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Post by Tealraven on Mar 9, 2022 19:58:10 GMT -5
Getting real sick of the cycle of getting too attached/too comfortable with someone too quickly, thinking they're my friend, and then feeling upset when I get ghosted (both irl and online). It's been happening so often lately that I'm truly beginning to wonder if it's something personal. Maybe there is something wrong with me.
I'm tired of having one-sided friendships in general. It's been like this for years. I'm working on branching out, trying new things, making or finding opportunities to meet new people, but at this moment in time, my options are extremely limited.
And every time I write something like this, I'm afraid that other people will think I'm being demanding, or too needy/clingy, or downright pathetic, or not trying hard enough. I've been trying, and I'll keep trying. I just wish I didn't have to work so hard to find friends who actually care about me as much as I care about them.
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#F4B548
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Dark Sun
Sage of the Stars
I'm devious, I'm devilish, I'm ever so deliciously evil
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Post by Dark Sun on Mar 10, 2022 12:39:26 GMT -5
And every time I write something like this, I'm afraid that other people will think I'm being demanding, or too needy/clingy, or downright pathetic, or not trying hard enough. I've been trying, and I'll keep trying. I just wish I didn't have to work so hard to find friends who actually care about me as much as I care about them. You're none of those things, I assure you. I went through this cycle for many, many years, always contacting people (i.e. them never messaging me first), being ghosted or ditched... What you need is to find people who appreciate you for who you are, who see you as great worth to their time (of which you would be). From what I've seen you're a pretty cool person, just someone who's been dealt a terrible hand socially. I hope you find that group of friends that you are seeking, and please don't give up hope and make the same mistakes I did (self isolation, etc.)! Also, if you ever want to chat, my DM's are open.  I know you probably won't believe me, given what you've gone through, but since I've been through the same experiences, I do my absolute best to remain as faithful to my chosen friends as I can. This means always keeping in contact and checking in on them if they've been radio silent. <3 Up to you ofc! |
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Post by Aqua on Mar 13, 2022 13:30:03 GMT -5
I forgot how little I'm allowed to do with my brothers. She's always onto me. Always. I was playing with my brother, being "violent" apparently. We were just playing with my toys. Whatever, mom.
And apparently my little brother being silly on the stairs means "he's having anxiety" I love my mom, but God she's ridiculous sometimes
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Post by Tealraven on Mar 15, 2022 13:55:09 GMT -5
Been studying and taking practice tests to prepare for getting my learner's permit. Why are there questions on the test on things that weren't covered in my driver's handbook
also a few days ago I totally winged it and passed (albeit just barely) but today when I went thru my notes beforehand I failed??? ugh
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Post by ✲ριкαƒυєу✲ on Mar 15, 2022 17:56:34 GMT -5
How much I've failed in so many things. I'm struggling financially, my baby (bearded dragon) is dying and there's nothing I can do but watch. I really just hate myself so much
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Post by Aqua on Mar 15, 2022 22:41:50 GMT -5
I want my mom to stop entering my room. I know she's trying to help but it's annoying.
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Post by downfalls on Mar 17, 2022 0:08:57 GMT -5
im really tired of one of my friends constantly demanding i respond to her texts about some horrible thing shes planning to do (which ive warned her not to do but she doesn't listen). if i do she will just make excuses and throw an attitude at me so whats the point of even responding to her texts
shes trying to call me via instagram as im writing this. i told her yesterday that calls make me very nervous, she said okay but today she spams my phone trying to call me. im so close to blocking her and idk what to do because shes one of my best friends
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Mar 22, 2022 8:57:59 GMT -5
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Don’t let it kill you. Even when it hurts like hell.
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Post by Cloudstorm on Mar 22, 2022 12:38:53 GMT -5
"but despite its religious roots, celebration of st patricks day is now entirely secular in practice" isn’t St Patrick’s day just an excuse to get drunk nowadays? Never heard of anything religious being celebrated or derived from it. |
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#F4B548
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Dark Sun
Sage of the Stars
I'm devious, I'm devilish, I'm ever so deliciously evil
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Post by Dark Sun on Mar 22, 2022 13:14:02 GMT -5
"but despite its religious roots, celebration of st patricks day is now entirely secular in practice" isn’t St Patrick’s day just an excuse to get drunk nowadays? Never heard of anything religious being celebrated or derived from it. You would think that some people believe that beer is its own religion to follow.  |
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Mar 22, 2022 13:28:25 GMT -5
"but despite its religious roots, celebration of st patricks day is now entirely secular in practice" isn’t St Patrick’s day just an excuse to get drunk nowadays? Never heard of anything religious being celebrated or derived from it. there are millions of catholics in the US and ireland who celebrate it religiously every year. i dont care that non-religious folks use it as an excuse to party but i do care when the religious celebrations of modern practitioners are deliberately erased by people in order to paint it as an entirely secular holiday. like no! it is still very much a holy feast day for catholics! |
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Non-binary
#F4B548
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Dark Sun
Sage of the Stars
I'm devious, I'm devilish, I'm ever so deliciously evil
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Post by Dark Sun on Mar 22, 2022 15:56:45 GMT -5
According to my parents, but especially my mother, all I do in my free time is sit in my room alone and play video games. She doesn't understand what else I find fulfillment in and how, so she continues to badger me about it. Now if I told her about the Discord groups I'm a part of, that I talk to "strangers" on a Warrior Cats website, that I engage in creative writing that isn't directly tied to her faith, etc., she will still fail to understand and, now that she has a target to focus on, now that that door has been opened, she would continue to criticize me but with intent. She might even take action like shut off my Internet or something. I literally cannot win in this situation.  Edit: I don't leech either. In fact, I'm on mental disability paychecks from my government because I could never handle a traditional 9-5 job anyway. |
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Dɾҽαɱƈʅσυԃ
Villain Enjoyer
Arcane Season 2 has got me in a chokehold once again (do not send help)
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Post by Dɾҽαɱƈʅσυԃ on Mar 22, 2022 17:02:14 GMT -5
Why do I still try to fill the emptiness in my heart with earthly possessions? Seriously though, my shopping habits are out of control despite limited resources and most of the stuff ending up laying around until discovering it weeks, months or even years later while cleaing up. Capitalism made me do it, I swear.
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Post by downfalls on Mar 23, 2022 7:40:56 GMT -5
considering breaking off me and my friend's friendship. she is rude, won't respect my boundaries and does things i tell her not to do. i told her not to tell my ex friend something i wanted to keep hidden from the latter, but she told her anyway. she keeps calling me even though i tell her calls make me nervous lots of times. she taught me a very valuable lesson: never tell her about anything bc she will tell the person you asked her not to tell
she also got in trouble with the school, which is a huge relief for me bc she might be learning what she is doing is wrong, and shes accusing one of the teachers for 'messaging' her, which ik is a big lie because one, she never sent me proof, and two, there was no one who had the username that she mentioned.
ive been trying to sit away from her in science but she keeps following me, and she was so angry at her english teacher the other day because he hugged a student she hated, and she said she shouldve gotten a hug too. i even got called into the office yesterday because of her accusation so i showed the principal the messages she sent me and she got in huge trouble. i was just thinking 'omg thank you'
update: I DID IT! i broke the friendship and i feel much better. she seems to be leaving me alone now. i blocked her on socials and omg im just so relieved
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Post by Aqua on Mar 23, 2022 23:00:21 GMT -5
Mom's pissed I don't believe in God. Too bad, that's just what I don't believe. Please don't put your "just because you don't believe in God doesn't mean he doesn't believe in you" he's not real to me, leave me alone about that shit please. I don't mean to sound disrespectful but that crap is so aggravating to me. I'm in a bad ****ing mood now. I'm so petty but idk. This is going to be tense shit between me and my mom. She will have to deal with this.
I'm just tired of the "this is what happens to people who don't believe in god" or "god made you" or "you need god" it's just so aggravating for me to hear this CONSTANTLY from the universe. I don't need a ****ing god. Nobody does. We just need peace and love and a good life. That's it. Good lord. Ngl, I was an asshole and said "okay, god" just to piss her off after that. Ugh. I'm just tired of hearing about god and religion. I know this is going to make me sound like such an asshole but it's frustrating.
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Post by Aqua on Mar 24, 2022 20:24:58 GMT -5
So I'm going to have to deal with people discussing my mom going to my dad's funeral. Everyone is confused because she always bitched about him and they probably think she hates him. There's so much miscommunication between these people, I just wish everyone would grow up and talk in a mature manner. I'm going to learn from this and appreciate my life more and be a grown up. This is bullshit. Adults shouldn't be acting like this. People shouldn't be so selfish.
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Post by Aqua on Mar 24, 2022 20:26:24 GMT -5
I don't know if anyone is reading this, but please, the next time you complain about something you didn't get what you wanted, or insult someone, just understand that you only live once. That's it. You'll never come back when you die. Appreciate the life that you have. Because you only live ONCE. Keep that in mind right now.
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Post by Sand on Mar 28, 2022 8:17:35 GMT -5
I feel like multiple trucks ran over me. Thanks epilepsy 🙃
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Post by Tealraven on Apr 7, 2022 19:50:40 GMT -5
Wtf is wrong with middle schoolers and high schoolers honestly. Teenagers are such mean, horrible people even to adults
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Post by downfalls on Apr 8, 2022 11:05:16 GMT -5
ex friend i left a couple weeks ago refuses to leave me alone. she keeps asking me when my next song is releasing, saying 'see you on (day here)' and thinks sorry will fix everything. im tired of her and i just want her to leave me alone.
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Post by Tealraven on Apr 9, 2022 11:33:31 GMT -5
FFS would people PLEASE stop thinking I’m 5-6 years younger than I am
I’m sure one day I’ll be grateful for it but rn it’s just rlly annoying
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#F4B548
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Dark Sun
Sage of the Stars
I'm devious, I'm devilish, I'm ever so deliciously evil
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Post by Dark Sun on Apr 9, 2022 11:37:54 GMT -5
FFS would people PLEASE stop thinking I’m 5-6 years younger than I am I’m sure one day I’ll be grateful for it but rn it’s just rlly annoying You and me same. I'm 23 now but people often mistake me for being in high school still. I think it's because of my face. |
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Post by Tealraven on Apr 9, 2022 13:04:13 GMT -5
FFS would people PLEASE stop thinking I’m 5-6 years younger than I am I’m sure one day I’ll be grateful for it but rn it’s just rlly annoying You and me same. I'm 23 now but people often mistake me for being in high school still. I think it's because of my face. I am close to your age and frequently have people younger than me mistake me for a middle schooler 🙃 I think it’s a combination of my height and the way I dress. I don’t wear heavy makeup and I rarely wear jewelry and I wear vans and silly graphic shirts that have looney tunes and mermaid man and barnacle boy on them bc I think they’re funny and corny. But I’ve seen other people my age and older wear the same style of clothing, and they never get mistaken for being younger than they are. I swear, tall people can pull off any look. |
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Post by Chicken on Apr 9, 2022 13:45:44 GMT -5
I can relate to people thinking I'm younger than I am, I'm 21 but most people think I'm around 12-14
At least it fits my maturity level I suppose lol
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Post by Chicken on Apr 9, 2022 14:45:41 GMT -5
I have the exact problem, only in reverse. Everyone is always presuming I’m in my 30s for some odd reason. And always have to correct them by saying “ No, I’m only 25”. It’s weird because I certainly look that old. Maybe my mannerisms or attitude reflects that of an older demographic, who knows. I can def see your mannerisms being the case, I don't know you very well, but from what I do know, you seem really mature and chill to me |
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Post by Tealraven on Apr 9, 2022 15:22:27 GMT -5
I have the exact problem, only in reverse. Everyone is always presuming I’m in my 30s for some odd reason. And always have to correct them by saying “ No, I’m only 25”. It’s weird because I certainly look that old. Maybe my mannerisms or attitude reflects that of an older demographic, who knows. I used to have this problem. When I was 13-14, people thought I was a college student. Now that I'm actually in that age group, people think I'm 13-14. I seem to be going backwards lmao. |
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Don’t let it kill you. Even when it hurts like hell.
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Post by Cloudstorm on Apr 9, 2022 16:46:23 GMT -5
I have the exact problem, only in reverse. Everyone is always presuming I’m in my 30s for some odd reason. And always have to correct them by saying “ No, I’m only 25”. It’s weird because I certainly look that old. Maybe my mannerisms or attitude reflects that of an older demographic, who knows. I used to have this problem. When I was 13-14, people thought I was a college student. Now that I'm actually in that age group, people think I'm 13-14. I seem to be going backwards lmao. everyone thought I was like 9 or 10 when I was 13-14, due to my shortness and baby face. Fortunately puberty was generous and no longer have that issue given I sprung up like a weed. My face is now covered in bristly, wayward facial hair that’s more trouble than it’s worth. That definitely gives me a gruffly appearance. |
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I know you probably won't believe me, given what you've gone through, but since I've been through the same experiences, I do my absolute best to remain as faithful to my chosen friends as I can. This means always keeping in contact and checking in on them if they've been radio silent. <3 Up to you ofc!
