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Post by ѕρσσкуѕку on Apr 30, 2019 18:42:20 GMT -5
{ I’m doing okay lol }
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Post by 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 on Apr 30, 2019 21:27:11 GMT -5
I just lost a friend I made from work. She didnt die or anything. I'm just dropping my friendship with her I think.
Other than that I've been pretty darn good. I hung out with my highschool friends and I realize how much I love and miss them. 7 years since I met them Haha.]
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Ðᴏʟᴄᴇ
there will always be those who dare to brave the lightning's glow.
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Post by Ðᴏʟᴄᴇ on Apr 30, 2019 23:10:02 GMT -5
[ Hey guys! Just a quick update from me - I have finals going on this week and spanning the next 2 weeks but after that, I'll be more free to rp if anyone wants to. :>
Also congrats *Spottedpelt* on being done with school!! ]
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She needed a hero, so that's what she became.
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Post by <-•Ryse•-> on Apr 30, 2019 23:24:34 GMT -5
(Hey everyone! I'm doing well  *Spottedpelt* I'd take you up on that offer to rp! 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 good on you for separating yourself from individuals who do not have an overall positive impact, at least that's what it sounds like was going on. Gosh I hope I stay friends with my high school buddies, I love them all so muuuch Ðᴏʟᴄᴇ Wonderful! I'll be happy to see you back here more often :3) |
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Post by 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 on May 1, 2019 10:10:41 GMT -5
Eh kind of long posting. I always felt nervous all the time if I'd tick her off on accident by saying or doing something. I said she "sucked" as a joke two nights ago and she flipped out. I ended up apologizing because I felt awful with her reaction. But soon after wondered to myself why the heck did I feel so bad for something that wasnt even hurtful... And from there i decided to keep to myself. I was going to slowly isolate myself from her. I guess she noticed because she tried to act all high and mighty when she texted me later because I was awkward around her after. I explained she overreacted to something that wasnt even said with negative intent. It was just a teasing insult. Apparently I had too many of these times with her that she mentioned which was her just being oversensitive... and yeahaaaga I'm not gonna feel awful and like... horrible as if I berated her or something when I didnt. I cant talk to someone who gets extremely hurt and angry over being told they "suck" JOKINGLY. Now shes vague posting about me because I know she wants me to see it. This is the way I used to act to others when I wanted to get my way, which is abusive and childish, so I'm not gonna hang around that and messaged her saying so. I dont hold hate or jealousy like she assumes I do. And it's honestly just. So blown out of proportion it's amazing in a bad way.
It's just? Not great. We only really became friends through drinking together which should say enough lmao once I said I wasnt gonna drink as much anymore she tried to defend that I should still do it. Just so she has someone to drink with I guess. But drinking every week is not me. ] |
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Post by ♡ Bun ♡ on May 1, 2019 13:12:38 GMT -5
☪ Ooc >> Hey spotted want to rp lavender and sharp or one of the kits and sharp?
☪ RP >>
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Post by 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 on May 1, 2019 16:53:06 GMT -5
Little update. She responded saying that her vague posting isnt "about me" and that I "need to stop thinking everything's about me". Apparently I posted things that are in line with what shes doing and that makes me a "hypocrite".
Since when is saying that my middle/high school friends are "real ones" in line with posts that say I'm "hiding my hate and jealousy with jokes" or that I "dont communicate and I just assume" 😑 I knew my hs friends for 7 years! One of them recently got out of a abusive relationship that prevented her from reaching out to me and another old friend! Of course meeting her after like 4 years of absence is going to bring back my old feelings from being happy with these two in highschool. Like. What the actual heck. When I wrote that they were "real ones" I didnt even have this coworker on my brain- like how important does one have to think they are?
Well after that response I texted my brother in law about it and he told me that she likes drama. It kind of woke me up and I realized that... while she likes drama.. I dont. Arguing isnt what I wanted considering I never wanted to make her upset in the first place. So then I told her that shes not getting the argument that she wanted and that nothing I say will change her mind so I'm going to stop. It's useless for me to bother anymore. But I will not budge on saying she overreacted to something not even deep meaning or hateful. I continued with saying that I never meant to upset her but I'm done. Nobody will ever change my mind that telling someone they "suck" is hateful especially in this context. She always told me everyone in her reserve hates her and they're all against her and that she has no friends but I honestly see why. Being aggressive like this one drives people away. And I made sure to tell her that too.
I'm not a bad person for something as minute as this. It's incredibly telling that I felt so bad for it and apologized as soon as it happened. I just realized my self worth in deciding I wouldn't talk to her as much anymore. You cant be friends with someone who thinks with every word you say that you're trying to be mean and hateful. Or even jealous. And it's just so obvious that she has self image issues. I wish I could help her. But I'm not sticking around to constantly walk on eggshells with her. Not with someone who thinks they can do no wrong. Her boyfriend told me that he knows shes overreacting. But even knowing will change nothing.
Legit guys this isnt what i wanted and it's just baffling how this is going as far as it did. Sorry for the tangent. I have feelings.
Side note. I think it's funny that she tried to seem nonchalant in her response saying that I'm hypocritical and in short that the world doesn't revolve about me. She probably thinks that shes making me upset but honestly it's just sad to watch a grown 22 year old woman act like this. If I were a couple years younger then I would have gotten upset. But I'm glad I've grown enough where it doesn't affect me at all. ]
Edit. apparently I'm the one dragging this out when she went around vague posting and acting nonchalant when called out. Supposedly she already got over me saying she overreacted. Kinda doubt that with all things considered. But outside of that. I am apparently barred from talking to her boyfriend and shes mad I did talk about how I felt to him since HE asked. I didnt approach him on the subject. He asked me about it. Also because I "keep saying this issue is so small" that it should be small enough I "should forget about it and get over it"
I'm at a loss for words. But I'm glad I am. I was at first just gonna tell her that her bf wanted me to talk about "my" side but forget it. I will stick to my word and leave it alone. Huffington buffington I'm glad it's pretty much over. Theres nothing to argue with here. It's all nonsense. I just keep reporting to yall because writing it out on here helps me feel a lot better. Sorry about that ahaha...] |
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Post by ღ ιcєƒιяє ღ on May 1, 2019 21:19:26 GMT -5
{ I’m still alive everyone it’s been hectic for me lately I have this weekend off so hope to be able to reply! }
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Post by 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 on May 1, 2019 23:34:49 GMT -5
Things are pretty hectic for me too ugh 😑 but hopefully it'll all calm down soon. Lol ]
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Post by ѕρσσкуѕку on May 3, 2019 5:48:06 GMT -5
{ Okay so my life hasn’t been hectic and I have no excuse for my absence other than a bizarrely intense and pretty much all-consuming obsession with a ship that I legit cannot stop reading fics about??? Two nights ago I was up until 6am reading about them and now it’s almost 4 and I honestly can’t say I regret anything?? send help }
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Post by ѕρσσкуѕку on May 5, 2019 0:40:12 GMT -5
{ I’m so happy!! My mom just got a new job much closer to me and she’ll be able to come home at night!!!! I mean I’m 20 now but living alone all the time with severe anxiety and moderate depression is taking a huge toll. So hopefully I’ll be more relaxed and find it easier to come on all the time and rp. } |
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Post by ѕρσσкуѕку on May 6, 2019 2:15:11 GMT -5
{ I’m still here guys. <3 }
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Post by 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 on May 6, 2019 3:10:58 GMT -5
I am too. ]
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Post by ѕρσσкуѕку on May 6, 2019 3:52:53 GMT -5
{ I’m going to bed now but I’m really gonna try to respond to rps tomorrow. I’m so incredibly obsessed with this one ship and I’m going to write about it so I’m also obsessing on the fic but I’ll try to redirect my attention for a while lol. Love you all! Goodnight. ^.^ }
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She needed a hero, so that's what she became.
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Post by <-•Ryse•-> on May 6, 2019 13:57:05 GMT -5
(I am also here!! My play was a great success but it is finally over which means I will be here more! We seem to be having a lapse in activity atm but I know everyone gets busy :3 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 would you like to rp by any chance? Also, that friend situation sounds rather stressful and complex and I really hope it's not something that plagues you for much longer  ) |
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Post by ѕρσσкуѕку on May 6, 2019 15:21:47 GMT -5
{ Congrats on the success of your play, Ryse! and tbh at first i missed the ‘not’ in your last sentence lmao }
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Post by 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 on May 6, 2019 18:22:20 GMT -5
<-•Ryse•-> congrats! also yeah it's really. interesting I guess. It's resolved now. I deleted her off my two social media that I had her on and she noticed it reallly quick and got mad.. questioned if i was "serious" because i deleted her over the "little" thing/fight/whatever lol the way she acted through this whole thing was the most convincing thing to just.. cut her off. I can't deal with people who try and say they support transparency between friends but can't listen to it once said friend says something they don't like. or people who think they're blameless. or people who exhibit abusive tendencies. the list can go on and on. in any case. I would like to rp. :> Any ideas? noble. hello!!!!! it's so good to see you!!! ]
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Post by 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 on May 7, 2019 23:43:01 GMT -5
Oh I thought I should say..
I sent my phone in for repairs today. I will only be on my laptop for the next week and a half? so if anyone wants to rp i'm probably around.. xD ]
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Post by ѕρσσкуѕку on May 8, 2019 15:42:07 GMT -5
{ Hey guys! So I’ve gotta be honest, there’s this story I’m writing and in order to do it justice I need to research some pretty dark stuff and it’s like taking a bit of a toll on me rn. It’s not fun but it’s necessary so I apologize if it keeps me from wanting to be on here this week. I’m almost done too, so it shouldn’t be a big problem but I wanted to give you guys a heads up jic. }
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Post by ♡ Bun ♡ on May 9, 2019 0:27:37 GMT -5
☪ Ooc >> first time both my cats outside wuthout me at dark and until they want to come in ;-; im nervous but they're smart.
☪ RP >>
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Post by ѕρσσкуѕку on May 9, 2019 4:23:15 GMT -5
{ ♡ Bun ♡ Oof you’re brave. I don’t know if I could let mine out of my sight outside. However I do live by a freeway so that’s probably a big part of it. Hope all is well when they come in.  } |
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Post by 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 on May 10, 2019 21:41:36 GMT -5
beep ]
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She needed a hero, so that's what she became.
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Post by <-•Ryse•-> on May 12, 2019 14:30:46 GMT -5
(Oh my LORD I’m so sorry- I’m gonna set a daily reminder to check in here, IM COMMITTING because I love you all and we must keep communicating <3 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 I will reply to our chat after my shift at work! ) |
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Post by 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 on May 12, 2019 21:01:10 GMT -5
heeey happy mother's day !!
also in other news i think i wanna like.. reboot all my characters my dudes. ]
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Post by ♡ Bun ♡ on May 13, 2019 1:26:07 GMT -5
☪ Ooc >> hey guys, Happy mother's day!!!
🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 I am here, hope everything is well. Also what do you have in mind?
ѕρσσкуѕку They are fine and safe, they both pretty much stay around the house. they also stay together sometimes ^^ ☪ RP >>
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Post by 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 on May 13, 2019 2:58:46 GMT -5
♡ Bun ♡, hello! how have you been recently? also meh i've been a bit depressed lately again. But i've been taking time at home to try and feel better so haha. Also idk when i think about my characters there's only really Azurefall, Echomist and Silas that I know I can rp in the way I want. My other characters just feel.... foreign. ]
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Post by ѕρσσкуѕку on May 13, 2019 3:11:57 GMT -5
{ <-•Ryse•-> Hello!! Yeah, a daily reminder is what helps me a lot. ♡ Bun ♡ Well that’s good to hear. 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 I’ve felt that way a couple times in the past. It’s weird having to get to know your own characters again. Let me know if there’s any plots you want to drop if you’re doing a blank slate with some/all of your other characters. ^.^ Hey guys! Sorry I meant to check in yesterday but honestly it’s been a pretty bad two days. My mom is...a lot sometimes. And it being Mother’s Day was Sooo Muchhh Funnn when I was pissed at her. But oh well lmao hopefully I can move on and feel better about it all tomorrow. Hope you’re all well! Love you. <3 } |
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Post by 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 on May 13, 2019 9:28:23 GMT -5
ѕρσσкуѕку it's tough honestly because i've had these characters for almost 3 years and it's kinda sad that I can't remember what my intentions were when i'd rp them from back then. Like Silverstar feels so whacked out right now and it's part of the reasons why i've been kinda having a tough time rping her with Ice. Among all my other characters who just feel also.. very.. meh. I'm not exactly sure where to go or what to do about this though. My mind is telling me scrap but that is not so easy. ]
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