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Post by torr on Jan 3, 2017 18:53:22 GMT -5
yo here it isso i lied there's actually 93 songs i hate screamo it gives me a headache >c
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Post by Amber on Jan 3, 2017 18:54:33 GMT -5
oooooo
is that why you have a headache r u secretly listening to screamo
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Post by torr on Jan 3, 2017 18:55:31 GMT -5
you caught me red handed
nah i was driving in the dark n that always gives me a headache tbh
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Post by Amber on Jan 3, 2017 18:59:16 GMT -5
i knew it
yeah it must be because driving in the dark stinks and you were straining your eyeballs
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Post by torr on Jan 3, 2017 20:01:40 GMT -5
true driving in the dark is awful
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Post by Amber on Jan 3, 2017 20:12:32 GMT -5
yeeees yeeeeeeeees
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Post by Amber on Jan 3, 2017 21:45:57 GMT -5
SO
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Post by torr on Jan 3, 2017 21:46:59 GMT -5
so what
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Post by Amber on Jan 3, 2017 21:47:04 GMT -5
I TRIED THIS EGGNOG ICECREAM
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Post by torr on Jan 3, 2017 21:47:20 GMT -5
AND
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Post by Amber on Jan 3, 2017 21:51:38 GMT -5
IT TASTED SURPRISINGLY GOOD DO YOU LIKE EGGNOG
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Post by torr on Jan 3, 2017 22:39:34 GMT -5
WELL THATS GOOD eggnog is gross
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Post by Amber on Jan 3, 2017 22:53:12 GMT -5
i like it a little
OMG i need a sneak peek the suspense is too intense
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Post by torr on Jan 3, 2017 22:54:46 GMT -5
More defensive than he was before, Luke frowned and took a step back from her. What was she gonna do? Slap him again? He shut his eyes tightly in anticipation
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Post by Amber on Jan 3, 2017 23:04:38 GMT -5
ooo A real spoiler! oh poor luke 8C
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Post by torr on Jan 3, 2017 23:07:15 GMT -5
its almost DOOOOONNNNNEEEE
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Post by Amber on Jan 3, 2017 23:08:35 GMT -5
eeeeeee im so excited
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Post by torr on Jan 3, 2017 23:10:37 GMT -5
A heavy silence hung in the air after Luke had turned his back to Bree, never to look back, he vowed. Always more comfortable with silence, Luke allowed himself to reflect on the words that had spewed from his mouth in his momentary loss of control. Yet, was it really a loss of control? He had needed to defend himself. He had been back into a corner both figuratively and metaphorically, and as the saying went: you corner a cat and you’re going to get scratched. And just like a cat, his words were his claws, meant to get her to back away, though they may sting at first, they were not meant to cut deeply.
Luke didn’t feel any desire to turn around. Not one. He was done. He didn’t hear what she wanted to say, he didn’t want to see her face, and he certainly never. Wanted to ever. Speak to her ever. Again. He was tired of being lectured. He was tired for being yelled at. All this negativity he had worked so hard to remove from his life seemed to just appear when he was around Bree. And he hated her for it.
Drowning in his own thoughts, the boy certainly didn’t expect the girl to disrupt them so soon by rushing forward and demanding he stop. More defensive than he was before, Luke frowned and took a step back from her. What was she gonna do? Slap him again? He shut his eyes tightly in anticipation and winced when he felt her touch on his arms. Shake him? He had a nagging desire to rip his arms away, turn away and leave the store, leave Bree forever, but he ignored it. After a few moments of fear and waiting, the boy peeked hesitantly at Bree through one eye. What he saw genuinely surprised the boy, causing him to open his eyes wide and adopt a face of confusion. Was that… worry? Worry on her face? No, not worry. /Panic./ Even more puzzled, the boy made to step away from her, but restrained himself and held her gaze with wide green eyes. /Sorry? Did she just was she was sorry?/ Given how she had acted earlier, those were words Luke never thought he would hear coming from her mouth. At least not genuinely. His shoulders tensed when she gripped his arm, causing the boy to drop his gaze to her hand in suspicion. Was this a ruse? /No,/ he decided quickly. This seemed genuine.
Her next words brought up a strong feeling of discomfort. Did she really think he had never cared about her? Before? Never? Sure, he was never one for wearing his heart on his sleeve, not one for showing emotions or displaying affection openly. Not then and not now either. But he would have assumed she knew he had liked her at one point in his life. Guess not. His eyes scanned the floor, actively avoiding Bree. “You’re wrong…” he muttered quietly, barely audible even. It was to himself, mostly… but he wouldn’t be upset if Bree heard. It truly upset him that she thought he never cared for her.
Bree’s following reflection of past events allowed Luke to do the same. So she understood now, and so did he. In those past months, with such low self confidence and self esteem, he honestly believed that he had no good qualities, it was impossible for anyone to love him. It had been drilled into his head so many damn times, why wouldn’t he start to believe it? He had believed he was incapable of possessing such qualities, of being loved. Thus, when Bree tried to tell him he /did/ have those qualities, that she had /loved/ him, the thought was so absurd, so unbelievable, that he thought she had been lying. Upon reflection now, he realized that he /could/ have those good traits, and she really /did/ mean what she had said. That she had loved him.
Luke wanted to slap his younger self--he despised who he was before. A weak wimp. Disliked by everyone. Disliking, almost, everyone. It was kind of a strange feeling. In the end, nobody liked the old him. Not even himself. Well… nobody, that is, but Bree.
Her next actions surprised the boy yet again, despite being incredibly familiar with what would follow. This had been cruel. He had been very cruel in doing this. But he had been hurt, hurt by what he had thought were lies. So he wanted to hurt her, as she had hurt him. With their faces only inches apart, he met her gaze with defeat, his face expressionless save for the slight downward turn of his lips.
The end of Bree’s speech had Luke feeling like shht. He squeezed his eyes shut, unable to look at Bree without feeling guilty. He balled and unballed his fist as she spoke, feeling as though this was all wrong. /She/ wanted /his/ forgiveness? No, it had to be the other way around. Who was the one who started this whole mess in the first place? Who was the one who ended the friendship? Who was always the problematic, difficult one? The answer was obvious, and Luke just couldn’t forgive Bree until she forgave /him/ first. However, this plan changed when he saw the tears rolling down her cheeks.
“S-stop,” he muttered, turning his head away from Bree. “Don’t cry.” Luke avoided eye contact by staring up at the ceiling as he spoke. “I-I… I’ll forgive you… If you can forgive me. I was wrong, all those months ago. I’m sorry.” He wasn’t about to try and justify his emotions from back then, so he settled on a simple, straightforward apology, hoping it would be enough.
No, it wasn’t enough. Swallowing his damn pride, the boy lowered his gaze to meet hers. He reached forward and gingerly grabbed her shoulders. “Bree…” He spoke her name slowly, tasting it. It had been so many months since his lips formed her name, it sounded odd, out of place, coming out of his mouth. “/I’m sorry./”
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Post by torr on Jan 3, 2017 23:11:02 GMT -5
idk if there's any typos in there i didnt read it over im so sick of it haha
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Post by Amber on Jan 3, 2017 23:13:58 GMT -5
I SAW THE LAST SENTENCE ASDFGHJKL torr you are wonderful omg wth is wrong with me i am such a stupid crybby something worrying popped up today and then the dumb son april winds popped on and i saw that xD omg I AM A GONER torr how could u make this happen to me LOL!
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Post by torr on Jan 3, 2017 23:16:42 GMT -5
/bows thanks i try SORRY
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Post by Amber on Jan 3, 2017 23:17:31 GMT -5
TORR why have you been holding out on me for so long //shakes
alright i shall read the whole thing now
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Post by torr on Jan 3, 2017 23:18:12 GMT -5
S O R R Y
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Post by Amber on Jan 3, 2017 23:22:11 GMT -5
omg omg omg that was worth a whole week's wait
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Post by torr on Jan 3, 2017 23:23:40 GMT -5
THAT WAS ONLY 2 DAYS
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Post by Amber on Jan 3, 2017 23:30:31 GMT -5
YES BUT IT WOULD STILL HAVE BEEN WORTH IT IF IT TOOK A WEEK THAT MUSIC PLAYLIST IS MAGICAL
i never looked at it because i have to send a new password link to my email
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Post by Amber on Jan 3, 2017 23:36:49 GMT -5
okay i shall work on a reply now it shall never be as good as yours but i will try my best it should be done within the next half hour
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Post by Amber on Jan 4, 2017 0:24:51 GMT -5
how do i make this as emotional as your post ugh
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Post by Amber on Jan 4, 2017 10:40:53 GMT -5
Oh GOSH I ranted horribly last night That's embarassing. Okay so I have just a quick question. Should she be sappy briefly? Just wondering.
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Post by torr on Jan 4, 2017 15:58:56 GMT -5
yes yes sap it up
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