so my aunt and cousins and grandma all came over
or to be precise we invited my grandma so she could help me w getting back up to college since my mom is recovering from a surgery still
and she invited up my aunt and cousins
none of whom i like.
they're really loud and my cousins are really rude and my aunt lets them be so picky about food it's literally impossible to eat out anywhere as a group. it's impossible to organize doing anything. also i'm ending my summer and it'd kinda like it to end on a relaxing note but i guess not apparently
only good things that came out of their visit tbh are that we went to the mall. we never go. i got a book i've had my eye on and a carolina hurricanes hat
and i'm also really stressed out
i have an appointment tomorrow to go over MRI results.
so last week i had to get an MRI of my brain done because it turns out my jaw problems are not a problem with my jaw. it's most likely a nerve problem. the MRI was needed to see if there's a tumor pressing on my trigeminal nerve (it's p much your main sensation/feeling nerve in your face; it's not a motor nerve tho i do have muscle tightness and muscle spasms).
but that's not all!!!
a white swollen part of my tongue did not go away in 3 weeks time. it, in fact, remained exactly the same. the swollen area does not hurt, but it also did not hurt when poked w one of those scraper things dentist use. u know the sharp things? yeah. that.
so i'm also getting a tongue lesion-possibly-tumor looked at.
and no one's really considered that i may in fact be Really stressed out and everyone's getting mad at me for being snappy and tired when
- people i do not want in my house are in my house and it's making everything loud and busy and more complicated than it needs to be
- i'm in A Lot of pain 24/7 and that makes me tired and snappy !! believe it or not hurting all the time is tiring !! i'm tired
- idk why i'm in pain and i'm worried it may be something bad (could be a tumor, could be a lesion, could be a blood vessel touching my nerve. But it could also be multiple sclerosis ! we don't know!)
- i also maybe have a tumor on my tongue
- i'm starting my second yr of college in 1 week so. i'm pre-stressed for school