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Leapkit
Finder of Rare Friend Error
Derealizing for the forseeable future
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Post by Leapkit on Aug 16, 2022 12:47:14 GMT -5
something outside has been emitting a high pitched squeal for almost 2 hours and I want to die.
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Leapkit
Finder of Rare Friend Error
Derealizing for the forseeable future
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Post by Leapkit on Aug 16, 2022 12:50:05 GMT -5
Even more maddening, i think it's the tone only young people can hear or something, because only I can hear it. When I asked my neighbor she said she didn't hear anything & neither did her son. But if it was an auditory hallucination it would follow me around when I go to different areas, but I can distinctly tell where it is coming from when I walk around the house or swivel my head but I can't tell WHAT IT IS.
MAKE IT STOP.
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Leapkit
Finder of Rare Friend Error
Derealizing for the forseeable future
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Post by Leapkit on Aug 16, 2022 13:49:04 GMT -5
It's still going and my headphones aren't blocking it enough anymore, it almost seems like it got louder.
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Post by rabbit on Aug 16, 2022 14:08:06 GMT -5
It's still going and my headphones aren't blocking it enough anymore, it almost seems like it got louder. Could it be tinnitus? Sometimes my ears create this weird white noise that sounds like an eletronic buzz when it is completely silent. |
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Leapkit
Finder of Rare Friend Error
Derealizing for the forseeable future
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Post by Leapkit on Aug 16, 2022 14:23:26 GMT -5
It's still going and my headphones aren't blocking it enough anymore, it almost seems like it got louder. Could it be tinnitus? Sometimes my ears create this weird white noise that sounds like an eletronic buzz when it is completely silent. I've literally already ruled that out. |
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Post by rabbit on Aug 16, 2022 14:30:36 GMT -5
Could it be tinnitus? Sometimes my ears create this weird white noise that sounds like an eletronic buzz when it is completely silent. I've literally already ruled that out. Looks like you'll have to destroy every electronic and mechanical devices until it stops. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ |
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Non-binary
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Dark Sun
Sage of the Stars
I'm devious, I'm devilish, I'm ever so deliciously evil
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Post by Dark Sun on Aug 16, 2022 14:32:37 GMT -5
I've literally already ruled that out. Looks like you'll have to destroy every electronic and mechanical devices until it stops. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯  |
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Leapkit
Finder of Rare Friend Error
Derealizing for the forseeable future
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Post by Leapkit on Aug 16, 2022 14:44:42 GMT -5
It just finally stopped but I still wish I knew what it was and I hope it never ever does it agin cause my head is still splitting rn.
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Leapkit
Finder of Rare Friend Error
Derealizing for the forseeable future
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Post by Leapkit on Aug 16, 2022 21:06:28 GMT -5
I ordered 10 chicken nuggies i only recieved 8 chicken nuggies.
sadge
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Aug 16, 2022 21:11:29 GMT -5
I ordered 10 chicken nuggies i only recieved 8 chicken nuggies. sadge crime punishable by death. fetch the gallows. |
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Leapkit
Finder of Rare Friend Error
Derealizing for the forseeable future
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Post by Leapkit on Aug 18, 2022 15:42:44 GMT -5
I hate how you're automatically treated like subhuman dog shit for not having a job. Doesn't even matter why.
My full time job is taking care of myself. Taking care of my cats. Making sure my roommate and I have a clean home to come home to every day. Making sure bills are paid and stuff is filed correctly for the time taxes happen because even though my roommate is the one making the money, he can't stay organized to save his life and will overspend and not think about it. Among other things.
Not only that, I'm both physically and mentally disabled. I am not on assistance because everybody is just like "oh you don't look disabled, you're too young" even though I qualify. Making doing this stuff 100 times harder. But even WITHOUT being disabled, like, this shit is work. I'm not paid for it but it's hard. And some people WANT to be homemakers.
"Oh but you don't have KIDS you can only be a homemaker if you have CHILDREN to take care of" Like that's the only valid reason to want to stay at home and do domestic work. Not everybody wants a career. Not everybody should have to have a career to be able to afford to stay alive.
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Finder of Rare Friend Error
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Post by Leapkit on Aug 19, 2022 5:00:36 GMT -5
"I don't liiiike the new Gomez Addams."
Or
You could just admit you only ever watched the Addams family values movie where the thin & handsome Gomez was the outlier to the rest of the franchise and have internalized fatphobia. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
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Post by Leapkit on Aug 19, 2022 6:10:12 GMT -5
I do not like that I woke up for no reason.
I know I'm posting here a lot but I Must Complain About Things,,,
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Leapkit
Finder of Rare Friend Error
Derealizing for the forseeable future
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Post by Leapkit on Aug 19, 2022 6:36:47 GMT -5
My cats woke up today and chose violence, antics, shenanigans, and tomfoolery.
Fletcher wakes me up by trampling all over my body & organs. Then pukes a hairball. Then starts fighting with Camille and they both start running across me & my shit. Knock something over (still have not figured out what). CAMILLE takes it upon herself to also puke (not even a hairball, just foam for no reason again) Willie pisses on the carpet in front of the litterbox instead of standing IN the box. Then has the audacity to turn around and beg for ham when Dakota started to make a sandwich.
I love them all dearly but I am being Tested.
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Non-binary
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Dark Sun
Sage of the Stars
I'm devious, I'm devilish, I'm ever so deliciously evil
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Post by Dark Sun on Aug 21, 2022 20:22:08 GMT -5
Gotta love it when a family member walks in on you while you are completely undressed.  Like, they're not just peaking through the doorway, they have walked into the center of the room absolutely oblivious until you rush to cover yourself with something. Ever heard of knocking? Oh right, that only means knock and then open the door and walk right in. Oh and said family member's casual remark before leaving was, "Put something on, it's not very nice [being naked]". Gee, that's exactly what I was in the middle of doing, and apparently it's my fault I guess? What do I do, just change without taking anything off? |
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raincloud33
victorian novel version of greencough is brain-fever
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Post by raincloud33 on Aug 21, 2022 23:21:04 GMT -5
I feel like lately I have been missing people I used to know a lot. There's a lot happening in my life recently and I guess it just brought these things to mind.
Mostly online people. I miss how this where on the old warriors forums way way back. I miss the old art forums and the people there, but most of the people I knew back then are not here. I nmiss role-paying but I don't think I could do it actively anymore, and maybe even if I could I shouldn't (there are other reasons besides this but I dont want to get into it). Not the most important things, but sometimes its just sad to see the things you used to enjoy and had to leave behind.
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Non-binary
#F4B548
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Dark Sun
Sage of the Stars
I'm devious, I'm devilish, I'm ever so deliciously evil
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Post by Dark Sun on Aug 22, 2022 19:59:54 GMT -5
I know this is old news, but it's finally arrived. Price gouging, wallet rinsing, penny pinching, strip mining monetization options such as microtransactions, DLC, and subscription (or extortion) services have left the video game sphere and have entered the modern commercial world. BMW is already charging for built-in features such as heated seating that only activate if you apply for the subscription. How long until simply turning on a car costs us money and within a few years they'll press a couple of buttons, digitally shut down your vehicle, and you have to buy another? Not just cars, but any electronic "appliance". It's almost as if they sense an economic collapse is on the way and they're stripping every last nickel and dime from every Jane and Joe until there's nothing left to extract.
Then again, all of this is normalized. *Shrug*
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Post by Tealraven on Aug 27, 2022 13:54:25 GMT -5
I’m way too young to have PTSD
Almost made it through an entire summer with no smoke and no wildfires. Please make it go away
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Non-binary
#F4B548
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Dark Sun
Sage of the Stars
I'm devious, I'm devilish, I'm ever so deliciously evil
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Post by Dark Sun on Aug 27, 2022 23:24:35 GMT -5
I just slipped a little and I stick my entire hand in the mini oven. The entire top half of my left hand is burned red a little, nothing too bad, but wow does it sting!  |
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Omnisexual
🅃🄴🄼🄿🄾
Being a theater kid
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Post by 🅃🄴🄼🄿🄾 on Aug 28, 2022 0:04:55 GMT -5
TW: Mentions of s^!cid@l thoughts, self harm, and death I absolutely hate how my parents don't support the LGBTQ+ community and can't tell anybody I'm transgender because I'm to dang scared that they're gonna hate me and make fun of me.
I got to a really low point last year where I would cut myself and think about some unpleasant thoughts. I'm trying not to start again but it's getting kinda hard.
I'm also sick and tired of watching the people I love get sick and die, now my mom and dad won't even tell me what happened on the trip to my dad's doctors appointment.
I have a crush on my best friend and she doesn't know it, and I really wanna tell her but she doesn't know I'm transgender and I'm so scared that she'll leave me if I tell her.
I'm also terrified of the dark and feel like something is watching me and waiting for the right time to murder me every second I'm alone or in the dark.
I just wish I could go back to when I was younger and didn't have so much stress and anxiety.
Dang, that's a lot of stuff I needed to say. Don't read it if you don't want to, I could honestly care less if you do or don't. |
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Leapkit
Finder of Rare Friend Error
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Post by Leapkit on Aug 30, 2022 23:35:18 GMT -5
Exhausted of accidentally coming across as an asshole and jot even realizing it until someone starts to yell at me and I break down and cry because I can't do anything right and I don't even know what exactly I'm doing wrong.
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Finder of Rare Friend Error
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Post by Leapkit on Aug 31, 2022 0:50:39 GMT -5
I know I can't be "for" everyone but it sucks to not even be for almost anyone at all. Like 2 people. And everyone else I have to constantly be making an effort to soften my edges, mask who I am, or completely fake a personality on their behalf.
People can say, "Just be yourself."
Well myself has trauma, symptoms, and general lack of social awareness that I can't mask over.
But nobody likes that. So now what? Just suffer and be alone?
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Post by Leapkit on Aug 31, 2022 1:01:29 GMT -5
I'll get over it i know half of this is being tired and having a long day on top of what happened i just wish people in my life actually cared about me.
why are people on the internet always better than in real life? (towards me, personally. i mean. i know the internet generally sucks but.)
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Post by Eelusion on Aug 31, 2022 13:57:11 GMT -5
There's this guy who shares alll these intimate fantasies he has with me, that are about me, he even said that now I'm 18 I can send him pictures of my feet, but then he says I'm too young to DATE!?!
What is up with that logic?!
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Aug 31, 2022 14:11:13 GMT -5
There's this guy who shares alll these intimate fantasies he has with me, that are about me, he even said that now I'm 18 I can send him pictures of my feet, but then he says I'm too young to DATE!?! What is up with that logic?! Predator. Block and run far, far away. If he was soliciting stuff from you or sharing his "fantasies" about you before you were 18, you need to report him to the police. He's a p***phile and groomer. |
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Post by Eelusion on Aug 31, 2022 14:23:14 GMT -5
There's this guy who shares alll these intimate fantasies he has with me, that are about me, he even said that now I'm 18 I can send him pictures of my feet, but then he says I'm too young to DATE!?! What is up with that logic?! Predator. Block and run far, far away. If he was soliciting stuff from you or sharing his "fantasies" about you before you were 18, you need to report him to the police. He's a p***phile and groomer. Before this, he wasn't too intense about it, because he always said that I was too young, I was actually the one who was more so initiating the conversations because I like him, I know he's a bit older than me, but he's also one of the only people who is nice to me. Like, he did mention me sending him pictures after I turned 18, and stuff we could do after I turned 18, but other than that, he pretty much brushed me off. Now though, he seems to be really into me, but only to be intimate with. |
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Aug 31, 2022 14:30:26 GMT -5
Exhausted of accidentally coming across as an asshole and jot even realizing it until someone starts to yell at me and I break down and cry because I can't do anything right and I don't even know what exactly I'm doing wrong. this is honestly a mood. there have been multiple times that people have caused drama because they interpret my straightforwardness and honesty as passive-aggression or otherwise hiding some sort of ulterior motive against them (mostly other women). Trying to account for that any time I talk to someone who doesn't know me well is exhausting. Honestly, it's not always you doing something "wrong", there's a lot of people who for one reason or another have learned to interpret neutral behavior as hostile and/or assume ill-intent from others. People thinking you're an asshole just for being socially clumsy or blunt isn't your fault. It wasn't until I was 22 that I learned that apparently in girl world, you're supposed to subtly hint or let other women "read between the lines". Which means if you're just honest upfront about your thoughts/feelings, either (a) girls will end up reading into something that isn't there, or (  it's interpreted as aggression. And if you don't read between their "lines" or miss their subtle hints, then you look like a jerk who ignores their feelings. I never knew this until my best friend in college had to explain it to me (by which points I'd unwittingly hurt/pissed of several people). I was so f-ing mad. What a stupid way to expect other people to communicate, and yet I was apparently the asshole for not instinctually knowing that. |
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Aug 31, 2022 14:42:59 GMT -5
Predator. Block and run far, far away. If he was soliciting stuff from you or sharing his "fantasies" about you before you were 18, you need to report him to the police. He's a p***phile and groomer. Before this, he wasn't too intense about it, because he always said that I was too young, I was actually the one who was more so initiating the conversations because I like him, I know he's a bit older than me, but he's also one of the only people who is nice to me. Like, he did mention me sending him pictures after I turned 18, and stuff we could do after I turned 18, but other than that, he pretty much brushed me off. Now though, he seems to be really into me, but only to be intimate with. Again, those are all MAJOR predator red flags. I'm not being hyperbolic when I say block and run away. He is grooming you. Any normal adult man would not be interested chatting/flirting with a teenager, and the fact that he made previous comments about being interested in you sexually as soon as you turn 18 is textbook p***phile behavior. The fact that you initiated doesn't change the fact that he not only allowed it, but has been continuing it, when he should have immediately shut you down and told you it wasn't appropriate. There is never, ever a good or acceptable reason for an adult man to mention offhandedly that they'd be down to "get intimate" with a teenager once they're legal age. It is very, very common for predators to target lonely teenagers because it's easy to convince them to trust and open up just by being nice to them. It's exploiting their need for friendship in order to get close and build "trust" with their victim, so that the victim doesn't question much when the predator guides them toward a more sexual relationship. I literally cannot stress enough that you are being groomed and that man is a predator, please please block him. |
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Post by Eelusion on Aug 31, 2022 14:49:08 GMT -5
Before this, he wasn't too intense about it, because he always said that I was too young, I was actually the one who was more so initiating the conversations because I like him, I know he's a bit older than me, but he's also one of the only people who is nice to me. Like, he did mention me sending him pictures after I turned 18, and stuff we could do after I turned 18, but other than that, he pretty much brushed me off. Now though, he seems to be really into me, but only to be intimate with. Again, those are all MAJOR predator red flags. I'm not being hyperbolic when I say block and run away. He is grooming you. Any normal adult man would not be interested chatting/flirting with a teenager, and the fact that he made previous comments about being interested in you sexually as soon as you turn 18 is textbook p***phile behavior. The fact that you initiated doesn't change the fact that he not only allowed it, but has been continuing it, when he should have immediately shut you down and told you it wasn't appropriate. There is never, ever a good or acceptable reason for an adult man to mention offhandedly that they'd be down to "get intimate" with a teenager once they're legal age. It is very, very common for predators to target lonely teenagers because it's easy to convince them to trust and open up just by being nice to them. It's exploiting their need for friendship in order to get close and build "trust" with their victim, so that the victim doesn't question much when the predator guides them toward a more sexual relationship. I literally cannot stress enough that you are being groomed and that man is a predator, please please block him. I get what you're saying, it just makes me feel bad to think about him like that, because he seems like a nice person, just kind of awkward, but I also know that sometimes people can put on a front. What worries me though, is that he always talks about how depressed he is, and a few days ago, he was telling me about how he had a break down and started getting his affairs in order, and that he was going to end everything, and that no one likes him and I'm his only friend, and I don't want to make his life worse. |
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Like, they're not just peaking through the doorway, they have walked into the center of the room absolutely oblivious until you rush to cover yourself with something. Ever heard of knocking? Oh right, that only means knock and then open the door and walk right in.
it's interpreted as aggression. And if you don't read between their "lines" or miss their subtle hints, then you look like a jerk who ignores their feelings. 