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Post by Deleted on Aug 28, 2016 21:58:26 GMT -5
yeah, im back at it again with one of my stupid threads. but lately i've been concerned about myself and i don't know what to do about it. i can't tell my family because i know they won't take it seriously. they'll just tell me it's my fault because xyz.
but i really feel like there might be something wrong with me, but i don't know if im overreacting or what. so i want to know if this is a normal thing other people feel, or if i should be concerned and what i can do about it.
okay so, my problem is that i cant connect with people whatsoever. or at least, it's very, very, very hard for me. it's nearly impossible for me to make friends or keep a conversation going. i try so hard, but i can't. i don't know what to say to anyone. because of this, i can't even keep my own threads going or befriend the people on my website. i also have a hard time reading the emotions of those around me, both online and in real life. for some reason i feel like everyone is always mad/upset/annoyed or some other negative emotion when they speak to me. i always have to ask people if they're mad at me, even though they never are.
i don't know what this is, but it's really bringing me down and i want to fix it but i dont even know what's wrong. i dont even know if this is normal. is it? is anyone else like this?
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Post by Deleted on Aug 28, 2016 22:05:30 GMT -5
You think you might have a mental disorder? From what you explained, it looks rough. Do you have a trusted adult (preferably, a trained professional) to talk to? They would know better than strangers on a cat message board. That's my only guess right now, but I don't want to jump to conclusions. That's why I came here, to see if maybe anyone else could relate. No. I don't have anyone I could tell. I don't have any adults in my life that I can trust with this. No friends. And I'm homeschooled so I don't have a counselor or anything like that to talk to. The internet is the only place I can talk about these things.
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Post by Bleak on Aug 28, 2016 22:08:17 GMT -5
You think you might have a mental disorder? From what you explained, it looks rough. Do you have a trusted adult (preferably, a trained professional) to talk to? They would know better than strangers on a cat message board. That's my only guess right now, but I don't want to jump to conclusions. That's why I came here, to see if maybe anyone else could relate. No. I don't have anyone I could tell. I don't have any adults in my life that I can trust with this. No friends. And I'm homeschooled so I don't have a counselor or anything like that to talk to. The internet is the only place I can talk about these things. Umm, I can think of one thing. Are you anti social? And prefer to keep to yourself and not be touched?
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Post by pumpkin pie on Aug 28, 2016 22:08:52 GMT -5
This is actually me though and I hate it so much:/ I can't talk to people or hold a conversation and I get so nervous sometimes I start crying and when I go to speak to people, I often can't actually get anything out and idk why but I also feel like everyone thinks I'm a nuisance or get annoyed with me and I always feel super guilty and I feel like I'm always annoying people and they are mad at me as well It's annoying because i want to be able to talk to people but I cant? And I just start shaking too like when I'm around people and I have to talk to people or in crowds? I get so shaky
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Post by Deleted on Aug 28, 2016 22:14:10 GMT -5
That's my only guess right now, but I don't want to jump to conclusions. That's why I came here, to see if maybe anyone else could relate. No. I don't have anyone I could tell. I don't have any adults in my life that I can trust with this. No friends. And I'm homeschooled so I don't have a counselor or anything like that to talk to. The internet is the only place I can talk about these things. Umm, I can think of one thing. Are you anti social? And prefer to keep to yourself and not be touched? I prefer to keep to myself, but only because I don't really have any good friends to hang out with anymore. Back when I had good friends that I liked, I didn't mind hanging out. I don't really like going out in public though, because strangers make fun of me when I do. It hurts my feelings. I don't mind being touched.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 28, 2016 22:17:27 GMT -5
This is actually me though and I hate it so much:/ I can't talk to people or hold a conversation and I get so nervous sometimes I start crying and when I go to speak to people, I often can't actually get anything out and idk why but I also feel like everyone thinks I'm a nuisance or get annoyed with me and I always feel super guilty and I feel like I'm always annoying people and they are mad at me as well It's annoying because i want to be able to talk to people but I cant? And I just start shaking too like when I'm around people and I have to talk to people or in crowds? I get so shaky Yeah it is really annoying. I really want to engage with others and make friends, especially on here, but it's so hard for me.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 28, 2016 22:22:22 GMT -5
everyone thinks something is wrong with them at some point. it's only natural. that being said though that every time you see an issue about YOURSELF.. really you know yourself best. it should always be up to you to get checked out. if your parents aren't supporting that, you should try to approach them maturely and talk about it. reciting what you have to say beforehand, writing down answers to questions you think they'll have, etc. and then sitting them down seriously is a good way to go about that.
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Post by ~ωιηтєя'ѕ ℓιℓу✬ on Aug 28, 2016 22:24:42 GMT -5
What Patience said. Try to seek help. If you can't talk to your parents, maybe find like a hotline or something? I don't know if they have something like that but try to find something or someone that will help.
And if it's worth anything I consider you my friend.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 28, 2016 22:30:42 GMT -5
I know my grandma won't listen if I try to tell her. No matter what, every time I have a problem she finds a way to blame me for it. I know if I told her how I feel right now, she will just tell me it's my fault because I make no effort or something along those lines. No matter how I say it, she will blame me for this like she does with everything. And she's the only one I can tell. My other family members would just side with her if I told them.
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Post by Basement Cat on Aug 28, 2016 22:32:16 GMT -5
Alright, let's analyze.
Do you ever dissociate from reality?
Do you have periods of manic and depressive episode?
Do you have frequent anxiety attacks? - once a week or so
Do you often feel bad in a group of friends, despite the fact you really shouldn't?
Do you fidget a lot?
Do you have repetitive sets of behavior?
Do you HAVE to have things in order?
Do you have sleeping issues and a history of temper tantrums?
Do you take medication of any sorts? If you do, what side effects do they cause?
Does your family have a history of mental and/or personality disorders?
Do you have a general idea of what you think you have?
All those questions are good starting points to think of.
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Post by Basement Cat on Aug 28, 2016 22:35:19 GMT -5
Does your family hold to traditionalist values? Or, are they fundamentalist? I hate to stereotype, but those type of people tend to blame disorders as things that can be controlled. If that is the case, then this may become a tad bit more difficult.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 28, 2016 22:43:17 GMT -5
Do you ever dissociate from reality? I'm not really sure. I do daydream a lot to get away from things, but I don't know if that would count or not. Like I have several worlds and characters in my head that I go to and imagine scenarios with. I do this daily. I'm not sure if that counts.
Do you have periods of manic and depressive episode? Yes. For the past couple of years.
Do you have frequent anxiety attacks? - once a week or so No.
Do you often feel bad in a group of friends, despite the fact you really shouldn't? I don't really have friends anymore, but when I did yes.
Do you fidget a lot? Yes
Do you have repetitive sets of behavior? Yes.
Do you HAVE to have things in order? Yes
Do you have sleeping issues and a history of temper tantrums? Yes I have a lot of sleep issues. I either can't fall asleep or I can't stay asleep and I wake up several times throughout the night. Like at least five or more times. I don't have anger problems though.
Do you take medication of any sorts? If you do, what side effects do they cause? Yes I take medication and the side effects include nausea, headaches, weight gain, mood changes.
Does your family have a history of mental and/or personality disorders? I don't know.
Do you have a general idea of what you think you have? No. I just feel like something might be off but I have no idea what or if there even is something the matter with me
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Post by Deleted on Aug 28, 2016 22:47:20 GMT -5
Does your family hold to traditionalist values? Or, are they fundamentalist? I hate to stereotype, but those type of people tend to blame disorders as things that can be controlled. If that is the case, then this may become a tad bit more difficult. My grandma doesn't believe in mental illness, but I don't know about the rest of my family. One day I told my grandma that I thought I might be depressed and she told me I have no reason to be depressed and to just get over it and be happy. And that lead into a bigger discussion, and she told me she thinks all mental illnesses are fake and that people chose to have them. Even things like post partum she thinks is fake.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 28, 2016 22:49:06 GMT -5
I'm going to go to bed because I'm really tired. Thanks for the help everyone. I will be back tomorrow
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Post by Basement Cat on Aug 28, 2016 22:53:57 GMT -5
Dissociating is what I can best described as your brain shutting down. For example, last Thursday I started drifting from reality after a mini panic attack, and I had to remind myself to move, to keep walking, and to respond. Things were realy slow, like I just couldn't react or think. That's the best I can describe it as. Well, I'm not a psychiatrist, so I can't give a diagnosis, but from what you are describing, it sounds like bipolar disorder. Using the explanations from www.psycom.net/depression.central.bipolar.html ... These are common symptoms. Like I said, I can't diagnose you. Here is just an example of what it sounds like based on your answers. You could always ask your family for money to spend on shopping, and go see a psychiatrist instead. It's lying, but, it's for a good cause if you think whatever it is is greatly interfering with your life and happiness.
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