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Post by Deleted on Oct 8, 2016 23:54:30 GMT -5
my girlfriend broke up with me today because she wanted to screw around with people and didn't like long distance. i respect that... but at the same time, i'm completely crushed.
i never told her this (bc it's really dumb), but she was the best thing in my life. the one person whom i always looked forward to. and now she's gone.
i don't want to go to class. i don't want exist. and it kills me because i need to go to class, i need to apply for jobs, and i need to exist even though i have no reason to. i haven't had much of a reason to keep on living for a long while, but at this point the idea is 100% unbearable.
this world has no place for me & i only stay alive because i don't want to hurt my family.
don't give me optimism; i know that i *do* have a future, but idc for it because i'm clinically depressed and medication doesn't do much. don't tell me i ought to live for another 50+ years with this monster inside me. that's my decision.
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Post by Deleted on Oct 8, 2016 23:56:19 GMT -5
i know we haven't talked ever, but please, don't do it. don't hurt yourself.
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Post by qυeeɴ oғ ɢнoѕтlιɴɢѕ on Oct 9, 2016 1:41:10 GMT -5
I don't think I have ever talked to you which saddens me because it means I missed out on talking to a probably awesome person. I completely understand what you are going through though not completely and it hurts I know. I know you say you don't want words of encouragement but what about someone to unload everything on and to give you virtual hugs and maybe some words of comfort? I'm just a pm away and I'll always be here for you, friend. It would be sad to see you go but I understand not wanting to hear things like that there is a future worth living for and that you need to try to be happy even tho it's hard. I don't want to say anything you might have been told already but I do want to help and I'm willing to listen. You can even add me on Skype and I'll listen to you audibly if that helps too. Just know that someone is here for you. Please don't hurt yourself and if you need anything just pm me I'm always/mostly on the forums.
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Post by ehela on Oct 9, 2016 1:56:50 GMT -5
ok this is going to be hard to explain bc im a1 at messing stuff up but sure, ok life sucks nothings going right but to end it and say there is no chance for you is just... you cant tell the future? maybe itll be bad for days weeks months years but what if it gets better? what if you recover?(which i believe you can there are so many ways like medication isnt the only way to solve problems it just solves symptoms) maybe itll take a long time, but itll be worth it when you get better holy to say you made it and be an inspiration, even now, its worth it
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Post by Cheyenne on Oct 9, 2016 7:23:44 GMT -5
Your going to survive. In a few months you'll be yourself again hopefully. If not, and these thoughts continue, seek help. Don't let yourself go too far without it. In the mean time do what I do, first off, don't bottle up your feelings. I do that, and it has made things a lot worse for me. If you must, allow yourself to cry in a quiet room. Watch your favorite show/YouTuber or read a good book. It helps, trust me.
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