Lyoko's Vent Poems (Do not post)

Sometimes I make a bunch of vent-y little poems that no one cares about because I'm a mess lol

Toxin

Toxic
That's exactly what I am
I poison everything I touch.
somehow I keep getting into people's hearts and seeping into what's important to them.
I don't want to
I never wanted to
it's not fun
it's horrible to watch your friends fall apart and trust you over and over again because you're too scared to tell them what you think of yourself
I don't want to lose them
I've already ruined it
I've already ruined them
I'm too toxic
I have to taste my own medicine
this is what I deserve
right?
right

Liar Liar

"don't worry about it"
"It's okay"
"i'm happy"
Hah, yeah right
I'm not okay
The world to me is
Cold and gray
and shadowy and black
The colors of happiness
have been sapped away
by the endless shadows
and the cold lonely dampness
that is my
cold dead heart

And She Was Gone

The girl stirred
Her face blurred
The candlelight flickered
And she was gone
"She chose this path"
Her parents say
Trying not to take the blame
"We tried to help her"
The people say
Avoiding the fact that
They let her get whisked away
The girl still watches
Knowing that they don't care
Which is why she blew out her candle
In the first place
But she doesn't care
So then she was gone

If you can't tell, I vent a lot.

Camera

Red lights the color of rubies
Looking you through and through
Watching every single move you make
Watching every single breath you take
Choking you, watching you with that little red eye
Feeling like there's an endless black without a sky
when the cameras are watching
Why do the cameras enjoy me so
I'm not a star, you know
But "oh well" I say
I guess I'll just take all of the blame