Post by ˢʰʸᴹᶤᵐᶤᵏʸᵘ on Mar 5, 2022 22:39:13 GMT -5
Hello forums, I've been having a problem recently. I don't know what is going on with me. I think that I am showing signs of schizophrenia and I feel like I'm living in it. But my family is saying I don't, they're so vehemently denying it.
My psychiatrist isn't telling me any diagnosis right now. And he's apparently very stringent on that - becsuse my therapist said that its not something they have yet.
And when I tried to talk to my therapist about the thoughts that I've have I have been having the and things I'm thinking she tells me that 'people eith your condition shouldn't talk about theyr thoughts like that" am does that Mena? That she thinks I have it? Am I living in the time frame which everything is reversed?
I really need your help. I have been living in a prison, of - of these feelings. I want to know if I do have it. Or. If I am over reacting? And feeling what normal people feel? I'm terrified that everyone thinks I'm faking it. And I can hear them, in my head. Mr screamy man is this name that I have placed on the one side of my mind that holds the negative in me. I've always had him, and he tells me and he shows me horrible things. He didn't use to be able to change voices. When he spoke I always knew it was him, but lately I think that he's been able to to. To to. To.
I hear the negative things that people are saying. When they speak to me when I'm not there. And when they look at in me in the crystal ball.
Am I just abusing drugs to feel different? Are all the problems I'm facing just because I like smoking marijuana? Is this something that people feel like when they are high? And I am taking that and blowing it way out of proportion. I'm terrified that I would be n9rmal, and all these feelings that I'm feeling so strongly are what's bad about me.
I'm just terrified. I just want to know what is wrong eith me. So please, help us. I have to know what people think.
Am I schizophrenic and my doctors hiding it to not make it worse? I have pushed away everyone thst I love becwuse this feeling. It started so long ago, I think the shift thay happened. I'm just scared I'm. Please, help me. I am going to list the things that Are wrong with me that are aligned with the symptoms of schizophrenia ok? I'm not asking for a diagnosis. I am asking please, if this is what normal people feel? And if i am you think I am schizophrenic, so that I can stop feeling like I'm In some sort of paradoxi in between? Here the reason I think I am.
-every test online that I have taken have put me to mid-high risk of schizophrenia.
-My therapist and psychiatrist not wanting to tell me becwyse of theory that it would make it worse
-about 11 months ago I was placed in ap
M.
-when the police came to my house. I knew they were following me around after that. And casing my house.
-about 9 konths ago I went to. 9 months ago. I started isolating from people that I knew.
-I have recreated an area in my home to be the refor.stion of my safety cube, the one in me that used to be good.
-all of these feelings started when I first began to do marijuana. I would notice that - at least I thought - it would affect me differently than other people.
- I learn that marinuana does affect people with a predispose to schizophrenia differently than others. And that it's starts to draw out the prodrome faze of schizophrenia out from those people.
-i begin to experience the same symptoms of prodrome Era.
-I got kicked out of high school because they thought that I got high? Because I disassocoaiated sometimes, and fell into this warp hole in the middle. And I wouldn't know where i was suddenly. And I got so terrified, they thought even without testing me that I was on drugs. And kicked me out.
-no one that I know of my relatives had schizophrenia. Though, my mother does have dissociative identity disorder. I know that those aren't the same thing, but it hust seems pertinent to know, since a lot of DID isn't thoroughly researched.
I think I have listed them all. I think I have experienced hallucinations? I think they were- but i dont. How am I supposed to know which thing was real or not? All my thoughts are mixing with my memory. Are the things I remember thinking things that have become my memory of that day in reality? I'm terrified, I don't know how much more I can write. Please. I need to know what is wrong eith me. Am I feeling things that "normal" people feel? Am I over reacting? Do you think I don't have it? I'm sorry this post was so long. I'm scared, and I. Don't know if I will regret posting this. I'm aorry
My psychiatrist isn't telling me any diagnosis right now. And he's apparently very stringent on that - becsuse my therapist said that its not something they have yet.
And when I tried to talk to my therapist about the thoughts that I've have I have been having the and things I'm thinking she tells me that 'people eith your condition shouldn't talk about theyr thoughts like that" am does that Mena? That she thinks I have it? Am I living in the time frame which everything is reversed?
I really need your help. I have been living in a prison, of - of these feelings. I want to know if I do have it. Or. If I am over reacting? And feeling what normal people feel? I'm terrified that everyone thinks I'm faking it. And I can hear them, in my head. Mr screamy man is this name that I have placed on the one side of my mind that holds the negative in me. I've always had him, and he tells me and he shows me horrible things. He didn't use to be able to change voices. When he spoke I always knew it was him, but lately I think that he's been able to to. To to. To.
I hear the negative things that people are saying. When they speak to me when I'm not there. And when they look at in me in the crystal ball.
Am I just abusing drugs to feel different? Are all the problems I'm facing just because I like smoking marijuana? Is this something that people feel like when they are high? And I am taking that and blowing it way out of proportion. I'm terrified that I would be n9rmal, and all these feelings that I'm feeling so strongly are what's bad about me.
I'm just terrified. I just want to know what is wrong eith me. So please, help us. I have to know what people think.
Am I schizophrenic and my doctors hiding it to not make it worse? I have pushed away everyone thst I love becwuse this feeling. It started so long ago, I think the shift thay happened. I'm just scared I'm. Please, help me. I am going to list the things that Are wrong with me that are aligned with the symptoms of schizophrenia ok? I'm not asking for a diagnosis. I am asking please, if this is what normal people feel? And if i am you think I am schizophrenic, so that I can stop feeling like I'm In some sort of paradoxi in between? Here the reason I think I am.
-every test online that I have taken have put me to mid-high risk of schizophrenia.
-My therapist and psychiatrist not wanting to tell me becwyse of theory that it would make it worse
-about 11 months ago I was placed in ap
M.
-when the police came to my house. I knew they were following me around after that. And casing my house.
-about 9 konths ago I went to. 9 months ago. I started isolating from people that I knew.
-I have recreated an area in my home to be the refor.stion of my safety cube, the one in me that used to be good.
-all of these feelings started when I first began to do marijuana. I would notice that - at least I thought - it would affect me differently than other people.
- I learn that marinuana does affect people with a predispose to schizophrenia differently than others. And that it's starts to draw out the prodrome faze of schizophrenia out from those people.
-i begin to experience the same symptoms of prodrome Era.
-I got kicked out of high school because they thought that I got high? Because I disassocoaiated sometimes, and fell into this warp hole in the middle. And I wouldn't know where i was suddenly. And I got so terrified, they thought even without testing me that I was on drugs. And kicked me out.
-no one that I know of my relatives had schizophrenia. Though, my mother does have dissociative identity disorder. I know that those aren't the same thing, but it hust seems pertinent to know, since a lot of DID isn't thoroughly researched.
I think I have listed them all. I think I have experienced hallucinations? I think they were- but i dont. How am I supposed to know which thing was real or not? All my thoughts are mixing with my memory. Are the things I remember thinking things that have become my memory of that day in reality? I'm terrified, I don't know how much more I can write. Please. I need to know what is wrong eith me. Am I feeling things that "normal" people feel? Am I over reacting? Do you think I don't have it? I'm sorry this post was so long. I'm scared, and I. Don't know if I will regret posting this. I'm aorry
