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Post by Deleted on Nov 7, 2016 22:06:11 GMT -5
I've just experienced an awful loss (5-year-old cousin died) and I feel lonely and estranged as well and I cannot stop crying
Even when I'm not crying there are tears building up behind my eyes
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Post by ❴ ғα∂ιηg ✦ яεαℓιтү ❵ on Nov 7, 2016 22:19:52 GMT -5
im sorry babe, that really sucks, im not much of one of comfort but if you need to vent im here
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Post by Deleted on Nov 7, 2016 22:35:19 GMT -5
Every time I glance at the picture of her on the wall my eyes start to water. I can't take it. I can't take the bitter reality that she is gone forever and will always be gone hereafter. I never realized how significant she was in my life before she died. I learned a lot from her, gained a different perspective, if not in a very subtle way. But nonetheless. She was important to me and to everyone else, I just realized that only days ago. I wish I had been there for her when she was sick and in the hospital. I wish I had been there for her when she was not sick. I wish I had shown her that I loved her, because she loved everybody. Everybody ever. Even me.
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Post by ❴ ғα∂ιηg ✦ яεαℓιтү ❵ on Nov 7, 2016 22:37:45 GMT -5
i understand the feeling but there is no point in dwelling on what could have been instead ask yourself "what would she wan me to do?" and do that make her legacy known
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Post by Deleted on Nov 7, 2016 22:38:38 GMT -5
She was always so happy. Happy in spite of the body that tormented her with microcephaly, epilepsy, developmental delays, and later pneumonia, plus a million other things. She never was able to develop proper speech. No, she never spoke a single coherent word. Nor did she ever walk or even crawl. But she always found it in herself to laugh and smile. She was the most well-meaning human being to ever live. SHE SHOULD NOT HAVE DIED. She should not have been born with that prison of a body. And I know she had a lot to say. Well, no, not a lot. Just the words 'I love you'. But she was also the image of perfection how she was. She was beautiful. She found love and happiness in everything. That was, and still is, an ability unique to her.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 7, 2016 22:40:31 GMT -5
i understand the feeling but there is no point in dwelling on what could have been instead ask yourself "what would she wan me to do?" and do that make her legacy known Honestly, I think she just would have wanted me to be happy and gracious and just good overall. And do what made me happy and content.
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Post by ❴ ғα∂ιηg ✦ яεαℓιтү ❵ on Nov 7, 2016 22:41:17 GMT -5
then leaarn to do that yourself, carry her spirit with you
idk
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Post by Deleted on Nov 7, 2016 23:19:40 GMT -5
Sorry for your loss, but you somehow have to get over it. Get counseling or therapy because how are you going to deal with a death of a parent? I mean you have to get used to it that not everybody lives. Life is like a game. When you die game over, but when you thrive you are winning the game.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 7, 2016 23:33:09 GMT -5
I am very sorry for your loss, dear. But she is watching over you in spirit (if you believe in the afterlife.. I am unsure). Cherish the moments you've had with her. At least you got to be with her at all. Both of you loved each other, and that's what matters. ^^ Stay strong, dear. She is watching over you and her family that she loved.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 8, 2016 15:39:59 GMT -5
Sorry for your loss, but you somehow have to get over it. Get counseling or therapy because how are you going to deal with a death of a parent? I mean you have to get used to it that not everybody lives. Life is like a game. When you die game over, but when you thrive you are winning the game. The hardened part of me understands what you're conveying, but the other does not. Both disagree that life is a game. It's not. I mean, I'm sure that you were speaking figuratively, but regardless life is a lot more than a game. It takes more than tact and knowledge; it also requires positivity in its many forms—love, compassion, determination – the like.
All in all, what you're saying here is kind of insensitive. Of course, the therapy/counseling bit makes sense enough, but the rest is inconsiderate. How would you feel if a relative so young and so blameless died?
But go figure. A lot of people haven't had this experience.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 8, 2016 17:01:53 GMT -5
@mongrel Nobody who I know died yet or I never went to a funeral as well, so no U domt know this experience.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 8, 2016 17:47:14 GMT -5
@mongrel Nobody who I know died yet or I never went to a funeral as well, so no U domt know this experience. Uh, alright.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 8, 2016 17:48:13 GMT -5
I am very sorry for your loss, dear. But she is watching over you in spirit (if you believe in the afterlife.. I am unsure). Cherish the moments you've had with her. At least you got to be with her at all. Both of you loved each other, and that's what matters. ^^ Stay strong, dear. She is watching over you and her family that she loved. Thank you, Velvet. I understand that you care. Also, that pink text is really soothing.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 8, 2016 17:48:54 GMT -5
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i'm sorry this happened to you </3 i haven't ever lost anybody special to me before, so i can't really relate, but I'm still sorry ;-; i hope you feel better, and if you ever need to talk somewhere private, my inbox is always open
•℘•Alright. I'll remember. Thank you.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 8, 2016 17:50:07 GMT -5
@mongrel Sorry meant I haven't experienced this yet. Autocorect.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 8, 2016 18:24:45 GMT -5
@mongrel Sorry meant I haven't experienced this yet. Autocorect. That's OK.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 8, 2016 18:25:55 GMT -5
@mongrel Do you at least feel a bit better? Like do you feel the urge to cry more?
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Post by Deleted on Nov 8, 2016 18:28:32 GMT -5
@mongrel Do you at least feel a bit better? Like do you feel the urge to cry more? Well, I don't cry when I'm not thinking about it. If I did, though, I'd cry a falls.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 8, 2016 18:29:42 GMT -5
@mongrel A good start at least when you think or have any image about anybody you post think of happy moments you had with them.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 8, 2016 18:33:39 GMT -5
I guess that'd be good. But honestly even the happy moments can make you sad.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 8, 2016 18:34:56 GMT -5
@mongrel Oh ya that is true, but think of the best thing like helping them on something so frustrating
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