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pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Jan 18, 2017 18:21:29 GMT -5
Lol xD I feel honored
For us, ap was a choice- it wasn't mandatory but at the same time, the guidance counselors really pushed it based on your grades
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Post by The Noble Dragon on Jan 19, 2017 3:31:58 GMT -5
Yeah AP was a choice and I am super lazy and didn't want to worry about all the stress I saw some of my friends go through.
It's not like it affects much of College anyways... right?
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#a8d1ff
The Ancient One
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pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Jan 19, 2017 6:42:10 GMT -5
Tbh, I actually wish I took more aps in high school.
I didn't realize that they actually were kinda important bc the guidance counselors didn't tell us- they basically said if you are thinking about doing something regarding this class in the future, take it and so I didn't take some classes because I was like I'm not majoring in anything that has to do with that
But looking back, I should have take those classes because (well, our school didn't offer many anyways- only like 7 and I took 4) that could have saved me from taking all the gen Ed courses and where my schedule is so tight as it is, it would have saved a lot of time and money
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Post by Raven on Jan 19, 2017 18:23:53 GMT -5
AP English Literature is gross,ugh.
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Post by *Spottedpelt* on Jan 19, 2017 23:50:18 GMT -5
Hello there everyone, just wanted to stop by to say that this is such a lovely and wonderful place, you all seem so friendly and helpful here and it's nice to know that there's always somewhere to go when you need someone to talk to and I really appreciate that. I've bookmarked this page in case I need it in the future. So thank you  Also pumpkin pie, I just wanted to say that I read over your About Me on the front page and you have literally all of the same interests and passions as I do! I don't know why but I found it a little funny, whenever I write a little bio about me it's almost the exact same thing! |
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Post by Northstar3213 on Jan 19, 2017 23:53:58 GMT -5
This site gave me chronic high blood pressure.
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#a8d1ff
The Ancient One
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pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Jan 20, 2017 7:59:26 GMT -5
Raven; I actually really enjoyed that class tbh xD Language and comp not so much but lit...I liked it xD
Spotted; Thanks! I'm glad you think so! And omg really? Haha that's so funny xD (twins???)
North; Hmm...I'm afraid I don't have a cure for that...is there something that we could do to possibly....lower your blood pressure?
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Post by The Noble Dragon on Jan 20, 2017 17:46:30 GMT -5
Hey guys just a reminder. Please come here to talk if you need to! I understand this is a rough time for a lot of people and I want to be there to support you guys.
Just don't mention politics please, I know it's on everyone's mind but I don't want to lose this thread. If you need to rant please PM me!
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Post by *Spottedpelt* on Jan 20, 2017 18:19:01 GMT -5
pumpkin pie: Haha I know right!! XD (maybe long lost twins!?)
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Post by The Noble Dragon on Jan 21, 2017 4:04:20 GMT -5
I had a really rough day..... I cried at work for the first time in like over a year. Not even because someone made me sad or anything. I just got super stressed and super pissed off at customers and my coworkers, and I guess my body thought crying would be the best way to let it out. Which technically the scientific reason why I cried but like whatever.
First of all i got called in SUPER early! I was supposed to work a 7-11 shift but they wanted me to come in at like 2 or 2:30 but I was like "nah" so I came in at 4:30 instead.
And like some dude pulled into the parking lot like an hour or so after I started working and hit someone else's parked car????? They came inside after a while and aparently the guy was freaking DRUNK so the woman who's car got hit was like "is there any way you can try and keep him in here for an hour or so, just to get him to sober up?" And she bought him some coffee and food and like if I was her I would have called the police if a drunk guy hit my car. Not buy him coffee. But some people have sympathy for dumb idiots I guess. But like we aren't legally allowed to make this guy stay in the lobby of our store so like we just suggested he stay or somethign bc no way am I knowingly letting a drunk guy get in his car and drive away. NO WAY.
I told my manager to call the police bc it's illegal to drive drunk and also illegal to be drunk in public so like lets get him out of here and off the streets but NOOOOOOO apparently they called corporate to see what we should do and they were like "Unless you saw him chug a bottle of pure alcohol there isn't anything you can do" and liek I WAS SO MAD THAT NOBODY WAS GONNA CALL THE POLICE ON THIS GUY THAT WAS TRYING TO GO TO HIS CAR AND DRIVE WHILE DRUNK but I couldn't do anything bc I was on the floor and slammed with customers and my phone was in my car bc I can't have it on me or else I get in major trouble.
After like the third time this guy tried to leave. (we weren't forcing him to stay more like strongly suggesting he sit down and bribing him with breakfast sandwiches) My coworker Liam tried to talk the guy into walking the like 100 yards down the street to the Motel 6 to get a room and chill and the guy finally did. so yay on that. like 20 minutes later tho the GUY SNUCK BACK AND GOT INTO HIS CAR AND TRIED TO DRIVE AWAY. My manager was like "hell no" and went out there to get him to park but they guy freaking peeled out of the parking lot and down the street.
I'm so mad bc nobody called the police and we even had his liscense plate written downa nd everything but NOOOOOOO we can't! even though we've calle dthe police for lesser things we can't do anything about a drunk driver. I'm so angry at my management.
And then they were all being pissy and passive agressive and Liam was badgering me when I was trying to help a customer at the window and he wouldn't just Shut up and let me finish what I was doing and just ugh I was so mad and so stressed bc my cat also might be dying and I'm tired and I just hate my job and ugh.
Sorry I needed to rant. I'm better now and relaxed.
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#a8d1ff
The Ancient One
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pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Jan 21, 2017 8:44:16 GMT -5
I am so sorry about your cat...that really hit me o: oh my gosh! Old age or?
And also, that is super messed? First off, disregarding that he was drunk and the fact that you all didn't see him drinking- that don't mattee- he still hit the ladies car which is an offense in itself? So you would want someone to take care of that...you don't just let that walk away (I mean if the lady was ok with it and they exchanged papers that's one thing but still) and second, you guys shouldn't have been held responsible for that dude- like you said, he was in offense. The police should have been called. And say even if he wasn't drunk or whatever, they should have still come in at least? Just because he happened to pull into your parking lot didn't make him your responsibility idk I can see why you would be stressed :/ I hope the rest of your day is better!
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#a8d1ff
The Ancient One
Name Colour
pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Jan 21, 2017 8:47:24 GMT -5
pumpkin pie: Haha I know right!! XD (maybe long lost twins!?) Did we ever talk on the old forums cause I feel like we did?? idk you seem so familiar lol |
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Post by The Noble Dragon on Jan 21, 2017 11:09:03 GMT -5
No He's only 8 years old. The vet thinks he might have either a Nerve Disease or FIP (Which is like AIDS for cats) it's fatal and incurable. I hope its the nerve disease....
Yeah I was just really upset with everyone and the entire situation. We have seriously called the police for less offenses that that and ugh. Anyways how is everyone doing?
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#a8d1ff
The Ancient One
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pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Jan 21, 2017 16:34:30 GMT -5
Oh gosh): that's terrible! I hope he is ok!
I'm not bad! Just dreading going back to school tomorrow
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Post by *Spottedpelt* on Jan 21, 2017 17:41:59 GMT -5
pumpkin pie : Haha I know right!! XD (maybe long lost twins!?) Did we ever talk on the old forums cause I feel like we did?? idk you seem so familiar lol We might have! I had the same exact username one there and I joined the old forums back in 2009 so there's a great chance that we did talk to each other! What was your username on the old forums? |
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#a8d1ff
The Ancient One
Name Colour
pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Jan 21, 2017 17:43:15 GMT -5
That's what I thought- cause I recognized your user lol
I was Picia!
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Post by Deleted on Jan 21, 2017 17:58:27 GMT -5
Not to be negative, but isn't this what the pretzels chatroom is for?
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Post by *Spottedpelt* on Jan 21, 2017 18:45:06 GMT -5
That's what I thought- cause I recognized your user lol I was Picia! Yeah, I think I remember seeing you around a few times! |
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Post by The Noble Dragon on Jan 21, 2017 19:10:12 GMT -5
Not to be negative, but isn't this what the pretzels chatroom is for? In a way. They are sibling chatrooms bc Pic helped to create this one as well. This one is more of a say what you want to say and not be judged for it. Prezles is a safe chat room to just chill. I see this as one that has more potential to hit harder subjects like depression and big events in a person's life. Besides, there isn't anything wrong with having multiple chatrooms that are for the same or similar things. Not everyone feels comfortable talking in each chatroom so it would follow that there should be plenty of chatrooms for people to pick and chose from, you know? The world can always use more safe spaces. Especially ones that are geared to help young people work through problems and explore themselves. |
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#a8d1ff
The Ancient One
Name Colour
pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Jan 22, 2017 7:40:11 GMT -5
^^ What Deamon said lol
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Post by ͠ɴ͠ɪ͠ɢ͠ʜ͠ᴛ͠ᴍ͠ɪ͠s͠ᴛ515 on Jan 22, 2017 8:00:29 GMT -5
^^ What Pic said lol (this is just going to be the same exact thing forever. Lol)
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Post by ᴄᴇʟʟɪsᴛ on Jan 22, 2017 8:01:19 GMT -5
hullo there!
i just wanna say that reading the front page made me feel so much more relaxed than i was before when i was stressing over life uwu this just seems like an amazing place and i'm relieved that there are safe havens like this around with great people to offer support and advice. i think that just knowing that there are people willing to help you is really helpful in a lot of ways - it just helped me too so thank you cx
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#a8d1ff
The Ancient One
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pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Jan 22, 2017 8:59:00 GMT -5
Aww! Thank you! It is always so great to hear that! I'm glad you think so! If you ever need us, don't ever hesitate to message us! (:
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#a8d1ff
The Ancient One
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pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Jan 22, 2017 9:00:11 GMT -5
That's what I thought- cause I recognized your user lol I was Picia! Yeah, I think I remember seeing you around a few times! Were you in fanclans? ^^ What Pic said lol (this is just going to be the same exact thing forever. Lol) basically xD |
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Post by ᴄᴇʟʟɪsᴛ on Jan 22, 2017 9:14:15 GMT -5
i definitely will! thank you~ cx
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#a8d1ff
The Ancient One
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pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Jan 22, 2017 10:15:11 GMT -5
(:
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Post by *Spottedpelt* on Jan 23, 2017 14:26:34 GMT -5
pumpkin pie: I was! I was pretty much only on FanClans and Fanfiction on the old forums, a little bit on the art section too!
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#a8d1ff
The Ancient One
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pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Jan 24, 2017 7:13:09 GMT -5
I recognize you from fanclans then! What clans did you have or rp in?
I spent my early years only on fanclans
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Post by *Spottedpelt* on Jan 27, 2017 2:13:17 GMT -5
I recognize you from fanclans then! What clans did you have or rp in? I spent my early years only on fanclans Oh boy it's been so long! I know for sure that I was in a SnowClan, I know I joined a couple others but I just can't remember! I think I might have had a BoulderClan or CliffClan or a name of that sorts and I know for sure that I had a couple more that I made, I wish I could remember though! What about you, do you remember any of the clans or were in or made? |
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Post by Deleted on Jan 27, 2017 3:09:22 GMT -5
I'm not quite sure how to begin a post like this, but I just wanted to say thanks to the thread mods for creating a thread like this, and the nice people commenting and supporting it. I was looking for a place like to let things out but didn't want to make my own thread, so I appreciate you being here, I really do. Suicidal ideation under the cut. Sorry if it is long; I have kept quiet about my feelings for a very long time and have zero people I can talk to. If anything in my post is inappropriate or too heavy, please let me know and I'll edit accordingly. Though I'll probably get embarrassed and delete this in like five minutes.
I've spent a good half an hour writing this out and deleting it, hoping I don't sound whiny or edgy. I'm still not happy with this iteration of my feelings, so sorry if I still come across as that way.
The past few years have been really bad for me mental health-wise. Currently, I am not planning or going to attempt suicide, but it is always at the back of my mind, and I feel it is inevitable at this point. I can't escape from it.
My anxiety and depression (among other mental things, I imagine) are beating me into the ground, and have been since I was 14-15. Nothing, absolutely nothing makes me happy or energized anymore, and I've become a husk of a person. I don't even know who I am anymore; I've become very closed off, angry, and very, very hateful as of late. It comes in waves, but I'm getting to the point where I'm constantly raged.
I have isolated from a lot of people, and if I didn't live with her, I probably push away my own mother. I haven't talked to my extended family in a very long time, my father and I have a rocky relationship most times, and my friends have begun to annoy me and make me very angry, especially my male friends. I would just rather not be around anyone, but at the same time, I have heavy loneliness that no one can fill. I desperately want to feel loved and cared for but at the same time have this deep anger and put up barriers so no one can come near me. I have always had body image issues and problems making friends both online and offline, so this makes it 100 times worse.
The only thing I enjoy or look forward to in my life right now is sleeping and living in a mental fantasy world. Other than that, I just go to work and come home. That's about it. I hate it. I hate it very much. But at the same time, I have zero motivation to fix anything and will probably wallow in this pathetic mess until I die.
On an awkward note, I'm also incredibly confused about my sexuality; I think maybe I'm a lesbian. I think it's part of the reason being around men makes me very angry. I don't like when they hit on to me or touch me or any of that. I actually feel ill and very uncomfortable and ny advances or being touched makes me very suicidal for days afterwards (even things like being held or kissing.). It probably seems weird to add this in, but it's a big factor in my current anxieties.
The worse is that I don't feel like my feelings are even valid. I don't feel right complaining about my problems because someone out there has it more bad than I do. And a lot of who I've talked to tend to blow me off or gotten angry at me so it makes me feel worse. Just writing this made me angry at myself. I know it sounds like I'm a loser, but it really is very very bad right now and I am suffocating.
If you read this, thank you.
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