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Post by ❴ ғα∂ιηg ✦ яεαℓιтү ❵ on Oct 2, 2016 14:06:54 GMT -5
TW FOR PRETTY MUCH EVERYTHING YOU CAN THINK OF, READ AT YOUR OWN DISCRETION (mods if you need to edit anything or want me to take something down lmk, i just need to inform people as well as vent, sorry if this is stepping over any rules)
so its me, some of you know me, others dont, its been a while since ive really posted except for a few ones here and there. first off i want to say this:
i LOVE you guys, especially my friends here, you all are so great and amazing and supportive and just all around wonderful
ive been going through a rough time lately, really bad actually im losing a lot of my rl friends, and the others are flaking out on me with plans even though they keep making promises to be there for me
as some of you may know i was forced to owner surrender my dog who ive had for 10 years (since she was a puppy) by my dad. well i called the shelter yesterday to see why she hadnt been put up on the website for adoption and turns out they put her down, they wouldnt tell me why but all i know is shes dead
its been really hard on me, she was my best friend and was always there for me, she use to come and put a paw on me when i was crying and she would put herself between me and other people when i started feeling anxious, she was amazing, i loved her so much and now shes gone
and now its october, which use to be one of my favorite months but since when my ex sexually assaulted me last year ive dreaded it, especially the 16th, the day it happened bc i know its going to trigger me even more
so theres all that going on, and more that im not comfortable talking about but ive gotten back into some bad habits, ive started cutting again, which i havent done since january, ive started using pain killers again which i hadnt done since 2015 in may, but worst of all is im wanting to die again
idk why im even typing this all out, i dont want to talk about it, i just want someone to sit down with me and let me cry in their lap, but no one is willing to do that who is close enough for me too
im probably not gonna respond much to this, i just feel awful about everything rn and dont know where to turn
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Post by Splintercat on Oct 2, 2016 14:09:07 GMT -5
I'm so sorry that you've gone through so much. I don't even know what to say. We don't know each other very much, but I'm here if you ever need someone to talk with.
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Post by Deleted on Oct 2, 2016 15:09:46 GMT -5
I'm so, so sorry you're having to deal with all of this. If you ever want to PM me, feel free to do so. Or if you just want to chat about something random just to talk to someone/get your mind off of things, I can do that too. Remember that there's also the tab at the top of this site with hotlines for all sorts of different stuff, whatever you may need. I swear you're not alone in all this. Even though you might feel like you're losing people left and right and you probably feel terrible, you're not alone. You don't have to go through this by yourself. Take care of yourself the best you can, okay? One step at a time. And reach out if you need someone. There are people who want to be there for you. :3
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Post by 🎃❅❖.Şp໐໐kฯຟiຖ໓.❖❅🎃 on Oct 2, 2016 15:12:06 GMT -5
You can cry in my virtual lap. I am very sorry about your current circumstance, however.
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Post by *Ravenpaw* on Oct 2, 2016 15:14:56 GMT -5
I'm sorry you are dealing with all this. *hugs*
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Post by Deleted on Oct 2, 2016 15:22:07 GMT -5
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Post by qυeeɴ oғ ɢнoѕтlιɴɢѕ on Oct 2, 2016 15:26:00 GMT -5
I'm sorry I'm so sorry you had to go through all that. I want to fly over to you and give you a million times infinity hugs. I hope virtual hugs will suffice for now but if you ever need to talk I'm here so just pm me and I'll listen and comfort. -huggles snuggles and cuddles comfortingly-
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Post by Deleted on Oct 2, 2016 16:12:07 GMT -5
if you lived close, i would let you come over to my house and lay in my lap and we could do whatever you wanted to, watch a movie, or just cuddle, whatever's good. i really hope you feel better, pal. you can always dm me if you need. i might not be the best of help, but i might be able to help just a little bit.
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Post by Deleted on Oct 2, 2016 16:25:21 GMT -5
i'm so sorry my friend <3 you're wonderful, and i'm sorry that life has dealt you a bad hand right now. i love you, and i will be sending you well wishes and prayers. you're in my thoughts.
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Post by ❴ ғα∂ιηg ✦ яεαℓιтү ❵ on Oct 2, 2016 18:41:44 GMT -5
thanks everyone i kinda just lost yet another friend-my best friend at that-5 minutes ago
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Post by Deleted on Oct 2, 2016 19:02:47 GMT -5
im sorry, rea. pleaseeee if you ever feel like cutting or anything bad, pm me. you can pm me at any time. please, stay safe. ily
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Post by lesbian on Oct 2, 2016 19:06:59 GMT -5
i'm so sorry this has been happening my friend, i'm always here if you need someone to talk to <3
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Post by ❴ ғα∂ιηg ✦ яεαℓιтү ❵ on Oct 2, 2016 19:34:57 GMT -5
thank you guys ily both
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Post by Deleted on Oct 2, 2016 19:44:02 GMT -5
I'm so sorry that you've gone through so much. I don't even know what to say. We don't know each other very much, but I'm here if you ever need someone to talk with. Seconded.
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Post by qυeeɴ oғ ɢнoѕтlιɴɢѕ on Oct 2, 2016 19:45:57 GMT -5
I know I already posted before but I'm worrying about you. I want to wrap you in a warm blanket and tell you it will all be okay. Again if you ever want someone to talk to you can reach me at any of the places on my profile and you can pm me. I'll always be here
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Post by breadcat on Oct 2, 2016 22:13:31 GMT -5
I'm so sorry that you've gone through so much. I don't even know what to say. We don't know each other very much, but I'm here if you ever need someone to talk with. Seconded. Third-ed my pms are always open tho
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Post by tiger beetle on Oct 2, 2016 22:18:45 GMT -5
oh no I'm sorry about all of that
you can talk to me if you need to but I know we don't know each other well so I also understand if that would not help
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Post by Deleted on Oct 3, 2016 14:33:01 GMT -5
Woah....I had no idea this sort of thing was happening to you. ❴ ғα∂ιηg ✦ яεαℓιтү ❵ I'm so sorry this kinda of drama has entered your life. I will be here for you and in case you need to vent, my inbox will be open. The future may seem shut down now, but there are always things to look forward to.
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Post by ❴ ғα∂ιηg ✦ яεαℓιтү ❵ on Oct 3, 2016 20:45:23 GMT -5
Thanks everyone, knowing you all care means a lot
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