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Post by Deleted on Sept 21, 2016 19:09:19 GMT -5
aka what the inside of my head sounds like 24/7
you see sometimes i just can't think right. am i going crazy? no. sometimes, i just can't think- you're going crazy! no. sometimes, i just can't think right because i... did i turn off my computer? no, that's not what i'm talking about i'm talking about... HACKERS in your COMPUTER! stop, i just want to talk about the fact that sometimes i can't think- hackers in the computer- sometimes i can't think right because i- should i go back upstairs and check?- sometimes i can't think right because i have an anxiety disorder. DEVELOPING PSYCHOSIS. no, no, an anxiety- DEVELOPING PSYCHOSIS. no, stop, i do not have developing psychosis. i have generalized anxiety disorder with... what if i get possessed? don't say that. we're not thinking about that right now. shut up. i- YOU'RE GOING TO GET POSSESSED. how? stop? no i'm not. like i was saying, i have an anxiety disorder, and- YOU'RE GOING TO GET POSSESSED. no i'm not, stop- HACKERS ARE IN YOUR COMPUTER- i just want to talk about my anxiety disorder, god. anyways, it's called generalized anxiety disorder, and- WHY DOES YOUR EYE HURT. i don't know? sometimes it makes me obsess over things and- YOU'RE ALREADY POSSESSED- YOUR EYE HAS PARASITES IN IT. no it doesn't. stop. i just want to talk about- HACKERS AND PARASITES! DEVELOPING PSYCHOSIS! POSSESSION! STOP WATCHING HORROR MOVIES YOUR GOING TO GET POSSESSED! WORMS, WORMS, WORMS IN EYES AND EATING AND POSSESSION AND GHOSTS AND MENTAL ILLNESS! YOU'RE GOING TO THE MENTAL HOSPITAL AND WORMS IN YOUR FACE AND-
i just want quiet.
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Post by Deleted on Sept 21, 2016 19:15:06 GMT -5
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Post by Deleted on Sept 21, 2016 19:38:26 GMT -5
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Post by Deleted on Sept 21, 2016 19:48:06 GMT -5
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Post by Splintercat on Sept 21, 2016 19:56:57 GMT -5
Me too. My mind gets intruded upon all the time. I know the feelsies. Sorry this happens to you
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Post by Deleted on Sept 21, 2016 20:01:20 GMT -5
Me too. My mind gets intruded upon all the time. I know the feelsies. Sorry this happens to you I'm sorry ):
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Post by Lórien on Sept 21, 2016 20:06:45 GMT -5
Sameee And I am always worrying about hackers. Always. (Honestly I think I may have anxiety? I don't know though... I don't really want to bring it up with my parents and I'm not that good at figuring it out for myself.)
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Post by ๖ۣۜCrossroads on Sept 21, 2016 20:07:47 GMT -5
This is basically me, except I say all of it out loud
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Post by Deleted on Sept 21, 2016 20:09:37 GMT -5
Sameee And I am always worrying about hackers. Always. (Honestly I think I may have anxiety? I don't know though... I don't really want to bring it up with my parents and I'm not that good at figuring it out for myself.) SAME i can never do anything on my computer without checking the downloads and recent sites to make sure there's been no undocumented activity but don't worry about telling people boo honestly, SO many of my family members started talking about their anxiety after we found out about me
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Post by Deleted on Sept 21, 2016 20:10:18 GMT -5
This is basically me, except I say all of it out loud sometimes i'll say "no" or "stop" out loud
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Post by Deleted on Sept 21, 2016 20:12:35 GMT -5
i get worried about hackers and i actually put tape over my cameras in case people were spying on me. that probably sound crazy.
there's also some other thoughts that have been driving me insane lately but i don't want to ramble so i won't mention them
im sorry this is happening, i wish i could help
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Post by Lórien on Sept 21, 2016 20:14:58 GMT -5
Sameee And I am always worrying about hackers. Always. (Honestly I think I may have anxiety? I don't know though... I don't really want to bring it up with my parents and I'm not that good at figuring it out for myself.) SAME i can never do anything on my computer without checking the downloads and recent sites to make sure there's been no undocumented activity but don't worry about telling people boo honestly, SO many of my family members started talking about their anxiety after we found out about me I think most of my fear comes from my dad being so strict about the laptop.. Ooohh he would get so mad if a virus got on the laptop. Honestly if a hacker found out where I lived somehow I don't know if being in a military family makes it safer or worse? We live on a gated base (With no kidding guards with GUNS at the entrance.), but people could possible mess with my dads job? I don't know. I mean, I would say something but I can't bring myself to. Confronting people and talking to them about things like that scares me to deaths and I start sobbing... Whoops
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Post by John 3:16 on Sept 21, 2016 20:15:07 GMT -5
I mean, I can kind of relate, as I feel like my posters and those little funko dolls up on my shelf are watching me and the government is hacking into my computer to peer out the webcam and just *shivers*
but this sounds much worse than whatever I have, and I totally bet it is, even though it is't my fault I'm sorry and I wish there was some way I could help.
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Post by Deleted on Sept 21, 2016 20:21:25 GMT -5
i get worried about hackers and i actually put tape over my cameras in case people were spying on me. that probably sound crazy. there's also some other thoughts that have been driving me insane lately but i don't want to ramble so i won't mention them im sorry this is happening, i wish i could help no i did that once too but ugh i'm so sorry bud it's been happening to me for a long time tho it's chill
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Post by Deleted on Sept 21, 2016 20:22:11 GMT -5
SAME i can never do anything on my computer without checking the downloads and recent sites to make sure there's been no undocumented activity but don't worry about telling people boo honestly, SO many of my family members started talking about their anxiety after we found out about me I think most of my fear comes from my dad being so strict about the laptop.. Ooohh he would get so mad if a virus got on the laptop. Honestly if a hacker found out where I lived somehow I don't know if being in a military family makes it safer or worse? We live on a gated base (With no kidding guards with GUNS at the entrance.), but people could possible mess with my dads job? I don't know. I mean, I would say something but I can't bring myself to. Confronting people and talking to them about things like that scares me to deaths and I start sobbing... Whoops idk either man i'm not tech savvy which is another reason i get worried but oh no don't cry ):
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Post by Deleted on Sept 21, 2016 20:22:39 GMT -5
I mean, I can kind of relate, as I feel like my posters and those little funko dolls up on my shelf are watching me and the government is hacking into my computer to peer out the webcam and just *shivers*
but this sounds much worse than whatever I have, and I totally bet it is, even though it is't my fault I'm sorry and I wish there was some way I could help. no no i'm sorry that sucks ):
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Post by Невыносимая коммунизм on Sept 21, 2016 20:26:18 GMT -5
i get worried about hackers and i actually put tape over my cameras in case people were spying on me. that probably sound crazy. there's also some other thoughts that have been driving me insane lately but i don't want to ramble so i won't mention them im sorry this is happening, i wish i could help I used to love playing Firstmice and I got to lvl 100 but I was banned because my computer was lagging and someone thought I was hacking.
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Post by Lórien on Sept 21, 2016 20:28:47 GMT -5
I think most of my fear comes from my dad being so strict about the laptop.. Ooohh he would get so mad if a virus got on the laptop. Honestly if a hacker found out where I lived somehow I don't know if being in a military family makes it safer or worse? We live on a gated base (With no kidding guards with GUNS at the entrance.), but people could possible mess with my dads job? I don't know. I mean, I would say something but I can't bring myself to. Confronting people and talking to them about things like that scares me to deaths and I start sobbing... Whoops idk either man i'm not tech savvy which is another reason i get worried but oh no don't cry ): Same here... I always worry about the Goverment watching my internet history... It could be possible, considering I sometimes know where my dad is in the ocean which might be considered somewhat secret? I mean, why would they trust a 13 year old with information that could get their ship in huge trouble. When we touring the ship we weren't allowed to post anything, as the ship could be tracked down with that. I try not to, it doesn't work though.
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Post by Deleted on Sept 21, 2016 21:05:29 GMT -5
i get worried about hackers and i actually put tape over my cameras in case people were spying on me. that probably sound crazy. there's also some other thoughts that have been driving me insane lately but i don't want to ramble so i won't mention them im sorry this is happening, i wish i could help I used to love playing Firstmice and I got to lvl 100 but I was banned because my computer was lagging and someone thought I was hacking.
oh yikes
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Post by Deleted on Sept 21, 2016 21:06:29 GMT -5
idk either man i'm not tech savvy which is another reason i get worried but oh no don't cry ): Same here... I always worry about the Goverment watching my internet history... It could be possible, considering I sometimes know where my dad is in the ocean which might be considered somewhat secret? I mean, why would they trust a 13 year old with information that could get their ship in huge trouble. When we touring the ship we weren't allowed to post anything, as the ship could be tracked down with that. I try not to, it doesn't work though. ahh that's scary. my dad's not military, but my aunt and uncle are i'm sorry boo
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Post by Lórien on Sept 21, 2016 21:11:56 GMT -5
Same here... I always worry about the Goverment watching my internet history... It could be possible, considering I sometimes know where my dad is in the ocean which might be considered somewhat secret? I mean, why would they trust a 13 year old with information that could get their ship in huge trouble. When we touring the ship we weren't allowed to post anything, as the ship could be tracked down with that. I try not to, it doesn't work though. ahh that's scary. my dad's not military, but my aunt and uncle are i'm sorry boo Yah, it is. Sometimes I hate being military but I like it at the same time. I have to move every 4 years or so and my dad is deployed all the time, normally on 24 hour shifts if he isn't. I have no clue to say in these situations because of my horrible social skills. Bring homeschooled before really decreased my knowledge of socializing when I need to learn how to.
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Post by Deleted on Sept 21, 2016 21:25:43 GMT -5
i get worried about hackers and i actually put tape over my cameras in case people were spying on me. that probably sound crazy. there's also some other thoughts that have been driving me insane lately but i don't want to ramble so i won't mention them im sorry this is happening, i wish i could help I used to love playing Firstmice and I got to lvl 100 but I was banned because my computer was lagging and someone thought I was hacking.
Probably because firstmice is not the real game. The real game is Transformice, firstmice is a private server
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Post by Deleted on Sept 21, 2016 21:29:31 GMT -5
ahh that's scary. my dad's not military, but my aunt and uncle are i'm sorry boo Yah, it is. Sometimes I hate being military but I like it at the same time. I have to move every 4 years or so and my dad is deployed all the time, normally on 24 hour shifts if he isn't. I have no clue to say in these situations because of my horrible social skills. Bring homeschooled before really decreased my knowledge of socializing when I need to learn how to.
ahh i'm sorry but hey it's okay man i'm a horrible socializer half the time
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Post by ehela on Sept 21, 2016 21:32:53 GMT -5
oh man i feel, i get paranoid really easy and all the time today i kept on check my paper repeatedly just to make sure my brain kept on saying what if its not and since the guy was waiting next to me for the stapler he literally said "i think youre good" and took the stapler lol it sucks when it interferes in social settings
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Post by Lórien on Sept 21, 2016 21:35:34 GMT -5
Yah, it is. Sometimes I hate being military but I like it at the same time. I have to move every 4 years or so and my dad is deployed all the time, normally on 24 hour shifts if he isn't. I have no clue to say in these situations because of my horrible social skills. Bring homeschooled before really decreased my knowledge of socializing when I need to learn how to.
ahh i'm sorry but hey it's okay man i'm a horrible socializer half the time Again I have no clue what to say. I honestly have zero clue what to do when people take pity on me.
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