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Arcane Season 2 has got me in a chokehold once again (do not send help)
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Post by Dɾҽαɱƈʅσυԃ on Dec 12, 2021 13:02:27 GMT -5
The new laptop I got at the end of November started having issues (mostly a flashing screen) and not even the customer support or consulting a technician helped. At least I got a deal with the company making these notebooks to try out another different model and will get it for the same price if there are no problems while the other faulty thing gets sent back. This new PC is still so much more expensive than my old one which I had for almost a decade but I can only miss it now.
What a shame though that an old computer for 500€ back from 2012 only started needing repairs two years into getting used while a new product from spring of this year costing 1,500€ nopes out after not even two weeks of usage.
I'm probably being way too harsh and only had bad luck at getting one that was not up to quality standards but cannot help being mad and sounding rather entitled right now. Sorry about that.
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Post by tallshadowstar on Dec 14, 2021 23:39:56 GMT -5
I just finished one of my exams, and since it was really long and tough I wanted to have a glass of wine to celebrate (20 is legal drinking age here in Canada). So I go to my last bottle that my mother got me, and immediately there's a problem... it has a cork in it. I suck at opening corked bottles at the best of times, but it turns out that no one in my flat even has a corkscrew.
So next I google "how to open wine without a corkscrew", and it says to use a serrated knife to open the bottle. Okay. I get my serrated knife, try to follow the instructions, and promptly maul the cork beyond recognition.
I don't even want the wine anymore at this point, but I feel like I've come too far to give up now. I spend the next 30 minutes continuing to maul the cork, until suddenly the wine explodes up into my face from the bottle. I sigh and clean it up, and pour some wine into a glass; hundreds of tiny cork shards spill out as well. There's too many to skim them out, so now the whole bottle is basically ruined.
Moral of this story: people with awful fine motor skills like myself should probably stick with easy-to-open beverages, lol.
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Post by Tealraven on Dec 15, 2021 13:56:51 GMT -5
If delivery people could stop throwing packages over the fence when I left a sign out saying to "place package inside gate," that would be great  I don't want to reorder something this close to Christmas and hope it gets here in time because someone couldn't be bothered to open the gate |
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Post by The One and Only Moongaze on Dec 16, 2021 10:06:36 GMT -5
My stomach hurts so much right now and my mother can't pick me up from school for another hour  I'm trying to distract myself |
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Post by Tealraven on Dec 17, 2021 14:11:46 GMT -5
How to act like you missed someone when you didn’t???
My dad is emotionally abusive and an all-around toxic individual in general. He’s been out of town for about 3 weeks visiting distant family and I can honestly say I’ve felt happier and more at peace than I have in years with him gone. He’s coming back home today and I’m dreading having to go back to being tense all the time and constantly walking on eggshells. I know he’s going to be overjoyed to be home and talk about how much he missed us, and I’m going to have to fake being relieved to see him when I feel anything but. I’m anxious just thinking about it. He always has to make a big deal about everything. This is going to be really awkward. But there’s no way I can avoid it.
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Post by Dɾҽαɱƈʅσυԃ on Dec 19, 2021 17:19:26 GMT -5
My parents have been getting into multiple arguments all day long again and just started another one. How exactly do they expect me to ever be ready at trusting myself to led a healthy and happy relationship myself one day when they have been toxic to each other for my entire childhood, adolescence and young adulthood?
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Post by downfalls on Dec 22, 2021 8:04:45 GMT -5
big tw for transphobia and a whole lot of other things
ex friend became a huge jerk in november. made a small
mistake, she left me over it and said i was faking being trans for a trend and hyperfixating for a trend (which, im not faking), and i just recently found out shes harassing one of my friends. she apologized to my friend, but when my friend told me that she brought up my name, my ex friend got defensive and said she wouldn't apologize for what she did.
shes also called me slurs and denied any wrongdoings and its gotten so bad someone reported her to my art teacher.
shes stalked my accounts and commented on all of my posts despite me blocking her millions of accounts, made fun of me for hyperfixating on history and then proceeded to tell me they're valid and returned to bullying me for them, she tried to tell me im bodyshaming people for my song having the word weight in it despite it not being abt body image, tried to 'expose' me to the pride club by exposing a private letter TO ME, joked abt something she didnt go through and a lot of other stuff that id prefer to not say.
so yeah, she also tried to make herself seem like the victim in this situation by guilt tripping us both and honestly, im pretty much done with the drama but shes still continuing it.
sorry for this being a bit long but its really affected me probably a little bit too much.
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Post by Aqua on Dec 22, 2021 18:13:11 GMT -5
making new friends is difficult but I'm lonely
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Post by Aqua on Dec 24, 2021 16:47:24 GMT -5
Yeah. Im changing jobs, and decided to try to find a new place because I don't wanna keep holding it off, or try to talk to my grandma about this. If I go with my grandma I can help her, and im actually interested in a job I want there because it sounds like the ppl who work at this restaurant aren't assholes like my current situation. It's so obvious most of them want me to do my job while they don't do shit. I'm not gonna lie, I fart on them just to be an asshole. You can say I'm harassing you all you want, at least I'm not telling people to shut the F up, yelling at people or other shit that actually IS considered harassment. So don't you say I'm being disrespectful when you're not so better yourselves. I am transferring. Im done with this place.
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Post by Aqua on Jan 7, 2022 12:02:22 GMT -5
Figuring out that the reason why I'm so anxious all the time w other people is because of what I've gone through with Rosa, my old best friend. I don't think she even cares about people, and she was mentally abusive to me, and got mad at me because I didn't want to follow her Twitter. This shit still hurts and i think I'm understanding that I'm scared to be my authentic self around other. Its just a lot of sadness, deep down.
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Post by Chicken on Jan 7, 2022 13:19:20 GMT -5
As some of you may have noticed (or maybe not) I haven't been on in awhile Some of that is because I'm busy, and some of that is because it feels like no one cares and it worsens my depression to have hopes that people will want to talk to me or something but that doesn't seem to be the case. It feels like I've just been forgotten, that no one really cares to be my friend anymore I know that's selfish, and that the world doesn't revolve around me and that people have their own things going on, but I guess I just thought friendship meant more than that. Or maybe we weren't really friends to begin with. I am very grateful though, for those two people who did reach out, Leapkit and ✲ριкαƒυєу✲ , you guys are amazing I don't really have much to say right now, except that if it seemed like you were excluded, then I'm sorry, that wasn't my intention I was angry at someone else, I didn't realize before, that some people might feel excluded or shot down or something, but I do now, and if you did, then I'm sorry |
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Post by ✲ριкαƒυєу✲ on Jan 7, 2022 14:48:17 GMT -5
As some of you may have noticed (or maybe not) I haven't been on in awhile Some of that is because I'm busy, and some of that is because it feels like no one cares and it worsens my depression to have hopes that people will want to talk to me or something but that doesn't seem to be the case. It feels like I've just been forgotten, that no one really cares to be my friend anymore I know that's selfish, and that the world doesn't revolve around me and that people have their own things going on, but I guess I just thought friendship meant more than that. Or maybe we weren't really friends to begin with. I am very grateful though, for those two people who did reach out, Leapkit and ✲ριкαƒυєу✲, you guys are amazing Always, friend! Miss talking to you <3 |
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Post by Chicken on Jan 10, 2022 9:16:32 GMT -5
✲ριкαƒυєу✲I miss talking to you too! <3 CloudstormThank you so much, I really appreciate that, the same goes to you!
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Post by Dɾҽαɱƈʅσυԃ on Jan 10, 2022 15:10:12 GMT -5
Chicken, if there are times when you feel down and want to talk to someone without fear of getting misunderstood, just know that my DMs are open and I will gladly listen to you. I remember us having some good conversations in the past year.
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Post by Dɾҽαɱƈʅσυԃ on Jan 10, 2022 15:16:55 GMT -5
On that note, why does the lack of sunlight, or any proper natural light for that matter, have to influence my mood so much? Cloudy skies and rain never before effected me so much like it does now. As a child, I would write, draw, sing and dance (the latter inside but also outside) while it rained and now I usually just want to build a pillow fortress and bury myself in it until the light comes back. I miss summer. Then again, that is were the bugs return so there's that.
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Post by Sand on Jan 10, 2022 17:54:16 GMT -5
On that note, why does the lack of sunlight, or any proper natural light for that matter, have to influence my mood so much? Cloudy skies and rain never before effected me so much like it does now. As a child, I would write, draw, sing and dance (the latter inside but also outside) while it rained and now I usually just want to build a pillow fortress and bury myself in it until the light comes back. I miss summer. Then again, that is were the bugs return so there's that. I've been having the same issue and I can't figure out why. I originally thought it was seasonal depression, but... maybe it's not? I don't know, but I really really want spring to get here and I want the sun. |
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Jan 10, 2022 18:11:19 GMT -5
On that note, why does the lack of sunlight, or any proper natural light for that matter, have to influence my mood so much? Cloudy skies and rain never before effected me so much like it does now. As a child, I would write, draw, sing and dance (the latter inside but also outside) while it rained and now I usually just want to build a pillow fortress and bury myself in it until the light comes back. I miss summer. Then again, that is were the bugs return so there's that. I've been having the same issue and I can't figure out why. I originally thought it was seasonal depression, but... maybe it's not? I don't know, but I really really want spring to get here and I want the sun. Hopefully not a prying question, but have y'all tried taking a Vitamin D supplement? Most people don't get enough from diet alone, and your levels are especially low when you're not exposed to a lot of sunlight. Low Vitamin D is linked to stuff like seasonal depression. |
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Post by Cloudstorm on Jan 10, 2022 18:19:06 GMT -5
I've been having the same issue and I can't figure out why. I originally thought it was seasonal depression, but... maybe it's not? I don't know, but I really really want spring to get here and I want the sun. Hopefully not a prying question, but have y'all tried taking a Vitamin D supplement? Most people don't get enough from diet alone, and your levels are especially low when you're not exposed to a lot of sunlight. Low Vitamin D is linked to stuff like seasonal depression. was about to say sounds like time to get a Vitamin D boost. Reduced sunlight throughout the winter months will obviously result in lower Vitamin D Levels, which will definitely negatively effect ones mood and can be a result of seasonal depression. |
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Post by Dɾҽαɱƈʅσυԃ on Jan 10, 2022 18:21:09 GMT -5
On that note, why does the lack of sunlight, or any proper natural light for that matter, have to influence my mood so much? Cloudy skies and rain never before effected me so much like it does now. As a child, I would write, draw, sing and dance (the latter inside but also outside) while it rained and now I usually just want to build a pillow fortress and bury myself in it until the light comes back. I miss summer. Then again, that is were the bugs return so there's that. I've been having the same issue and I can't figure out why. I originally thought it was seasonal depression, but... maybe it's not? I don't know, but I really really want spring to get here and I want the sun. Me too. My godmother, who is very spiritual, said at the end of 2021 that all of the bad energy builing up from it usually is at its highest point around Christmas Eve and finally gets released on New Years Eve to bring good and fresh energy for the upcoming year (this sounds a bit over the top, I know). But so far, I'm not noticing any uplifting vibes and instead just don't feel much inspiration or motivation for 2022 at all. Spring and summer really cannot arrive fast enough for me. In terms of seasonal depression, that seems much more likely even though I already had my fair share of it in November of last year and am not looking forward to another possible instance at all. |
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Post by Dark Sun on Jan 10, 2022 23:55:43 GMT -5
I don't need to go into any kind of detail, the following speaks for itself: I swear my mind has two halves and my body is an entirely separate organism that wants to do its own thing and has complete control on both sides of the mind.
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Post by Sand on Jan 11, 2022 11:01:42 GMT -5
Hopefully not a prying question, but have y'all tried taking a Vitamin D supplement? Most people don't get enough from diet alone, and your levels are especially low when you're not exposed to a lot of sunlight. Low Vitamin D is linked to stuff like seasonal depression. was about to say sounds like time to get a Vitamin D boost. Reduced sunlight throughout the winter months will obviously result in lower Vitamin D Levels, which will definitely negatively effect ones mood and can be a result of seasonal depression. I used to take one, but I got a bottle of a Vitamin D supplement today so I can start taking it again. One of the medicines I take in large doses causes vitamin D deficiency already, so I should've continued to take it. Thank you both for your help <3 Hopefully it'll help me with my mood and the seasonal depression I think I'm experiencing. |
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Post by Sand on Jan 11, 2022 11:05:33 GMT -5
I've been having the same issue and I can't figure out why. I originally thought it was seasonal depression, but... maybe it's not? I don't know, but I really really want spring to get here and I want the sun. Me too. My godmother, who is very spiritual, said at the end of 2021 that all of the bad energy building up from it usually is at its highest point around Christmas Eve and finally gets released on New Years Eve to bring good and fresh energy for the upcoming year (this sounds a bit over the top, I know). But so far, I'm not noticing any uplifting vibes and instead just don't feel much inspiration or motivation for 2022 at all. Spring and summer really cannot arrive fast enough for me. In terms of seasonal depression, that seems much more likely even though I already had my fair share of it in November of last year and am not looking forward to another possible instance at all. It does sound over the top, although I have a family member who would agree with it-- she's also very spiritual. I felt more uplifted before the weather where I am got so dreary. When it changed, I felt much better in terms of feeling positive instead of negative. Since then, it's back and forth because of the weather or maybe due to a situation in my household. |
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Post by Dɾҽαɱƈʅσυԃ on Jan 11, 2022 11:31:29 GMT -5
Me too. My godmother, who is very spiritual, said at the end of 2021 that all of the bad energy building up from it usually is at its highest point around Christmas Eve and finally gets released on New Years Eve to bring good and fresh energy for the upcoming year (this sounds a bit over the top, I know). But so far, I'm not noticing any uplifting vibes and instead just don't feel much inspiration or motivation for 2022 at all. Spring and summer really cannot arrive fast enough for me. In terms of seasonal depression, that seems much more likely even though I already had my fair share of it in November of last year and am not looking forward to another possible instance at all. It does sound over the top, although I have a family member who would agree with it-- she's also very spiritual. I felt more uplifted before the weather where I am got so dreary. When it changed, I felt much better in terms of feeling positive instead of negative. Since then, it's back and forth because of the weather or maybe due to a situation in my household. I actually saw the posts made by Saint Ambrosef and Cloudstorm just now and have ordered some Vitamin D drops and pills. Hopefully, this will help in lifting up my mood. At least until the sun comes back for a longer stay in late April to early May where I live. And in regards to household situations, while I certainly do not know anything about yours and do not intent to pry, my own current matters when it comes to mine have certainly contributed to me feeling either positive or negative as well. I hope both of our weather influenced moods will improve soon. |
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Post by Cloudstorm on Jan 11, 2022 12:08:06 GMT -5
It does sound over the top, although I have a family member who would agree with it-- she's also very spiritual. I felt more uplifted before the weather where I am got so dreary. When it changed, I felt much better in terms of feeling positive instead of negative. Since then, it's back and forth because of the weather or maybe due to a situation in my household. I actually saw the posts made by Saint Ambrosef and Cloudstorm just now and have ordered some Vitamin D drops and pills. Hopefully, this will help in lifting up my mood. At least until the sun comes back for a longer stay in late April to early May where I live. And in regards to household situations, while I certainly do not know anything about yours and do not intent to pry, my own current matters when it comes to mine have certainly contributed to me feeling either positive or negative as well. I hope both of our weather influenced moods will improve soon. I hope your current family matters improve for you soon. I’ve grown up in a pretty chaotic and toxic household myself, and my sister was married to an abusive husband for 6 years, so I definitely know what it’s like, and can empathize and it’s not fun for anyone. Anyway I hope things get better for you. |
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Post by downfalls on Jan 11, 2022 12:34:58 GMT -5
ex friend apologized but didn't mention anything she did. not a single thing, and made excuses for it. im not ready to forgive her yet, so i told her via instagram that i couldn't forgive her nor accept her apology (out of fear of her misusing my trust like that again). guess what? she got angry at me in all caps and said i should 'fix myself'.
im not the one she should be apologizing to the most though. she should also be apologizing to my friend. not to mention, a small insult might let me forgive you, but calling me offensive things? forgiveness is never gonna happen.
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Dɾҽαɱƈʅσυԃ
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Arcane Season 2 has got me in a chokehold once again (do not send help)
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Post by Dɾҽαɱƈʅσυԃ on Jan 11, 2022 13:00:55 GMT -5
I actually saw the posts made by Saint Ambrosef and Cloudstorm just now and have ordered some Vitamin D drops and pills. Hopefully, this will help in lifting up my mood. At least until the sun comes back for a longer stay in late April to early May where I live. And in regards to household situations, while I certainly do not know anything about yours and do not intent to pry, my own current matters when it comes to mine have certainly contributed to me feeling either positive or negative as well. I hope both of our weather influenced moods will improve soon. I hope your current family matters improve for you soon. I’ve grown up in a pretty chaotic and toxic household myself, and my sister was married to an abusive husband for 6 years, so I definitely know what it’s like, and can empathize and it’s not fun for anyone. Anyway I hope things get better for you. Thank you so much for your kind words! I hope so too and think it actually will since the dynamic of my family problem shifted on the first day of this new year and I'm hoping to see more positive change soon. |
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Post by Cloudstorm on Jan 11, 2022 13:11:01 GMT -5
I hope your current family matters improve for you soon. I’ve grown up in a pretty chaotic and toxic household myself, and my sister was married to an abusive husband for 6 years, so I definitely know what it’s like, and can empathize and it’s not fun for anyone. Anyway I hope things get better for you. Thank you so much for your kind words! I hope so too and think it actually will since the dynamic of my family problem shifted on the first day of this new year and I'm hoping to see more positive change soon. Glad I was able to raise your spirits. And if you ever need anyone to talk too or just someone to listen, always feel free to PM me. Needless to say I’ve been through the wringer, around the block and all that lol. So I can empathize and relate to majority of peoples problems on a personal level if ever needed. |
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Dɾҽαɱƈʅσυԃ
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Arcane Season 2 has got me in a chokehold once again (do not send help)
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Post by Dɾҽαɱƈʅσυԃ on Jan 11, 2022 13:17:24 GMT -5
Thank you so much for your kind words! I hope so too and think it actually will since the dynamic of my family problem shifted on the first day of this new year and I'm hoping to see more positive change soon. Glad I was able to raise your spirits. And if you ever need anyone to talk too or just someone to listen, always feel free to PM me. Needless to say I’ve been through the wringer, around the block and all that lol. So I can empathize and relate to majority of peoples problems on a personal level if ever needed. Once again, I can only thank you for the offer and will take you up on it if need be. Currently, the situation has calmed down but is not properly solved so who knows what might happen and how soon. |
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