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Oct 24, 2016 0:03:26 GMT -5
Post by qυeeɴ oғ ɢнoѕтlιɴɢѕ on Oct 24, 2016 0:03:26 GMT -5
I feel numb. I feel afraid that I'm going to feel secure with how things are but at some point I'll lose everything I thought I had. I feel like I'm going to suddenly break down soon and I won't be able to put myself back together again. I feel as though the words I hear are just empty and without meaning, lies told to me to not hurt my feelings. I feel like no one gives a flying fadoodle about me and that I just something that can be tossed away. It hurts inside and I want to make it stop but to do that I feel like I have to cause a different kind of pain and that scares me. I haven't thought certain thoughts in years and yet they keep popping up over and over again in my head and I just want to close my eyes until those thoughts are gone. I don't want to feel paranoid that people don't actually like me. I want to be able to love myself like I can others but I just see myself for all the things that make up my past and I just want to go back. I want to change everything cause it might make these feelings go away. If I had friends, real friends, throughout my life would I hate myself as much as I do now? If I had stayed on the forums would I not feel like I don't belong here as I do now? Would all these things I feel right now go away if only things had gone differently? If I wasn't as worthless and pathetic as I am would people like me? Would I have not done the things I have to myself if things were different? I feel so numb and empty. I'm functioning but jsut barely and it takes so much effort just to think of how I'm feeling. I don't want to feel like this anymore.
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Oct 24, 2016 0:05:12 GMT -5
Post by *MorningGlory* on Oct 24, 2016 0:05:12 GMT -5
Hey it'll be ok. If you need anyone to talk to I'm here. I know you don't know me but still
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