Moth's Wings|| A Warrior Cats Medicine Cat Oneshot.
Jul 25, 2017 4:01:24 GMT -5
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Post by EthanTheAnnus on Jul 25, 2017 4:01:24 GMT -5
I could feel his cold, lifeless fur beneath my paws.
I felt useless; uneeded. What good was a medicine cat who couldn't stop infection? My claws slid out in anger. I would avenge him. My eyes slid skyward. I blinked once as I surveyed the tree branches.
"I know you're there, Jayfeather," I called.
"Dang it!" Jayfeather stood up on his tree branch and attempted to leap down. It was really more of a graceful fall.
"How did you get up there?" I asked, incrediously. "You're blind!" Jayfeather winced as I said this. I chose to believe he had landed on some thorns.
"Lionblaze," he replied simply.
"Ah." I nodded, acting as if I understood. Then I blinked. "You shouldn't be here. There's the war."
"I know." Jayfeather stepped close, so close I could feel his breath. "I guess that's how he died." I bristled slightly.
"'He' has a name!" I spat, a little too harshly. "Mallownose."
"You believe this is your fault." His tail flicked slightly as he frowned. "Mothwing, this is not your fault. You didn't cause this. You did nothing."
"Exactly!" I wailed. "I did nothing! He was dying and I did nothing!"
"You did what you could, Mothwing," Jayfeather said quickly, worry lighting his voice. "Nothing less."
"That's where you're wrong," I replied, yowling it out. "He was dying and I DID NOTHING." I took a breath. "I did nothing but let him die."
"You did what you-"
"Don't!" I whipped around, snarling. "It was all my fault. I abandoned him. He was dying of infection and what did I do? I dragged him into the woods to leave him there, alone." Jayfeather's horrified gaze met mine and I let out a maddened laugh.
"Yes, Jayfeather," I said. "I dragged him here. I left him alone. I thought-" I choked on my words. "I thought it would fix everything. I thought it would cure me. It would-would stop us..." I broke off, flexing my claws as I let out a wail of pure agony. Grief tore at my heart. "I didn't want to betray my Clan for him. I didn't want his kits! You can understand that, can't you?" My eyes bored into Jayfeather's, but he made no comment. I let out another wail. "I didn't want to betray anyone. Instead, I have betrayed everyone."
"That's not true-" began Jayfeather.
"I have!" I yowled. "By killing him, I betrayed him, my Clan and my unborn kits." I shook my head, stepping back. "I-I can't stay here, Jayfeather. I won't be accepted. My kits won't be loved." Letting lose a final, grief-stricken cry, I fled, leaving behind Jayfeather, Mallownose's body and all of my problems.
I felt useless; uneeded. What good was a medicine cat who couldn't stop infection? My claws slid out in anger. I would avenge him. My eyes slid skyward. I blinked once as I surveyed the tree branches.
"I know you're there, Jayfeather," I called.
"Dang it!" Jayfeather stood up on his tree branch and attempted to leap down. It was really more of a graceful fall.
"How did you get up there?" I asked, incrediously. "You're blind!" Jayfeather winced as I said this. I chose to believe he had landed on some thorns.
"Lionblaze," he replied simply.
"Ah." I nodded, acting as if I understood. Then I blinked. "You shouldn't be here. There's the war."
"I know." Jayfeather stepped close, so close I could feel his breath. "I guess that's how he died." I bristled slightly.
"'He' has a name!" I spat, a little too harshly. "Mallownose."
"You believe this is your fault." His tail flicked slightly as he frowned. "Mothwing, this is not your fault. You didn't cause this. You did nothing."
"Exactly!" I wailed. "I did nothing! He was dying and I did nothing!"
"You did what you could, Mothwing," Jayfeather said quickly, worry lighting his voice. "Nothing less."
"That's where you're wrong," I replied, yowling it out. "He was dying and I DID NOTHING." I took a breath. "I did nothing but let him die."
"You did what you-"
"Don't!" I whipped around, snarling. "It was all my fault. I abandoned him. He was dying of infection and what did I do? I dragged him into the woods to leave him there, alone." Jayfeather's horrified gaze met mine and I let out a maddened laugh.
"Yes, Jayfeather," I said. "I dragged him here. I left him alone. I thought-" I choked on my words. "I thought it would fix everything. I thought it would cure me. It would-would stop us..." I broke off, flexing my claws as I let out a wail of pure agony. Grief tore at my heart. "I didn't want to betray my Clan for him. I didn't want his kits! You can understand that, can't you?" My eyes bored into Jayfeather's, but he made no comment. I let out another wail. "I didn't want to betray anyone. Instead, I have betrayed everyone."
"That's not true-" began Jayfeather.
"I have!" I yowled. "By killing him, I betrayed him, my Clan and my unborn kits." I shook my head, stepping back. "I-I can't stay here, Jayfeather. I won't be accepted. My kits won't be loved." Letting lose a final, grief-stricken cry, I fled, leaving behind Jayfeather, Mallownose's body and all of my problems.