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Post by sand dollar on Aug 1, 2017 21:08:41 GMT -5
it's only Tuesday but i'm so tired. i'm a CIT (counselor in training) which basically means i'm an assistant counselor that doesn't get paid even tho i act like / get all the same perks and duties of a counselor haha
originally i was in a cabin w 2 high schoolers but it merged with another group and i was moved to a cabin of 5 middle schoolers.
i applied for this myself but it's really stressful. like i am really quiet and shy and it's hard for me to be authoritative in situations where i need to reinforce rules to campers because i dislike confrontation and have a gentle voice. like everyone else is super friendly and talkative and then there's me. after morning rehearsal today one of my campers was like "so i want to ask you a question, and it might be kinda uncomfortable" and i was like. ok shoot. like expecting her to ask something along the lines of "are u gay". but she was like "well uh out of our entire cabin you're really quiet and.." and then i had to explain that it wasn't personal and i'm just not super talkative but it was so discouraging to me. she was really nice, i mean usually ppl flat out ask about my quietness or point it out in a rude manner but at least she realized it was kinda ?? not the best question to ask
so like. tonight is a staff campire and i honestly feel awful like im expected to do something to entertain but im so anxious and nervous that if i was forced to do something i would mess it up and it wouldnt even be amusing
im just rly stressed aha but one of the Good things im 100% loving is getting to play a boomwhacker in percussion ensemble. i decided to join it bc i never got to as a mere camper and it's so fun.
also at band camp we have a lip sync night that people get super into like cabins practice during free time and stuff like it's the music camp Thing™. well usually I've had to do one as part of a cabin but since i'm considered staff i get to blend in w the other staff in the huge staff lip sync and it's honestly such a Blessing
idk sorry just an update i guess like i really miss home and the wcf reminds me of it so. i hope ur doing well
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