Post by sweetclover1 on Aug 26, 2017 12:46:32 GMT -5
So I've been on and off fighting with my mom and my stepdad the entire weekend plus Thursday. Like, Thursday my mom texted me this huge thing on how she's upset I chose not to do Student Council this year, and how i'm isolating myself because I'm not in it and because I'm living off campus this year. (I should probably note that the reason why I dropped it is I'm actually fairly introverted and being placed with a bunch of outgoing, charismatic extroverts was really bad for my mental health. I was in the clubs branch which had six other members, which was perfect for me but when I was at council meetings and planning meetings it was stressful because I knew no one there. Our final meeting was a dinner party and by the end of it I was having a panic attack because I didn't know anyone and it was really bad, and that combined with the migraine I had from just being in a room with that many people was not a good combination. So I dropped it with the excuse of me taking eighteen credits and not being able to handle that, work, and student council. So my moms been on me about that. Also, no one but freshman and first year students live on campus and I moved in with my roommates from last year so not really isolating myself?). She told me this wasn't who I was, and that wasn't how she raised me. Also I forgot to text my stepdads bosses daughter to meet up because she's a freshman and, like, I really wanted to but I totally forgot about texting her. So she got mad at me for that and said it looked bad on him infront of his boss.
Plus they're mad because I didn't get all of my books yet even though I've literally been told by multiple people not to get them before the first day of class because professors won't always be using the books and I'm not gonna be spending, like, a hundred dollars for this one book if I don't need to. They said I was just making excuses for slacking off. Also, my mom took a pretty bad fall on Thursday and my stepdad blamed it on me because she walked to the bank (which is a less than five minutes walk from their house) to put in some money. He said if I had checks it would fix the problem. Which? It won't? Because they're paying me? They refuse to get Venmo and mom doesn't have a car and she never sent my stepdad the banking info so she does it.
(She was putting my money for my rent into my account, she was supposed to do it a week ago but insisted on me trying to see if I could do a payment plan instead for housing so she had to go to both banks twice, which I tried to tell her not to do but okay.)
They want to come up and help me handle my business and I'm just like no, I'm a sophomore in college please just back off. Like, I love visiting and you guys visiting me, but visit me to spend time with me, not to make sure things get done your way.
Okay. Thats all for my rant.
Plus they're mad because I didn't get all of my books yet even though I've literally been told by multiple people not to get them before the first day of class because professors won't always be using the books and I'm not gonna be spending, like, a hundred dollars for this one book if I don't need to. They said I was just making excuses for slacking off. Also, my mom took a pretty bad fall on Thursday and my stepdad blamed it on me because she walked to the bank (which is a less than five minutes walk from their house) to put in some money. He said if I had checks it would fix the problem. Which? It won't? Because they're paying me? They refuse to get Venmo and mom doesn't have a car and she never sent my stepdad the banking info so she does it.
(She was putting my money for my rent into my account, she was supposed to do it a week ago but insisted on me trying to see if I could do a payment plan instead for housing so she had to go to both banks twice, which I tried to tell her not to do but okay.)
They want to come up and help me handle my business and I'm just like no, I'm a sophomore in college please just back off. Like, I love visiting and you guys visiting me, but visit me to spend time with me, not to make sure things get done your way.
Also I've been studying up on Borderline Personality Disorder and I've been thinking my mom might have it but I'm not a psychologist and she won't go but idk. She definitely has more than five signs and if she did have it it would explain a lot. But I don't know how to bring it up to her, or how to convince her to go because the way she acts definitely affects all of us in a negative way. Like, I would just like her to get some help because its gotten out of control.
Okay. Thats all for my rant.