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Post by Deleted on Oct 11, 2017 4:33:49 GMT -5
I tend to have strange "damned if I do damned if I don't" kind of thing. I'm extremely afraid to tell bad news even if it's not about myself, but then if I don't tell it things will also go badly. Either way everything's screwed. I just try to work my fears into my stories- it's a strange kind of retribution, I guess, and a catharsis to see my characters conquer what I ultimately cannot. @ - Yeah, bad news isn't at all fun, it it's something serious or means disappointing someone :/ That's a great idea. I used to write stories to help me feel better about myself, because everyone has that insecure phase. It took me a long time to grow out of that, and I now have writings to look back on to see how far I've come
I have stories of the same opera cats of Ensemble I wrote when I was like 10 or 11 stowed away, most of which I wrote without much motive other than "hi I'm Redheart and I like opera and cats". I usually never pull them out though because I usually cringe in embarrassment just thinking about them, although they tend to carry a sort of nostalgia for me. But God were they awful.
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Post by prophet on Oct 11, 2017 10:38:16 GMT -5
@ - Yeah, bad news isn't at all fun, it it's something serious or means disappointing someone :/ That's a great idea. I used to write stories to help me feel better about myself, because everyone has that insecure phase. It took me a long time to grow out of that, and I now have writings to look back on to see how far I've come
I have stories of the same opera cats of Ensemble I wrote when I was like 10 or 11 stowed away, most of which I wrote without much motive other than "hi I'm Redheart and I like opera and cats". I usually never pull them out though because I usually cringe in embarrassment just thinking about them, although they tend to carry a sort of nostalgia for me. But God were they awful. Lmao, same. Locked in a vault, as far as the rest if the world is concerned
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Post by Deleted on Oct 11, 2017 14:12:25 GMT -5
I have stories of the same opera cats of Ensemble I wrote when I was like 10 or 11 stowed away, most of which I wrote without much motive other than "hi I'm Redheart and I like opera and cats". I usually never pull them out though because I usually cringe in embarrassment just thinking about them, although they tend to carry a sort of nostalgia for me. But God were they awful. Lmao, same. Locked in a vault, as far as the rest if the world is concerned the vault known as My Closet young me wrote a lot though it's a really thick stack of printed paper i'm not entirely sure what to even do with it at this point
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Post by prophet on Oct 11, 2017 14:14:17 GMT -5
Lmao, same. Locked in a vault, as far as the rest if the world is concerned the vault known as My Closet young me wrote a lot though it's a really thick stack of printed paper i'm not entirely sure what to even do with it at this point @ - I had journals. LOTS of journals. I have diary entries too, and just cringe.
I strongly advise that you keep it all. You can get manila envelopes or something to put them in
Please check out my fanfic, A Walk In Darkness.
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Post by Deleted on Oct 11, 2017 14:30:33 GMT -5
the vault known as My Closet young me wrote a lot though it's a really thick stack of printed paper i'm not entirely sure what to even do with it at this point @ - I had journals. LOTS of journals. I have diary entries too, and just cringe.
I strongly advise that you keep it all. You can get manila envelopes or something to put them in
Please check out my fanfic, A Walk In Darkness.I keep them all stowed away safely. It's a good reminder that I'm not as horrible as I was before at things there was a thread somewhere where I discussed my reactions to rereading them...a lot of Yikes
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Post by prophet on Oct 11, 2017 14:33:53 GMT -5
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Post by Deleted on Oct 11, 2017 14:40:17 GMT -5
I keep them all stowed away safely. It's a good reminder that I'm not as horrible as I was before at things there was a thread somewhere where I discussed my reactions to rereading them...a lot of Yikes @ - That's good. Yeah, lmao. Oml. A play by play commentary? lol
Please check out my fanfic, A Walk In Darkness.ayy I found my play-by-play two posts of madness wcrpforums.com/thread/44698/looked-old-profile?page=1&scrollTo=1556720
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Post by prophet on Oct 11, 2017 14:44:09 GMT -5
@ - Omg, going to read it now, lol
Please check out my fanfic, A Walk In Darkness.
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Post by prophet on Oct 11, 2017 14:55:12 GMT -5
I have printed (!) copies of every story I wrote back in The Day(TM) here are the results: I managed to predict the trump wall with...cats and opera. how. why this one character died like 7000 times. hansel... he was a real og...could die thousands of times and come back like it was nothing Gretel, the chainsaw-wielding kitten sociopath that killed witches for fun forced Hetero romance everywhere, it's bad these cats literally don't have noses they just have thick lines that look sort of like noses I timeskipped a few important plot points because I didn't feel like writing them lmao the bizarre early renditions of CatHell the villains' hobbies are...evil. that's literally all I wrote down. why you ain't seen anything until you've seen an MS Paint rendition of a cat dressed as a bird,,,flirting with the audience,,,for some reason me not knowing the difference between tough and though me making the Sandman basically an author avatar of myself for whatever reason the characters say "mozart" instead of "god" so they go "oh my mozart" instead what is this implying is there a religion on this??? later in another story I said it all took place in an aternate universe how do they know of mozart if they're in an alternate universe where cats act like humans instead? did mozart create the alternate universe??? ??????? me making it obvious certain characters were gay/bi but trying to hide it for whatever reason and failing miserably it's pretty obvious Figaro was bisexual in these (as he is in Ensemble) so I'm not entirely sure why I was trying to hide that lmao MS Paint circle tool casually mentioning "oh and he tried to hang himself but that's not important" trying to fit the bizarre demands of The Manipulative Friend Known as Iceheart and failing miserably why do the witches eat kittens though me trying to give stories ~plot twists~ and it falling flat on its face my weird childhood opera crap was a dark time and I don't ever want to look at it again Honestly, I lmao so hard at this. "Oh my Mozart" and "Oh, and he tried to hang himself but that's not important" were the best™
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Post by prophet on Oct 11, 2017 15:03:58 GMT -5
Redheart looks at her old crap, part 2 -I like how there's so many casualthingsgoing on here, like there's cannibal witches eating kids and eldritch abomination serpents and everyone's like "lol what can you do" -the family tree...I wrote one down when I was like eleven and it makes NO sense -how does the government work in this universe??? -like there's kings but also apparently the rich cats have a hand in it somehow??? -what??? -so every witch has a magic power, according to this, but how do those get distributed??? why does one have the ability to be invincible but another has the ability to...turn things into gingerbread? What Are The Rules -there are retcons in every other paragraph -"the alley cats looked at her with love shaped eyes" and what exactly are Love shaped eyes??? do I want to know??? -the amount of attempted murders that were forgiven or whatever is...disturbing -there's a mother trying to marry her own son but to be fair that was in the source material anyway -the annotations I had in these things are really horrible and I love them -like there's a bit where they're sending this teenage kitten off to war and the annotation's just "well guess how he dies in the sequel" lmao -Mary Sues everywhere -this was supposed to involve many many different characters and plots but it didn't work because I only focused on like four of them anyway lmao -my old character designs bring back a bizarre sense of nostalgia -these characters are in an alternate universe of cats and yet they celebrate thanksgiving???? -how??? -what did I have with hacking off legs because I swear it happened to like 5 different cats -99% of some of these stories are just dialogue, I'm not even kidding -my attempts of getting crap past the radar when I was ten are... amusing -I was good at drawing with a cursor somehow -the character interactions in this thing are really weird because one minute they're best friends and the next they think "well I only knew him for five minutes" -cIRCLE TOOL INTENSIFIES -there are 3 pairs of found parents in this -at least -how does magic work? why doesn't anyone use it? Where Does It Come From -the bit that all witches are black cats was actually kind of clever for ten year old me -the birds can talk but only to one cat, and they're all the most uncreative and stereotypical birds you can imagine -the first of these was 2 pages and the last was 60 pages. how?? -some of the stuff I wrote is downright disturbing now because of its implications of this bizarre cat society thank god I improved enough to the point that ensemble is somewhat readable @ - Your younger self didn't have any concept of character building, smh And here we see where Redheart gets dark themes from; feeding kids to witches and hacking off everyone's legs
Please check out my fanfic, A Walk In Darkness.
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Post by Deleted on Oct 11, 2017 15:04:43 GMT -5
I have printed (!) copies of every story I wrote back in The Day(TM) here are the results: I managed to predict the trump wall with...cats and opera. how. why this one character died like 7000 times. hansel... he was a real og...could die thousands of times and come back like it was nothing Gretel, the chainsaw-wielding kitten sociopath that killed witches for fun forced Hetero romance everywhere, it's bad these cats literally don't have noses they just have thick lines that look sort of like noses I timeskipped a few important plot points because I didn't feel like writing them lmao the bizarre early renditions of CatHell the villains' hobbies are...evil. that's literally all I wrote down. why you ain't seen anything until you've seen an MS Paint rendition of a cat dressed as a bird,,,flirting with the audience,,,for some reason me not knowing the difference between tough and though me making the Sandman basically an author avatar of myself for whatever reason the characters say "mozart" instead of "god" so they go "oh my mozart" instead what is this implying is there a religion on this??? later in another story I said it all took place in an aternate universe how do they know of mozart if they're in an alternate universe where cats act like humans instead? did mozart create the alternate universe??? ??????? me making it obvious certain characters were gay/bi but trying to hide it for whatever reason and failing miserably it's pretty obvious Figaro was bisexual in these (as he is in Ensemble) so I'm not entirely sure why I was trying to hide that lmao MS Paint circle tool casually mentioning "oh and he tried to hang himself but that's not important" trying to fit the bizarre demands of The Manipulative Friend Known as Iceheart and failing miserably why do the witches eat kittens though me trying to give stories ~plot twists~ and it falling flat on its face my weird childhood opera crap was a dark time and I don't ever want to look at it again
Honestly, I lmao so hard at this. "Oh my Mozart" and "Oh, and he tried to hang himself but that's not important" were the best™ it really gives a lot of questions though like is hanging oneself a thing that just happens in this universe??? HOW DO THEY KNOW WHO MOZART IS IS HE SOMEHOW A GOD OR SOMETHING
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Post by Deleted on Oct 11, 2017 15:07:01 GMT -5
Redheart looks at her old crap, part 2 -I like how there's so many casualthingsgoing on here, like there's cannibal witches eating kids and eldritch abomination serpents and everyone's like "lol what can you do" -the family tree...I wrote one down when I was like eleven and it makes NO sense -how does the government work in this universe??? -like there's kings but also apparently the rich cats have a hand in it somehow??? -what??? -so every witch has a magic power, according to this, but how do those get distributed??? why does one have the ability to be invincible but another has the ability to...turn things into gingerbread? What Are The Rules -there are retcons in every other paragraph -"the alley cats looked at her with love shaped eyes" and what exactly are Love shaped eyes??? do I want to know??? -the amount of attempted murders that were forgiven or whatever is...disturbing -there's a mother trying to marry her own son but to be fair that was in the source material anyway -the annotations I had in these things are really horrible and I love them -like there's a bit where they're sending this teenage kitten off to war and the annotation's just "well guess how he dies in the sequel" lmao -Mary Sues everywhere -this was supposed to involve many many different characters and plots but it didn't work because I only focused on like four of them anyway lmao -my old character designs bring back a bizarre sense of nostalgia -these characters are in an alternate universe of cats and yet they celebrate thanksgiving???? -how??? -what did I have with hacking off legs because I swear it happened to like 5 different cats -99% of some of these stories are just dialogue, I'm not even kidding -my attempts of getting crap past the radar when I was ten are... amusing -I was good at drawing with a cursor somehow -the character interactions in this thing are really weird because one minute they're best friends and the next they think "well I only knew him for five minutes" -cIRCLE TOOL INTENSIFIES -there are 3 pairs of found parents in this -at least -how does magic work? why doesn't anyone use it? Where Does It Come From -the bit that all witches are black cats was actually kind of clever for ten year old me -the birds can talk but only to one cat, and they're all the most uncreative and stereotypical birds you can imagine -the first of these was 2 pages and the last was 60 pages. how?? -some of the stuff I wrote is downright disturbing now because of its implications of this bizarre cat society thank god I improved enough to the point that ensemble is somewhat readable @ - Your younger self didn't have any concept of character building, smh And here we see where Redheart gets dark themes from; feeding kids to witches and hacking off everyone's legs
Please check out my fanfic, A Walk In Darkness. my stories were really dark in retrospect yet I was too much of a wuss to mention blood at all in them lmao
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Post by prophet on Oct 11, 2017 15:12:16 GMT -5
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Post by prophet on Oct 11, 2017 15:14:20 GMT -5
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Post by prophet on Oct 11, 2017 15:16:39 GMT -5
@ - And this: "me making it obvious certain characters were gay/bi but trying to hide it for whatever reason and failing miserably it's pretty obvious Figaro was bisexual in these (as he is in Ensemble) so I'm not entirely sure why I was trying to hide that lmao"
Like, whY? "Leporello, obviously obsessed with the Don... but he's not gay, per se... you're imagining it"
Please check out my fanfic, A Walk In Darkness.
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Post by Deleted on Oct 11, 2017 15:17:40 GMT -5
it really gives a lot of questions though like is hanging oneself a thing that just happens in this universe??? HOW DO THEY KNOW WHO MOZART IS IS HE SOMEHOW A GOD OR SOMETHING @ - It's commonplace. "Ah, did ya here Billy hanged himself?" "Oh, yeah, poor Billy. You know, just the other day..."
"Bless Mozart, Our Father, who art in Real Life"
Please check out my fanfic, A Walk In Darkness."Ah darn, that's a shame, he still owned me five dollars." it made no sense and here I am now with the disclaimer that I have to make sure that when things go down I can say "well did you not see the disclaimer" lmao
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Post by prophet on Oct 11, 2017 15:21:13 GMT -5
"Ah darn, that's a shame, he still owned me five dollars." it made no sense and here I am now with the disclaimer that I have to make sure that when things go down I can say "well did you not see the disclaimer" lmao @ - "A darn shame it is; he was still borrowing my PS4."
Yeah, it's best to just put the disclaimer instead of waiting for someone to come along and go, "Hmm, nice comic there... be a shame if someone reported it"
Please check out my fanfic, A Walk In Darkness.
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Post by Deleted on Oct 11, 2017 15:22:45 GMT -5
me trying to justify the Gay(TM) was friggin hilarious because Leporello in there (he was more like himself in the opera though) and I was trying to justify it by throwing in at the last second something about him liking Elvira of all characters? hella strange there were also several characters not even adapted from opera and out of my own mind (I was deep in it by this point) who were like "you're the best and you're great and I'll never forget you as my...best friend" even though I knew damn well as good as anyone they were just really gay it was like Erin Hunter levels of gay hiding
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Post by Deleted on Oct 11, 2017 15:23:59 GMT -5
"Ah darn, that's a shame, he still owned me five dollars." it made no sense and here I am now with the disclaimer that I have to make sure that when things go down I can say "well did you not see the disclaimer" lmao @ - "A darn shame it is; he was still borrowing my PS4."
Yeah, it's best to just put the disclaimer instead of waiting for someone to come along and go, "Hmm, nice comic there... be a shame if someone reported it"
Please check out my fanfic, A Walk In Darkness.the mods actually read through it and were like "yeah it's ok proceed with operations" so I'm pretty sure I'm covered. I totally would be banned many times over for it on the old wcf though
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Post by prophet on Oct 12, 2017 0:28:53 GMT -5
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Post by prophet on Oct 12, 2017 0:30:10 GMT -5
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Post by Deleted on Oct 12, 2017 4:27:13 GMT -5
me trying to justify the Gay(TM) was friggin hilarious because Leporello in there (he was more like himself in the opera though) and I was trying to justify it by throwing in at the last second something about him liking Elvira of all characters? hella strange there were also several characters not even adapted from opera and out of my own mind (I was deep in it by this point) who were like "you're the best and you're great and I'll never forget you as my...best friend" even though I knew damn well as good as anyone they were just really gay it was like Erin Hunter levels of gay hiding @ - Wow, Elvira? REALLY? Lol, that's one heck of a cover
Oml, lmao so hard. "You're my best friend" locked in a soulful gaze. Erin's hiding gays, I swear it's true, though. How else would you explain the "bachelors" and "bachelorettes" I mean, really now
Please check out my fanfic, A Walk In Darkness.I mean, I could see a staging where that would be a thing, but it really doesn't make as much sense as my interpretation imo because Leporello's ultimate loyalty lies with his master the whole time. They are a lot more like each other than they seem, though, especially in Ensemble... if I had a dollar for every time the Erins tried to give characters a Heterosexual Love Interest at the last second to prove them straight I would be rich
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Post by Deleted on Oct 12, 2017 4:30:10 GMT -5
Ensemble breaks almost every single rule that the old forums had from like page nine onwards lmao. I have no idea how I got away with mentioning Don Giovanni once, let alone constantly over the span of three months. And then they banned me for saying "this place is dead lol" the Monday before the site shut down. rip
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Post by prophet on Oct 12, 2017 12:28:53 GMT -5
I mean, I could see a staging where that would be a thing, but it really doesn't make as much sense as my interpretation imo because Leporello's ultimate loyalty lies with his master the whole time. They are a lot more like each other than they seem, though, especially in Ensemble... if I had a dollar for every time the Erins tried to give characters a Heterosexual Love Interest at the last second to prove them straight I would be rich @ - I don't think it would make sense unless you changed a lot about the opera. And Leporello is way too invested in Don; in the original, we don't even see his "girlfriend" ever.
Thornclaw being an example. I don't know how far you read, but I only found out about his love interest while reading about another character.
Please check out my fanfic, Listen
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Post by prophet on Oct 12, 2017 12:33:04 GMT -5
Ensemble breaks almost every single rule that the old forums had from like page nine onwards lmao. I have no idea how I got away with mentioning Don Giovanni once, let alone constantly over the span of three months. And then they banned me for saying "this place is dead lol" the Monday before the site shut down. rip @ - Wait, seriously? Lmao. I do remember our conversations at the time, and I was afraid we would get in trouble, but the mods apparently knew nothing about opera lol.
I got banned the first time for trying to get people to move over to this forum. This was a week before shutdown. I had two accounts, lol. Then I used my second account to try and spam, but I got banned in five minutes, rip. Luckily I had saved everything before my self-sacrificial crusade, not that there was much to save. When they updated the website, all the oldest memories got erased, rip
Please check out my fanfic, Listen
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Post by prophet on Oct 12, 2017 12:34:39 GMT -5
@redheartofriverclan - Btw, is it just me or are the avatars and siggies missing
Please check out my fanfic, Listen
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Post by Deleted on Oct 12, 2017 12:35:49 GMT -5
I mean, I could see a staging where that would be a thing, but it really doesn't make as much sense as my interpretation imo because Leporello's ultimate loyalty lies with his master the whole time. They are a lot more like each other than they seem, though, especially in Ensemble... if I had a dollar for every time the Erins tried to give characters a Heterosexual Love Interest at the last second to prove them straight I would be rich @ - I don't think it would make sense unless you changed a lot about the opera. And Leporello is way too invested in Don; in the original, we don't even see his "girlfriend" ever.
Thornclaw being an example. I don't know how far you read, but I only found out about his love interest while reading about another character.
Please check out my fanfic, Listenit makes little sense really like if that's so then why is Leporello outright laughing at Elvira in a few scenes also why have that when you can just give gay subtext for... bOTH OF THEM and also Blossomfall too (she was paired up with Thornclaw for no reason) even though it's obvious she's a lesbian lmao
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Post by Deleted on Oct 12, 2017 12:38:33 GMT -5
Ensemble breaks almost every single rule that the old forums had from like page nine onwards lmao. I have no idea how I got away with mentioning Don Giovanni once, let alone constantly over the span of three months. And then they banned me for saying "this place is dead lol" the Monday before the site shut down. rip @ - Wait, seriously? Lmao. I do remember our conversations at the time, and I was afraid we would get in trouble, but the mods apparently knew nothing about opera lol.
I got banned the first time for trying to get people to move over to this forum. This was a week before shutdown. I had two accounts, lol. Then I used my second account to try and spam, but I got banned in five minutes, rip. Luckily I had saved everything before my self-sacrificial crusade, not that there was much to save. When they updated the website, all the oldest memories got erased, rip
Please check out my fanfic, Listen I like to imagine that the mods were completely confused by my references to NSFW operas and just assumed the best out of it lmao And no, I can see avatars and signatures just fine for some reason
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Post by prophet on Oct 12, 2017 12:55:37 GMT -5
@ - I don't think it would make sense unless you changed a lot about the opera. And Leporello is way too invested in Don; in the original, we don't even see his "girlfriend" ever.
Thornclaw being an example. I don't know how far you read, but I only found out about his love interest while reading about another character.
Please check out my fanfic, Listen it makes little sense really like if that's so then why is Leporello outright laughing at Elvira in a few scenes also why have that when you can just give gay subtext for... bOTH OF THEM and also Blossomfall too (she was paired up with Thornclaw for no reason) even though it's obvious she's a lesbian lmao @ - Right?! He just sees her as another silly, hopeless woman Lmao, right? Literally same Thornclaw is literally older than Bramblestar; Brightheart's his sister, meaning Dovewing (around Blossomfall's age) is his great-great niece! Double ew. And! Blossomfall so had a crush on Hollyleaf. (Pretty sure it was Blossomfall. I don't remember, it was awhile ago). Also, don't get me started on how they just threw Whitewing and Birchfall together when either one or both of them was gay.
Please check out my fanfic, Listen
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Post by prophet on Oct 12, 2017 12:58:47 GMT -5
@ - Wait, seriously? Lmao. I do remember our conversations at the time, and I was afraid we would get in trouble, but the mods apparently knew nothing about opera lol.
I got banned the first time for trying to get people to move over to this forum. This was a week before shutdown. I had two accounts, lol. Then I used my second account to try and spam, but I got banned in five minutes, rip. Luckily I had saved everything before my self-sacrificial crusade, not that there was much to save. When they updated the website, all the oldest memories got erased, rip
Please check out my fanfic, Listen I like to imagine that the mods were completely confused by my references to NSFW operas and just assumed the best out of it lmao And no, I can see avatars and signatures just fine for some reason @ - Probably saw the ABC Magic Flute and like a Saturday morning cartoon Don Giovanni or something, lmao. That's weird! I can't see them, I think it's time to ask the mods
Please check out my fanfic, Listen
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