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Post by Leapkit on Dec 29, 2023 19:03:24 GMT -5
Do my posts make me ever look like i think? because i don't. My brain is entirely smooth.
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Post by Defty on Dec 29, 2023 19:15:42 GMT -5
For me, I can inner monologue; I just feel exhausted doing so. So I sort of inner monologue, but it’s less talking to myself and more of I know how I feel or what I’m thinking; I don’t have to express it all to myself. So I guess it’s more of me just basking in a certain emotion, feeling all of the things that don’t need to be said. However, I do do some journaling, which I feel is more beneficial to me than inner monologues, because instead of my thoughts forever fading away, I have a reference to come back to. On paper, I can centralize my emotions and thoughts into words, and I at least have enough energy for that at certain times when I need to let it out. The back of our office is an alleyway, so I think a lot back there while I’m working. What’ll happen is I’ll find myself thinking just a sentence or two and repeating it to myself, it could be something I’m happy or disturbed about. Then I take that sentence and turn it into a poem. That’s how a lot of my poems start up, with just one sentence I want to flesh out more. If I don’t have that thought, then I don’t write any poetry.
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Post by Ivyfalcon on Dec 29, 2023 19:25:20 GMT -5
I have a really hard time visualizing things. I don’t automatically when I read, but it doesn’t bother me or make me dislike reading. I’m also bad at recognizing faces, and I definitely can’t picture anyone at all. I can sort of picture things I’ve seen if I’ve looked at them a lot (for example, my house, or if I spent a lot of time looking at a specific photo), but I have to really focus on that, and I can’t just imagine my own things to visualize that I haven’t actually seen in some way.
As a result, I only care about if art, movie adaptations, etc. of a book match text descriptions, as that is all I associate with a character/scene, unless I’ve also seen official art (book covers, etc.) or simply pick a fan art representation that I like. However, I still generally remember things like that in word form, not image. If there is no description (or an incomplete one) given in a book for a character or something, I don’t create my own or imagine anything, it just simply doesn’t cross my mind at all.
Feel free to ask if you want any more clarification on anything, it’s kind of hard to explain how my own thoughts work.
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Post by Brownie on Dec 29, 2023 19:34:52 GMT -5
I don't do voices or pictures. Dreams are more like... impressions. Platonic ideals.
Honestly it makes reading easier. I don't have to wait for my inner mind to speak the words aloud nor for the pictures to load in, I can read as fast as I want!! If I'm really enjoying a work, I can get into visualizing the impressions of an object, but again it's really not like I can actually see it in my mind's eye. It's really low quality, like someone is manipulating 3D objects under a sheet and I'm able to perceive the very tops of the peaks and the shadows of the movement in a 2D space. If that makes sense?
No, I cannot rotate a cow.
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Post by Card against Humanity on Dec 29, 2023 19:39:04 GMT -5
related to this question; am I the only person who is like. immediately thinking about something the moment I wake up in the morning. like this morning I woke up with an entire Jimi Hendrix song playing in my head for absolutely no reason.
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Post by 🎄ᦓρ꠸ᥴꫀᠻꪖꪀᧁ🎅 on Dec 29, 2023 19:54:13 GMT -5
Do my posts make me ever look like i think? because i don't. My brain is entirely smooth. relatable |
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Post by 🎄ᦓρ꠸ᥴꫀᠻꪖꪀᧁ🎅 on Dec 29, 2023 19:55:49 GMT -5
related to this question; am I the only person who is like. immediately thinking about something the moment I wake up in the morning. like this morning I woke up with an entire Jimi Hendrix song playing in my head for absolutely no reason. NO U AREN’T!!!!! The other day I woke up with the Bill Nye theme song stuck in my head like what😭😭 I haven’t heard that song in years |
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Post by Leapkit on Dec 29, 2023 20:15:19 GMT -5
For me, I can inner monologue; I just feel exhausted doing so. i think this is actually the best way to explain having "no inner monologue". most of the time my thoughts are kind of amorphous espressions and feelings and my brain hops around and connects dots too fast that, trying to put it into words actually makes the entire proess of thinking EXTREMELY slow going. It's also why I end up talking slow and why some people have thought that i'm just intellectually disabled. ._. my brain is a mile a minute, but then i have to sit there and figure out how to translate this.... blob, into actual words that can be understood. |
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Post by Defty on Dec 29, 2023 20:26:10 GMT -5
For me, I can inner monologue; I just feel exhausted doing so. i think this is actually the best way to explain having "no inner monologue". most of the time my thoughts are kind of amorphous espressions and feelings and my brain hops around and connects dots too fast that, trying to put it into words actually makes the entire proess of thinking EXTREMELY slow going. It's also why I end up talking slow and why some people have thought that i'm just intellectually disabled. ._. my brain is a mile a minute, but then i have to sit there and figure out how to translate this.... blob, into actual words that can be understood. I get what you’re saying. Your thoughts are faster than your tongue can keep up with |
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Post by Defty on Dec 29, 2023 20:27:52 GMT -5
Does anyone else have the most random thoughts, sometimes humorously morbid, sometimes just idiotic, and then pause to wonder if anyone else thinks those same things? 😂
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Post by Leapkit on Dec 29, 2023 20:30:27 GMT -5
i think this is actually the best way to explain having "no inner monologue". most of the time my thoughts are kind of amorphous espressions and feelings and my brain hops around and connects dots too fast that, trying to put it into words actually makes the entire proess of thinking EXTREMELY slow going. It's also why I end up talking slow and why some people have thought that i'm just intellectually disabled. ._. my brain is a mile a minute, but then i have to sit there and figure out how to translate this.... blob, into actual words that can be understood. I get what you’re saying. Your thoughts are faster than your tongue can keep up with No, not that, it's like to be able to talk I have to go through an additional layer of translating for my brain for a few seconds. I have very long pauses between sentences or words so people think i'm like actually just mentally handicapped and dumb and start trying to finish sentences for me. (Or typing, but it's not really ntoticeable since i can take as much time as I need before hitting send.) |
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Post by Dark Sun on Dec 29, 2023 20:30:53 GMT -5
I literally have no inner monologue at all. It requires excessive concentration in order to just fake voices in my head. I just talk a lot. 
Edit: I literally just talk as if someone is with me. Weird, I know. For example:
Me: So what are you going to do this morning?
Also me: *Recites that I want to do that morning*
Also also me: Oh that's interesting, cool!
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Post by Defty on Dec 29, 2023 20:35:08 GMT -5
I get what you’re saying. Your thoughts are faster than your tongue can keep up with No, not that, it's like to be able to talk I have to go through an additional layer of translating for my brain for a few seconds. I have very long pauses between sentences or words so people think i'm like actually just mentally handicapped and dumb and start trying to finish sentences for me. (Or typing, but it's not really ntoticeable since i can take as much time as I need before hitting send.) I see. It’s sort of like how a bilingual person needs a moment to translate what they’re saying into the other language, only the language you’re trying to translate are your thoughts. My assurances may mean little over the Internet, but I don’t find that dumb at all. People who don’t go through that additional layer and criticize you only do so because there isn’t much there in the vein of thought to begin with; with little to translate, the sooner they speak. I guess what I’m trying to say is they’re idiots 😋 |
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Post by Dark Sun on Dec 29, 2023 20:37:32 GMT -5
For me, I can inner monologue; I just feel exhausted doing so. i think this is actually the best way to explain having "no inner monologue". most of the time my thoughts are kind of amorphous espressions and feelings and my brain hops around and connects dots too fast that, trying to put it into words actually makes the entire proess of thinking EXTREMELY slow going. It's also why I end up talking slow and why some people have thought that i'm just intellectually disabled. ._. my brain is a mile a minute, but then i have to sit there and figure out how to translate this.... blob, into actual words that can be understood. Pretty much the opposite of me then. I really need to learn how to slow down so I don't keep on tumbling over my words or going "yeah yeah yeah" at the beginning of some of my sentences as I quickly struggle to gather my thoughts and keep up with my mile a minute brain.
At least the benefit is I can perfectly understand others who talk incredibly quickly.
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Post by valleylight on Dec 29, 2023 20:41:54 GMT -5
Does anyone else think in songs? Sometimes I have an inner monologue too, but music’s always there. I used to struggle with reading as an older kid, because my head music would drown out the words. I had to learn to sort of turn down the volume when I needed to focus.
I used to assume everyone always had music playing in their heads too, until high school. I asked a friend what song they were thinking at the moment, and they had no idea what I was talking about. Since then, I’ve wondered how common it is.
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Post by Leapkit on Dec 29, 2023 20:48:12 GMT -5
Actually i used to talk that quickly and say "umm, like, and" repeatedly as crutch words while I gathered my thoughts but i was mocked at and bullied into basically not speaking for a while, and the habit of avoiding those words like the plague stuck.
But sometimes people think my pauses mean i'm done talking or they interrupt me, which also means I avoid talking because I just don't feel like being interrupted.
Or there are times where I wait for my turn to talk and try to hold on to what I was going to say, but by the time I have a chance to say it the conversation already passed on to another topic so it still sounds out of place and people ask why I'm still talking about that when the conversation moved. :')
I can also end up holding onto the thought, but trying to keep listening to the current conversation, and then completely lose my thought while I'm trying to process the new information at the same time.
Idk my brain just doesn't brain. So I am selectively mute outside of close friends who KNOW I need a minute.
And also add a layer onto the difficulty by throwing migraines and brain fog into the mix so even if I know I know the word I'm looking for I can't come up with it so im just like "idk, the thingy?" and start praying they know wtf im trying to say lol.
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Post by Defty on Dec 29, 2023 20:50:11 GMT -5
Does anyone else think in songs? Sometimes I have an inner monologue too, but music’s always there. I used to struggle with reading as an older kid, because my head music would drown out the words. I had to learn to sort of turn down the volume when I needed to focus. I used to assume everyone always had music playing in their heads too, until high school. I asked a friend what song they were thinking at the moment, and they had no idea what I was talking about. Since then, I’ve wondered how common it is. I don’t have that personally but I think that’s amazing. I remember reading this one manga where someone said you don’t need a cassette (or any sort of device that plays music obviously) to hear a song. He then “cranked” the volume up in his head, and could hear the song. I tried that after reading this, and it actually does work. If you listen to a song a lot, you can recreate it in your mind. For you to do that since you were young is impressive! |
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Post by lazzylake on Dec 29, 2023 20:55:05 GMT -5
For me, I can inner monologue; I just feel exhausted doing so. i think this is actually the best way to explain having "no inner monologue". most of the time my thoughts are kind of amorphous espressions and feelings and my brain hops around and connects dots too fast that, trying to put it into words actually makes the entire proess of thinking EXTREMELY slow going. It's also why I end up talking slow and why some people have thought that i'm just intellectually disabled. ._. my brain is a mile a minute, but then i have to sit there and figure out how to translate this.... blob, into actual words that can be understood. I AGREE SO MUCH WITH THE BRAIN GOING A MILE A MINUTE. I’m like having several different sparks of thoughts fire off, and some are more dominant than others. That’s why I often flit from one idea to the next, and often don’t have time to talk about ideas that popped into my head just a few seconds ago. I like to consider my thoughts as amorphous as well. Like some thoughts I could spend hours hyperfixating and writing essays about for hours and then all of a sudden dump them for weeks on end. I can’t even explain what’s going on in my head right now everything seems obscured by a fog and all of a sudden it shows up in bright neon colors. It’s also why I dissociate so often and space out because my brain is just too full. There’s a lyric from one of my favorite songs, The Mind Electric, that kind of summarizes my disjointed thinking process, even though the context of the song is completely different. “See how the brain plays around, and you fall inside a hole you couldn’t see. And you fall inside a hole, inside a- Someone help me, understand what’s going on inside my mind! Doctor, I can’t tell if I’m not me.” |
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Post by Leapkit on Dec 29, 2023 20:59:16 GMT -5
i think this is actually the best way to explain having "no inner monologue". most of the time my thoughts are kind of amorphous espressions and feelings and my brain hops around and connects dots too fast that, trying to put it into words actually makes the entire proess of thinking EXTREMELY slow going. It's also why I end up talking slow and why some people have thought that i'm just intellectually disabled. ._. my brain is a mile a minute, but then i have to sit there and figure out how to translate this.... blob, into actual words that can be understood. I AGREE SO MUCH WITH THE BRAIN GOING A MILE A MINUTE. I’m like having several different sparks of thoughts fire off, and some are more dominant than others. That’s why I often flit from one idea to the next, and often don’t have time to talk about ideas that popped into my head just a few seconds ago. I like to consider my thoughts as amorphous as well. Like some thoughts I could spend hours hyperfixating and writing essays about for hours and then all of a sudden dump them for weeks on end. I can’t even explain what’s going on in my head right now everything seems obscured by a fog and all of a sudden it shows up in bright neon colors. It’s also why I dissociate so often and space out because my brain is just too full. There’s a lyric from one of my favorite songs, The Mind Electric, that kind of summarizes my disjointed thinking process, even though the context of the song is completely different. “See how the brain plays around, and you fall inside a hole you couldn’t see. And you fall inside a hole, inside a- Someone help me, understand what’s going on inside my mind! Doctor, I can’t tell if I’m not me.” YES, YOU GET IT. this is exactly the mood. I wonder how much of it is adhd lol. |
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Post by Defty on Dec 29, 2023 21:00:38 GMT -5
i think this is actually the best way to explain having "no inner monologue". most of the time my thoughts are kind of amorphous espressions and feelings and my brain hops around and connects dots too fast that, trying to put it into words actually makes the entire proess of thinking EXTREMELY slow going. It's also why I end up talking slow and why some people have thought that i'm just intellectually disabled. ._. my brain is a mile a minute, but then i have to sit there and figure out how to translate this.... blob, into actual words that can be understood. I AGREE SO MUCH WITH THE BRAIN GOING A MILE A MINUTE. I’m like having several different sparks of thoughts fire off, and some are more dominant than others. That’s why I often flit from one idea to the next, and often don’t have time to talk about ideas that popped into my head just a few seconds ago. I like to consider my thoughts as amorphous as well. Like some thoughts I could spend hours hyperfixating and writing essays about for hours and then all of a sudden dump them for weeks on end. I can’t even explain what’s going on in my head right now everything seems obscured by a fog and all of a sudden it shows up in bright neon colors. It’s also why I dissociate so often and space out because my brain is just too full. There’s a lyric from one of my favorite songs, The Mind Electric, that kind of summarizes my disjointed thinking process, even though the context of the song is completely different. “See how the brain plays around, and you fall inside a hole you couldn’t see. And you fall inside a hole, inside a- Someone help me, understand what’s going on inside my mind! Doctor, I can’t tell if I’m not me.” Haha, I appreciate how you could write so many essays about your thoughts. I know you write some killer essays too because you’ve mentioned a couple of them in threads past. I love those lyrics btw! There’s a lyric I also like when it comes to my thoughts from the song Mister Kingdom: “Once you're through with one world, There's another waiting there. Oh, to sleep, per-chance to dream To live again those joyous scenes The laughter and the follies That are locked inside my head” My thoughts are most dedicated to reliving old memories. Sometimes I’ll get trapped in nostalgia though I can never return to the moments that procured it, and so while I have a vivid imagination, it’s also a personal weakness of mine. What I then fail to appreciate, the now, becomes what I’ll obsess over later, the past, and so I’m always jet lagged, metaphorically, when it comes to time. (Something else I like about Mister Kingdom is the outro, which makes me feel like I’m leaping into different worlds and universes at the speed of light. Beautiful 🥹 Alright, enough gushing.) |
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Post by lazzylake on Dec 29, 2023 21:05:04 GMT -5
Leapkit I really don’t know what else to say except “everything you are saying is ME!!” ESPECIALLY in a public setting like school. The amount of times I get interrupted publicly is baffling, especially when talking to my teachers and actually trying to withhold a conversation. Sometimes I just stare at people until they stop because I KNOW seconds later someone is going to show up again!!
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Post by Leapkit on Dec 29, 2023 21:08:00 GMT -5
Leapkit I really don’t know what else to say except “everything you are saying is ME!!” ESPECIALLY in a public setting like school. The amount of times I get interrupted publicly is baffling, especially when talking to my teachers and actually trying to withhold a conversation. Sometimes I just stare at people until they stop because I KNOW seconds later someone is going to show up again!!  |
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Post by lazzylake on Dec 29, 2023 21:08:39 GMT -5
I AGREE SO MUCH WITH THE BRAIN GOING A MILE A MINUTE. I’m like having several different sparks of thoughts fire off, and some are more dominant than others. That’s why I often flit from one idea to the next, and often don’t have time to talk about ideas that popped into my head just a few seconds ago. I like to consider my thoughts as amorphous as well. Like some thoughts I could spend hours hyperfixating and writing essays about for hours and then all of a sudden dump them for weeks on end. I can’t even explain what’s going on in my head right now everything seems obscured by a fog and all of a sudden it shows up in bright neon colors. It’s also why I dissociate so often and space out because my brain is just too full. There’s a lyric from one of my favorite songs, The Mind Electric, that kind of summarizes my disjointed thinking process, even though the context of the song is completely different. “See how the brain plays around, and you fall inside a hole you couldn’t see. And you fall inside a hole, inside a- Someone help me, understand what’s going on inside my mind! Doctor, I can’t tell if I’m not me.” YES, YOU GET IT. this is exactly the mood. I wonder how much of it is adhd lol. Crazy how I didn’t even consider the thought I had ADHD until about a year ago. I’m opening up a lot more to it about people I trust though. Even my friend who’s autistic said to me, “I’ve known you’ve got something going on since middle school” (NOT in a rude way, just in a teasing manner 😭) |
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Post by ! (Ġray) ! on Dec 30, 2023 2:19:32 GMT -5
okay but does anyone else have a narrator thats just narrating everything you do in third person like I'll walk down the stairs and then there will be a voice like "Gray walked down the stairs adjectively" like theres someone writing about me in my head
idk i'm weird
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Post by brooksie on Dec 30, 2023 3:19:20 GMT -5
i only really have like an inner monologue. its very difficult for me to imagine images and stuff, i cant believe thats how some people exclusively think? i dont know how id operate without a monologue
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Dec 30, 2023 8:08:04 GMT -5
My inner monologue never shuts up. I often don’t listen to music or podcasts or stuff when I’m on road trips, doing chores, working out, etc because my thoughts keep me sufficiently entertained.
I also think more in pictures than words but like its never ending and to my brain they are words. Like mental Pictionary.
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Post by 🎄ᦓρ꠸ᥴꫀᠻꪖꪀᧁ🎅 on Dec 30, 2023 8:54:01 GMT -5
okay but does anyone else have a narrator thats just narrating everything you do in third person like I'll walk down the stairs and then there will be a voice like "Gray walked down the stairs adjectively" like theres someone writing about me in my head idk i'm weird My thoughts are in storytelling mode, but in first person. Like I can narrate what I do, but it’ll be like “I walk down the stairs.” and then be preceded by me talking to myself in my head and what I’m gonna do after a walk down the stairs. Or I’ll be just talking about how I feel about something idk. |
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Post by whiteflight on Dec 30, 2023 11:31:52 GMT -5
If calling yourself an idiot in your mind and imagining another you smacking you in the head if you think of perverted/embarrassing stuff then I guess I have it?
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