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Post by Невыносимая коммунизм on Sept 10, 2016 11:44:32 GMT -5
(Hi Kevin! Thanks for checking! Don't worry if there are any inappropriate posts me or Picia will report them! ) What would I do without you~
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what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Sept 10, 2016 20:49:03 GMT -5
i know my moms going to force me to drive today but i have panic attacks every single time but she doesnt care that i start shaking and crying i odnt know what to do Have you tried to explain this to her? Sometimes it is hard for parents especially to understand this because they want the best for us and might think we are overreacting. I used to be afraid to drive and I still, every time I get in the car, I get very nervous when I drive, but I know it is something I have to do. My sister on the other hand, absolutely refuses and hasn't driven since the day she got her license- driving isn't for every body and you are not alone in what you are feeling. As for advice, I don't know what I can say other than tell your mother how you feel because it is reasonable for you to feel that way and as you drive more and practice, it'll become like second nature and it'll be a lot more comfortable! The nerves will go away or lessen(:
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Post by The Noble Dragon on Sept 10, 2016 22:14:44 GMT -5
(Hi Kevin! Thanks for checking! Don't worry if there are any inappropriate posts me or Picia will report them! ) What would I do without you~Crash and burn probably xDDDD
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The Ancient One
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pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Sept 11, 2016 7:50:30 GMT -5
^^thats a good song xD
Good Morning!
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Post by The Noble Dragon on Sept 12, 2016 0:21:31 GMT -5
What song? xD
Good Evening!
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The Ancient One
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pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Sept 12, 2016 6:24:17 GMT -5
Crash and Burn haha
Good Morning!
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Post by The Noble Dragon on Sept 12, 2016 11:50:28 GMT -5
Oh lol I was making a Supernatural reference xD
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The Ancient One
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pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Sept 12, 2016 12:37:32 GMT -5
Oh xD I've seen that a couple times, but not nearly enough to get any references lol I figured you weren't referring to the song though haha
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The Ancient One
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pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Sept 13, 2016 7:41:09 GMT -5
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The Ancient One
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pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Sept 13, 2016 21:01:08 GMT -5
Bumping this up
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Post by The Noble Dragon on Sept 13, 2016 21:39:01 GMT -5
Give me a moment, I'm gonna post my story from the Relationship thread because I feel more people should see it and realize what an unhealthy friendship looks like. On Sunday We'll change the Weekly Discussion to something else. If you guys have any suggestions PM us!
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Post by The Noble Dragon on Sept 13, 2016 21:40:30 GMT -5
When you are young you tend to find people that are willing to be your friend. If you are desperate you find anyone willing to let you stay around them for an extended period of time no matter what they do to you. I was like the latter in elementary school. When I was in fourth grade all my friends from the previous years kinda left me for other people so I was lonely and wandered around the playground looking for anyone that would let me play with them. It was hard. Until I met Mikaela. She was in my class, she was new to the school and we shared similar interests! We started by playing Around the world on the basketball court and became fast friends. There was another girl, Sydney, who hung out with us and we were all really good friends! Then Sydney moved away so it was just me and her for the rest of the year. In 5th grade, we didn't have the same teacher but we were still able to hang out during breaks and lunch. We got really close until another girl Christina joined our friend group. I believed she was trying to get between me and Mikeala and break up our friendship. I'm not sure if it was true or not but it got to the point where me and Christina hated each other and would constantly tell Mikeala that the other was not a good friend. I think she decided that we had to race around the playground to prove our friendship to each other.... that or I challenged Christina. Either way we raced to climb the playground and she punched me in the stomach, she said I kicked her but I don't remember if I did on purpose or not. Either way Christina won and I was left crying on the play set by the slide, thinking Mikeala was going to leave me for her. But much to my surprise Mikeala came to make sure I was okay and Christina stopped being our friend. We met Kathy a while later who joined our group and became our best friend. At the End of 5th grade I moved away for 6 months, we kept in touch via mail and phone calls but not very often because we didn't think I'd move back. But my mom didn't like her new job and she was able to get her old job back and we moved back into the same house and I went to the same middle school that all my friends from elementary school were going to! Mikeala had changed since I had been gone, she had a whole bunch of new friends and was into different things than elementary school. I on the other hand, hadn't changed much. I still loved to play sports and stuff and read, while she loved to talk about fashion and make-up and boys... topics I wasn't familiar with or cared about but since we had been friends for so long I was willing to listen and try and be interested. She welcomed me back into the friendship with open arms and the rest of the girls seemed to accept me.. some more than others. Around 7th grade we began to have problems.... well problems I noticed. We'd had plenty of problems in elementary and th grade but I hadn't seen them as such. We argued and very often she would call me to the counselors office because I wasn't a good friend. One time he suggested we "Start Over" our friendship and go back to being acquaintances and we did that. But I wasn't going to forget all that we had been through together so almost immediately after that I was like "Hey you still coming to my b-day party?" And he responded with something like "I don't know... we aren't really friends". One time during an argument she had with another friend who got "kicked" from the group I called her a.... not so nice word and she got very upset with me and had her mom call my mom. My mom responded with "Deamon wouldn't say that unless they meant it" sooo yeah I didn't get in trouble. These problems continued into 8th grade, and since we had different lunch periods I spent time with some new friends. Nothing noteworthy really happened in 8th grade so I'm going to move onto 9th grade. High school. By now Mikeala and I had mostly drifted apart. Kathy and I sat in the grass in the quad during lunch and the rest of the girls sat by the tables across the quad. Mikeala never came over unless she was having an argument with one of the girls over there. Me and Kathy realized that she thought of us as her backup friends and we didn't like that. So one time when she came over and started to complain about "Emily" or someone we told her that we aren't her back up friends and she should only come sit with us if she actually wants to. She left in anger. One of our other friends Rachel, was having massive issues with Mikeala's group of friends. Rachel had been the person kicked from the group in 7th grade. She thought that the whole group was stalking her and sending her threats. I never figured out if she was really paranoid or if there was some truth to her thoughts but around October she went to the counselors office and got all of them in trouble. Why is October important? Because My birthday is the day before Halloween and I was getting ready for my birthday party. I texted her (because I had FINALLY gotten a cell phone) "Hey are you coming to my party? I need to know ASAP" "No.""What? Why not??" "You know what you did.""Mikeala I have no idea what you are talking about. What did I do?" I don't remember if she responded or not but I she kept blaming me for something I had no idea about. So finally I snapped and realized that my best friend Mikeala. Wasn't a good friend at all. And I texted her as much. "You know what Mikeala. You have no right to treat me this way. I didn't do anything bad to you and all you've done for as long as we've been friends is be mean and manipulative." And then I got a call from her on my phone but it was one of the girl in her group saying something like "How dare you call Mikeala mean! She's the nicest person I know!" So I just ended up hanging up and being extremely upset over our fight. This fight when on for months, till finally near the end of the year me and Kathy met up with Mikeala in front of the school before it started. "Mikeala we should talk" I told her. And we did, about how it was all a misunderstanding and that the fight was kinda stupid and we kinda made up. Until. "It's okay you guys," Mikeala smiled at us. "I forgive you two." Me and Kathy shared a look, the fight was entirely Mikeala's fault so it was HER that should be apologizing. "You know what Mikeala." I finally said, feeling that Kathy agreed with me(and I was right). "If you thing that we are the ones that need to be forgiven then you are sorely mistaken. You don't deserve to be our friend. Come On Kathy." And with that We turned and walked away from her, her mouth agape and in a "How dare you" Kind of way. I haven't interacted with her much since and I found a group of friends that actually love me and want me to be around. The moral of this long story is. Friends shouldn't make you feel like they are doing you a favor by being your friend. They shouldn't be passive aggressive and talk as if your friendship is going to end any moment if you step out of line. They shouldn't be controlling and manipulative to get something out of you. They shouldn't make you feel like you can't say anything to them or talk to them openly. This my fellow forumers is called and abusive relationship. It can happen to anyone and isn't solely restricted to romantic relationships. Friends should be open and honest with you. You should feel as if you can talk to them and be open to them. They should listen, just as you should. One thing I have found is that the Key to any kind of relationship of Communication. If you feel you two are drifting apart then say something and talk about why that is and what you can do to prevent it. Find something in common with your friends and be willing to learn about their other interests. Make sure your friends feels loved and they should do the same back. A lot of you are young on here and not sure how good relationships work. Learn from my experience, because it really sucks to learn it on your own. If you feel that someone is mistreating you as a friend or in any other kind of relationship then you should leave them and find someone who is worth your while. I know that sounds hard but you can do it. You can always talk to me about it if you think that you can't. If you feel as if you have been a bad friend then it's okay. If you feel like you act like Mikeala then there isn't any reason why you can't change and become a good friend. Sometimes we forget that our friends are people too and have their own problems, we use them as band-aids for our own issues and don't realize that they need a good friend too. It isn't too late to apologize and try to be better. Most of the time we don't realize what we are doing until afterward, so it's okay that you weren't the best person in the past or currently. The future is a bright and wonderful thing and it is filled with endless possibilities. So it is never to late to change for the better. Feel free to add your own experiences with good and bad friends and any advice you have for people!
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The Ancient One
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pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Sept 13, 2016 21:49:40 GMT -5
Ahh! Thank you for that Deamon! I remember having read that in your thread! And also, thanks for reminding me bout the discussion; I admit I actually forgot about that and I still had some remarks to say to it I might have time tomorrow!
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Post by The Noble Dragon on Sept 13, 2016 21:51:34 GMT -5
lol same I forgot till I was driving home from work the other day xD
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The Ancient One
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pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Sept 13, 2016 21:55:00 GMT -5
xD the struggle Like I feel bad cause there is so much more that I'd like to contribute but time and the forgetful mind xD The things you remember in the car while driving though xD
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The Ancient One
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pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Sept 14, 2016 5:53:36 GMT -5
Morning!
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The Ancient One
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pumpkin pie
what if i fall? but my dear, what if you fly?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Sept 14, 2016 19:19:00 GMT -5
(:
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Post by The Noble Dragon on Sept 15, 2016 1:34:43 GMT -5
Good evening
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Hi loves, like my posts so I'll reply faster <3
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Post by sweetclover1 on Sept 15, 2016 2:53:37 GMT -5
Hi! First off, I absolutely love this idea for the thread! Thank you guys so much for creating it <3 <3 y'all are beautiful souls!!
So anyways, this is my first year of college, and I've been hecka stressed at random times, like ill go through days where I'm super pumped but then ill have times when I can't even think about why I'm here... For awhile its been going good, but now I'm thinking of redeciding my major... backstory, first, though. I've been performing since i was in the fourth grade, church/school choir up until this year, and theatre all four years of my high school career. Theatre actually became my life- three of my four years in high school i was on the schools leadership board for theatre, on the state board my senior year, and i auditioned for every show that i could... We got a new teacher in two years ago that I guess completely drained my passion? Like, I love her as a person but it got to the point where I didn't audition for the last show because I just didn't want to deal with the stress of working with her. Anyways, since my freshman year (when I had the best theatre teacher IN THE WORLD) I always wanted to be a theatre teacher, to help students overcome their anxieties, whether it be socially or on the stage (my freshman year I was so shy i barely spoke to anyone, in fact, one of my now best friends thought I was a foreign exchange student that couldn't speak english. yeah.), so I decided to stick with it through college, so I could be a good teacher, unlike, honestly, the one i had for my junior and senior year. And Ive loved my script analysis class, but I'm still having a hard time finding my passion for acting again, its as though it was completely taken out of me, and I'm struggling in my tech lab because I have problems with overall depth perception, which I'm thinking is affecting my ability to make proper cuts, and its because of that thats stressing me out. So I'm not sure if i want to do this, and, honestly, I don't really know if I was ever happiest in theatre. I was a percussionist for a year and a half, and, honestly, I have more positive memories of that then I did in all four years of theater. Im just not cut-throat like some of the theatre kids are, I guess. Even the percussion instructor (who was a senior my first year of percussion) said that I looked happier in band than I did in theatre. But I can't go into music ed because of my lack of experience in music theory, sight reading, and pretty much anything else. Also, Im scared I'm going to disappoint my parents, who already think I'm settling for teaching theatre (they claim I said I wanted to be on Broadway my freshman year, which I did say just to make them happy. I never really wanted to. I just wanted to teach.), and who believed that band was a "time sucker" one of the few things that we've actually fought about.. I have a generally good relationship with them, and so its hard to talk to them about it, and I don't want them to be upset. I really am unsure what to do, I'm going to wait out the semester but its kinda stressful. Not to mention that my boyfriends in AIT right now, and I have problems with getting to know people really well, so its kinda hard for me to make solid new starts. I miss him a lot, and its not like I've isolated myself, he's just one of my best friends and kind of evens me out when I get too anxious and keyed up- he's helped me through some really bad times, where I came pretty close to self harming- I'm better now, at least on that part because of him, and, unfortunately he doesn't have his phone through most of this, and I got to see him last week which was great, but you can bet I was crying a lot. Sometimes i just have a hard time connecting with others, so I've made acquaintances with people at my school, but only one I would consider an actual friend (so far) and that is my roommate. I've been invited to a couple of things- a book club and a movie night-, but i guess I end up comparing myself to others around me, and it confounds me when I watch other people and how easily they make friends... I put myself in leadership positions because I know how to lead, but I haven't quite figured out the social aspect of it I guess. Anyways I'm just stressed about choosing my future, and I'm also worried that my rents will think I'm changing my major because of my boyfriend, which isn't the closest thing to the truth, I'm just trying to figure out where I belong, and right now, I'm not feeling it with theatre, which kills me on the inside ^^ I don't know if this is at all lucid, so I'm sorry if it isn't! And Im sorry if this sounds kind of silly, as well, I tend to overthink things to the max
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Post by The Noble Dragon on Sept 15, 2016 3:17:14 GMT -5
I'm glad you like the thread! I feel it can help people get their feelings out in a healthy, judge-free way and we can all help each other!
First of all though. I want you to take a deep breath and let it out. You don't have to rush to figure out your entire future right now. You are young and you have your entire life ahead of you. When I was in 10th grade my math teacher introduced himself to the class with "When I was younger I was a areo-space engineer. Then I was a helicopter pilot for the air force and now i'm a teacher. And I still don't know what I want to be when i grow up!" And he was like in his late 40s-50s and bald with teenage kids. And I think that was the best advice a teacher has given me even if it wasn't directly stated as advice.
A lot of people who are well known and famous didn't figure out what they wanted to do till they were much older in life, it seems ridiculous that we are expected at such a young age to have a 20 year plan or something and know exactly what we wanted to do for a living when we didn't know much about the "real" world or our options. I'm in my fourth year of college and I've changed my major twice. First I was a Criminology Major and wanted to join the police force. Then, after taking a justice studies class and not really feeling it, I changed to Environmental Studies so I could become a forest ranger (Something I've wanted to do since I was in 7th grade) and took a class on that. It was extremely boring and I was not enjoying it. It wasn't till I was watching a Youtuber playing a video game and giving a great message out to over a million people that I realized I wanted to make video games. Which I'm pretty set on that but I was also really set on the other ones so that can change to.
I'm gonna tell you something that is going to be hard. But. Don't care what your parents say. They won't be disappointed in you because it's something you want to do. People change their mind, you said you wanted to be a Theatre teacher when you were young and didn't know how much work it was. Our hobbies and interests change as we get older so our plan for our future is bound to change too. It's YOUR life. Not your parents. If they think it's because of your boyfriend well then tell them it isn't and give them the explanation you gave us. You were happier in percussion than in theatre... it just took some time to realize it. Which is okay. You have time to figure it out and learn, I'm not gonna rush you and the world should stop doing so as well. Your parents should understand, and if they don't ask them if they grew up to be what they always wanted to do when they were younger. The answer is probably no.
I suggest the easiest thing to do is to take a class on music theory of music 101 if there is a class at your school. It'll help you realize if you really wanna go for it and you can meet other kids in the class with similar interests. Making friends is hard, socializing is even harder but sometimes you just gotta ask for help on homework or comment on their clothes or accessories or something and start a conversation. It'll probably get awkward but that's fine, it just takes practice. Hell I'm terrible at socializing and keeping a conversation going so I just tell bad puns and crazy work stories.
I'm sorry it's hard without your boyfriend, I live my girlfriend and being apart for longer than like a day is very stressful, but I'm really glad you got to see him! I hope I was able to help ease your mind a bit. You have time and you don't have to make all the decisions right now, especially since you are only in your first year of college!
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Post by The Noble Dragon on Sept 15, 2016 3:29:47 GMT -5
I just remembered I have a tiny book with friendship quotes. Ironically enough it was given to me by Mikeala xD My favorite is:
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Post by John 3:16 on Sept 15, 2016 3:33:55 GMT -5
helllo
hows everybody at one am this fine day/morning/afternoon/night/whatever xD
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Post by The Noble Dragon on Sept 15, 2016 3:34:55 GMT -5
lol it's 1:30Am and I'm about to go to bed. How are you Thistle?
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Post by John 3:16 on Sept 15, 2016 3:35:50 GMT -5
eh im good
just jamming to some pierce the veil and my chem and doing some writin
hows your day been?
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Post by The Noble Dragon on Sept 15, 2016 3:39:24 GMT -5
Watchya writing about if you don't mind me asking?
and It was okay. I had class and then went to work so it wasn't like amazing but it wasn't bad at all so it was good. My shift supervisor bought us all pizza and we weren't super busy at work so it was kinda relaxing. I might be getting another kitten tomorrow so that's exciting! Also I'm getting my car back from the shop... hopefully it passes the smog test this time xD
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Post by John 3:16 on Sept 15, 2016 3:43:58 GMT -5
a kind of a side thing for one of my fanfics?? it will most likely never see the light of day (or the prying eyes of readers besides myself and maybe a couple nosy people) as it is kinda out of character but ey i wanted to write it
it's just platonic fluff between two of the characters after one of them (who is a killer btw xD) has a bad nightmare and its kinda cute but yeah lol
AGH KITTENS i love kittens but omf thats exciting! and pizza omg ur lucky lol
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Post by The Noble Dragon on Sept 15, 2016 3:48:55 GMT -5
Awww that sounds great! I think writing stuff that you wanna write is great! Even if it's for your own eyes. It's good for the soul or something xD sounds cute! I can't write fluff.... all I can do is write angst and stuff... when I have the motivation to write that is lol.
and yeah he's a savanah kitten and my coworker (who is hooking us up with him) is gonna pick him up tomorrow hopefully. If my other cats don't get along with him tho we might have to find a home for him. which is fine we've done so with 2 other kittens in the past and found them loving homes. One was with the same coworker xD and the other was my best friend since like middle school. I hope Mac and Cas like him tho bc my gf is supppppper excited to have another kitten
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Post by John 3:16 on Sept 15, 2016 3:55:47 GMT -5
I find what really helps (for me at least) is listening to kinda sad songs while writing, take Always by Panic! At The Disco or The World Is Ugly by My Chemical Romance for example. And doing the same for other scenes if you're kinda stuck, like for murder/angry/etc scenes King For A Day by Pierce The Veil and sad maybe What A Catch, Donnie by Fall Out Boy. Tips you probably didn't ask for but oh well I like talking about songs and writing oop
agh that must be fun! when u get him pls send me pics i need to see this kitty
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Post by The Noble Dragon on Sept 15, 2016 4:01:39 GMT -5
Tips are welcome! I don't write or do anything artistic I like doing enough because of motivational issues but listening to music always seems to help that! I'll keep thos in mind when I'm writing or brainstorming next! I like PATD and MCR and I'm pretty sure I've heard a Pierce the Veil song before... I just have really bad memory/recogniztion skills when it comes to songs and artists.
obv I will xD I heard he's 2x as crazy as the last kitten we had which.... my coworker renamed Trouble (We had called her Mischeif and Tiny baby) due to her being a huge troublemaker. So looks like we have our work cut out for us xD
I'm gonna head to bed now! I really missed talking with you Thistle, you should come back to Town of Unknown xD I got rid of the activity rule so you can come and go as you please.
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Post by John 3:16 on Sept 15, 2016 4:06:33 GMT -5
you are very welcome! pierce the veil is a more a hardcore band with a singer who has kinda a higher-pitched, more girly (i kinda feel like that's offensive but that's one of the only ways to describe it) voice so you've ever heard one of their songs you'll know it it could also be sleeping with sirens but
oh no me as a kitty but yeap you'll have a lot on your hands
i need to go to bed as well oops xD and I knew you were going to bring that up lol I'll try! I've been kinda off roleplays as of late, only bothering to keep track of one or two :/ but thank you for reminding me!
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