into tears again just watching him miss her.
Dakota is... back n forth. And started yelling at me earlier today which made me feel worse and I'm trying to not take it personally cause I know in this case his anger isn't really about me. But like ffs I already feel bad leave me tf alone.
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Post by Quill on Mar 20, 2023 8:56:59 GMT -5
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Post by Leapkit on Mar 22, 2023 23:45:23 GMT -5
im going to have a complete ****ing meltdown because dakota just found what he thinks was a bloody poop in their litterbox i cant do this i cant lose two or god forbid all three cats at the same time i literally physically and emotionally cant do it in the same month id rather kill myself i dont know what the **** im supposed to do
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Mar 23, 2023 11:10:57 GMT -5
had a pregnancy scare this week. hnnnnngh so stressful???? i mean im married and we want kids soon but not this exact instant yet and i do NOT cope well with emotional surprises. also didnt want to be that person who failed nfp despite doing everything correctly so yeah. my poor nerves feel fried.
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Post by Leapkit on Mar 23, 2023 14:56:55 GMT -5
Small update, one of em puked and just the kibbles of food were like red ish, im thinking it was just the dye and I probably freaked out prematurely about it.
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Post by Quill on Mar 27, 2023 23:47:20 GMT -5
I want so badly to leave America. I'm terrified for the future of trans/queer rights in this country. Actually, I'm terrified for the future of everyone's rights in this country.
But at the same time, I love it here. I love studying American history and culture; almost all of the universities I want to attend are here. I love the diversity in geography, culture, ethnicity, and climate.
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Post by Quill on Mar 28, 2023 17:08:49 GMT -5
Currently freaking out because I'm scheduled to go to an academic conference soon, and I've been assigned a roommate. I know I won't be able to sleep with another person in the room, which will lead me to be sleep deprived, which will make my life hell for the four days of the conference. Also, my roommate is significantly older than me and most likely a cis man, which I know shouldn't matter but it kinda does because what if he is uncomfortable with me being trans? Do I just try to hide it? Or do I ask him about it? AHHHHHH
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Post by whiteflight on Mar 28, 2023 22:40:56 GMT -5
I'm getting annoyed/mad at my mom for wanting me to get brain surgery to take out my brain tumor. Yes I know she's worried about me and wants me to have a normal life but I fear about getting it taken out. It's a tumor that's deep in my brain. I know technology has advanced but I can't stop fearing about it!!!! For everyone who's reading about this just to let you know I was born with this tumor and this tumor is a noncancerous tumor. Plus it has not grown at all it's just giving me seizures.
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Post by Leapkit on Mar 29, 2023 0:29:57 GMT -5
I'm getting annoyed/mad at my mom for wanting me to get brain surgery to take out my brain tumor. Yes I know she's worried about me and wants me to have a normal life but I fear about getting it taken out. It's a tumor that's deep in my brain. I know technology has advanced but I can't stop fearing about it!!!! For everyone who's reading about this just to let you know I was born with this tumor and this tumor is a noncancerous tumor. Plus it has not grown at all it's just giving me seizures. Brain surgery is a super scary thing. Depending on where it is and how big it is it could potentially be riskier to get rid of it than leave it. Ultimately, it is your choice and your decision. If it does grow or become cancerous you should reconsider, cause at that point it would be deadlier to leave it. I have been fearing and putting of my own brain surgery for over 2 years now cause I am equally as scared tbh. |
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Mar 30, 2023 11:12:18 GMT -5
found out my grandma probably has cancer. pancreatic or maybe liver, inconclusive right now. it's not exactly a surprise, because she's ninety-five years old. but it's also still surprising because she has incredible health for her age (only medication is supplements and one heart pill) so it's still kinda catching me off guard. |
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