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The Ancient One
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pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Nov 13, 2017 15:47:13 GMT -5
Yeah I just feel bad bc I never really mean to just up and disappear for weeks at a time it just happens. It was a ton of fun seeing all the adults that I grew up around get super drunk and have a fun time. And actually my dad's birthday isn't till the 30th. The best part is that my brother had HIS 16th birthday party the next day so my dad had to drive like 5 13-16 year olds around on a boat with a really bad hangover XDDDDDDD And yeah she went and spent the day with her brother and sister and took the day off work. She seems better now and I want to let her grieve so I'm giving her some space while also offering any support I can. It happens to the best of us! It makes your visits back all that more special! That does sound fun lol birthday weekend for you all it seems lol Hahah omg xD that must've been interesting lol at first when you said boat I was like ??? what are you doing on a boat at this time of yr??? xD and then I realized...we are in totally different areas haha it was snowing today xD That's the best you can do! That sounds really hard though o: no loss is ever easy but...so young too o:
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Post by The Noble Dragon on Nov 13, 2017 15:52:04 GMT -5
Oh yeah lol It's like 70ish degrees out I think lol I forgot it snows this time of year in other places.... must be nice
Yeah, I think the family was expecting it though bc her cousin was really struggling lately but that doesn't mean it's easy for anyone. I just feel bad because Rose has lost so many people in her life, her mom passed away when she was 9 and her dad when she was 14 now her dad's father a couple months ago AND now her cousin.
It just reminds me that life is so fragile and can be gone in an instant and the idea of that terrifies me. Just the other night I had a nightmare about my best friend passing away and it's making me tear up rn jsut at the thought of it. Rose is so strong after having gone through all of this.... I just don't want her to think that everyone in her life is going to leave her so early. I don't know what I would do if anyone in my family passed away like that.
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#a8d1ff
The Ancient One
Name Colour
pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Nov 14, 2017 12:51:59 GMT -5
Oh yeah lol It's like 70ish degrees out I think lol I forgot it snows this time of year in other places.... must be nice Yeah, I think the family was expecting it though bc her cousin was really struggling lately but that doesn't mean it's easy for anyone. I just feel bad because Rose has lost so many people in her life, her mom passed away when she was 9 and her dad when she was 14 now her dad's father a couple months ago AND now her cousin. It just reminds me that life is so fragile and can be gone in an instant and the idea of that terrifies me. Just the other night I had a nightmare about my best friend passing away and it's making me tear up rn jsut at the thought of it. Rose is so strong after having gone through all of this.... I just don't want her to think that everyone in her life is going to leave her so early. I don't know what I would do if anyone in my family passed away like that. The cold just came at us with no warning honestly xD and that snow was out of nowhere lol I could go for some 70 degree weather xD Oh my goodness o: that is so sad and crazy and wow! That's just so terrible! Life really is so fragile :/ I don't know what I would do either- honestly, I've been very fortunate thus far in life and haven't lost any family like that- I mean, I lost great grandparents but I was so young and didn't know them that it didn't even register with me It's so scary to think!
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Post by The Noble Dragon on Nov 14, 2017 14:00:51 GMT -5
Yeah. the idea of death scares me because I don't really have any beliefs. Like I want to believe that there's something after life but it's hard to just jump headlong into one belif when it's possible there's just nothing and just... idk it gives me anxiety to think about lol.
In one of the video games I want to make I'm going to give the main villains this fear of mine. Their whole thing will be that they want to unlock immortality so they use their knowledge of science to do this and... lose their humanity in return because they do really awful stuff.
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#a8d1ff
The Ancient One
Name Colour
pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Nov 14, 2017 15:04:58 GMT -5
Yeah. the idea of death scares me because I don't really have any beliefs. Like I want to believe that there's something after life but it's hard to just jump headlong into one belif when it's possible there's just nothing and just... idk it gives me anxiety to think about lol. In one of the video games I want to make I'm going to give the main villains this fear of mine. Their whole thing will be that they want to unlock immortality so they use their knowledge of science to do this and... lose their humanity in return because they do really awful stuff. See, I am religious but I still do question it a little because I feel like you don't know what is after, if there is anything, until you get there- like, I should have more faith but you never know! I hope there is something though bc legit- I am super afraid of nothing as well...there was a thread on the forums not too long ago about this and I started thinking about if there was nothing and I started crying like?? it's super scary o: I think that would be super interesting- and gives a lot more of a realistic feel to it! I like that concept a lot!
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Post by The Noble Dragon on Nov 15, 2017 13:09:18 GMT -5
I have a lot of respect for people that can just fully believe in stuff like that. They have to be really brave to put all their faith in a religion like that. I just don't know what to believe and I don't know if I want to believe in anything at the moment.
I just don't want to die and have people forget about me after a couple generations. I guess that's why i want to make video games, so people will show them to their kids and stuff and my company can live on after me and people will talk about me and want to learn about me. I just don't want to be forgotten, and i guess that's selfish but i'm sure most people don't want to be forgotten either.
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#a8d1ff
The Ancient One
Name Colour
pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Nov 15, 2017 13:21:51 GMT -5
I agree with you. Like I am a pretty religious person and I go to church regularly ect ect But it isn't easy always to have that faith to be like yes there is this or that even though i've never seen it Even the priest says that sometimes he questions things too
Exactly!! I don't really think that is selfish at all! I mean, we all want to be remembered in some way- doesn't have to be in any big way- sure life goes on, but it makes it seem like your life didn't have an impact anywhere, ya know? Like you want to be able to say that you lived for something that people will be able to hold on to
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