Hollyleaf in Sunrise - An Analysis of Her Behavior. (tw)
Aug 6, 2017 19:39:21 GMT -5
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Post by Basement Cat on Aug 6, 2017 19:39:21 GMT -5
I don't normally do this, but, I think the discussion warrants it.
Trigger Warning: Discussion of self-termination. If you are made anxious by this topic, do not read any further.
Here's a cat in pastel colors I drew.
There's no easy way to explain this. I am...sick. mentally sick. For some reason I want to terminate myself, and so must keep myself busy and occupied to keep from doing so. The silly illogical thought...it's just not going away. Nothing is getting better.
So I'm going to keep distracting myself until I can properly get help. Right now is not possible. But I'm very self aware, of the signs that is, and so can gauge my behavior. It really sucks. ^^
Which is what lead me to create this. I think, now, I can relate more to Hollyleaf more than ever. This is why I'm going to explain five different self-terminating signs Hollyleaf showed in Sunrise. Because, it goes to show how running off in the tunnels was symbolic of self-termination.
1. Increased aggression.
In Sunrise, Hollyleaf goes off at Hazeltail for an illogical reason, and her anger and aggression only increase as the book progresses. It reaches its tipping point when she tries to make Leafpool eat deathberries, but the aggression is more noticeable in the relish she feels at revealing the truth and the gathering.
Another example of the increased aggression is when she demolishes the piece of prey (forgot what it was) as she imagines its Leafpool.
2. Withdrawal and recklessness.
Hollyleaf stops communicating effectively with her Clanmates, even refusing just before she leaves to tell her brothers what's wrong, simply stating they will never understand. While she calculated the gathering scene, it was a reckless decision to run off into the tunnels, and she decides on a whim to go to Crowfeather and find out if he was the father or not.
3. Anxiety.
Hollyleaf has this all throughout Sunrise, both from killing Ashfur, and it only get worse after she finds out she's the product of a forbidden relationship. Self-termination often happens when the stress excess the ability to cope with the stress. Hollyleaf has already exhibited she is easily stressed, and this only made it worse.
4. Humiliation.
Hollyleaf's story in Sunrise is one of pride before a fall, and having everything she ever knew be a lie, and the way the gathering happened, and Cinderheart's horror at what she did, utterly humiliated her. She was too afraid to face her own mistakes, and too humiliated to face what she did. It took time for her to accept things.
5. Talking about having nothing left, feeling trapped, or experiencing pain.
Hollyleaf tells Lionblaze and Jayfeather that she can't stay in ThunderClan anymore. She says did the right thing, but doesn't communicate to Lionblaze or Jayfeather what that is. She cuts them off, and decides it is too much to deal with. She would rather ran away from her problems because they are too much to handle. While this means she just mean to run away from ThunderClan, symbolically, it's cutting herself from the story. It's cutting herself out of her Clan's life. In short, it is symbolic self-termination.
Which, is what makes her comeback even more powerful, I think. She went through the darkest moment in her life, and survived. She decided to move forward. She decided to make things right and face the past. And she decided she would make a brighter future. As someone going through the same thing, it's a character to look up to. Because it's really, really hard. Really hard to face what you fear. Hard to move on. And, it's not something that really ever goes away. It may take a while to get things back to normal. It's much easier to just give up.
But then, you would ever see tomorrow. And maybe, just maybe, tomorrow is a brighter day than today's storm.
Who is cutting onions? I'm an emotionless robot and I am allergic to sentimentality.
Trigger Warning: Discussion of self-termination. If you are made anxious by this topic, do not read any further.
Here's a cat in pastel colors I drew.
There's no easy way to explain this. I am...sick. mentally sick. For some reason I want to terminate myself, and so must keep myself busy and occupied to keep from doing so. The silly illogical thought...it's just not going away. Nothing is getting better.
So I'm going to keep distracting myself until I can properly get help. Right now is not possible. But I'm very self aware, of the signs that is, and so can gauge my behavior. It really sucks. ^^
Which is what lead me to create this. I think, now, I can relate more to Hollyleaf more than ever. This is why I'm going to explain five different self-terminating signs Hollyleaf showed in Sunrise. Because, it goes to show how running off in the tunnels was symbolic of self-termination.
1. Increased aggression.
In Sunrise, Hollyleaf goes off at Hazeltail for an illogical reason, and her anger and aggression only increase as the book progresses. It reaches its tipping point when she tries to make Leafpool eat deathberries, but the aggression is more noticeable in the relish she feels at revealing the truth and the gathering.
Another example of the increased aggression is when she demolishes the piece of prey (forgot what it was) as she imagines its Leafpool.
2. Withdrawal and recklessness.
Hollyleaf stops communicating effectively with her Clanmates, even refusing just before she leaves to tell her brothers what's wrong, simply stating they will never understand. While she calculated the gathering scene, it was a reckless decision to run off into the tunnels, and she decides on a whim to go to Crowfeather and find out if he was the father or not.
3. Anxiety.
Hollyleaf has this all throughout Sunrise, both from killing Ashfur, and it only get worse after she finds out she's the product of a forbidden relationship. Self-termination often happens when the stress excess the ability to cope with the stress. Hollyleaf has already exhibited she is easily stressed, and this only made it worse.
4. Humiliation.
Hollyleaf's story in Sunrise is one of pride before a fall, and having everything she ever knew be a lie, and the way the gathering happened, and Cinderheart's horror at what she did, utterly humiliated her. She was too afraid to face her own mistakes, and too humiliated to face what she did. It took time for her to accept things.
5. Talking about having nothing left, feeling trapped, or experiencing pain.
Hollyleaf tells Lionblaze and Jayfeather that she can't stay in ThunderClan anymore. She says did the right thing, but doesn't communicate to Lionblaze or Jayfeather what that is. She cuts them off, and decides it is too much to deal with. She would rather ran away from her problems because they are too much to handle. While this means she just mean to run away from ThunderClan, symbolically, it's cutting herself from the story. It's cutting herself out of her Clan's life. In short, it is symbolic self-termination.
Which, is what makes her comeback even more powerful, I think. She went through the darkest moment in her life, and survived. She decided to move forward. She decided to make things right and face the past. And she decided she would make a brighter future. As someone going through the same thing, it's a character to look up to. Because it's really, really hard. Really hard to face what you fear. Hard to move on. And, it's not something that really ever goes away. It may take a while to get things back to normal. It's much easier to just give up.
But then, you would ever see tomorrow. And maybe, just maybe, tomorrow is a brighter day than today's storm.
Who is cutting onions? I'm an emotionless robot and I am allergic to sentimentality.