CHAPTER THREE
Pigeonfur crouched in her den, constantly replaying her conversation with Spottedtail in her mind. She desperately wished she had never been made deputy, thinking of how different things could have been if Tealstar had chosen any other cat.
I wouldn’t have had to choose between appointing a blackmailer as deputy or exposing myself to ridicule. I would have been just another warrior, waiting to find out who the new deputy will be. The young she-cat sighed heavily, knowing she was torn on what could well be the biggest decision of her life.
“What should I do?” Pigeonfur murmured softly to herself. Even more quietly, she added, “What can I do?” She buried her muzzle in the soft moss of her nest and squeezed her shut in a futile attempt to block out reality.
“Pigeonfur?”
Immediately, the gray she-cat sat up, for she had recognized the voice and scent in a heartbeat. “Mother!” she cried.
Merlinfoot rushed to her daughter’s side and began to briskly groom the soft fur behind Pigeonfur’s ears. “I’m so proud of you,” she purred between licks. “I know you’ll be a wonderful leader.
“No, I won’t,” Pigeonfur replied miserably. “I didn’t even deserve to be deputy. I’m surprised that nobody’s challenged me for the leadership—and to be honest, I wouldn’t mind if they did.”
Merlinfoot stopped grooming for a moment and looked directly into the other she-cat’s eyes. “Don’t say that,” she meowed firmly. “Every cat understands that Tealstar appointed you in the sight of StarClan, so a challenge would break the warrior code.” With a hint of a purr, the tabby she-cat added, “And besides, I think your father might also have had something to do with that—he’s also quite proud of you, you know—but you didn’t hear that from me.”
Pigeonfur was astonished. Of course she knew her father cared for her, but he was always so dedicated to the welfare of the Clan that she never would have thought that he would stop a stronger cat from taking her place as leader. Before she could say anything, her mother continued speaking.
“I’m not just telling you this because I’m your mother and I love you, but also because I’m an experienced warrior who knows character when she sees it. You are a strong cat, more than you give yourself credit for. Your father and I are already proud of you, but the day will come when you make your whole Clan proud to have you as their leader. Just have a little confidence and you’ll be surprised what you can accomplish.” Merlinfoot’s yellow-green eyes glowed with warmth as she gazed at her daughter.
Suddenly, the sentimentalism was gone and the gray-and-cream tabby was her usual business-like self. “Anyway, it’s almost time for you to leave for your nine-lives ceremony. I imagine Nightleaf will be along in a moment for you. Good luck.” She touched her daughter’s nose briefly with her own, then slipped out of the den.
It was a completely flabbergasted Pigeonfur that watched her mother leave. She had never, ever, seen such a burst of emotion from her practical-minded parent. Deeply touched by Merlinfoot’s speech, she silently vowed to do her best to live up to her mother’s expectations.
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“Okay, Pigeonfur. It’s time.” The deep voice of BrickClan’s senior medicine cat rumbled into the leader’s den ahead of its owner. Nightleaf’s long black fur swished gently as he padded up to Pigeonfur.
The young leader swallowed nervously as she rose to her paws. Not trusting herself to speak yet, she nodded slowly. All right. I’ll be all right. The worst that can happen is that StarClan will reject me, and that’s not so bad…
“Right then. I’ll tell you about the ceremony on the way. Just relax, you’ll do fine.” His kindly copper gaze met Pigeonfur’s scared green eyes. The black tom gave her a reassuring touch on the ear with his nose. “I know you’re nervous, but there’s really nothing to worry about.”
Despite Nightleaf’s reassurance, the gray she-cat left her den with a great feeling of trepidation. If StarClan did accept her, which the medicine cat seemed to think was likely, then a whole world of new problems opened up for her, the chief of which was Spottedtail. A close second was her worry that the Clan would scorn her for becoming leader when she was scarcely a competent warrior.
She couldn’t brood on her fears for long, however, because the ever-cheerful Daffodilheart was waiting for them at the entrance of the camp. The young medicine cat was only a few moons older than Pigeonfur, and had just recently earned her full name; her eyes were shining with excitement at the prospect of seeing her first leadership ceremony.
“Ready, Pigeonfur?” the cream she-cat greeted her friend. “I know you’ll be great!”
Pigeonfur hesitated a moment before she nodded. Ready as I’ll ever be, I guess. A hiss in her ear from Nightleaf reminded her that she couldn’t leave camp yet.
“The Clan will want to give you good wishes first,” he murmured. “Then we’ll go.” Stepping away from Pigeonfur, he waved his tail grandly to the Clan. “The time has come for our new leader to receive her nine lives. When we return, she will truly be your leader.”
A seemingly long, breathless moment passed. Pigeonfur stared at the ground between her paws. Then, amazingly, voices called out to her, and she looked up.
“Good luck, Pigeonfur!” Oakfang yowled.
Dapplecloud purred quietly, “May StarClan guide you well.”
Stormwhisker and Merlinfoot said nothing, but their loving gazes spoke volumes to Pigeonfur. She blinked slowly, affectionately to them.
“I’ll call you Pigeonstar in the morning!” Rainpelt, Piegonfur’s sister, cried loudly.
More cats yowled good wishes, until Nightleaf had to interrupt. “If we don’t leave now, we’ll never get there before the sun finishes setting.” He and Daffodilheart quickly ushered Pigeonfur out of camp and onto the narrow trail that led to the park.
Moments later, the chain link fence that surrounded the park came into view; BrickClan’s camp was barely a few minutes’ walk away from the park’s metal border. Pigeonfur swiveled her ears this way and that, checking for sounds of any hostile creatures. Nightleaf distracted her from her survey by explaining the ceremony as they approached the fence.
“When we get to the Ancient Oak, we’ll have to hurry and climb to the branching point. There’s not much time left before the sun will be gone completely, and that’s when the coyotes come out, as you should know. We need to be safely out of reach before then. Once we’re settled and the sky is black, you’ll crouch and touch your nose to the bark. Any questions?” By the time the old medicine cat had finished his even-paced explanation, they had stopped in front of the gap beneath the fence that would allow them to enter the park.
Pigeonfur shook her head silently. Besides wondering if you’re actually sure about this whole thing, no, I don’t have any questions at all. Taking a deep breath, she crouched and wriggled under the fence, allowing a faint purr of pleasure to escape her throat as the metal scratched along her spine.
After the medicine cats had followed her to the other side of the fence, she fell back and let Nightleaf take the lead. Daffodilheart padded along next to Pigeonfur, whispering excitedly, “This is so neat! I can’t wait, but you must looking forward to this even more!”
The gray she-cat didn’t respond to her friend. To say I’m looking forward to this would be a lie.
Even the general sense of nervousness and pessimism enveloping Pigeonfur couldn’t suppress her awe when they reached the base of the Ancient Oak. The trunk of this venerable old tree was so massive that it took three cats standing nose to tail to circle it completely. Its leafy crown stretched high into the night sky, the top hidden by the foliage of the lower branches.
The young she-cat had never climbed the Ancient Oak before; that was a privilege reserved for leaders and medicine cats—and amazingly, she was now counted among their number!
Nightleaf gave her shoulder a gentle nudge. “You need to get up there quickly,” he reminded her. “Coyotes.”
Pigeonfur nodded. With a few powerful bounds, she had reached the branching point. She swiftly moved out of the way as the medicine cats joined her. I can’t believe this is really happening, she thought, awestruck. I’m actually in the Ancient Oak…to become leader, of all things!
“Now, touch your nose to the bark…and StarClan will handle the rest,” Nightleaf meowed in a hushed tone. “The sky is dark enough, I think.”
Heart pounding wildly, Pigeonfur lowered her head and gently, reverently, touched her nose to the rough bark of the aged tree. A sudden blackness fell over her vision, and she felt as though she was spinning, light as a feather on a breeze…
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Intense pain flooded Pigeonfur’s body, and she realized with a jolt of panic that she couldn’t move a muscle. She tried to shriek with her terror and agony, but her jaws wouldn’t open. She couldn’t even feel the sound vibrate in her throat. The young gray cat was frozen in world of exquisite anguish.
In another heartbeat, it was over, and Pigeonfur’s eyes flew open as she gasped for breath. She felt as weak as a newborn kit when she stood up and surveyed her strange new surroundings.
Pigeonfur was standing in a field lit by silver moonlight. Oaks were dotted here and there, and wildflowers were blooming in abundance. Daffodilheart and Nightleaf were standing off to one side; Nightleaf was whispering something in his erstwhile apprentice’s ear. It was then that Pigeonfur became aware of movement out in the field.
Nine cats, their pelts glimmering with starlight, were striding confidently towards Pigeonfur. The leading cat, who was none other than Tealstar, nodded in greeting to her former deputy.
Pigeonfur caught her breath as she met Tealstar’s gaze. This was not the Tealstar whom Pigeonfur had known. This cat’s eyes were bright and clear, her pelt was smooth and sleek over rippling muscles, and her tail was raised high, demonstrating a strength and confidence that the young she-cat had never seen in Tealstar.
“What was that pain for?” Pigeonfur blurted, then clamped her jaws shut in embarrassment that a complaint was the first thing she said to the first StarClan cats she had ever met.
Tealstar’s eyes glimmered faintly with amusement, then grew serious as she explained. “We had to take your old life away to make room for your nine new ones.” Seeing the question rising in Pigeonfur, the tabby she-cat added, “Yes, we are planning to make you leader. Whether or not I was in my right mind when I appointed you, the fact remains that you were my deputy. In accordance with the warrior code, you must now lead BrickClan.”
Pigeonfur blinked rapidly. Okay then. I don’t what to do now! Do I tell them I can’t lead?
Before she could say anything else, a painfully familiar cat stepped out of the line of spirit-cats. His white coat shimmered with starlight as he approached.
“Snowheart,” Pigeonfur breathed. “You should have been here…instead of me.”
His wise gaze found Pigeonfur’s eyes as he meowed, “No, it was my time, little one. I was not destined to lead BrickClan, but you are.” Snowheart paused a moment before continuing. “With this life I give you courage. Use it well to master your fears and be brave. Remember, true courage comes not from the absence of all fear, but of knowing your fears and pushing on despite them.” He reached out and touched his nose to hers.
A lightning bolt of energy filled Pigeonfur, and suddenly her vision was filled with broken scenes: A snarling coyote, snapping teeth, claws flashing…Snowheart slashing out fiercely at a coyote even as another pounced on him from behind. Though she felt fear, she also felt Snowheart’s certainty that he was doing his duty to protect his Clan. And just like that, the images vanished and another cat approached to take Snowheart’s place.
Pigeonfur was shocked by the second cat’s appearance. She had thought after seeing Tealstar that all cats who go to StarClan are healed from their illnesses and injuries in life. But this cat was so obviously not healed. His short gray tabby fur was covered in scars, and one of his eyes was missing.
He noticed her surprise and explained. “The way a cat’s spirit appears in StarClan is the way the cat looked at the happiest time of its life. Although at first I was horrified at what I had become, I discovered hope during that dark time. And this is the gift I bring to you: A life of hope, so that you may never lose sight of it even when trouble threatens to destroy you.” He touched his scarred muzzle to Pigeonfur’s smooth, unblemished nose.
This bolt of energy was warm and uplifting. Small scenes flashed in Pigeonfur’s mind, and she realized she was seeing glimpses of this tom’s life. Like Snowheart, he was attacked alone by coyotes, but unlike Snowheart, he survived. She heard cats cheering what was obviously a name-change to honor his strength in surviving: “Losteye! Losteye!” Then came depression despite the honor, which was suddenly broken by a she-cat’s voice whispering, “I love you.” Hope swelled inside of Pigeonfur—then the vision shattered and she was back in the field.
“Thank you,” she murmured as Losteye rejoined the line of cats while the third cat stepped forward.
It was a young brown tabby tom who trotted up to Pigeonfur. His tail waved back and forth as he introduced himself. “I’m Owlpaw. With this life I give you a sense of adventure. Use it to seek new experiences and to not be afraid.” He touched her nose and it was as though a fizzling spark leapt between them.
This time, instead of scenes from the cat’s life, Pigeonfur simply felt emotions: The excitement of seeing something new, delight in exploring the unknown, and a desire to learn more, to try a different way of doing something. As the sensation faded, Owlpaw stepped and returned the line.
Looking back over his shoulder, he purred, “Just don’t do anything stupid!”
The fourth cat was a little tortoiseshell she-cat, so small that Pigeonstar had to look down to meet her gaze. “My name is Tinyflower,” the newcomer purred warmly. “I give you a life for love: Love your Clan as your kits, and don’t be afraid to love your enemies as well, for they need it desperately.”
The storm of feeling that accompanied this life caught Pigeonfur off guard. First blazing and ferocious, then strong and steady, and finally the sweetest thing in the world. She had no idea love could take so many forms. Blinking, she gasped out a faint “Thanks” as Tinyflower turned away.
The next cat was an ancient pale gray she-cat. She strode briskly up to Pigeonfur and meowed, “With this life I give you awareness. Use it well to know when something is wrong, and to protect your Clanmates with this gift.”
The young gray she-cat felt as though her eyes and ears were being stretched to the limit as she surveyed BrickClan’s camp, then the territory beyond, noticing every tiny detail. It was almost overwhelming, and yet she kept her eyes open. I am responsible for protecting my Clan.
“Oh, and I’m called Mintnose,” the elder said quickly before rejoining the other StarClan cats.
The sixth cat walked slowly and confidently. He was a muscular light brown tabby. “I am Reedstorm,” he introduced himself. “I have an important gift to give you. With this life I give you trust, not for yourself, but in your Clanmates and in StarClan. If you trust no one, you isolate yourself and will collapse.” He touched her nose, and a calm steady sort of energy flooded Pigeonfur’s being.
Once again she was seeing glimpses of the cat’s life. Reedstorm turned away from offers of help, confident that he needed nobody. The next moment, he flailed helplessly in the river while a BridgeClan cat called out, “I can save you, but you need to trust me!” The scene changed, and a sodden, shivering Reedstorm was huddled on the bank while the BridgeClan cat rubbed his fur with dry moss.
The scene vanished, and Reedstorm was padding away, to be replaced by a skinny black tom.
“My name is Blackpelt. I was once the medicine cat of BrickClan,” he meowed in his quiet yet strong voice. “Many cats thought my rather plain name made me unremarkable as well. But I soon learned that there is more than one way to be noticed, to have power. I give you a life for the mastery of speech, that you may realize how much power can be contained in a few words.”
The life seemed to scorch through Pigeonfur, leaving her breathless. A brief scene came into her mind: Blackpelt was surrounded by cats, all listening intently as he spoke. Pigeonstar could not make out the words, but even she was falling under the spell as the rumble of the medicine cat’s voice reached her ears. She was left with a thought, one that struck a deep chord inside her: Words can help solve problems, but they can also wound more deeply than the sharpest claw. I must guard my tongue to avoid hurting others.
The eighth cat was a ginger-and-white she-cat. “What I have to give you is vital for you to remember—in some cases it can mean life or death for another cat. I give you a life for truth, to seek the right answer always, and to never let a secret fester until it becomes a danger.”
Pigeonfur gasped as she was whirled away into glimpses of the she-cat’s life. “C’mon, Splashwhisker, nobody needs to know…” A white tom was standing over the body of a squirrel, obviously in BridgeClan’s territory. “You’ll never tell, will you?” The frightened eyes of a tabby she-cat stood out in the snowy scene; blood stained her paws and the unmoving body of another cat lay just a tail-length away. Finally, a crowd surrounded Splashwhisker, and one cat cried out angrily, “You mean to say you knew and never told anyone? Traitor!”
Splashwhisker gazed deep into Pigeonfur’s eyes. “Lies and secrets are dangerous, young warrior—avoid them as if your life depends on it, which it very well may.” Then she too returned to the line.
The final cat—Tealstar, of course—padded up to Pigeonfur, her yellow eyes glowing with pride. “With this life, your ninth life, I give you confidence in yourself. Be certain in your decisions, and know that you are a strong cat.” She touched the young she-cat’s nose lightly.
The energy that surged through Pigeonfur was almost too much to bear, and she sank to the ground. A fierce self-assurance swept through her as she thought, You know, maybe I really can lead BrickClan. Not just maybe, I know I will get through this!
Tealstar then intoned solemnly, “I hail you by your new name, Pigeonstar. Your old life is no more. You have now received the nine lives of a leader, and StarClan grants you the guardianship of BrickClan. Defend it well; care for young and old; honor your ancestors and the traditions of the warrior code; live each life with pride and dignity.”
All nine spirit-cats, as well as Daffodilheart and Nightleaf (whom Pigeonstar had nearly forgotten were present), chanted as one: “Pigeonstar! Pigeonstar!”
Even if just for a moment, Pigeonstar truly forgot her worries as her heart swelled with joy at the knowledge that these cats trusted her to take of BrickClan. I swear I will protect BrickClan, even if it must be with all of my lives. I will prove myself worthy of their respect; I must not, I will not fail.
CHAPTER FOUR
The sky was still dark as Pigeonstar blinked sleepily, trying to remember where she was. Then her eyes flicked wide open as she felt the rough, pitted bark of the Ancient Oak beneath her paws and the memory of her ceremony flooded her mind.
That was so amazing!
She stood and stretched, yawning widely as she extended her forelegs and sank her claws into the bark. The gentle breeze ruffled the long, feathery fur of Pigeonstar’s tail as it curved and swayed with her stretches. The young she-cat inhaled the night air deeply and was astonished to realize how peaceful she felt. I think I can cope with anything now.
Her reverie was interrupted by Nightleaf, who was crouching just behind Pigeonstar on the branch. “We can’t leave yet; the coyotes will still be out,” he reminded her quietly. “Try to get some sleep, as you’ll have a busy day getting used to your new position.” His coppery eyes were warm with a kindly expression as he added, “I’ll wake you up at first light, okay?”
“Thanks, Nightleaf,” Pigeonstar replied weakly, forgetting that beautiful moment of peacefulness already, thanks to the medicine cat’s reminder. She would have to appoint a deputy, and how could she decide? She’d cause another sudden leadership change if she didn’t appoint Spottedtail (surely the Clan wouldn’t tolerate a leader who was friendly with a coyote?), but an entirely different issue would arise if she did appoint him (how far would Spottedtail go if he knew she was a pushover?).
“Get some sleep,” Nightleaf says. How can I? Pigeonstar thought worriedly. Feeling she’d never fall asleep, the new leader settled back down onto her place on the branch and pondered her options.
Okay, so my first choice would be to not make him deputy at all. But…is that even worth risking? The gray she-cat wasn’t sure that it would be good for the Clan to have another upheaval, so soon after losing both Snowheart and Tealstar. What the Clan needed now was stability, and it was up to Pigeonstar to provide them with it.
That left her with the alternative. Spottedtail was well respected, as a senior warrior, so it was unlikely that anyone would complain about her choice. And besides, maybe after she made him deputy he would be satisfied with his position of power and leave her alone. He won’t be a bad deputy, and BrickClan will certainly have an easier time of it if I make him deputy.
An unpleasant thought wormed into Pigeonstar’s brain before she could stop it: What if she was doing this not for the Clan’s sake, but her own? No! I have to look after my cats’ happiness, and how will they be happy with more leadership issues?
Yes, that was it. Pigeonstar had nearly convinced herself now that it would be okay to appoint her treacherous uncle as deputy, when her annoying conscience raised another objection: What if Spottedtail tried to force Pigeonstar into doing bad things like stealing territory or punishing cats he didn’t like? What if Spottedtail became a tyrannical leader?
That wouldn’t do at all. Quit being silly, Pigeonstar told herself. You’ll outlive Spottedtail. He probably just wants to feel important. She stifled her misgivings and firmly made up her mind. Having Spottedtail as deputy would best for the Clan right now. Nothing bad would happen. Spottedtail wasn’t evil; he just needed to feel powerful.
Everything will be fine. Really.
Thus decided, Pigeonstar rested her muzzle on her paws and fell into an uneasy doze.
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The walk back to camp was peaceful and uneventful. The early morning songs of robins, sparrows, and finches filled the air. In the distance, the rumblings of cars could be heard as Twolegs began their days. A dog barked energetically at some imagined threat. Even the insects were starting to hum about as their wings warmed in the dawn light.
The beauty of it all, however, was lost on Pigeonstar. Normally, she loved to observe the beginning of the day, but this time, she was worrying about the decision she had made the night before. The young leader wondered if maybe she ought to ask someone for advice, but doing so would either risk her reputation or Spottedtail’s, as she would have to confess why she was concerned.
“Pigeonstar? We’re almost home. Should I run ahead and tell the Clan?” Daffodilheart’s cheerful meow interrupted the gray she-cat’s musings.
“Hm?” Pigeonstar mewed, startled for a moment by her friend’s voice. “Oh, sure, if you want to, I guess.”
The medicine cat nodded and darted away off the winding grassy trail that led to BrickClan’s camp, and took a shortcut through the tall grass. As Daffodilheart’s creamy tail-tip vanished into the shivering stems, Pigeonstar turned to Nightleaf.
“Is there anything I’m supposed to say, coming back as leader?” she asked, somewhat nervously.
The older black tom shook his head. “No, nothing special that you have to say. What’s more important is that you don’t share anything about your ceremony, as that is something between you and StarClan, and your medicine cats if you really feel you must discuss it.”
Relieved, Pigeonstar responded, “Oh, good. I don’t know that I’d feel up to giving a speech—or talking about what I saw in my dream. It was all so…” She trailed off, gazing up at a wispy cloud slowing traveling across the sky.
“I know what you mean,” Nightleaf murmured gently. “Having a special experience with StarClan sometimes leaves you with feelings that words fail to describe. But,” and now he became more brisk, “it looks like the entrance to the camp is only tail-lengths away. You should lead the way, and hold your head high.”
As she approached, Pigeonstar recognized Owlpelt sitting just outside the entrance, guarding the camp. The fluffy tabby was sitting stiffly upright, her ears pricked and alert for any strange sounds.
“Welcome home, Pigeonstar,” Owlpelt greeted the younger cat formally, dipping her head with respect.
After giving a brief nod in acknowledgement, the new leader of BrickClan took a deep breath in an attempt to calm her racing heart. She lifted her plumy tail like a banner, showing a confidence that she didn’t feel. Only a few more paw-steps now, and Pigeonstar would greet her Clan as a true leader…
Hesitantly, nervously, one white forepaw led her into the blackberry tunnel, followed by three more soft paws. The same forepaw was the first to emerge into the camp, although it trembled as the young gray cat set it down. She gasped in astonishment as she gazed out of the entrance tunnel.
The Clan was assembled, with Daffodilheart beaming proudly in the front. A great cheer went up as the Clan realized that their new leader was home.
“Pigeonstar! Pigeonstar!”
Rainpelt rushed to her littermate’s side and purred, “Welcome, Pigeonstar!” She seemed rather pleased to be keeping her promise from the evening before. “Hey, you’re a leader now!”
Pigeonstar nodded wordlessly in response, unable to think of anything to say to her delighted sister. What could she say? Yes, I’m leader but I don’t really want to be? That’s not what anyone wants to hear!
She could scarcely believe that all of these cats were really cheering for her. It was a little overwhelming, and she mumbled embarrassed thanks to her Clanmates as she hurried to her den, desperate to be away from the hubbub.
Once in the solitude of the leader’s den, Pigeonstar sat down and attempted to collect her thoughts. She was going to appoint Spottedtail as deputy, because it would be easier on the Clan that way. The only problem was that she had never seen a proper deputy ceremony; Snowheart had been deputy since before she was born, and her own ceremony had hardly been conducted the correct way.
She sighed and rose to her paws. The gray she-cat would go ask the elders how the ceremony went. Of course, that would mean leaving her safe, quiet den, but she’d have to get used to being leader sooner or later.
Just as Pigeonstar was about to leave, her father padded in. His brilliant green eyes were full of concern. “Is everything okay, Pigeonstar?” he asked quietly.
She hesitated. “Well… It’s just that I don’t know the words for the deputy ceremony.”
“Oh, I can tell you that,” Stormwhisker replied immediately. “You see, it begins like this…”
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“Let all cats old enough to catch their own prey gather around the Talloak for a Clan meeting!”
Pigeonstar sincerely wished her voice wasn’t quavering as much as it was, for that didn’t seem like the best way to address her Clan for the first time as leader. She needed to be strong. Taking a deep breath, she began.
“The time has come to appoint a new deputy. I say these words before StarClan, so that the spirits of our warrior ancestors may hear and approve of my choice.” She paused, hoping that her ancestors really would approve. “Spottedtail will be BrickClan’s deputy.”
Immediately, the Clan began to chant, “Spottedtail! Spottedtail!” Or at least, most of the Clan did. Pigeonstar noticed that not everyone seemed happy with her choice.
Emberspots’ green eyes were round with horror; she wasn’t even cheering. Dandelionfur cheered, but his tail was lashing in an irritated manner. Lightningpath, in the back of the crowd, was silent, and he looked like a stormcloud about to burst.
Hm… Pigeonstar found herself wondering why those cats would be upset. She supposed Dandelionfur might be disappointed at not being chosen, but surely Lightningpath couldn’t have expected anything—he was one of the youngest warriors, and had never had an apprentice.
And then there was Emberspots. Why would she look scared to see Spottedtail appointed as deputy? Hadn’t they once been mates? Even if they weren’t still together, surely there was nothing threatening about Spottedtail becoming deputy, unless… What if I’m not the only cat Spottedtail knows something about?
The thought sent chills down Pigeonstar’s spine, and, unconsciously, she shuddered.
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Emotionally exhausted, Pigeonstar napped until the sun had passed its highest point. Her sleep was deep and dreamless, but when she awoke, she still didn’t feel quite rested. Maybe I just need to do something else that doesn’t involve worrying. Hm…
The gray she-cat rose to her paws and stretched, wondering what she could do to distract herself from her worries for a while. Going back to sleep was certainly tempting, but Pigeonstar was recently beginning to find herself disgusted with her own lazy tendencies. She needed to do something productive instead of moping around in her den.
“That’s it!” Pigeonstar exclaimed as an idea came to her. “I’ll go hunting!” Now all she had to do was see if Spottedtail was going to send any patrols out soon, and if so, she would join one.
She yawned as she slowly padded out of den, welcoming the feeling of the afternoon sun on her fur. It was rather warm outside, and for a moment Pigeonstar closed her eyes and relaxed in the greenleaf heat.
“Hey, Pigeonstar!”
And the peaceful moment was gone, vanished like a blackbird into the sky. Pigeonstar opened her eyes to see Kinkflower waving with her tail.
“We’re going hunting,” the brown tabby warrior meowed with flick of her ragged tail in the direction of three cats standing behind her. “Perhaps you’d care to join us?”
The BrickClan leader blinked as the other cats, Sleetstripe, Crowwhisker, and Gravelpaw, looked at her expectantly. This was what she had been planning to do, so she might as well take Kinkflower up on her offer.
“All right,” she responded with a nod. “Where are we going?”
“Well, I thought I’d send Crowwhisker and Gravelpaw to Smallwoods, and the rest of us can spread out and work towards the Twoleg foodplaces.” Kinkflower jerked her head toward the camp entrance. “We’d best get a move on if we want to catch anything before sundown. Let’s go.”
The mottled she-cat led the way out of camp, with Sleetstripe just behind her and Crowwhisker and Gravelpaw following hard on their heels. Pigeonstar brought up the rear, with one last regretful look at her den.
I should know better. I can’t just hide from the Clan now that I’m leader… Oh, how I wish I could!
They stepped out of the bramble tunnel onto the narrow trail leading away from camp. Upon reaching the first fork, an unspoken signal was given by Kinkflower, and Crowwhisker darted down the rightmost path, followed by her apprentice.
“Sleetstripe, take the middle path and wind around towards Twolegplace,” Kinkflower meowed. “Pigeonstar and I will look for squirrels in the stand of oaks on the Eveningside path.”
Sleetstripe nodded, and his pale gray fur vanished quickly down the winding trail through the grass.
Kinkflower said nothing more as the two she-cats padded down the Eveningside trail, until they were several fox-lengths away from the small stand of oaks by the side of the trail. “Pigeonstar, you’ll wait in the grass near the path, and I’ll chase a squirrel to you, okay?”
The gray she-cat nodded, a ball of nervousness growing in her belly. She had never been especially great at catching squirrels. Almost as if she could sense the younger cat’s thoughts, Kinkflower gave another piece of advice.
“Just remember to pounce on time, you’ll be fine. Now go hide over there, I can smell a squirrel nearby.” Without waiting for an answer, the ragged-furred warrior slipped away, dropping into a low crouch as she did.
Pigeonstar swallowed and crept forward to the place Kinkflower had indicated. It was rather close to the tree, so she would need impeccable timing to stop the squirrel from escaping. That was the problem with squirrels: They were as clever and alert as they were fast and nimble.
Cat, are they ever hard to get a hold of! Hunting squirrels was always where Pigeonstar had struggled as an apprentice, and what her mentor, Dapplecloud, came close to losing her patience with…
“PIGEONSTAR!”
Pigeonstar gasped in shock. A gray squirrel was dashing toward the nearby oak; in fact it was almost there! The young she-cat sprang from her hiding place, but it was too late. By the time she was anywhere close to where the squirrel had been, it was already sitting on a high branch, scolding loudly.
“Chk-chk-chk-charrr!”
Kinkflower stalked up to Pigeonstar, her tail twitching irritably. “I practically gave you that squirrel, but you missed it! Were you daydreaming, or what?” Her green-gold eyes seemed to burn as she glared at her leader.
Ashamed, Pigeonstar hung her head. “I’m sorry,” she mumbled sheepishly.
“‘Sorry’ catches no prey!” the older warrior hissed. “I’m going to go hunt by myself.” She turned abruptly and bounded away from the path, into the tallest grass.
Why she ever was named “flower” is quite beyond me… She has no patience! Pigeonstar sat down and thought a little bit. No, I shouldn’t say that, Kinkflower’s usually pretty nice. It must be something else bothering her, like…
Her whiskers drooped miserably as another thought occurred to her. What kind of leader was she, really, if her own warriors couldn’t respect her? Sure, they had greeted her kindly enough after her ceremony, but Pigeonstar suspected that was due in large part to Daffodilheart running ahead and telling the Clan they were back.
I can’t go on like this! I need be worthy of my Clan’s respect if I even hope to be a decent leader!
She stood up, with a new determination flooding through her. Okay, so she needed to earn the respect of her Clanmates. That made sense, because she had been one of the laziest apprentices. How could she start? By trying to catch the squirrel again. Proving herself as more than just a mediocre hunter would at least begin to make Pigeonstar more respectable.
Pigeonstar rose to her paws and padded down the path back toward camp. As soon as she judged she was a reasonable distance from the group of oaks, she dived into the tall grass and began creeping back toward the trees. Hopefully that squirrel thinks I’ve gone!
The young gray cat settled down to wait, her gaze fixed on the branch where the squirrel was still sitting. The bushy-tailed creature remained looking suspicious and alert for what seemed like an eternity before it ventured down the trunk again. It started digging around for fallen acorns from the previous leaf-fall.
Ever so slowly, Pigeonstar slunk forward, her pupils widening until her eyes were thin green rings around deep black pools. Her ears flattened, and her tail twitched slightly.
The squirrel sensed something was up, and it began to wag its tail back and forth.
Swish, swish, swish…
In her hypersensitive hunting state, the sudden motion caught Pigeonstar’s attention immediately, and she pounced. The satisfaction she felt as her claws snagged the squirrel’s tail melted as she suddenly felt the tension vanish.
The squirrel, minus most of its tail, was scurrying up the oak tree.
Pigeonstar was stunned. She dropped her mouthful of fluff and stared at the bob-tailed squirrel, which was scolding her once again. She had heard stories that squirrels could lose their tails in a heartbeat, but hadn’t really believed it could be true. Well, she certainly couldn’t doubt it now!
An amused mrrow from behind caught Pigeonstar off guard, and she could feel herself growing hot with embarrassment as she turned to face the newcomer.
It was Sleetstripe. The silver tom was carrying a vole in his mouth, but he set it down to speak. His tone was kind despite the obvious amusement glimmering in his yellow-green eyes. “Bad luck,” he meowed sympathetically. “But don’t feel too put out. It happens to everyone at some point.”
Pigeonstar sighed. “That’s the second time I’ve missed the same squirrel. I got distracted by its tail like a kit!”
“It’s not hard to do,” Sleetstripe responded. “StarClan knows that when we’re thinking about hunting, anything that moves looks edible.” His gaze flicked down to fluffy squirrel tail lying on the ground. “Cheer up,” he added. “Even if we can’t really eat that, the kits will like it to play with.”
“You really think so?” Pigeonstar meowed.
“Of course! Didn’t you ever play with a squirrel tail as a kit?”
She had, of course. The warriors were always so good about sharing fun things like that with the kits. Yes, the Clan did take good care of its members.
“Sleetstripe?” Pigeonstar meowed suddenly “Have you… Have you ever regretted leaving behind your free life as a loner to join BrickClan?”
He looked a little surprised at her question, but answered immediately, “Never! My sister and I learned a lot about compassion and loyalty from BrickClan. You found us when we were sick, and instead of driving us away, you gave us shelter and healed us. It is an honor to be a part of this way of life, to try to repay the immense debt I owe the Clan.” Sleetstripe’s eyes became tender as he continued.
“And… If I hadn’t joined BrickClan, I wouldn’t have met Speckleheart… And now here I am, the father of three beautiful kits.” His voice was strong, with all of his emotion clearly audible in his tone. “What I want now, more than anything, is watch my kits grow up as loyal warriors, and to grow old with Speckleheart at my side. No, Pigeonstar, I have not regretted my decision for a moment.”
Impressed by the warrior’s heartfelt response, Pigeonstar could only nod. Sleetstripe seemed a little embarrassed by such a display of emotion, and he dipped his head to his leader, scooped up his vole, and padded back toward the path leading home.
As Pigeonstar watched him go, she realized that StarClan must have sent Sleetstripe to remind her of all that was good about Clan life. This is why I must do my best to protect BrickClan. These loyal cats want nothing more than to see their Clanmates safe. StarClan has given me this responsibility.
She almost wanted to wail aloud from the burden StarClan had placed on her shoulders. Pigeonstar was such a young cat that she simply didn’t have the experience to know how best to protect BrickClan. Somehow, she would have to learn quickly…
CHAPTER FIVE
It had been a very stressful morning for Pigeonstar.
First thing after waking up, she had to get the mentors and apprentices organized and sent off on their assessment. She wouldn’t have had the assessment that day, except that the apprentices were overdue for it, and Owlpelt had just been asking her about it. And besides, it would keep the cats busy, and as Pigeonstar’s father said, “Busy cats are happy cats, so long as they aren’t overworked.”
After that was taken care of, Pigeonstar had thought she could eat her morning meal in peace, but it was not to be. Dandelionfur and Fogstorm started bickering over who had more right to eat the last dove on the freshkill-pile. The argument had grown until they were hissing and snarling at each other, and looked as if they could unsheathe their claws at any moment. Dapplecloud had reminded Pigeonstar that, as leader, it was her responsibility to resolve the dispute.
Pigeonstar hadn’t been thrilled, as she had a strong dislike for confrontation. However, Dapplecloud had been right, so Pigeonstar nervously approached the angry warriors. After she had listened to each side, she suggested that they just share the dove. The warriors had seemed surprised, as though the idea hadn’t occurred to them, but they agreed, and all was well.
Now it was almost sunhigh, and Pigeonstar was hoping she could relax for the rest of the day. She had been dozing in the sunlight outside of her den since the altercation between Fogstorm and Dandelionfur, and now sat up and stretched a little. She yawned contentedly, glad that everything was peaceful once again. The gray she-cat tilted her muzzle up to let the warmth of the sunlight bathe her face, narrowing her eyes against the bright midday sun.
“Pigeonstar?” Mistfang, seeing that her leader was awake, was padding in the direction of where Pigeonstar sat.
What now? The young she-cat bit back a sigh of exasperation. “Yes, Mistfang?”
The silvery-gray warrior sat down near Pigeonstar. Her meow was sharp with annoyance. “I was wondering if you could talk to Spottedtail about who’s on guard duty. He assigned me to the night watch tonight, but I was the night guard last night. I don’t want to do this two nights in row!” Mistfang yawned, as if to prove her next point. “I need the sleep; I just can’t stay up another night!”
It must be said that any good-natured cat will become grumpy when under a great deal of stress, and Pigeonstar was no different. She was normally very patient, but the past several days had been a crazy series of emotional ups and downs, not to mention that her responsibilities had grown exponentially. So it can be understood, if perhaps not excused, that she responded the way she did.
“You and Spottedtail are adults, and you’re older than me—you can work this out yourselves!” Pigeonstar cried tetchily. She whirled away abruptly and ran to her den, where she flung herself onto her mossy nest and groaned.
Why? Why is it so hard to be leader! Pigeonstar shuddered as she thought again of everything she was responsible for. She buried her muzzle between her paws and just lay there for a few minutes.
Gradually, her breathing slowed, and the young she-cat felt much calmer. However, she still didn’t feel like dealing with anything else for the rest of the day, but her guilt at how she had treated Mistfang pricked her conscience.
I’ve got to apologize. But then what? I can’t just sit around camp waiting for someone else to bother me… I’ll go crazy! That was it! Pigeonstar could go for a walk. No hunting, no talking to anyone, just walking and thinking and listening to the birds. That would be the perfect remedy for her ill temper.
So Pigeonstar trotted out of her den, back into the sunny day. She mumbled an apology to Mistfang, who was still sitting where Pigeonstar had left her, looking shocked, then slipped through the bramble tunnel and out into BrickClan’s territory.
The gray she-cat paid little attention to where she was going, just following narrow paths through the grass at random. She was moving fairly quickly, but even so, her keen ears picked up the sound of rustling grass and an extra set of pawsteps behind her. Someone was following her!
She was walking into the breeze, however, so she couldn’t pick the scent of the other cat (at least, she assumed it was another cat). Heart thumping wildly, she stopped and turned around. Voice trembling slightly, she addressed her unknown follower.
“Who are you? I know you’re following me!”
There was silence for a moment, then the grass rustled even more loudly, and a cat popped out onto the trail. It was Lightningpath!
“Sorry to spook you like that, I just need to talk to you,” he meowed rapidly.
Pigeonstar couldn’t help feeling somewhat baffled. “Couldn’t you have just spoken to me in camp? And for that matter, why couldn’t you have taken the path like a normal cat?” She searched his face, hoping for a sensible answer.
“I couldn’t risk anyone noticing. Also, what I have to say should not be overheard.”
She narrowed her eyes suspiciously. Something was not right. Why should Lightningpath, of all cats, have secret knowledge? “What do you have to tell me?” Pigeonstar asked cautiously.
Lightningpath shook his head. “Not here. It’s too quiet. We should go to the park, where the Twoleg noise will make it harder for us to be overheard.”
Pigeonstar hesitated at first, but she couldn’t ignore the urgency in Lightningpath’s manner. She sighed. “All right.” And… There goes my peaceful, solitary walk!
The cream tabby tom took the lead, and he strode swiftly along the path that led to the park. After they had crawled under the fence, he led Pigeonstar to a large bush, and with a flick of his tail, indicated that they should sit under there.
For a moment Lightningpath didn’t say anything, but his body language showed how tense and worried he was. He was breathing heavily, the fur prickled slightly along his spine, and his tail was sweeping back and forth. He stood up, then sat down again. Finally, after heaving another huge sigh, he began.
“Pigeonstar, I hate to say this, but I’ve got to. I know Spottedtail is your father’s brother, and that you trust him, but you can’t! You simply can’t! You aren’t aware what he’s capable of!” The young warrior’s orange eyes burned with the strength of his emotion. “You should never have chosen Spottedtail as your deputy.”
Pigeonstar was stunned. So she really wasn’t the only cat who knew what Spottedtail was really like! But how could she tell Lightningpath that? She could only stare as he continued.
“Spottedtail is the mangiest piece of fox dung that ever walked the land. He is treacherous, manipulative, and enjoys power far too much. He would make a terrible leader, Pigeonstar, believe me!”
Suddenly, Pigeonstar remembered that Spottedtail was Lightningpath’s father, and that thought was enough to give her words.
“How can you say that about your own father?” she meowed timidly.
The fury that blazed from Lightningpath’s orange eyes was unbelievable. His flanks heaved as he seemed to be gathering his thoughts for what he would say next. The young tom leaned close to Pigeonstar and murmured, “Can I trust you to keep a secret? I think this may be the only way to convince you how bad Spottedtail is.”
Pigeonstar nodded without thinking, then immediately regretted it. He’s going to tell me something that will only make me worry more! However, it was too late to stop Lightningpath now.
“Spottedtail is not my father. I have never met my father.”
Flabbergasted, the young leader could only stare at the cream-furred tom.
“Yes, it’s true,” he said, apparently noticing Pigeonstar’s reaction. “My father is a kittypet. Spottedtail had realized that my mother rarely spent nights in the warriors’ den. So he followed her one night, without her knowledge, and saw her meet the kittypet. When Daffodilheart and I were born, he told Emberspots to say he was the father—not to protect her, but because he wanted the status in the Clan of being a father.”
Pigeonstar narrowed her eyes thoughtfully. “But why did Emberspots agree? She could have just left cats wondering who it was. You know relationships don’t always work out, and besides, queens don’t always have to say who the father is.”
“You’re right, but there was Daffodilheart to consider. She’s not a tortoiseshell, so her father has to be ginger or cream, see? Have you ever noticed these patterns of looks?” Lightningpath hastily finished explaining as Pigeonstar continued looking confused. “Dandelionfur and Spottedtail were the only adult toms the right color. But Dandelionfur was too young to be our father, which left either Spottedtail or a cat outside the Clan. If Spottedtail hadn’t claimed to be our father, the Clan would have figured out pretty quickly that Emberspots hadn’t been entirely loyal. So of course she agreed.”
Before Pigeonstar had a chance to respond, Lightningpath added abruptly, “Spottedtail is a despicable piece of fox dung who enjoys the feeling of being in power. You cannot allow him to succeed you as leader!” The cream tabby tom rose to his paws and stalked out from under the bush, his stride growing more rapid as he left.
“But Lightningpath—” Pigeonstar called after him, but it was too late. Lightningpath was gone.
The young she-cat’s mind whirled with questions. How had Lightningpath discovered his mother’s secret? Had Lightningpath, with his final words, implied that Spottedtail might try to kill her? How in StarClan’s name was she supposed to cope with this new burden?
Sunk deep in her ponderings, the BrickClan leader remained crouched under the bush until the sun was well past its peak.
~
She took a different trail away from the park than the one she had followed to get there. As the gray she-cat neared a rock, she noticed a snake sunning itself, draped across the stone like a limp piece of vine. Pigeonstar immediately crouched and crept forward ever so slowly.
This time, her efforts were rewarded. Pigeonstar was able to get so close that a sudden lunge found her teeth meeting in the reptile’s neck. It went limp immediately. Sending a silent prayer of thanks to StarClan for her catch, she continued on her way with a new spring in her step, for the hunting success had done much to bolster her mood.
This was a start to her new plan for earning her Clan’s respect. Spottedtail was a problem that wouldn’t be solved anytime soon, but Pigeonstar had just proven that she could hunt. The Clans weren’t formed in a day, and it would certainly take the young leader a great deal longer than a day to resolve her complicated situation.
Hunting was just the beginning.