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Post by Brownie on Sept 13, 2016 18:11:03 GMT -5
She didn't think it was possible
to choke on tears.
But now she did.
She knew how it felt.
The tears :
warm, hot as the passion
she feels--felt.
Tight as her grip
on reality--on fantasy.
She had been so big
she was so, so small
A child playing as queen
unbeatable, invincible broken
Perhaps it had been chance
to find this paradise
a stroke of luck a curse
perhaps it was destiny
she didn't believe in destiny
to wander forever
forever alone
The days were long
time was short
the world was limitless
she didn't think she'd ever
find Forever. Forever was something
just pretend it was real
tomorrow was another today
today was nothing
The tears choked her
filling her mouth until she couldn't breathe
the salt tasteless on her tongue.
The tears blinded her
her vision spotted black
blinding her from the truth.
There was nothing to see
She cried.
She knew sorrow.
Hurt, pain joy
She knew there was no tomorrow
no today
no Forever.
She cried
until she could bear no more tears
until they filled her
choked her. saved her
She cried for Forever.
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Post by Brownie on Sept 13, 2016 18:18:30 GMT -5
tbh not really feeling it but vent.
I've been contemplating "leaving" the forums for the last few weeks. It's hard to say it in words now, but I have been finding it harder and harder to justify why I'm still here. Friends, sure. Memories, of course. But happiness? Improvement? . . . Desperation? The forums were my Forever.
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Post by Brownie on Sept 14, 2016 18:17:05 GMT -5
yeah this actually really sucks but guess who doesn't care? xD
and I was trying to make a pun but tbh it didn't work out that well.
you'll probably see a remake of this that is actually half decent maybe.
Depends if I get around to it/decide to post it here.
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Post by mintedstar/fur on Sept 20, 2016 14:40:27 GMT -5
*hugs Brownie*
You know I would miss you if you left.
Also, this story is interesting, but I don't really understand it... It's good, but I don't understand it.
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Post by ☪ঌяανєηƒαηтαѕуঌ☪ on Sept 21, 2016 10:09:53 GMT -5
Brownie! No! I just came back!
but- on another hand- I understand what you're saying. That's te reason I have to actually come back- I didn't come on here because I couldn't feel any reason or motivation to. On the old forums- I'd check in, even if I knew that'd really be nothing to see or anything, but it was my home and I'd start itching if I was gone too long. Whenever I popped in, I'd leave feeling comforted and refreshed.
But these forums- the one time I popped in briefly between things, I ended up leaving feeling discomforted and with a bitter taste in my mouth. Maybe I should decide to just stay away from anything that's not the WFF, art forum or rp.
But don't leave- let's stay here, even if it's only in name, sure, take your focus to other things, go out, but stay here as well. Just so our community is still in a way here. I'm lacking in the will to bring back my actual fanfics and get back to work on them, but I'm going to start posting a saga here, with goals to update it everyday.
It's a lovely poem.
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Post by mintedstar/fur on Sept 21, 2016 14:28:11 GMT -5
Brownie! No! I just came back!
but- on another hand- I understand what you're saying. That's te reason I have to actually come back- I didn't come on here because I couldn't feel any reason or motivation to. On the old forums- I'd check in, even if I knew that'd really be nothing to see or anything, but it was my home and I'd start itching if I was gone too long. Whenever I popped in, I'd leave feeling comforted and refreshed.
But these forums- the one time I popped in briefly between things, I ended up leaving feeling discomforted and with a bitter taste in my mouth. Maybe I should decide to just stay away from anything that's not the WFF, art forum or rp.
But don't leave- let's stay here, even if it's only in name, sure, take your focus to other things, go out, but stay here as well. Just so our community is still in a way here. I'm lacking in the will to bring back my actual fanfics and get back to work on them, but I'm going to start posting a saga here, with goals to update it everyday.
It's a lovely poem. I know what you mean, I'm just going to stay around those three places as well. But for me I still get that itch when I'm gone to long and I check in a lot, even if it's for no reason. And as for the community... I trust that it can be great again. In fact, I know it can. We are starting out in a new place, with new faces. But I still think this will work. |
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Post by Brownie on Sept 21, 2016 17:47:50 GMT -5
I'll still 'be' here, I just wouldn't check in almost at all xD
I'd basically be Windfeather tbh
But you summed it up pretty well, Raven. It doesn't feel as it was before. More bittersweet, like something that was once good, but isn't quite right anymore. Idk.
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Post by ☪ঌяανєηƒαηтαѕуঌ☪ on Sept 22, 2016 14:02:00 GMT -5
Brownie! No! I just came back!
but- on another hand- I understand what you're saying. That's te reason I have to actually come back- I didn't come on here because I couldn't feel any reason or motivation to. On the old forums- I'd check in, even if I knew that'd really be nothing to see or anything, but it was my home and I'd start itching if I was gone too long. Whenever I popped in, I'd leave feeling comforted and refreshed.
But these forums- the one time I popped in briefly between things, I ended up leaving feeling discomforted and with a bitter taste in my mouth. Maybe I should decide to just stay away from anything that's not the WFF, art forum or rp.
But don't leave- let's stay here, even if it's only in name, sure, take your focus to other things, go out, but stay here as well. Just so our community is still in a way here. I'm lacking in the will to bring back my actual fanfics and get back to work on them, but I'm going to start posting a saga here, with goals to update it everyday.
It's a lovely poem. I know what you mean, I'm just going to stay around those three places as well. But for me I still get that itch when I'm gone to long and I check in a lot, even if it's for no reason. And as for the community... I trust that it can be great again. In fact, I know it can. We are starting out in a new place, with new faces. But I still think this will work.
But the strange thing is- even with how the rules seemed oppressive and moderators strict and whatnot, I've realized that that- the ban on difficult topics, outside links, limited choice of avatars, rule pg-13- was what made the forums such a calming, homely place, like sanctuary to find solace. It was only warriors, only cats, and a whole lot of slightly ridiculous fun and even more ridiculous drama. And I can see that it won't be that way anymore. No, I'm not saying that this forum is suddenly horrible, and that all of the strict rules and stricter ghost rules should've stayed, or any of that- like hey, just look at how features are improved in this place- but I'm going to watch my toes more carefully. And I know that the Warrior Cats Forums, the Erin Hunter Message Boards, they are gone. There's this place of course, but my old forums are gone. It's still enough to make me cry.
So- my energy level just isn't up to snuff for facing this with any more zeal at the moment. ;u; but I'll definitely tackle making a place for myself here, after I can gather enough breath for the challenge. so- yay! |
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Post by ☪ঌяανєηƒαηтαѕуঌ☪ on Sept 22, 2016 14:06:58 GMT -5
I'll still 'be' here, I just wouldn't check in almost at all xD I'd basically be Windfeather tbh But you summed it up pretty well, Raven. It doesn't feel as it was before. More bittersweet, like something that was once good, but isn't quite right anymore. Idk.
And that's the feeling. Bittersweet, maybe with an unfamiliar tang of something strange. But any taste can be acquired, yes? :')
EDIT;; waitwaitwait, hold the horses, stop!- you listen to Dragonforce!? 8D that's so awesome! a friend of mine listens to them, and so she showed me a few songs, and while I generally prefer Rhapsody (or Korpiklaani), I fell in love with "Cry Thunder" and used it for an amv (my second, and last finished amv T-T)- it was perfect |
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Post by mintedstar/fur on Sept 22, 2016 14:16:53 GMT -5
First time I've been called the new generation. I mean, I was a member on the old forum since 2012. And was a guest even before that. I've been around since the beginning of the WFF.  I've played "old forum granny" before. But that doesn't make me any less hopeful. I love watching the new authors and helping them. And yes, I know what you mean. This place will never be the WCF, but that doesn't mean it can never be a home. It makes me want to cry too sometimes, but I've by no means given up. In fact, I have ever confidence that is can become a place for the WFF Community. And I'll be cheering you all the way, ☪ঌяανєηƒαηтαѕуঌ☪. |
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Post by Brownie on Sept 22, 2016 18:05:25 GMT -5
I'll still 'be' here, I just wouldn't check in almost at all xD I'd basically be Windfeather tbh But you summed it up pretty well, Raven. It doesn't feel as it was before. More bittersweet, like something that was once good, but isn't quite right anymore. Idk.
And that's the feeling. Bittersweet, maybe with an unfamiliar tang of something strange. But any taste can be acquired, yes? :')
EDIT;; waitwaitwait, hold the horses, stop!- you listen to Dragonforce!? 8D that's so awesome! a friend of mine listens to them, and so she showed me a few songs, and while I generally prefer Rhapsody (or Korpiklaani), I fell in love with "Cry Thunder" and used it for an amv (my second, and last finished amv T-T)- it was perfectxD I don't think I could ever bring myself to say I'm leaving forever. I'll be here, just not HERE if that makes sense. Cry Thunder is def my fav along with tomorrow's kings ;-; It was my first fav tho omg |
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I've played "old forum granny" before. But that doesn't make me any less hopeful. I love watching the new authors and helping them.
