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Post by Salt on Oct 14, 2016 14:41:17 GMT -5
I haven't been wanting to tell y'all this, but I will. The longer this has dragged on, and as more people have gotten upset, I've been forced to think.
The roommates are real. They never get on though, they have to provide for me. I haven't even gotten my first degree. Back to the story. I've wanted to tell you all for a couple days, but I held back until now. After last nights incident, I told Batman and Sour Candy Corn. Course they're the only two who knew up until this point. The title fits this. I was taking breaks every sentence to not overwork myself. I know you all will hate me for this truth but please try to understand. I won't hesitate to block those who post/accuse me of stuff. This isn't easy, especially if people refuse to hear me out. Some people might say this isn't true, but please just listen anyway.
So for the point of this thread. The truth. I did make the notes, and I was contemplating the suicide. I told myself, "Post the thread. I'm doing it." And I posted the thread. When I couldn't hold it off any longer, I just switched characters, saying that I was in therapy. I legitimately regretted this. I was afraid of telling everyone the truth because I was afraid everyone would say I'm just an attention seeking emo. That was the opposite. I've struggled with these thoughts for a while now and I made a huge mistake because of it.
That's the truth, that's all to it. To close, I'm extremely sorry for making that thread. Please try to understand. I don't want to be on anyone's hate lists or anyone else to be hurt by my mistake. I'm truly sorry, from the bottom of my heart.
-Salt
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Post by Deleted on Oct 14, 2016 14:47:03 GMT -5
Oh, ok, this makes sense. I'm glad you've opened up to us to explain what happened. I really hope you can move past this and be forgiven by those who felt betrayed.
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Post by Yoshimi on Oct 14, 2016 14:49:34 GMT -5
If this is the truth then good, like everyone said people don't trust you because you lied to them. It will take a while for them to forgive and forget. Just be patient.
Hope this thread turns out well.
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Post by Deleted on Oct 14, 2016 14:59:38 GMT -5
Im glad you finally spoke up about the truth, that takes guts and not a lot of people would do that, but. Please also understand that.. You did lie to a lot if peopke on here who were very worried for you and probably went in a panic over this. A lit of us feel like our emotions were toyed with whether you meant to make us feel that way or not, and its going to take awhile for a lot of people to put trust in you again and they are valid for feeling that way.
I hope your mental health gets better and things go good for you eventually, however.
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Post by ssquiffy on Oct 14, 2016 15:02:05 GMT -5
thank you for telling the truth. although some people will still take a while to forgive you, im sure everyone appreciates you apologizing im glad that you didn't go through with your plan. dont ever try to do that again - you saw how worried everyone was, you saw how many people cared about you. and if you ever start getting those suicidal thoughts just remember that you arent alone.
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Post by Suspicious Toast on Oct 14, 2016 15:17:36 GMT -5
Thanks for telling us the truth, it's really appreciated that you owned up and apologized. Though what you did wasn't right, it's really brave of you to tell us this, especially because I know that it gets harder and harder to tell the truth after you've kept up a lie for so long.
Sometimes when we're not feeling great and are really taking a hit from mental health symptoms we do things that we regret, and I can understand that.
I'm proud and I wish you the best of luck with recovering.
But don't do it again.
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Post by 𝕡𝕖𝕡𝕡𝕖𝕣𝕞𝕚𝕟𝕥 on Oct 14, 2016 15:19:58 GMT -5
I'm glad that you're telling the truth, and I hope your problems go away soon.
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Post by Deleted on Oct 14, 2016 15:53:43 GMT -5
thank you for telling us the truth - that was very brave of you it'll take a while for people to forgive, but they will eventually hopefully no one starts any drama here
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Post by Cheyenne on Oct 14, 2016 16:04:09 GMT -5
Thank you for telling us the truth...
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Post by Deleted on Oct 14, 2016 16:04:52 GMT -5
Thanks for telling us, and I wish you well, though I won't lie, I was pretty stressed out by what happened and it'll take me a while to get over it.
Please, please tell us the truth next time though- and quickly. What if you seriously need help next time, but no one believes you? If would break my heart like crazy.
Still, I wish you well and hope you feel better soon. I think you're a really good person and I really want to trust you.
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Post by Deleted on Oct 14, 2016 16:05:59 GMT -5
I'm glad you finally told the truth. Personally, I'm going to have issues ever trusting you again, but at least you did admit to it.
And yeah, like others are saying, next time, just reach out. Based on certain threads, I think a lot of us have dealt with mental health issues, and nobody's going to judge you for needing some support.
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Post by Sand 🎃 on Oct 14, 2016 16:09:21 GMT -5
Thank you for telling the truth, I hope you take time to figure out things with your mental health. I'm willing to listen if you ever want to talk :-)
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Post by sɪʟᴠᴇʀᴏᴡʟ ☾ on Oct 14, 2016 16:17:15 GMT -5
•♕• thanks for doing this. i hope your situation improves, and i hope your life gets less hard. at least you have accepted that what you did was wrong, but dont be upset if people have a hard time trusting you, or even, liking you on here. although i now understand the reasoning behind it, i still will have a hard time trusting you, but im glad you owned up to it. the attitude towards mental health in the world right now is terrible, and im sorry that made you take actions that were extreme. getting help or asking for it when you are struggling is never attention seeking, and i really do hope you find a little peace in your life in the future. thanks for telling us •♔•
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Post by argyle lechuga on Oct 14, 2016 17:43:21 GMT -5
i don't think the community as a whole will ever be able to see you in the same way. this was a serious event that a lot of people got emotionally invested in and its going to be very hard to leave the past behind.
the thing that worries me most about this is how you don't want people to call you attention seeking. you faked a suicide to see how people would react, which is attention seeking behavior. you need some sort of therapy or other form of help the forums can't provide, and i don't mean this negatively. if you already have a therapist you might want to look into a new one if these behaviors are continuing. if you don't seek help, these problems won't go away.
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Post by 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 on Oct 14, 2016 18:02:09 GMT -5
Thanks for admitting this, Bracken. I still can't accept you asking us to protect you when everyone confronted you over this a few days ago, even lied to us too. However I am glad that you're legitimately owning up to this. It bothered me immensely before reading this that you were so nonchalant over it, acting as if it didn't happen. I will say that I will need time to try and trust you again like the others said, but it's great that you stepped up to the plate and said your piece. I was honestly ready to ask you to be honest with us sometime this weekend if you didn't.
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Post by Deleted on Oct 14, 2016 18:33:28 GMT -5
Thank you, Bracken... I am so sorry for getting so mad at you... Thank you. I can trust you again.
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Post by trickster ♥ on Oct 14, 2016 19:32:23 GMT -5
I know it must have been hard and I really respect the fact that you came out with what really happened. It really bothered me that you were acting like nothing happened but now hopefully you know not to do it again. I can't say I trust you or forgive you again just because of this, at least right now, but I will say I'm sorry about what you're going through and I wish you luck with overcoming your struggles. thank you for telling the truth.
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Post by ✲ριкαƒυєу✲ on Oct 14, 2016 22:45:30 GMT -5
As everyone has said, I am glad you chose to tell the truth. Just please don't do this again. I really hoped you learned something from this experience.
Just remember, it is okay to admit you need help. There is no shame in venting your problems to those willing to hear them. Everyone has their struggles, and many members here seem to be going through similar things. If you ever feel this way again, please don't hesitate to tell others you can trust/confide in. They will not judge you for being honest with them, and people can be much more understanding then you think.
As others have mentioned, it will take time to regain trust that was lost. That is a given regarding what happened. In the end, all the members here wanted was for you to be honest with them. And now that you have gathered the courage to come clean, we can all hopefully put this behind us and work together to move on.
I wish you the best of luck, and hope you find the help you need <3
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Post by feign on Oct 14, 2016 23:31:58 GMT -5
Glad you're okay, and glad you chose to tell the truth. The Sodium Protectors will live on- I still trust you, and hopefully you get better soon- thanks for stepping up, Salt.
Good luck!
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Post by sea cat on Oct 15, 2016 1:31:13 GMT -5
ok thanks for finally owning up but let me just tell you something because i havent talked to you after this incident took place. this hurt me so so much. i have attempted suicide around 7 times and some people thought i was faking. it's incidents like this that people think this. i'm honestly absolutely fuming and so so angry that you did this because it hurt me so much. i cried over this because it's something that hits very close to home. it triggered me and i will not forgive you for this. it was attention seeking if you posted it to see how people would react. the fact that you pretended you were so close to death made me so worried at the time and to figure out it was fake broke my heart. you shouldnt have done it because this is the kind of thing that gives mental illness a bad name and it makes the stigma against mental health so much more worse because it portrays everyone that has mental illness as attention seeking which simply isn't true and it's something that i and so many others have been trying to remove. this is the one thing that i can't stand because why would you fake something that takes someone a lot to even contemplate?? it's wrong, it's absolutely awful. i do hope you get better soon and i hope you get the help you need - but don't take this the wrong way - we will never be friends and i will be trying to avoid you. i will not forgive you and if you ever do something like this again i'm not gonna hold back in what i say like i have now. you hurt me so much and i'm never gonna forget that.
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Post by Deleted on Oct 15, 2016 18:58:17 GMT -5
i'm glad you're owning up to this, salt.
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Post by Saint Ambrosef on Oct 15, 2016 19:15:55 GMT -5
I'm glad you're owning up, but I'm a bit confused. From what I understand (please tell me if I'm wrong), you wrote the notes, posted the thread considering real suicide, but didn't go through with it, and then didn't know how to stop the charade?
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