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Post by Leapkit on Feb 4, 2023 6:17:27 GMT -5
The past four years for me were horrendous, but I'm glad things are better now. Even the bad things that have happened to me were beneficial to me in some way, as morbid as that sounds. In the end things are better off this way. I live with people who are willing to teach me important life skills and actively support me now, who are also capable of taking care of themselves. Spoiler for the heavier stuff. Mention of death. I watched my mother die and I know the details of her final months more intimately than anyone else, even my own father. I took care of her even though I didn't know how, and it's strange to come to terms with the fact that I am the only one who knows these things. No one else was witness, because she is dead. No one can else can truly understand how terrible her last months were. My father made the decision to put her into a nursing home far too late. I know it's not my fault because it was inevitable. What happened to her would have happened no matter what; there was no "what-if", it was something determined the moment she was born. I can take comfort in the fact that the ultimate outcome was not preventable.
There was nothing that I could have done because I was a child and naive, I had no power, and I was afraid.
Sometimes I wish I was older when it happened, so that I'd have the wisdom and the drive to take action for her in my father's place. Unfortunately, I was not.
I am not angry and I am not sad. I felt empty at first. Now I don't know what I'm feeling at all.
I want to understand the impact this had on me, but it feels like it didn't affect me whatsoever. I am just the same, existing, as I always did. I don't have panic attacks. I don't experience great mental anguish. My regrets are not severe. I am not suicidal. I regulate my emotions well. I am not sure if I experienced trauma or not, but I don't feel anything as a result of it, so I don't think I have. Does it matter at all? I'm not sure. I wish I felt more, but I cannot. Feeling nothing can be a symptom of working through grief and trauma just as much as being sad is. Or even anger. It doesn't really get talked about a lot because death is a rather taboo subject in a lot of places and what grief we see in media is like, usually just of the crying and feeling the loss sort. I've experienced the same thing with both of my grandparents who raised me from birth, so to me they were more parents since that's how close I was with them. Especially the nursing home bit with my grandma that passed away more recently in 2021. If you ever feel like talking about it or want help or to just tell someone and know that you no longer have to be the only one who knows those things to someone who gets it you can always pm me. |
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Post by knight on Feb 4, 2023 18:22:37 GMT -5
The past four years for me were horrendous, but I'm glad things are better now. Even the bad things that have happened to me were beneficial to me in some way, as morbid as that sounds. In the end things are better off this way. I live with people who are willing to teach me important life skills and actively support me now, who are also capable of taking care of themselves. Spoiler for the heavier stuff. Mention of death. I watched my mother die and I know the details of her final months more intimately than anyone else, even my own father. I took care of her even though I didn't know how, and it's strange to come to terms with the fact that I am the only one who knows these things. No one else was witness, because she is dead. No one can else can truly understand how terrible her last months were. My father made the decision to put her into a nursing home far too late. I know it's not my fault because it was inevitable. What happened to her would have happened no matter what; there was no "what-if", it was something determined the moment she was born. I can take comfort in the fact that the ultimate outcome was not preventable.
There was nothing that I could have done because I was a child and naive, I had no power, and I was afraid.
Sometimes I wish I was older when it happened, so that I'd have the wisdom and the drive to take action for her in my father's place. Unfortunately, I was not.
I am not angry and I am not sad. I felt empty at first. Now I don't know what I'm feeling at all.
I want to understand the impact this had on me, but it feels like it didn't affect me whatsoever. I am just the same, existing, as I always did. I don't have panic attacks. I don't experience great mental anguish. My regrets are not severe. I am not suicidal. I regulate my emotions well. I am not sure if I experienced trauma or not, but I don't feel anything as a result of it, so I don't think I have. Does it matter at all? I'm not sure. I wish I felt more, but I cannot. Feeling nothing can be a symptom of working through grief and trauma just as much as being sad is. Or even anger. It doesn't really get talked about a lot because death is a rather taboo subject in a lot of places and what grief we see in media is like, usually just of the crying and feeling the loss sort. I've experienced the same thing with both of my grandparents who raised me from birth, so to me they were more parents since that's how close I was with them. Especially the nursing home bit with my grandma that passed away more recently in 2021. If you ever feel like talking about it or want help or to just tell someone and know that you no longer have to be the only one who knows those things to someone who gets it you can always pm me. I don't have much to say now, but thank you for the offer. I wish death was less taboo but I can't talk about it to other people without casting a very grim mood on the conversation, and inevitably bringing up something like therapy. I'm not having a mental breakdown, I'm just reflecting. But I understand it's a tough conversation to have for most people, so, that's probably their way of trying to get out of it. |
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Post by Dark Sun on Feb 5, 2023 15:46:52 GMT -5
Yikes, I've been posting a lot here recently, huh? x_x Okay so here comes another general vent not based off of any (recent) specific situation.
When someone asks a question and you do your best to answer that question. Even if you specifically state that you do not condone it (if the answer is negative), they still shoot the messenger. (Ex. Why are companies greedy? You do your best to answer them, and they accuse you of defending those practices even if you stated that you don't.)
This is why I don't answer people's questions anymore, especially IRL. This is not to mention they're likely to just Google it right after, sometimes right in front of me, so they effectively wasted both their and my time. *Shrug*
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Post by Leapkit on Feb 8, 2023 7:19:32 GMT -5
friend breakups hurt more than regular breakups
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Post by Leapkit on Feb 8, 2023 19:27:28 GMT -5
It's mostly because people only see the worst of the community ie, kero the wolf, hypnotist sappho etc. Who ARE terrible people and SHOULD be called out. Unfortunatly hiding behind "its just art" is a good veil for creeps an weirdos to hide behind. But why people assume they are a majority instead of a minority is beyond me.
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Post by mintedstar/fur on Feb 12, 2023 19:14:56 GMT -5
Sadly, I've also seen that the younger generation also tend to just ... say that without knowing why they're saying that. I've looked a couple students dead in the eye and asked them *why* they say this and have had only one or two actually know why rather than just saying something like 'idk, everyone does.' To which I try and talk to them about it because just ... //shakes head//. You don't just hate on something because it's 'cool' - and to the ones who could give me a solid answer I just try to debunk that because ... Johnathan ... you're hecking 11. Do you really think your classmate Todd wants to date a rabbit? Or do you just think he likes *drawing* rabbits?*
I have quite a few furry students and quite a few students who are not furries but think they are neat. One whole class got derailed once so one student could instruct us how to make a fursuit and even I was taking notes, it was quite cute. (One student, who is not a furry: Those make you so much money. O: But I just want one 'cause the mouth moves. (or something like that.))
*Names made up on the spot.
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Post by Dark Sun on Feb 14, 2023 8:29:58 GMT -5
Sadly, I've also seen that the younger generation also tend to just ... say that without knowing why they're saying that. I've looked a couple students dead in the eye and asked them *why* they say this and have had only one or two actually know why rather than just saying something like 'idk, everyone does.' To which I try and talk to them about it because just ... //shakes head//. You don't just hate on something because it's 'cool' - and to the ones who could give me a solid answer I just try to debunk that because ... Johnathan ... you're hecking 11. Do you really think your classmate Todd wants to date a rabbit? Or do you just think he likes *drawing* rabbits?* I have quite a few furry students and quite a few students who are not furries but think they are neat. One whole class got derailed once so one student could instruct us how to make a fursuit and even I was taking notes, it was quite cute. (One student, who is not a furry: Those make you so much money. O: But I just want one 'cause the mouth moves. (or something like that.)) *Names made up on the spot. I know most people (typically myself included) do not like replies to their vent posts, but if it's alright I'll make an exception here and just say my piece - not expecting or really aiming for a response, just expressing my own perspective here.
Let's just say that with the amount of, let's call it questionable / immoral content within the furry fandom, not to mention the epidemic of people who wish to date animals (putting this within PG-13 terms of course), I'm overall not surprised of the current rhetoric (and not just amongst the younger generation) that all furries are bad. I can kind of get where they are coming from and don't blame them even if said viewpoint is flawed and comes from a place of ignorance. Nevertheless, if I were to identify as a furry (which I do not), I would steer clear of the fandom at large for these reasons. (Fandoms are typically toxic anyway since a lot of the population are garbage people who put on an act of civility. *Shrug*)
Of course though this isn't the first time in history where kids (or even adults) have bullied others that engage in pursuits that they don't understand or that are perceived as "uncool". Not condoning bullying or harassment, just stating the honest truth here.
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Post by Leapkit on Feb 14, 2023 11:49:45 GMT -5
Yeah, the fandom is kinda... bad.
I can concede that I am a furry by most standards of how people are considered one, but I don't go out of my way to ever join groups of them for that exact reason. There are times in the past where I have been on places like FA and discord groups but even those places hide nefarious people, or people who hold no strong opinions about how immoral or obscene things get and let them go out of hand. So I've just deleted the account and removed myself from those discords and people.
I have very few friends who are also furries and all of us... just like drawing animal-inspired characters and stories. The most R-rated it gets is usually with a bunch of violence. xD
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Post by Dark Sun on Feb 14, 2023 12:25:01 GMT -5
Yeah, the fandom is kinda... bad. I can concede that I am a furry by most standards of how people are considered one, but I don't go out of my way to ever join groups of them for that exact reason. There are times in the past where I have been on places like FA and discord groups but even those places hide nefarious people, or people who hold no strong opinions about how immoral or obscene things get and let them go out of hand. So I've just deleted the account and removed myself from those discords and people. I have very few friends who are also furries and all of us... just like drawing animal-inspired characters and stories. The most R-rated it gets is usually with a bunch of violence. xD Not to mention a very large portion of the content (not art, content) that the fandom produces is, well, just downright morally depraved and worth criticizing, but I won't be opening that can of worms today.
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Post by 🅃🄴🄼🄿🄾 on Feb 14, 2023 22:27:45 GMT -5
I have, like, 0 furry friends so it's just me. I mostly just make art with it though. If I ever do make more furry friends, I plan to make sure they aren't into that weird stuff (like dating animals and making seggsual art). But something I forgot to mention in my post, which started all this, is that a lot of people think that furries are people who act like and think they're an animal, which is a bit weird no offense. Anyways! Here's a little rant about who I now consider my ex-bestie! I'm getting tired of this girl who thinks we're still best friends. For the sake of her privacy we will call her Amy. Now, Amy likes to lie about me for whatever reason. For example, just this past Sunday she came up to me and was like, "Yeah, there's a rumor going around that you told Kylie (made up name, dance teacher) that Brianna (made up name) is bullying you. Is that true?" I of course told her no and that I'd never do something like then when they weren't bullying me. This isn't the only time she's lied about me, to me mind you. After every recital we have to help load a trailer with the props we used. I didn't know at the time so I didn't help, I was also having a mental breakdown. My new team also goes out to dinner after recitals and I chose not to go. She sends me a nasty texts along the lines of, "Hi ___, I hope you had a good reason for leaving class. We choreographed over half the dances and you don't have and spots and ______ is upset." A bunch of unnecessary things, "I needed to remind you because I know for a fact that you'll forget. You need reminders and that's ok!" More random crap, "And we deserve to know, why didn't you help load and unload the trailer and not go to the restaurant." More crap. And then she has the audacity to tell me, "If you are going through something you know I'll always be here if you need to talk!" First of all, this is not how she texts. I believe that she was telling her mom what to say and her mom was texting it. Second, I don't need reminders! Who do you take me for? You've known me almost half our lives! Third, I had a mental breakdown and couldn't help load, but my mom won't let me tell anybody that, and I did help unload it. And fourth, do not say you'll always be there for me cause I know for a fact that you won't. You'll tell me to suck it up and compare it to your so called "hard life" so don't even try. The teacher even knew where I was and wasn't upset. She has lied to me so many times and I'm sick of it. This last lie was a ploy to make me seem like a bad guy, because Brianna is the sweetest person on our team and she wanted something to happen so that drama would be started. She thinks that just because she's known me for half our lives means that she knows everything about me. But she forgot one thing, I will always confront her if she tries to make me seem like the bad guy and lie about me. I also go straight to the studio owner and not a teacher with that kind of stuff. The truth will come out at some point. Believe me on that.
If you read through this whole thing, I apologize that it was sooooo long, but I'm sick and tired of her using me and thinking that just because we're "friends" means she can walk all over me and wanted to get it out.
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Feb 17, 2023 16:53:43 GMT -5
my brother-in-law is an idiot
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Post by Leapkit on Feb 17, 2023 18:45:02 GMT -5
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Feb 17, 2023 22:58:21 GMT -5
my brother-in-law is an idiot input request for context Oh man, how do I even sum this up without writing a whole-ass novel... pull up a chair my friend. I'm putting this under a cut to spare others. So last fall my BIL decided somewhat last minute to go to college in Dallas. He had an almost full ride to the same uni that his brothers/myself went to, and everyone thought it would be good for him. His family moved to rural Tennessee right as he hit his stride socially back in San Diego, so he was a bit developmentally immature/socially stunted. Getting out on his own, being back around peers his age, and intellectually challenging work all sounded like exactly what he needed. About two weeks into his first semester, he meets a girl and decides he likes her. It's mutual. They start dating almost immediately. A little eager but harmless, right? Wrong. This "girl" is a 27 year old woman who hangs out on a college campus with the kids who wear elf cloaks and fake swords. He stops socializing with anyone else and spends all his free time with her. They decide they cannot possibly be infatuated because they, I quote, "can name stuff about each other that [they] don't like". My husband cautions his brother to slow tf down. Three weeks into dating they call back and tell him they're engaged. Hell no. Husband tries to explain why that's a bad idea but they are convinced they are soulmates destined to get married (their reasons are like bare minimum requirements for dating someone, like "We have similar interests" and "I don't feel socially drained talking to her"). A reminder that he's 18-19 and has never even paid rent before or filed taxes. In Oct, Husband drives up there to check on him and meet this girl. We've come to the conclusion that she's not predatory, but has the maturity of a teenager herself. (What a good mix...). November rolls around and my BIL asks if his girlfriend can come home with him for Thanksgiving break. My in-laws politely say no because they're (reasonably) not comfortable hosting for a whole week their son's gf of less than 3 months, which he's not happy about. So he ends up crashing at her apartment for break (since campus closes down) and spends Thanksgiving with her family in Dallas. We're all hoping this relationship will fizzle out soon.
Meanwhile, it comes to light that he's failing all his classes because he's ditching them to spend time with her, so he decides to drop out. (Which is fine in theory, but he abandoned an almost full ride mid-semester with absolutely no plans). Gets a job, vaguely tells my husband he's "got it figured out" when offered apartment hunting help, gets fired and then gets a different job. Doesn't go home for Christmas so he can spend the holiday with his girlfriend's family. (I got to meet her on their drive back). At some point in there we find out she has been previously divorced.
Well, that "apartment" he had "figured out" was just shacking up with his girlfriend. (Which, I understand is pretty commonplace nowadays for most folks, but there's a whole religious aspect to this that makes it so confusing and weird in this particular story that I don't think I can summarize it in one paragraph). And we found out yesterday that now she is pregnant.
There's just so many levels of stupid to it all that I just can't comprehend it. This has all happened in just five months and nobody ever saw any of this shit coming when my BIL left for college.
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Post by Chicken on Feb 18, 2023 8:12:06 GMT -5
I'm so overdone with my sister's husband incompetence and selfishness
He woke me up to feed his daughter and when she was screaming her head off, he did nothing at all to help
Another time, the same thing was happening, except his son, who I've also been pretty much having to raise for almost four years while he does jack shit because he works, but he only works 9-5 whereas he makes my sister, who works more do stuff
He also refuses to make his own food, he won't make calls for himself, he basically gets everyone to do everything for him, even though he offers absolutely nothing in return
Another thing is, it always has to be HIS way, like everyone was cold, even his 3 year old was complaining about being cold, but he kept the house cold because he wasn't cold
If anyone tries disagreeing with him, he'll either storm off and threaten to kill himself (he wouldn't, but my sister believes him every time because she's totally d-whipped and cares more about him and looking bad in front of his family than anything else)
I can't stand it anymore, I'm sick of having to look after other people's mistakes, to raise kids that aren't even mine especially when I reap none of the benefits of raising them
I also hate how much of a failure I am at this and how I've probably ruined the first kid and how I'm going to ruin the second kid, but I never wanted this, and it's not fair that he gets to do whatever he wants while I have to watch the ones that HE created with my sister especially when he's here too! But no, he just leaves them out with me and shuts himself in his room to play video games
I wish video games would be banned! All they do is take up people's times and they throw tantrums whenever they can't do something, if I ever date someone no video games and no kids I swear to god I'd rather die than have to raise another kid, hopefully I can make it through these 3 years because that's when they start to get easier
I'm already overdone
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Post by Quill on Feb 18, 2023 11:59:02 GMT -5
Saint Ambrosef, wow that was quite a ride. I'm most concerned for your BIL's kid. It doesn't sound like the most stable environment to grow up in.
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Post by Leapkit on Feb 18, 2023 12:08:05 GMT -5
Yeah seconded. I guess I would just hope it works out in the end despite it being stupid, and also terrible odds... but hey if my grandparents can get married in 1 month and stay together for 40 years there is hope right? x_x
Chicken I will personally pull up and throw hands with him.
He sounded just generally toxic at first but the way things are developed and everyone is reinforcing his behavior because he is entitled and no one dares say no he sounds like he's turned into a full narcissist.
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Post by Chicken on Feb 18, 2023 12:35:46 GMT -5
LeapkitThanks, you're 100% right, even my sister thinks he's a narcissist but she doesn't want to leave him because she really likes his family and doesn't want them to think poorly of her
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Feb 18, 2023 12:50:35 GMT -5
I'm also worried about the kid. The good news is that my in-laws are a really stable, loving family, so they will always have extended family looking out for them.
Which is part of why this whole thing is so weird. I can understand people making stupid decisions like that if they come from a broken household or something, but my BIL had all the benefits of a good upbringing, education, healthy role models, and a bunch of smart people warning him that he was making bad decisions. He has no excuses. He just decided he knew better than everyone else.
My worry is that they're going to start cutting us out because we're "toxic" or whatever. BIL has already said concerning things, like "You're either for us or against us" (his response when his parents said no to his gf coming for Thanksgiving).
The husband keeps mentioning how disappointed he is that he no longer gets to be first in giving his parents grandkids. An odd thing to focus on, but I think in upsetting situations people's minds sometimes latch onto the more insignificant things as they try to process the big picture.
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Post by Leapkit on Feb 18, 2023 13:13:45 GMT -5
Leapkit Thanks, you're 100% right, even my sister thinks he's a narcissist but she doesn't want to leave him because she really likes his family and doesn't want them to think poorly of her Your sister deserves better tbh. I understand the fear but I feel like in general she's missing out on finding someone who loves her, loves her kids, loves you, won't be dead weight, and won't be an asshole. Sometimes things get way worse and way harder before they get better. |
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Post by Chicken on Feb 18, 2023 13:30:31 GMT -5
Leapkit Thanks, you're 100% right, even my sister thinks he's a narcissist but she doesn't want to leave him because she really likes his family and doesn't want them to think poorly of her Your sister deserves better tbh. I understand the fear but I feel like in general she's missing out on finding someone who loves her, loves her kids, loves you, won't be dead weight, and won't be an asshole. Sometimes things get way worse and way harder before they get better. I agree, it's super irritating My mom is the same way, she stay with controlling jerks until she finds someone new which it took 10 years or until the person she was with to die for that to happen |
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Post by Chicken on Feb 18, 2023 13:32:03 GMT -5
Saint AmbrosefI really hope everything works out for the best, my oldest sister cut us out of the family over a guy, and it sucks, I really hope that doesn't happen with you but if it does, I'm here if you ever need to talk
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Post by Tealraven on Feb 18, 2023 18:35:15 GMT -5
three things nobody ever wants to hear from a total stranger:
"you look familiar"
"did i know you in middle school?"
"you were the person who did [ insert embarrassing thing ] right?"
me, who did in fact do [ insert embarrassing thing ] in middle school and still do now but has no idea who this person is: "oh uhhh actually you must have me confused with someone else haha"
next time i have intrusive thoughts about something cringey i did years ago and tell myself "no one even remembers that" this interaction is going to slap me in the face and go "BUT WHAT IF THEY DO"
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Post by Leapkit on Feb 18, 2023 19:37:09 GMT -5
still feeling pretty betrayed and annoyed by someone who swore up and down they werent like that only for them to be like that
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Post by Dark Sun on Feb 18, 2023 20:52:32 GMT -5
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Post by Chicken on Feb 19, 2023 10:42:23 GMT -5
I'm on the last straw, once it breaks, I'm going to fight my sister's husband, he's like half a foot taller than me and outweighs me by like 150 lbs but idc I'm sick and tired of his immature selfish A, if I have to go down to take him down a few pegs then so be it
Even though he's here he does absolutely NOTHING with his kids, right now, his daughter is asleep, but earlier she wasn't, she was screaming her head off, and he didn't even do anything at all to help while I was making her bottle, and when I asked him if he knew where her binky was, he just said no and that was that, right now his princess ass is sleeping while I had to be woken up to watch his kids just like I watched them all by myself yesterday even though he was here
Speaking of yesterday, it annoyed me when one of his kids had to go to the bathroom but he wouldn't take him, and I couldn't because I was busy feeding the other one, and he ended up not making it into the bathroom on time
I don't understand how someone can be so cruel to just straight up ignore their own kids that need help
That's another thing that ticks me off, my sister's husband is sooo spoiled and immature and ungrateful, like here is a real example of a conversation between him and my sister
Him: Does this smell weird to you? (Hands her something)
Her: (sniff) I don't smell anything
Him: Are you calling me stupid?
Her: No, I'm just saying I don't smell anything
Him: You're calling me stupid!
He also expects her to do EVERYTHING for him, call people, fill out paperwork, write letters to his people that he needs to write them to, pick out his clothes for him, wipe his a-, okay jk on the last thing but I wouldn't be surprised if that eventually happens
He also knows that she has memory issues and then gets super mad at her for forgetting stuff that is stuff that HE could easily do, but maybe he's so incompetent that he can't
I have a theory that the reason he's such a d is because he can't do crap and he's too ashamed to admit it, or maybe he's just a d
My sister said she figured he'd mature after turning 25 or having a kid, both those things have come and passed and he's only gotten once
If he wasn't such a bossy d then maybe his incompetence wouldn't matter so much, or maybe if he wasn't so incompetent, him being a bossy d wouldn't matter as much, unfortunately that is not the case and I'm stuck living with a man who has the mind of a spoiled 12 year old, I told my sister that if this shit happens again then I'm moving back to our old town, I looked it up and it only costs around 250 dollars to take an uber there so hah they can't keep me there anymore!
Hopefully the uber driver doesn't turn out to be a serial killer but if that happens at least I'll have an exciting death and it'll be better than this life, maybe I'll even get a documentary made of me or like an episode on a docudrama series
I feel bad about getting so upset because it's not even that big of a deal, at least he didn't straight up leave, though I suspect the only reason he's staying is because my sister does everything for him and he gets to live however he wants, doing whatever he wants, whenever he wants, and basically gets to be the king of the castle, I'm also starting to resent his kids which I hate because they haven't even done anything wrong
I want everyone in my house except for my sister because she's actually useful and old enough to understand basic things, to disappear for a month or two or like 10-20 years
I never wanted this life, my ideal life was to live in an underground bunker in the middle of the woods ALONE not in a crappy apartment with a bunch of kids
I had finally gotten her to get to sleep when he starts playing this loud af game waking her back up and then doing nothing about it except continuing to play his game, she's not crying now but I'm still irritated how unaware can someone be?
He has super expensive headphones too with like all the fixings but he never uses them, instead he just blasts his stuff over everyone else's
Maybe I'm overreacting and being a bit too harsh though
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Post by Leapkit on Feb 19, 2023 13:42:14 GMT -5
love it when my roommate starts a 15 minute screaming match about something sounded expensive and he yelled at me and hit it and kept refusing to tell me what it was and that i was being nosy and swearing at me only for him to finally just tell me it was just him fumbling a goddamn yugioh card tin!!!! why am i a "bitch" for just asking what it was why was it so hard to just tell me it was the tin and move on!!!! what the ****!!!!
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Dark Sun
Sage of the Stars
I'm devious, I'm devilish, I'm ever so deliciously evil
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Post by Dark Sun on Feb 19, 2023 13:50:10 GMT -5
I love my dad, but... gosh he can be a pain to deal with sometimes. Whether you're afraid the cat will chew on a set of cords, or you're reminding him to buy cheese at the grocery store, whatever it may be, he just goes, "It's okay, there's no need to be so anxious. You don't need to be fearful." Of course, any response you have to this has him assuming that you're having some massive anxiety attack like someone in the corner of a room rocking back and forth, and in a demeaning way he tries to "coax you back to normalcy". It's bloody annoying. Like just this morning I told him to leave my cat alone so that she would come out of my room on her own (she wanders the living room in the mornings nowadays) and he was going down there anyway and he said, paraphrasing here. "It's okay, it's okay. You don't need to be so anxious. Just go upstairs and calm down." I'm sick and tired of him treating me (and a lot of other people as well) like a helpless kid. Like, he has this strange obsession almost that anything revolving around the slightest concern (like, hey, we're out of cheese) = massive anxiety attack, and you must coax them like you would a child from under a table.
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Feb 21, 2023 13:29:57 GMT -5
when your office decides to have a Mardis Gras party... on Thursday  like great job guys. let's celebrate the traditionally pre-Lenten holiday on a day more convenient for corporate, even though that now puts it during Lent so that half the Christians in your office now can't participate. |
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Leapkit
Finder of Rare Friend Error
Derealizing for the forseeable future
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Post by Leapkit on Feb 22, 2023 16:32:12 GMT -5
this isn't serious but sometimes I just remember all of my cats are 15-16 and it hits me that all three of them will be gone in another 1-5 years at most and it kills me inside.
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