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Post by ѕρσσкуѕку on Jul 19, 2019 16:50:53 GMT -5
🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 I think Bun was referring to Owl and Tiger with the ship comment.
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Post by 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 on Jul 19, 2019 16:54:23 GMT -5
ѕρσσкуѕку, that does make sense too. There is a lot of misinformation and misinterpretations going on. wow.
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Post by ♡ Bun ♡ on Jul 19, 2019 16:54:54 GMT -5
☪ Ooc >> 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 It okay, Like spotted suggested i was talking about owlpaw and tigerpaw when I said they are my favorite couple. And I support your decision, aside from all that how was your day? ☪ RP >>
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Post by ♡ Bun ♡ on Jul 19, 2019 16:56:31 GMT -5
☪ Ooc >> ѕρσσкуѕку how was your day also?☪ RP >>
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Post by 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 on Jul 19, 2019 16:59:57 GMT -5
I don't feel like we talked about what we needed to talk about.
but fine.
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Post by 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 on Jul 19, 2019 17:13:43 GMT -5
Hmm. Maybe it's my turn to say I'm going to leave for a while.
Because I am. I am not done with this situation considering it's ended with the idea that i'm the bad person here. But maybe I am?
So, i'm going to be leaving this roleplay and discussion alone for a while. Not sure if a while means a few hours or days, minutes? Either way i'm sick of it for now.
In the last situation, again~ I asked if I could be excluded and it blew up this way, same as the last time. I don't like the vibes I'm getting at all and i'm not going to sit here with it.
edit.
Scratch that. I will not leave while saying it's possible i'm a bad person for doing what I did. I'm going to clarify that because saying that I am in hopes that it'll make others feel better is an admission of guilt. Quite frankly, i don't regret removing myself or my characters from Milkblossom. I know it's what's best for me.
That is all. I can't leave in good faith without correcting that.
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Post by ѕρσσкуѕку on Jul 19, 2019 17:23:20 GMT -5
🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 I totally respect that you realize the best thing for yourself in this situation is to take a step back. Sometimes that’s the only good option. ♡ Bun ♡ My days been pretty good. The last two were pretty meh (actually the day before yesterday was kinda awful) but I’m feeling much better today. As for this whole thing, I’d say that maybe we should just drop it for now and revisit it in a day or so when emotions cool down and we can kinda take some time to think on it? Otherwise it’s not gonna go anywhere productive.
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Post by ♡ Bun ♡ on Jul 19, 2019 17:52:00 GMT -5
☪ Ooc >> I never once saw you as the bad guy 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃, Im the bad guy because it was my fault. I didn't even think because I was too excited in general when I volunteered her and it was an honest mistake.
I don't have a problem with you excluding yourself, It blew up over my feelings and not being able to explain it correctly so you could understand it wasn't because of the plot itself. This is not what I wanted at all, and Im still afraid to make connection with others because of this I was jut simply trying to explain the plot better because I thought you knew what I meant even after the fact that you excluded yourself but I was also trying to explain in hopes that you would change your mind, because I feel that I pushed you to feel you needed to exclude yourself which made me feel guilty ☪ RP >>
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Post by 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 on Jul 19, 2019 20:39:43 GMT -5
I feel that I can reply better now that i've stepped away, took some time to do something else, and am in a place where I can think better.
I want to explain something first. Which from reading my past responses, I was really on edge because of how quickly my head connected what was happening here with my past experience. It caused a lot more tension and distress on my end and allowed for me to misinterpret a lot of what you said here in the past few responses you made ♡ Bun ♡ . For that, I am sorry. I know I was reluctant to discuss anything more. When you were explaining the plot, i'll be honest. I thought you were being passive-aggressive. Maybe you were? I don't know. But that's how I took it and why my responses were a bit aggressive/defensive. I think that part is a bit understandable as we've already established that there was a lot of misinformation and misinterpretation.
Personally I felt inclined to respond a lot sooner than I intended because of your response to me. Honestly, I think it was the perfect reply that you could make. I never got that when what happened before happened to me. And that's why it was a lot easier to come back to this.
Pretty much everything in how I acted was impacted by my past experience. I still hold a lot of negativity associated with the event, even if it's been since resolved. But that negativity and those emotions were very close to returning and I see it myself. I can see it in my replies looking back. I bring this up because I want to let you know ♡ Bun ♡ that a lot of other people didn't go through what I did. No one else is going to react the way I did to what happened here. You shouldn't have any reason to be afraid because of me. And it hurts to write that.
However, I believe you do need to be clearer with your wording. You left a lot up to interpretation and honestly made me excited to rp Duskriver with Milkblossom because of the implications. I hope you understand why- when I'm already viewing it as some type of romantic plot- that I'd be feeling discouraged or even upset that you were so eager to involve Milkblossom in another romantic plot.
Lastly.. I want to say that with regards to Milkblossom. It wasn't anything about her character or you wanting more crushes for her. None of that. I however, didn't want any part in her relationships afterwards because of how your actions reflected the actions of those that happened in my past. The discussion of Firesky and Milkblossom was so similar to what took place in my memory. The negative emotions associated with that event, as i've mentioned a few times in this discussion, lead me to wanting no part with her. Initially that's why I wanted to distance myself from the character. I never want to hold such festering negativity and go on wondering why I didn't say something again. This isn't to say that this situation would have lead to that, but I want to do anything I can to avoid nearing that territory again.
With what I have explained in the bits and pieces of what I went through, I really hope it paints a picture of my gut reaction to this. I don't wish to use it to excuse my reactions and responses, but it helps in giving perspective to my earlier thought-process.
I think we both could have been better in this discussion, but I think it was a necessary discussion. I believe we can all learn to be more clear in what we're asking and clearer in what we're asking from others. That's all there is to it.
Let me know what you think ♡ Bun ♡ .
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Post by ♡ Bun ♡ on Jul 19, 2019 21:21:44 GMT -5
☪ Ooc >> 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 I was still passive aggressive? Dang it, I have audio dyslexia so I think and word things differently. Thats also the main reason why I wanted to drop it because I could tell your judgement was getting clouded by your past experiences, as you kept defending yourself when I wasn't attacking you at all. I will tell you now assuming is my biggest pet peeve so Im sorry I did start to get passive aggressive, but I also thought what I asked had clear intentions to me, that why i said the plot could go anywhere, meaning that romance was a possiblity, I hope that it can still be a possibility. I was focused on the best friend aspect of the plot not the romance, Milk was just going to have a simple crush on firesky but I should have clarified with spotted what she wanted because she actually wants a proper relationship which is not what I was going for her at the moment. I still really want to do milk and dusk if your up for it, and I will try to be clear-er on what I was asking next time, otherwise if you don't want to I am going to get rid of her because that connection was the only reason why I was keeping her. Im afraid because you are my friend and I have a really hard time keeping friends, you guys are some of the few friends I have and if I mess that up well I don't what I would do to be honest. Although it does create a better picture for me on why you acted such way, again I'm truly sorry for causing trouble and for making you feel that way about aetherclan, Im woundering if it would be best for me to just leave, idk. It hurts me to say that I mean i've never really caused problems in the past, and i obviously made a mistake that hit close to home for you, so I don't know if i'd ever be welcomed the same by you and I don't want there to be any tension or any type of feelings towards me that aren't good.
This warrior forms are for fun, i come here to destress and I don't want to be stressed out because I might do something wrong again, and I don't want to be associated with those people from your past, Because I am not those people from your past never have and never will be. So if I am Im going to leave for good...
You say I was so eager to invlove her in another romance plot when I was not, it was just a simple not thinking suggestion.
I agree we could have also handle the situation better. ☪ RP >>
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Post by <-•Ryse•-> on Jul 20, 2019 2:43:52 GMT -5
Hey loves. I just wanted to say that I’m here and I’ve read the discussion that has been happening and if anyone needs a third party to reflect on the situation with my dms are always open to everyone here <3 let me know if I can be of any assistance. It seems to me that there was a misunderstanding that spiraled into a larger conversation due to memories of past events and individuals sensitivities. Every member of Aetherclan is such a emotional sweetheart, and I love that about us all, it allows us to really dive deep into our characters and care for one another, but I know it can cause conversations like this to be easily hurtful. But I wanted to say that we’re a family, and families have difficult patches from time to time, but they get through it together  but I’m not a direct part of this so I’m going to shut up now and let you all continue <3 |
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Post by ѕρσσкуѕку on Jul 20, 2019 6:52:33 GMT -5
Just checking in to say goodnight. Also I’m so tired?? It’s like almost 5am here and I’m?? I just spent an actual hour writing for a story because inspiration struck? at 3:30am? whyAnd I agree with Ryse 100% but I’m going to avoid commenting further as I’m pretty sure I’m already half asleep and I don’t even know if this is how you english so I’ll see y’all tomorrow is there like a casual salute emoji bc that’s the mood rnEDIT: this is the one exactly what I meant but like if she was so tired she looked drunk m.imgur.com/gallery/KHtpZgki don’t even play overwatch |
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Post by ♡ Bun ♡ on Jul 20, 2019 7:10:17 GMT -5
☪ Ooc >> Have a good night, It is 5 am here too lol xD
☪ RP >>
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Post by 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 on Jul 20, 2019 14:03:14 GMT -5
I thought you had more to write but it appears not.
I dont want anything to do with Milkblossom at all anymore. So if that means deletion to you then so be it.
I will be taking an extended absence. When I said I was sick of AetherClan I did mean it. I dont know when I'll be back. If ill be back for this rp. I dont know. But if I visit this site I am going to be ignoring this topic for a while.
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Post by ♡ Bun ♡ on Jul 20, 2019 14:22:20 GMT -5
☪ Ooc >> I do, But I was also half wake and tired as well cause that is when i got off work. So I didn't want to write more until i was fully alert and awake.
Take as much time as you need fireh.
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Post by 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 on Jul 20, 2019 15:52:39 GMT -5
Start a whole new AetherClan while you're at it then. I don't like what this rp has done to me.
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Post by ѕρσσкуѕку on Jul 20, 2019 16:02:46 GMT -5
Honestly this all feels like it came out of absolutely nowhere and I can’t even find the words to deal with it right now so for the moment I’m just going to focus on moving forward.
First of all I don’t think we need to appoint an interim leader or anything. We should be able to make any decisions together.
Also I think before we start rping we should lock in a few bits of info. I feel like we need to be set on all mentor/apprentice pairs, and we should also have a good idea of the plots we want to have going. We can figure out family relationships and finish our profiles later I think. Those won’t directly impact our rping ability.
Since Fireh is our coder we don’t have to wait for the coding to be done either.
Is there anything else we should discuss before moving forward?
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Post by ѕρσσкуѕку on Jul 20, 2019 16:05:43 GMT -5
I would like to say though 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 I’ll always be happy to have you back, whether tomorrow or in a month or longer. Just do what you need to do for you. We’ll be here. |
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Post by 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 on Jul 20, 2019 16:17:08 GMT -5
I request that you all stop tagging me and start a new thread. I dont want any part.
The incident I keep referring to happened in this rp. And it keeps coming back at me and I cant stand it.
I cant stand that me excluding myself was taken in such a negative way again. When that was the best way for me to say "I'm not interested in this character anymore or this plot point" because of developments I seen happening right in my face.
Part of me is deeply offended you guys are so quick to shove me aside and forget about me. I am. Sort of hopeful that's not the case. But I'm in a terrible mindset right now. I dont know how to say it. You all say you're here for me but are you?
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Post by 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 on Jul 20, 2019 16:47:42 GMT -5
I appreciate that ryse.
Honestly. I dont know how to say it. But I'm having so much trouble not letting old emotions rise. That's why it's so hard for me to be calm right now. 2 years of suffering in silence would do that to you i guess.
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Post by 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 on Jul 20, 2019 17:36:40 GMT -5
I'm going to take a bit of the day to write out something proper. Not sure when I'll come forward to it but <-•Ryse•-> I'm not sure if it's what you said.. but after reading your responses it's like my head became a lot clearer. I'm prone to spiteful behavior and I'm not the most forgiving person so when I remember times where I felt wronged, it's easy for me to connect back with how I felt in those moments. That's why... by association I linked the similarities here with what happened 2 years ago. It's not a very good habit but the truth nonetheless. I'm glad that, despite feeling more upset over this situation when I woke up, I wasn't wording anything as harsh as I was wanting to. |
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Post by 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 on Jul 20, 2019 19:18:13 GMT -5
I really think it was just the reassurance. I think I just needed someone to tell me that i'm not the wrong bad person here. I don't mean to say you meant that wholely in how I reacted, but it helped tremendously to read it. I believe that was what suddenly gave me an epiphany! xD
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Post by 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 on Jul 20, 2019 19:41:21 GMT -5
That feels like a perfect reason behind why. ^^
Anyway i've finished the response i believe. I may post it soon.
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but I’m not a direct part of this so I’m going to shut up now and let you all continue <3 