Post by wadevvilson on Jul 3, 2017 21:45:57 GMT -5
Boy howdy, it's certainly been a while since I was on a forum that had anything to do with this series. Been a while since I was on a forum at all, really. Anyways. Time to reintroduce myself, I guess. Some of you may know and recognize me as Hawkfangz93. I had a Hawkfrost avatar [not that that was exactly how I imagined Hawkfrost to look in the books, though] and was nearly a StarClan leader in terms of post count.
Joined in 2011 [don't remember the exact date] or so, but truth be told I'd been lurking since around 2009. Man, a lot of things have changed since I first joined. For one thing, I was a young-ish teenager way back then, trying to figure out my place in the world and slowly starting to come to terms with my identity as trans and not just a butch cis woman, realizing that there were even words for what I was in the first place and all that poetic stuff. Sort of learned how to use the internet, too. I remember that one of my real-life friends [Mallowstep, her username was; we went to the same school for a long while] had to teach me that you were able to refresh webpages. Kind of silly.
Some things are the same as they once were; that lonely, socially awkward kid still exists, but now as an adult. My drawing skills are still relatively sub-par, and a lot of my OC's from that time period have clung onto life in some shape or form. I've still got a thing for green-haired punk boys from animated Canadian parodies of Survivor. But on the other hand, some things have most definitely changed. I got a dog, not that I particularly wanted to [my father just dumped her on me one day], but she eventually grew on me. My OTP had more kids, and most of those kids died because apparently I won't even let my own characters be happy for very long. A lot of people who I once thought were my friends figuratively stabbed me in the back. I made a lot more OC's. Some people in my family who I cared about died. I realized that I was in love with one of my best friends, who I coincidentally happened to meet on the old HarperCollins version of these forums. Still haven't told her I love her, though. Probably never will, due to various reasons.
If you're wondering why I originally left, sit tight. I was planning on explaining that. It's not a very thrilling explanation, nor is it particularly lengthy in terms of what I usually write. I left because of drama, simply. People were getting banned and starting flame wars left and right in the off-topic section, and I grew tired of seeing it all unfold, and also of seeing the forums I once loved become more of a toxic cesspool than they used to be . So, with little fanfare, I all but disappeared. At the start, I went back online occasionally to check things out, but nothing seemed to change. Then my activity ceased entirely, and a long while later I received an e-mail telling me that the old forums were being deleted. Felt a bittersweet kind of sadness at the news.
I'm quite frankly not all that interested in the majority of the canon characters from this series anymore; they have less personality and mettle than a cardboard box. Numerous plotlines are rehashed in these books, as well, and the worldbuilding could have made a lot more sense in the long run. Honestly, I care more about my OC's for the series than I do much else. Yet I keep reading the books, due to a combination of lingering childhood nostalgia and a sort of morbid curiosity. I mainly just rejoined the site because an old buddy of mine [some of you may know him as Firestar1430, I believe his username was] is rebooting a group I used to love, and, well, I want in. Also, I miss roleplaying, and I'm getting tired of being locked out of roleplay groups due to various circumstances.
Other places to find me
Cloudclawz - d.A.
Hawk Talon - G+ [Tumblr has a weird user interface in my opinion, so I don't blog there]
Joined in 2011 [don't remember the exact date] or so, but truth be told I'd been lurking since around 2009. Man, a lot of things have changed since I first joined. For one thing, I was a young-ish teenager way back then, trying to figure out my place in the world and slowly starting to come to terms with my identity as trans and not just a butch cis woman, realizing that there were even words for what I was in the first place and all that poetic stuff. Sort of learned how to use the internet, too. I remember that one of my real-life friends [Mallowstep, her username was; we went to the same school for a long while] had to teach me that you were able to refresh webpages. Kind of silly.
Some things are the same as they once were; that lonely, socially awkward kid still exists, but now as an adult. My drawing skills are still relatively sub-par, and a lot of my OC's from that time period have clung onto life in some shape or form. I've still got a thing for green-haired punk boys from animated Canadian parodies of Survivor. But on the other hand, some things have most definitely changed. I got a dog, not that I particularly wanted to [my father just dumped her on me one day], but she eventually grew on me. My OTP had more kids, and most of those kids died because apparently I won't even let my own characters be happy for very long. A lot of people who I once thought were my friends figuratively stabbed me in the back. I made a lot more OC's. Some people in my family who I cared about died. I realized that I was in love with one of my best friends, who I coincidentally happened to meet on the old HarperCollins version of these forums. Still haven't told her I love her, though. Probably never will, due to various reasons.
If you're wondering why I originally left, sit tight. I was planning on explaining that. It's not a very thrilling explanation, nor is it particularly lengthy in terms of what I usually write. I left because of drama, simply. People were getting banned and starting flame wars left and right in the off-topic section, and I grew tired of seeing it all unfold, and also of seeing the forums I once loved become more of a toxic cesspool than they used to be . So, with little fanfare, I all but disappeared. At the start, I went back online occasionally to check things out, but nothing seemed to change. Then my activity ceased entirely, and a long while later I received an e-mail telling me that the old forums were being deleted. Felt a bittersweet kind of sadness at the news.
I'm quite frankly not all that interested in the majority of the canon characters from this series anymore; they have less personality and mettle than a cardboard box. Numerous plotlines are rehashed in these books, as well, and the worldbuilding could have made a lot more sense in the long run. Honestly, I care more about my OC's for the series than I do much else. Yet I keep reading the books, due to a combination of lingering childhood nostalgia and a sort of morbid curiosity. I mainly just rejoined the site because an old buddy of mine [some of you may know him as Firestar1430, I believe his username was] is rebooting a group I used to love, and, well, I want in. Also, I miss roleplaying, and I'm getting tired of being locked out of roleplay groups due to various circumstances.
Other places to find me
Cloudclawz - d.A.
Hawk Talon - G+ [Tumblr has a weird user interface in my opinion, so I don't blog there]
