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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Oct 4, 2021 17:00:37 GMT -5
I'm so tired of this life, I can't do anything right, and I just disappoint and anger everyone. You’ve never angered and disappointed me. Not the same as family, I know, but still.
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Post by ˈʔɛɱb̪ɻ̩f̞ʊt̠̚ on Oct 4, 2021 17:24:28 GMT -5
I'm so tired of this life, I can't do anything right, and I just disappoint and anger everyone. You’ve never angered and disappointed me. Not the same as family, I know, but still. Same!
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Post by Chicken on Oct 5, 2021 8:26:11 GMT -5
Saint Ambrosef and ˈʔɛɱb̪ɻ̩f̞ʊt̠̚Thanks, that means a lot You guys have never angered or disappointed me either. I really hate my sister's husband sometimes, I do all this stuff for him, like watch his son, write essays for him, and he goes and talks crap about me to my sister.
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Post by Sand on Oct 5, 2021 8:36:26 GMT -5
Chicken - waaait, wait. You’re the one writing his essays for him? Why? That’s screwed up.
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Post by Chicken on Oct 5, 2021 8:41:48 GMT -5
[mention]chickenfriedchicken [/mention] waaait, wait. You’re the one writing his essays for him? Why? That’s screwed up. Yeah, because he's not good at it at all, and my sister told me if I didn't, then she'd have to work extra shifts, and I'm already worried her kid isn't seeing her enough, so I agreed, but she picked up extra shifts anyway, like, her normal schedule is 16 hours on Saturday and Sunday, but she's also picking up doubles on Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday and she plans on doing that until January! I'm worried she's going to work herself to death too, but as long as her husband isn't throwing a fit, nothing else matters -_-.
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Oct 5, 2021 10:14:20 GMT -5
[mention]chickenfriedchicken [/mention] waaait, wait. You’re the one writing his essays for him? Why? That’s screwed up. Yeah, because he's not good at it at all, and my sister told me if I didn't, then she'd have to work extra shifts, and I'm already worried her kid isn't seeing her enough, so I agreed, but she picked up extra shifts anyway, like, her normal schedule is 16 hours on Saturday and Sunday, but she's also picking up doubles on Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday and she plans on doing that until January! I'm worried she's going to work herself to death too, but as long as her husband isn't throwing a fit, nothing else matters -_-. I know you care about your sister and nephew, and thats good. But screw her for manipulating you into writing her husband’s essay. Also, wtf does he even do?
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Post by Chicken on Oct 5, 2021 10:17:26 GMT -5
Yeah, because he's not good at it at all, and my sister told me if I didn't, then she'd have to work extra shifts, and I'm already worried her kid isn't seeing her enough, so I agreed, but she picked up extra shifts anyway, like, her normal schedule is 16 hours on Saturday and Sunday, but she's also picking up doubles on Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday and she plans on doing that until January! I'm worried she's going to work herself to death too, but as long as her husband isn't throwing a fit, nothing else matters -_-. I know you care about your sister and nephew, and thats good. But screw her for manipulating you into writing her husband’s essay. Also, wtf does he even do? Right now he's going to school, but he'll probably give up on it like everything else. I'm so tired of him expecting everyone to just work their schedules around him, to get him what he wants, so he can just coast through life, and him giving up things aren't so easy. The worst part is, he doesn't appreciate it at all, he expects everyone else to pay the bills, to keep the house clean, etc, while he doesn't really help out much at all. My sister thinks it will be better once he finishes school and we move, but I highly doubt it, because he's always been this way.
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Oct 5, 2021 10:28:45 GMT -5
I know you care about your sister and nephew, and thats good. But screw her for manipulating you into writing her husband’s essay. Also, wtf does he even do? Right now he's going to school, but he'll probably give up on it like everything else. I'm so tired of him expecting everyone to just work their schedules around him, to get him what he wants, so he can just coast through life, and him giving up things aren't so easy. The worst part is, he doesn't appreciate it at all, he expects everyone else to pay the bills, to keep the house clean, etc, while he doesn't really help out much at all. My sister thinks it will be better once he finishes school and we move, but I highly doubt it, because he's always been this way. sounds like your sister married him with the classic case of expecting your spouse to magically change due to marriage. i know too many women who see men that way and then are surprised when they don’t change and get divorced 7 years later
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Post by Chicken on Oct 5, 2021 10:36:45 GMT -5
Right now he's going to school, but he'll probably give up on it like everything else. I'm so tired of him expecting everyone to just work their schedules around him, to get him what he wants, so he can just coast through life, and him giving up things aren't so easy. The worst part is, he doesn't appreciate it at all, he expects everyone else to pay the bills, to keep the house clean, etc, while he doesn't really help out much at all. My sister thinks it will be better once he finishes school and we move, but I highly doubt it, because he's always been this way. sounds like your sister married him with the classic case of expecting your spouse to magically change due to marriage. i know too many women who see men that way and then are surprised when they don’t change and get divorced 7 years later That's what I think too, because she kept saying that he'd calm down once he had a kid or turned 25, because that's how his dad was. Well, he's had two years to change since he had a kid, but he hasn't, however, he does turn 25 soon, but I'm not holding my breath. I was against them getting married from the beginning, because he would always yell at my sister before they got married, and she's only started to actually wake up to it a few months ago, but she isn't going to do anything, because he can't afford to live on his own and she doesn't want to ruin his life, and I keep reminding her, that they're not the only ones involved in this, that it's probably not best to overwork when you have a two year old son, that it's probably best not to get into yelling matches, where they constantly threaten to TW: off themselves and storm off like little toddlers instead of talking it out calmly and rationally, but she doesn't listen.
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Post by ˈʔɛɱb̪ɻ̩f̞ʊt̠̚ on Oct 5, 2021 10:50:25 GMT -5
[mention]chickenfriedchicken [/mention] waaait, wait. You’re the one writing his essays for him? Why? That’s screwed up. Yeah, because he's not good at it at all, and my sister told me if I didn't, then she'd have to work extra shifts, and I'm already worried her kid isn't seeing her enough, so I agreed, but she picked up extra shifts anyway, like, her normal schedule is 16 hours on Saturday and Sunday, but she's also picking up doubles on Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday and she plans on doing that until January! I'm worried she's going to work herself to death too, but as long as her husband isn't throwing a fit, nothing else matters -_-. Can you talk to them? Maybe tell them the problem and how it's affecting their son?
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Post by Chicken on Oct 5, 2021 11:05:13 GMT -5
Yeah, because he's not good at it at all, and my sister told me if I didn't, then she'd have to work extra shifts, and I'm already worried her kid isn't seeing her enough, so I agreed, but she picked up extra shifts anyway, like, her normal schedule is 16 hours on Saturday and Sunday, but she's also picking up doubles on Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday and she plans on doing that until January! I'm worried she's going to work herself to death too, but as long as her husband isn't throwing a fit, nothing else matters -_-. Can you talk to them? Maybe tell them the problem and how it's affecting their son? Trust me, I have, my sister's just like "I know but once he gets a job it'll get better and if it doesn't I'm leaving." But I believe that about as much as I believe that the Great Wall of China is in Argentina.
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Post by ˈʔɛɱb̪ɻ̩f̞ʊt̠̚ on Oct 5, 2021 11:06:35 GMT -5
Can you talk to them? Maybe tell them the problem and how it's affecting their son? Trust me, I have, my sister's just like "I know but once he gets a job it'll get better and if it doesn't I'm leaving." But I believe that about as much as I believe that the Great Wall of China is in Argentina. Do you live with them?
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Post by Chicken on Oct 5, 2021 11:09:22 GMT -5
Trust me, I have, my sister's just like "I know but once he gets a job it'll get better and if it doesn't I'm leaving." But I believe that about as much as I believe that the Great Wall of China is in Argentina. Do you live with them? Yeah, but it's not like I'm mooching off of them, I pay the rent and my sister pays the other bills.
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Post by ˈʔɛɱb̪ɻ̩f̞ʊt̠̚ on Oct 5, 2021 11:15:26 GMT -5
Yeah, but it's not like I'm mooching off of them, I pay the rent and my sister pays the other bills. Ok, Well I hope it works out okay for all 4 of you
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Post by Chicken on Oct 5, 2021 11:19:57 GMT -5
Yeah, but it's not like I'm mooching off of them, I pay the rent and my sister pays the other bills. Ok, Well I hope it works out okay for all 4 of you Thanks! Sorry for complaining so much btw, I gotta work on seeing the positive sides of things, like, I have food, clothes, a place to live, and I'm not dead yet, though, debatable whether that's a good or a bad thing, I'm sure a lot of people would be happier if that wasn't the case but eh whatever
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Oct 5, 2021 11:47:45 GMT -5
Ok, Well I hope it works out okay for all 4 of you Thanks! Sorry for complaining so much btw, I gotta work on seeing the positive sides of things, like, I have food, clothes, a place to live, and I'm not dead yet, though, debatable whether that's a good or a bad thing, I'm sure a lot of people would be happier if that wasn't the case but eh whatever i think your complaints are legitimate. its not good to bottle that frustrating up so don’t feel like you shouldn’t complain — sometimes it’s necessary, even if it could be worse
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Post by Chicken on Oct 5, 2021 11:59:34 GMT -5
Thanks! Sorry for complaining so much btw, I gotta work on seeing the positive sides of things, like, I have food, clothes, a place to live, and I'm not dead yet, though, debatable whether that's a good or a bad thing, I'm sure a lot of people would be happier if that wasn't the case but eh whatever i think your complaints are legitimate. its not good to bottle that frustrating up so don’t feel like you shouldn’t complain — sometimes it’s necessary, even if it could be worse Thanks. I still feel really bad when I complain, but you're right about it not being good to bottle things up, because I do that a lot, and it doesn't end well when the bottle finally gets too full and erupts, luckily, that doesn't happen very often though.
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Post by Tealraven on Oct 6, 2021 20:34:56 GMT -5
Alright, I'm normally an optimistic person with a pretty positive outlook on life, but my mental illnesses have been hitting me harder than usual lately and I'm having trouble managing them.
I can't drive, I don't have a job, and I'm not in school. I'm terrible at time management. I have trouble making decisions, and when I do, I constantly second-guess myself. I am overwhelmed by small tasks. Everything from certain noises to certain smells to certain textures to bright lights can give me sensory overload if I'm not prepared for it, which makes it downright difficult to even exist at times. And I'm lonely. I don't have any close friends. I can never get anyone to spend time with me. My acquaintances are always either too busy or they cancel at the last minute, which only worsens my anxiety. I feel like I'm not doing anything with my life, or that the things I am doing aren't good enough. I feel useless. I feel like I'm falling behind. I feel like a waste of space. I wish I could function like a typical person; I wish it wasn't so hard for me to do basic things.
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Post by Dark Sun on Oct 7, 2021 0:21:02 GMT -5
Alright, I'm normally an optimistic person with a pretty positive outlook on life, but my mental illnesses have been hitting me harder than usual lately and I'm having trouble managing them. I can't drive, I don't have a job, and I'm not in school. I'm terrible at time management. I have trouble making decisions, and when I do, I constantly second-guess myself. I am overwhelmed by small tasks. Everything from certain noises to certain smells to certain textures to bright lights can give me sensory overload if I'm not prepared for it, which makes it downright difficult to even exist at times. And I'm lonely. I don't have any close friends. I can never get anyone to spend time with me. My acquaintances are always either too busy or they cancel at the last minute, which only worsens my anxiety. I feel like I'm not doing anything with my life, or that the things I am doing aren't good enough. I feel useless. I feel like I'm falling behind. I feel like a waste of space. I wish I could function like a typical person; I wish it wasn't so hard for me to do basic things. This hit so close to home that I swear I could have written it, every word. You're none of those negative things you described yourself as. You're just stuck temporarily maybe, and still finding your way in this chaotic world. I have great faith that you will make it out stronger in the end. Also don't feel the need to rush either. I hope this is at least okay advice...
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Post by Dark Sun on Oct 7, 2021 15:53:00 GMT -5
So my kitten, Alyeska, returned from the clinic in the city yesterday after getting spayed. They gave her the cheapest plastic, string-attached cone imaginable, but I had no alternatives (and they refused to provide any) so I had no choice but to roll with it for the time being. I woke up to her choking to death on it this morning, and the strings were dangerously close to where the stitches are, so they could have dislodged them. My mother had to snip the strings and the cone with a pair of scissors while I held her (unsurprisingly Alyeska has being vicious; kicking, spitting, hissing, biting, etc.). I'm looking for an alternative to the cone now, but I am absolutely livid. If I hadn't had rescued her within a few minutes, I may have woken up to a dead kitten.
Also, the vet said she would remain very dozy for 2 weeks. Nonsense. She's now as awake as ever, maybe even more so.
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Post by Tealraven on Oct 7, 2021 15:53:15 GMT -5
Dark Sun Thank you for your kind words! <3 I know I'll get through this eventually, as I always do, but for right now things just really suck. I'm ready to be done and over with this depressive/anxious episode so I can get back to my life. I appreciate knowing that I'm not alone in this, though. I'm sorry to hear that you face similar challenges. You have my sympathy and my support, for what it's worth <3
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Post by Dark Sun on Oct 7, 2021 16:02:24 GMT -5
Tealraven Hey, if you ever want to send me a DM to talk or just to vent, my DM's are always open. Like I said above, you've got this.
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Post by Dark Sun on Oct 9, 2021 3:41:09 GMT -5
I've completely lost interest in all of my hobbies. Reading, writing, gaming, even watching YouTube videos... The sounds are drowned out in my head, the images become lost while they're going on onscreen, the words on paper seem to have no meaning... I wake up every day, sit in bed for a while, get my chores done, and then game and binge read Reddit posts for the whole day just to eat up time, meanwhile having zero fun and knowing that I'm wasting my time, and then I might read a little bit before going to bed, just to repeat the same cycle the next day, and for months after that probably... I hate it when I have no muse, no passion, no motivation, no vibrancy... and the worst part is, I don't know how to get it back. :/
Also I just realized I abandoned my 20th Terraria playthrough after barely sinking 4 hours into it, again. Maybe it's time I gave that game up for good.
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Post by Aqua on Oct 10, 2021 0:22:53 GMT -5
Well, I feel like I had a huge misunderstanding that pissed off one of my coworkers.
I'm almost sure I mentioned that one of my managers stood in the office all day, not my other coworker. I don't remember talking about him behind his back; I don't even like to gossip, and now they think I'm lying to them because I said I forgot what I said. I forget things easily, and this person has a hard time believing that older people forget things (like a 14 year old forgetting what he put in the bag in the morning)
I know I go to the bathroom three times a day at my job (admittedly because I'm bored, I can confess) but I don't think I'm lazy. I do the tables, take out recycling and do whatever I have to do. Hell, there's even days when I work all day long. Sometimes I have my slow days, but doesn't everyone?
I've been saying good things about this coworker, not bad things. I like this person for helping me and being a hard worker. I genuinely feel like it's a misunderstanding, and now I'm worried they're going to think I'm playing with their feelings when I said I was crying in the bathroom about this.
I really don't ****ing remember what I said about him at this point. I have some brain damage in my brain and my mom told me that's why I forget things easily, so I wasn't lying when I said I forgot. I feel like I mentioned my manager; I don't remember mentioning my coworker and talking shit about him. I'm worried they're not going to believe me now when I said I was crying in the bathroom.
I know I'm just overthinking this shit at this point and there's nothing I can do. It feels like to me it's a misunderstanding and there's nothing I can do.
Again, there's some days when I know I'm lazy, but I work pretty hard for the most part, I feel? It's just always the bad damn timing I guess, and everyone probably thinks I'm an asshole now.
It's fine, I messed up this situation. I guess I'll just shut up and do my job regularly and stop talking to them from now on. I wasn't lying to my coworker when I said I thought I mentioned my manager and I got upset when he confronted me about it. Now everyone's going to think I'm playing the victim. But whatever. I feel like I wouldn't lie about this shit, and if I did mention my coworker, then I apologize. It's whatever.
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Post by Skypaw13 on Oct 10, 2021 21:07:55 GMT -5
I feel like my brain is split in two.
One side believes I am a human being who is valuable and worthwhile, and knows my friends care about me and notice when I'm gone and miss me.
The other is convinced that no one cares and that they're just being nice to me because I'm another person, not because of anything unique to me.
It's not like it's the "good" and "bad" sides either-- the first side also thinks I don't have any reason at all to be upset and that I'm the problem with everything and if I would just get over myself everything would be fine. While the second side is screaming for validation and attention.
I'm just a confused mess right now.
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Post by ˈʔɛɱb̪ɻ̩f̞ʊt̠̚ on Oct 11, 2021 12:25:59 GMT -5
I recently found out... I have thalassophobia. Fear of deep water. Like, I had to do a project on Vanuatu for school, and one of the tourist attractions was a blue hole. I got so scared just looking at a picture of it. I know it's dumb but I get scared just HEARING about it.
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Post by Papillon on Oct 12, 2021 13:47:00 GMT -5
ive been trying to make friends but no matter where i go it's near impossible. being an adult sucks. even when i get someone's contact, like a coworker, I'm too afraid to hang out/initiate and/or we're always busy so we can't do anything. I miss friends and goofing off, and this months going to be especially hard with something someone close to me is going through, and i wish i could just make everything better. ugh. i feel so alone & ignored 99% of the time.
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Post by Skypaw13 on Oct 12, 2021 19:12:47 GMT -5
You ever get that feeling when you've been avoiding someone for two weeks because you low-key might have hurt their feelings really badly, then your roommate goes out to dinner for the first time like... ever, but the person they're meeting wasn't clear on the meeting place, so they show up at your door like 30 seconds after your roommate left, and lo and behold, it's the person you've been avoiding???
Trust me, it's awkward.
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Post by Aqua on Oct 12, 2021 22:00:27 GMT -5
I don't know how the hell I'm gonna make it out there with my anxiety. I can barely see a damn pool drain, how the hell am I going to drive a car? I wish I didn't have so much anxiety over everything. My self esteem is so low.
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Post by Dark Sun on Oct 13, 2021 4:00:41 GMT -5
I recently found out... I have thalassophobia. Fear of deep water. Like, I had to do a project on Vanuatu for school, and one of the tourist attractions was a blue hole. I got so scared just looking at a picture of it. I know it's dumb but I get scared just HEARING about it. I have this as well. For years I thought it was called aquaphobia. The more you know... Good to know that I was wrong though *Shrug*
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