Post by Draco on Aug 15, 2016 13:38:08 GMT -5
I think, in a dream, I saw a place. I wasn’t been able to see much of it, just flashes, on and off. Yet I could never forget it. It was like my dream wasn’t a dream, it was like my dream was a reality, strange and twisted, yet real in its own strange way.
It was blue, a pure azure, calm yet flowing. I can vaguely remember the warm silken clouds, and feeling of being wrapped in pure warmness. I felt alone, yet at the same time I wasn’t lonely. It was as if I was in a calm nick in reality, and it was if I was safe.
The dream, I have had it multiple times in the past, I think. It was so warm, I had loved it, and truly I still love it. I wish, with all of my heart, that I can be swaddled in that pure place once more. It is what I love, the feeling of being at peace.
I have not had this dream, visited this place, in such a long time. I wait, wait at night, for familiar blue warmness to coddle me in its embrace. Yet I have not felt it in such a long time. I haven’t felt safe in so long. It just has felt, dull, everything has dulled. Yet I cannot forget the place that has brought me such comfort.
I fear a calamity has happened. I miss the comfort, the place, the deep warmth. I have felt dull for so long, so long. I do not understand why everything has dulled. I just wish for feeling to come back to me, to warm me in its grasp.
And now, as I lay awake tonight. I cannot sleep, I cannot feel warmth. I cry, and warmth trickles down my face, like small rivers of gold. I begin to feel a strange, pale warmth wrap itself around my body. I feel my tears come faster, and I sob. The emptiness seems to fade away. I feel warmth, calm, and peace lick at my emptiness like flames burning wood.
I smile, faintly, but I smile. The emptiness, the sorrow, all strange things I’ve held in for however long pour from my face. I feel alive, yet I feel brought to the brink of exhaustion. As I drift into sleep, the world changes.
I see blue, a pure azure, calm and flowing. I am alive. I am truly alive. I shall never regret it.
I am in that dream once more.
