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Post by rabbit on Jul 18, 2023 17:18:33 GMT -5
hooray it's ptsd from wildfire smoke season As someone living a place were wildfires usually never happen, seeing and smelling smoke everywhere but seeing no fire is pretty weird. |
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Post by Tealraven on Jul 18, 2023 19:37:45 GMT -5
hooray it's ptsd from wildfire smoke season As someone living a place were wildfires usually never happen, seeing and smelling smoke everywhere but seeing no fire is pretty weird. several years ago a massive wildfire - hundreds of thousands of acres - came within 5 miles of the city limits. there was a huge fire camp in a field down the road from my house. i knew people who lost their homes. we had to fill tubs with our belongings and be ready to evacuate at a moments notice. this was also the time of year that i was having serious suicidal thoughts. and also the time of year that my grandma died. so yeah. seeing and/or smelling smoke is really hard for me, even though this fire is nowhere near any populated areas. it took me a long time to be okay with even campfire smoke. wildfire smoke smells different though. it fills me with a looming sense of dread i can’t quite shake, even years later. |
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Post by Leapkit on Jul 18, 2023 20:09:52 GMT -5
consider my liking your post to be a virtual hug.
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Post by ! Wisp ! on Jul 20, 2023 12:09:33 GMT -5
I hate myself sm rn. I'm practicing for marching band, but I can't even go with the metro. I get lost so quick, and it just feels weird not practicing w/ the band. I cannot go fast without getting lost in the music bc I'm not used to that. This doesn't help with the fact that I'm supposed to memorize this by Monday bc that's when I started practicing with said band. I should've practiced during the summer, but I didn't want to for the sake of my mental health and avoiding stress. I know it's on me, but still. Now, I'm crying, hating on myself, and knowing damn well that I'm going to fail. I knew I should've taken PE instead of band. So much for avoiding stress...
(This is stupid, ik. But I just can't take it rn.)
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Post by ! (Ġray) ! on Jul 21, 2023 2:10:02 GMT -5
Have to do a psmt for maths and I if I have to redo my equations one more time I'm going to cry
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Jul 21, 2023 21:51:48 GMT -5
how do so many people function without having a comprehensive worldview. like i think i'd go mad.
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Post by Quill on Jul 22, 2023 11:28:05 GMT -5
how do so many people function without having a comprehensive worldview. like i think i'd go mad. What do you mean by "comprehensive worldview?" |
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Post by Tealraven on Jul 22, 2023 13:06:21 GMT -5
cause of this fire is still officially under investigation, but it was likely caused by someone who threw a cigarette out a truck window.
18,000 acres burning. all because of one person’s carelessness. which is actually not much where wildfires are concerned, but still. what a waste. i hope she gets serious consequences. i know im not the only one in town who’s had bad memories triggered by this.
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Jul 22, 2023 14:11:21 GMT -5
how do so many people function without having a comprehensive worldview. like i think i'd go mad. What do you mean by "comprehensive worldview?" Having a central philosophy that governs your life. Belief in some sort of core objectivity from which all your other beliefs are tied. A foundational lens through which you understand your place in the world, the purpose of existence, the point of life, and that understanding then shaping all your convictions. (Idk if that explains it.) I've met so many people who just. Don't have that. They're sorta floating along through life picking what ideas they want to profess without any central philosophical concept tying it all together. It seems so backwards to me. Instead of trying to discern a central truth to then base other beliefs off of, they randomly collect various philosophical tenets through life that they then either try to stitch together into a nonsensical patchwork quilt, or just leave the patches around unconnected. They don't really know why they believe what they do other than some vague sense of appeal. No system for internal consistency or a central tenet that encompasses all the others - or if they do it's something very surface-level. Like if I didn't have a comprehensive worldview of some kind to root my decisions, I would truly go insane and fall into existential crises ten times a year. Idk how people do it. |
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Post by Leapkit on Jul 22, 2023 15:58:57 GMT -5
What do you mean by "comprehensive worldview?" Having a central philosophy that governs your life. Belief in some sort of core objectivity from which all your other beliefs are tied. A foundational lens through which you understand your place in the world, the purpose of existence, the point of life, and that understanding then shaping all your convictions. (Idk if that explains it.) I've met so many people who just. Don't have that. They're sorta floating along through life picking what ideas they want to profess without any central philosophical concept tying it all together. It seems so backwards to me. Instead of trying to discern a central truth to then base other beliefs off of, they randomly collect various philosophical tenets through life that they then either try to stitch together into a nonsensical patchwork quilt, or just leave the patches around unconnected. They don't really know why they believe what they do other than some vague sense of appeal. No system for internal consistency or a central tenet that encompasses all the others - or if they do it's something very surface-level. Like if I didn't have a comprehensive worldview of some kind to root my decisions, I would truly go insane and fall into existential crises ten times a year. Idk how people do it. Idk if you want feedback or an opinion so I'm gonna spoiler my word vomit. I do it because I don't believe there are any whole objective truths and I've learned that it's unhealthy to base your life around one thing you expect to be as you have always thought of it as, because what if it changes, what if you get new information that changes how you view that base, what if that base is wrong or was misleading you and omitting important details and information, and fitting your worldview around it has been untrue the entire time, or worse and hurting other people? It makes far more sense to me to adapt and constantly learn and find things out myself and try to figure things out the right way than accept everything I was given to be true. I've seen what happens to people who commit and double down on things that are wrong instead of accepting that they were wrong and it's never pretty. For them or for the people around them who are trying to learn and grow. I don't want to be that immovable force kind of person that would rather dismiss all of the fun flavors of life and humanity and history because it didn't fit what I thought I knew. Do I get a little existential about it sometimes? Yeah, at first, it really bothered me not knowing who I was or what I was doing I was negative nihilist about everything. Over time it turned more positive. From a "Nothing matters :'(" to "Nothing matters!!  " Life really is just what you want to make of it. I'm also at peace with just living with all the paradoxes of human existence, and that we'll never know the whole, so ultimately isn't everyones ideals just a patchwork quilt? Even if it was a quilt given to them by their predecessors? I think it's also a matter of what works best for people. Some people can't cope with The Void(tm) for extended periods of time and for other people it feels like peace and freedom. I think my only consistent core tenet is IN growth and learning and that has taken me so many places, good and bad, but I've come out better for it I think. And that growth has given me experiences not many other people have, or in my age group have, to help others and not just myself, which is my own self-given purpose. Then again i suppose a loose foundation is still a foundation, and maybe I'm rambling and completely missed your point. |
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Post by Quill on Jul 22, 2023 17:37:26 GMT -5
What do you mean by "comprehensive worldview?" Having a central philosophy that governs your life. Belief in some sort of core objectivity from which all your other beliefs are tied. A foundational lens through which you understand your place in the world, the purpose of existence, the point of life, and that understanding then shaping all your convictions. (Idk if that explains it.) I've met so many people who just. Don't have that. They're sorta floating along through life picking what ideas they want to profess without any central philosophical concept tying it all together. It seems so backwards to me. Instead of trying to discern a central truth to then base other beliefs off of, they randomly collect various philosophical tenets through life that they then either try to stitch together into a nonsensical patchwork quilt, or just leave the patches around unconnected. They don't really know why they believe what they do other than some vague sense of appeal. No system for internal consistency or a central tenet that encompasses all the others - or if they do it's something very surface-level. Like if I didn't have a comprehensive worldview of some kind to root my decisions, I would truly go insane and fall into existential crises ten times a year. Idk how people do it. Oh, I definitely don't have one. As a humanities scholar with a postmodern bent, I generally distrust any philosophy that claims to have everything figured out. It has its pros and cons. On the negative side, it means that I don't always have a clear sense of direction in life and struggle to form personal beliefs. As you mentioned, existential crises are common  On the positive side, it allows me to have a radical open-mindedness and excitement about life. I always get to look forward to having my views challenged, flipped upside-down, etc. |
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Post by 🅃🄴🄼🄿🄾 on Jul 22, 2023 17:41:20 GMT -5
My family and I went to New York for a few days. It's so crazy there and the flights back home were crazy aswell. I know I type a lot, so I put it in a spoiler. Get ready for a lot of reading if you read it. At New York, we decided to go on the subway for the "New York experience". I was the one who was like, "Maybe we shouldn't." We went anyways. We were about one or two stops away from where we needed to get off and the subway stops. There was an announcement made that an unauthorized person was on the tracks and they had to shut down everything, even the power, until the police could get them off. Well, while all this was going on, there was some dude playing Christmas music on his violin. It was the same song over and over again. He was good, but it was a little odd. Then they finally got the person off the tracks and we got back to the hotel. That stuff kinda put me on edge though.
Then the airport. We had to get on two different flights to get there. The first one was delayed a little bit. When we got off the first plane, we had to run across the whole airport to get to our next one and barely made it. On the way back home, we had to switch flights to go to a different state than where we were going because we were on standby and the plane we originally were going on was full. After that flight, we had to take another flight to the place we were originally going to. The first flight was full, so we had to wait for nine hours for the next one, then that one was full. We then waited two more hours and got on that flight.
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Jul 22, 2023 22:50:21 GMT -5
I appreciate the responses, but I think we are categorizing "comprehensive worldview" differently; what both y'all have described (regarding your personal views) sounds like you both do have a central tenet that dictates your worldview, whether its subjectivism or post-modernism. There is a lens you have thoughtfully settled on in viewing your existence even though it doesn't mean you have everything about life figured out. So I don't think either of y'all actually fall into the category of folk I'm speaking of.
I'm thinking about people who hold a collection of contradictory beliefs because they have no system for consistency and don't look past the utmost superficial layer of a given belief. E.g., someone who claims a core philosophy for their life is "don't be mean to others" but has never asked themselves "Why is being mean a bad thing?" There doesn't seem to be a particular reason for their beliefs. It just seems like such a fragile way to structure your life and decisions when you don't even know how to rationalize your own beliefs to yourself.
I'm not really here to argue about the "correct" philosophy. (Although admittedly I resent the implication that belief in objectivity means inflexibility in worldview or inability to adapt to new existential concepts). My vent is basically just wondering how people can function without thinking about philosophy at all.
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Post by Leapkit on Jul 23, 2023 1:09:08 GMT -5
Understandable. Mostly my gripe is only to the "facts don't care about your feelings" crowd when both hold value and honestly a lot of the things they think are fact are in fact their own projected feelings.
EX: how people react in outrage to someone elses culture, identity, or sexuality when it has no bearing on them other than, they think certain types of people should be "illegal" or assimilate.
Sorry for that.
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Jul 23, 2023 9:04:51 GMT -5
Understandable. Mostly my gripe is only to the "facts don't care about your feelings" crowd when both hold value and honestly a lot of the things they think are fact are in fact their own projected feelings. EX: how people react in outrage to someone elses culture, identity, or sexuality when it has no bearing on them other than, they think certain types of people should be "illegal" or assimilate. Sorry for that. No need to apologize! I agree with you that those people are annoying. And also don’t know why believe the things they do often times. |
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Post by Quill on Jul 23, 2023 16:33:07 GMT -5
Yes, I'm sorry I worded it the way that I did. I think that neither objectivism or subjectivism is better than the other, but that they both have different pitfalls that people tend to fall into if they do not think critically or compassionately.
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Post by Quill on Jul 23, 2023 16:34:05 GMT -5
Moving is a pain in the behind
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Post by 🅃🄴🄼🄿🄾 on Jul 25, 2023 22:51:05 GMT -5
I love back pain. Once again, I type a lot. So it's in a spoiler. There's mentions of female problems, so if you're uncomfortable with that, please do not read. Yesterday I had this horrible back pain. I've been having this back pain off and on for quite a few months now. I'm not too sure what's been causing it, by my mom thinks she might. She said that it may be the weight on my chest. She thinks this because one of her coworkers had the same thing when they were my age. I have an appointment to address my back pain in August. My mom hopes that we might be able to get chest reduction surgery by next summer, due to me being very insecure about my chest and it possibly causing me pain. I'm hoping that we can get it done because I also have a condition ehlers-danlos which can also affect my back, especially since I have hypermobile ehlers-danlos. I'm hoping we can get the surgery done so that I won't be in pain anymore. |
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Post by Leapkit on Jul 27, 2023 22:00:16 GMT -5
Lamenting once again about how being severely abused and sheltered as a child and not having any real stable functional adults as a model puts me at a disadvantage to everyone else my age but then when I ask for help I am told I should have learned that and I should be able to do it or that I can do it on my own if I just try. Yeah well? I can't so thanks.
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Post by ✲ριкαƒυєу✲ on Jul 30, 2023 0:37:25 GMT -5
Honestly feel like I'm losing my best friend...
It's hardcore triggering my trauma and fear of abandonment
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Post by whiteflight on Jul 30, 2023 22:39:43 GMT -5
I really hate how my first cousins don't consider me as a close cousin anymore. We've use to always hangout and have fun with each other when we were kids and growing up. We called ourselves best cousins just like best friends but then all of a sudden they just suddenly started ignoring me and won't talk to me at all anymore. Their mom recently made friends with someone and that person has four children the same age as us. Every time I try to start a conversation with my cousin they would talk a bit and then go and talk/hangout with those teens/children. But it was even more worse today. It was my cousins high school graduation party and they didn't just ignored me but my whole family. The only time they interacted with my family was if my parents asked them for something. They only hangout with their mom side of the family and when they were doing their speech they only talked about their mom side of the family not the dad side. I know this probably sounds dumb but it felt like they hated us for something they won't tell us and I know I sound selfish for wanting their attention and wanting them to hangout with me like in the past, but it just feels wrong to leave your childhood cousin all alone and go hangout with new people. We called each other best cousins, we've always helped each other with our problems, and we're always laughing and having fun. I think I'm just gonna stay away from them from now on everytime there's a family party since it feels like my childhood happiness with them is all a lie.
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Jul 30, 2023 23:03:24 GMT -5
I really hate how my first cousins don't consider me as a close cousin anymore. We've use to always hangout and have fun with each other when we were kids and growing up. We called ourselves best cousins just like best friends but then all of a sudden they just suddenly started ignoring me and won't talk to me at all anymore. Their mom recently made friends with someone and that person has four children the same age as us. Every time I try to start a conversation with my cousin they would talk a bit and then go and talk/hangout with those teens/children. But it was even more worse today. It was my cousins high school graduation party and they didn't just ignored me but my whole family. The only time they interacted with my family was if my parents asked them for something. They only hangout with their mom side of the family and when they were doing their speech they only talked about their mom side of the family not the dad side. I know this probably sounds dumb but it felt like they hated us for something they won't tell us and I know I sound selfish for wanting their attention and wanting them to hangout with me like in the past, but it just feels wrong to leave your childhood cousin all alone and go hangout with new people. We called each other best cousins, we've always helped each other with our problems, and we're always laughing and having fun. I think I'm just gonna stay away from them from now on everytime there's a family party since it feels like my childhood happiness with them is all a lie. some people are just really weird about stuff like that. i have some cousins on my dad's side of the family who kinda grew into shallow people with questionable priorities. admittedly, we were never particularly close, but we had some good memories as kids. but as teenagers and now adults they are just super self-absorbed people. anyways, the point is that you probably didn't do anything wrong. some people can just be really passive aggressive over dumb/small things and refuse to communicate, or they grew up and decided they were "too cool" for y'all. it sucks and i'm sorry you've lost a close relationship as a result, but it really probably isn't because anything you actually did. |
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Post by Dark on Jul 31, 2023 6:33:52 GMT -5
I’m so tired. I don’t believe I got a wink of sleep last night because I was up vomiting. I hate vomiting. |
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Post by 𝕊’𝕞𝕠𝕣𝕖 on Jul 31, 2023 16:47:16 GMT -5
TW: slight blood mention. I am at my limits, like genuinely I have been so stressed that it’s physically affecting me. Stomach aches, head aches, insomnia, digestive issues, general body aches, shedding, you name it. I’ve told people this repeatedly, I’ve said, in extremely plain words “I need a break.” I’ve spent my entire summer doing things for other people and causing my writing and general life to suffer for it, and yet I am still pressured and pushed and guilted into the same responsibilities I’ve told people I can’t handle anymore. Today I had a really bad bloody nose from the stress that I’ve been under, yet I was just told to clean it up and keep plowing through, because apparently my mental and physical health doesn’t matter so long as people can keep using me. I tell people “I can’t do this anymore” and I’m told “sure you can, just do it” and then if I try to say no, I’m overcome with intense guilt that also makes me physically sick so there’s literally just no winning and my mental and physical health keep deteriorating but hey!! It’s fine!!!! At least I’m still at everyone else’s disposal!!! Which is clearly what matters more here!!!! |
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Post by {Azure} on Aug 1, 2023 19:11:00 GMT -5
just tell them to f*ck off
take the break regardless.
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Post by Yoshimi on Aug 3, 2023 21:16:58 GMT -5
Minor grievance, but I spent so long to look for this thread of funny usernames of the original WCF but that stupid image hosting site deleted the pics. **** youuuuu wcrpforums.com/thread/6004/interesting-wcf-accounts |
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Post by rabbit on Aug 4, 2023 7:40:48 GMT -5
Spoiling for current events/voting I am so nervous that a certain issue will pass in the next few days because it will be so bad for Ohio citizen rights generations to come. “Pro-life” out-of-state lobby groups are scum and I’m sick of these groups ruining my state for decades. They are literally trying to dupe people who actually believe in prolife to vote their rights away. It’s gross. I see signs and ads for to vote “yes” with prolife smacked on it. The issue in question actually has little to do with abortion, and people who don’t understand that will get tricked into voting yes by these fear tactics these conservative lobby groups love to use. |
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Post by knight on Aug 5, 2023 10:59:11 GMT -5
Spoiling for current events/voting I am so nervous that a certain issue will pass in the next few days because it will be so bad for Ohio citizen rights generations to come. “Pro-life” out-of-state lobby groups are scum and I’m sick of these groups ruining my state for decades. They are literally trying to dupe people who actually believe in prolife to vote their rights away. It’s gross. I see signs and ads for to vote “yes” with prolife smacked on it. The issue in question actually has little to do with abortion, and people who don’t understand that will get tricked into voting yes by these fear tactics these conservative lobby groups love to use. : It's something that frustrates me too. And it's always the same, basic mindset. They just think of what happens. Not why. The reason never matters to them. It's not good that abortion exists, but it's a necessity because our world is imperfect and bad things happen. It's better than the alternative - at least to me - of forcing the mother of going through a traumatic birth and the child likely being abandoned and left to the mercy of the dubitably questionable foster care system. Not everyone lives in the picket fence fairytale that so many of these people profess is so good and easy to achieve. UNRELATED: (you don't have to read this rabbit lol, I wanted to reply to you but I didn't want to double post in order to post this) (also warning for homophobia in case that's something that makes you uncomfortable) Last night at work, my coworker was talking to me about how her sister was getting married. Coincidentally, her sister was getting married to another woman. Immediately, another coworker butts in to the conversation: "You mean HIM, right?"
Yeah. You can see where this is going.
The coworker I was talking to replies, "No, my sister is bisexual and so am I." To this the guy starts "explaining" how homosexuality is "wrong" according to religion and biology. Of course she tries to argue against him, but he doesn't listen and continues to shut her down in order to explain how her sexuality is wrong (yay! /s). When she starts crying (and I honestly believe she was fake-crying to get him to stop talking about it, which is smart) he gets distracted from the subject and moves his attention to trying to get her to stop.
The cherry on the cake is when another coworker came in, overheard the conversation, and said, "I'm sorry, but I'm Christian and that's against my beliefs. It's a sin and I'm not changing my beliefs for you," and left. No one.. asked for her to change her beliefs?? The original topic wasn't even ABOUT LGBT rights or whether it was a sin or not. It was just our coworker talking about her sister getting married?! The only thing our coworker was asking for was for the debate to end because she didn't feel like debating about it (understandably) at the time.
I was flabbergasted. I don't care what your beliefs on LGBT are, but if it's just MENTIONED that someone is LGBT in a conversation that should NOT be an invitation to debate with them on their (or the mentioned person's) identity. |
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Post by rabbit on Aug 6, 2023 17:47:16 GMT -5
knightI’m staunchly pro-choice so I agree. Ohio is having a special election on august 8th on whether to pass “Issue 1”, which, despite whatever fear mongering lies many conversative voters are led to believe like it’s about “protecting the constitution” from transgender people, abortion, or weed, it’s about making it almost impossible for any Ohio citizen (no matter how to they politically swing) from successful organizing and getting citizen led amendments on the ballot and pass. It literally has no language about drugs, LGBT, abortion, or “PaReNtAl RiGhTs” (🤢). It’s pretty much a power grab for politicians in Columbus, which many are already drenched in money scandals. The reason why politicians are trying to push this issue to pass on such a weirdly timed, sneaky august special election is they are hoping voter turnout will be low and the issue will pass easily, changing the rules because they want to eliminate any possibility of two citizen led amendments about weed and reproductive rights respectively on the upcoming November ballot of passing. However, “yes” voters don’t seem to realize or care that they are shooting themselves in the foot by permanently sacrificing their rights to get amendments on the ballot if they make it pass, by handing their power to the government they claim to hate so much. Sorry that was a wall of text. I just wanted to try to explain in a little bit more detail of what is going on in my lovely state. Pray that we don’t become full fledged Florida 2.0. Hahaha..
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On the positive side, it allows me to have a radical open-mindedness and excitement about life. I always get to look forward to having my views challenged, flipped upside-down, etc.
