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Post by whiteflight on Dec 7, 2023 21:28:49 GMT -5
I wish I actually knew how to manage stress. I can logically walk myself away from the anxious thoughts, but my stress will wreak havoc on my digestive tract. Even if I manage to calm my body down through breathing/meditation, the stress will show up while I'm sleeping and I'll wake up 10x more stressed than I was when I fell asleep. It's like playing whack-a-mole; it'll always show up some way, somehow. Mostly I'm stressed about getting into one particular law school. Generally, I'm not someone who believes in a "dream school" or that there aren't other good options out there. But this school genuinely has, by far, the most resources and opportunities in the area of law I want to study. Every time I learn more about it, I want to go there even more. It's amazing in so many ways. It's also terribly difficult to get into. I'm trying so hard to distract myself but I'm constantly nauseous. maybe listen to music when you sleep or just listen to your favorite music in general? I do that to help with my stress cause stress is the main cause for my seizures. |
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Non-binary
#F4B548
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Dark Sun
Sage of the Stars
I'm devious, I'm devilish, I'm ever so deliciously evil
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Post by Dark Sun on Dec 8, 2023 0:01:32 GMT -5
I wish I actually knew how to manage stress. I can logically walk myself away from the anxious thoughts, but my stress will wreak havoc on my digestive tract. Even if I manage to calm my body down through breathing/meditation, the stress will show up while I'm sleeping and I'll wake up 10x more stressed than I was when I fell asleep. It's like playing whack-a-mole; it'll always show up some way, somehow. Mostly I'm stressed about getting into one particular law school. Generally, I'm not someone who believes in a "dream school" or that there aren't other good options out there. But this school genuinely has, by far, the most resources and opportunities in the area of law I want to study. Every time I learn more about it, I want to go there even more. It's amazing in so many ways. It's also terribly difficult to get into. I'm trying so hard to distract myself but I'm constantly nauseous. maybe listen to music when you sleep or just listen to your favorite music in general? I do that to help with my stress cause stress is the main cause for my seizures. With all due respect whiteflight, this is a vent thread, not one where people are actively looking for (in this case, unsolicited) advice. I'm sure we all (Quill especially) appreciate the sentiment, but in future, perhaps it would be better if you laid off on the suggestions?  Again, it's all well and good, but I doubt advice is what Quill was looking for. The same goes for everyone here, really, so I'm not really speaking for Quill in this respect.
Edit reason: mispelled name.
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Agender
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Leapkit
Finder of Rare Friend Error
Derealizing for the forseeable future
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Post by Leapkit on Dec 8, 2023 0:46:14 GMT -5
I'm wondering if we could maybe do here something similar to what I have in my discord and color-code the vents.
like red is for dont reply, orange is for okay to post over, yellow is for wanting advice, green is for wanting validation, blue is be gentle, purple is for dont care
edit: oh i forgot black/grey being "this is dark humor please laugh about my terrible situation"
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#F4B548
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Dark Sun
Sage of the Stars
I'm devious, I'm devilish, I'm ever so deliciously evil
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Post by Dark Sun on Dec 8, 2023 1:15:54 GMT -5
I'm wondering if we could maybe do here something similar to what I have in my discord and color-code the vents. like red is for dont reply, orange is for okay to post over, yellow is for wanting advice, green is for wanting validation, blue is be gentle, purple is for dont care edit: oh i forgot black/grey being "this is dark humor please laugh about my terrible situation" Uh ackshually it's indigo and violet. 🤓
(Good suggestion btw)
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Post by Quill on Dec 8, 2023 9:13:15 GMT -5
That's a really good idea
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Post by rabbit on Dec 9, 2023 7:13:54 GMT -5
Another dumb politics rant about my state The fact that a woman is on trial for trying to flush down a miscarriage (you know, a normal thing that often happens during miscarriage) in my state makes me so mad. This should have never happened. The thought that women who miscarry should be criminalize should not be a thought anybody has. Were the stupid men who prosecuted her expecting her to pull all of the fetal tissue out of the toilet and bury outside or cremate it somewhere after she experienced something so traumatic? It’s literally absurd. I hate these anti-abortion lawmakers running the show and their gross hatred for women. |
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Post by Sand on Dec 9, 2023 9:42:47 GMT -5
I'm wondering if we could maybe do here something similar to what I have in my discord and color-code the vents. like red is for dont reply, orange is for okay to post over, yellow is for wanting advice, green is for wanting validation, blue is be gentle, purple is for dont care edit: oh i forgot black/grey being "this is dark humor please laugh about my terrible situation" if Zeldris is still around, we can ask her if she wants to add it to the 1st post. |
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Post by Tealraven on Dec 9, 2023 12:47:18 GMT -5
I wish I could make a dumb politics rant about my state but I’m too afraid of potential backlash.
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#F4B548
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Dark Sun
Sage of the Stars
I'm devious, I'm devilish, I'm ever so deliciously evil
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Post by Dark Sun on Dec 9, 2023 15:48:24 GMT -5
So I was going to send my $40 coat bag, as it came a size too large. To ship it back, it's going to cost over $300. Absolutely absurd. I'm going to be selling it, in which case.
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Post by whiteflight on Dec 11, 2023 20:52:05 GMT -5
Why do my parents gotta act like I'm super lazy just because I stayed in my room for just one day!!!!! I was just tired because I had to wait for a long time and make so many phone calls just to get my medication, but because I stayed in my room and fell asleep now I'm lazy!? Seriously my dangerous thoughts are going to come back if they keep acting like I'm a lazy stupid useless child!!!! They both already know how far I'll go if they keep thinking like that they even hate it and said that I'm the evil one! Well if they believe that then it's good cause they both need to open their eyes and see that the only child who obeys them, helps them, and do their work for them is right next to them!!!!! I think I really need some music and alone time......
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Post by Dark on Dec 12, 2023 10:15:55 GMT -5
i feel like nobody really cares about me as much as i care about them... i always comfort people when they're sad even if im having a hard time myself, but barely get comforted back. i do too much for people....
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beefur 👻🦇🎃
"Great, let's round up all the useless cats and hope a tree falls on them." ~Jayfeather
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Post by beefur 👻🦇🎃 on Dec 13, 2023 20:55:45 GMT -5
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Post by ! (Ġray) ! on Dec 13, 2023 21:36:13 GMT -5
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Post by ! (Ġray) ! on Dec 13, 2023 21:36:30 GMT -5
i feel like nobody really cares about me as much as i care about them... i always comfort people when they're sad even if im having a hard time myself, but barely get comforted back. i do too much for people.... I care about you |
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Post by Katanaheart on Dec 14, 2023 7:30:41 GMT -5
Terrified by both the spring and summer semester.
Spring is actually fairly okay but I worry my performance as an intern is going to be shit because I’m going to be too worried about hours than actually doing my classwork. (Mother has already put the fear in me that she can’t afford another incomplete. Ignoring the fact, incompletes do not cost her anything. There wasn’t even a textbook cost she had to pay for, for that class.)
Anyway, other casual fears. If I pass the class and things go well there and I decide to pursue the EDS anyway.
I’m either stuck living at home with crappy internet and doing online classes as the EDS is entirely online to my knowledge. (I believe her fix last time was sending me off during the day to my Aunt or one of her friends to get my relevant work done. Ignoring the fact my Aunt has three grandchildren that could pester me and the friend being considered has at least one.)
Not to mention my mental and social health would take a nose-dive since I’ve lost my ability to conceivably live with my mother full-time. (And no one comes to see me when I’m home. My closest friend does not come over because they are tired of dealing with my mother and would prefer not too.)
Which as my ex has technically dumped me, I would have nowhere to live but my parents home if I were to pursue the EDS in the summer.
Other caveat being just continue to get housing in the fall but I doubt that will go well, the moment I mention all of my fall classes are online. And “She isn’t paying for me live in my dorm when I’m only taking online classes.”
So, I’m stuck with becoming a social pariah once more as my friends all live at least an hour away, which would be a two hour drive there and back. (And my car Stamina is not great, so I’d be spending time recovering than enjoying them anyways
Which leads to the “wonderful,” option of try to move in with someone. When, I cannot do so. None of my friends would do so. (Most already have dorm rooms, one still lives at home with his parents, and my ex will be gone to a different state after the summer and is currently trying to get one of our other friends to break their lease and move in so they can have a roommate.)
My closest friend who lives around my parents area did agree to the possibility of eventually moving in with me. But they have little reason to leave their parents and I believe that situation has worsened somehow. So, the only person that has agreed is also just a pipe dream.
I also have garnered very intense paranoia about living alone in general due to an event of harassment in November by a guy.
Dorm room situations are fine due to their arrangement but others are not. I’d also have no pet to come home too as well so it would just be me, entirely and utterly alone if I were to live on my own.
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Being a theater kid
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Post by 🅃🄴🄼🄿🄾 on Dec 16, 2023 2:46:08 GMT -5
This is going to be a long vent like usual. It basically includes why I've been so inactive from the forums lately. Firstly, the reason I've been inactive. One night, I was having severe back pain and stomach pain. That time we went to the doctor and it calmed down. It happened again recently except way worse and we decided it was best to go to the ER (it was 4am at this point). They took a couple of tests and did a CT scan. The results didn't look good. They then took me to a different hospital about 2 1/2 hours from where we live. Something was wrong with my gallbladder. Fast forward, they see gallstones blocking bile ducts in my pancreas and liver, which had infection and damage, and needed to do a surgery where they wouldn't cut me open, but get the gallstones out and put a stent in my pancreas. After that, we decided it would be best to take the gallbladder out all together, so we did that and I've been healing from it. Turns out I have another medical condition called gastroparesis. This is where my stomach either doesn't digest food or doesn't digest food well so now I'm on a diet for the rest of my life.
Secondly, GENDERS ARE CONFUSING!!! I thought I was agender, then I thought I was transgender, now I am pretty sure I am non-binary and sticking with it. Hopefully.
Fun fact, my doctor likes to say I'm an interesting case since most people my age don't get their gallbladder. Very cool. |
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Dɾҽαɱƈʅσυԃ
Villain Enjoyer
Arcane Season 2 has got me in a chokehold once again (do not send help)
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Post by Dɾҽαɱƈʅσυԃ on Dec 16, 2023 5:55:29 GMT -5
Having sudden family drama so shortly before Christmas might really ruin the vibe this year :-(
At least we all got sick before and not instead during that time though...
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Post by Dark on Dec 16, 2023 14:52:23 GMT -5
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Post by Dark on Dec 16, 2023 14:53:06 GMT -5
i feel like nobody really cares about me as much as i care about them... i always comfort people when they're sad even if im having a hard time myself, but barely get comforted back. i do too much for people.... I care about you thanks teehee, but i mean people irl |
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Post by کیوان on Dec 16, 2023 14:53:13 GMT -5
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Post by Dark on Dec 16, 2023 14:57:13 GMT -5
sometimes i just feel nothing
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Asexual
Dark Forest Leader
volchitsa4
can't decide of I should keep my original joining name or switch back to houndsteeth....
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Post by volchitsa4 on Dec 18, 2023 10:34:44 GMT -5
TW; SH, su*cid*l ideation Recently I got let go from my new job. Probably because of my panic attack but I was told that they have too many people which is kind of true. But at the same when I was hired they were down quite a few people and I was told that I was doing great for being thrown in the deep end and pretty much after like a two day induction left to my own devices and to manage the other person I was working with. Then people returned and I was probably just the easiest person to cut out.
I'm so sick of this. I have spiralled so far and fast I just want my life to end. I've gone back to SH actively. I just want my life to stop. This is too hard. I can't do job hunting again. Just when I thought things were looking up it just goes to shit again surprise surprise. This year has been so shit for me mentally and tbh this is just the icing on the cake. How am I supposed to recover? I feel like I've picked myself up one too many times. I'm so tired. |
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Post by کیوان on Dec 18, 2023 22:45:19 GMT -5
I just read brainrot on Discord, this fandom is a double-edged sword
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Post by brooksie on Dec 18, 2023 23:41:54 GMT -5
theres just always another thing and the way my anxiety is it means i can never just have a moment to truly be at peace and happy because theres always something to be stressed about
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Non-binary
#F4B548
Name Colour
Dark Sun
Sage of the Stars
I'm devious, I'm devilish, I'm ever so deliciously evil
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Post by Dark Sun on Dec 20, 2023 2:51:31 GMT -5
I am so ticked off at myself, I just ruined my computer mouse. Being half-asleep, my zombie brain thought it would be a good idea to clean it by... running it under the kitchen sink. A few seconds later I realized what I had done and, ugh... I don't even have a back-up anywhere.
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Post by ! (Ġray) ! on Dec 23, 2023 19:36:59 GMT -5
We had to euthanise my dog yesterday. To whoever said "oh don't worry they just fall asleep and die" f**k you because that was terrifying and I didn't even know that a dog's spine could bend like that
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Agender
#000000
Name Colour
Leapkit
Finder of Rare Friend Error
Derealizing for the forseeable future
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Post by Leapkit on Dec 23, 2023 21:30:37 GMT -5
We had to euthanise my dog yesterday. To whoever said "oh don't worry they just fall asleep and die" f**k you because that was terrifying and I didn't even know that a dog's spine could bend like that They're supposed to use a strong sedative before the actual injection, I feel like they had to have done it wrong and you should definitely not go back to whoever did that service because they really are supposed to go peacefully and that doesn't sound okay one bit. I'm so so sorry you had to witness that. |
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Again, it's all well and good, but I doubt advice is what Quill was looking for. The same goes for everyone here, really, so I'm not really speaking for Quill in this respect.
