Post by Fireclaw on May 1, 2017 0:12:09 GMT -5
I'm sorry I haven't been on for awhile now, I've just been really busy and have been putting off making this thread for awhile, because doing this hurts me so much and I'm too afraid of goodbyes. I am so grateful that I got the opportunity to meet all of you wonderful people over the years, what has it been... 7, 8 years now? Oh, how time flys! Joining the forums have taught me a lot, mostly about how to cherish your friendships, and pushing through the hard times together.
I'm not very good at goodbyes, so I'm going to get right to the point: I'm officially retiring from role playing and I'm leaving the forums and moving on in life. Hopefully within the next few days I'll be back on to say my final goodbyes to whoever, but other than that, I'll be gone for good. I will say this, though. Even though I'm pretty sure that I won't be back, I would like it if the mods didn't delete my account, because if I do come back, no matter how small of a chance it may be, I would like it to be on this account.
Now, I'm not going to tag many people in this post, mainly because if I mentioned every single person in here who has affected my life, then I would never finish this and I would cry non-stop. But, there is one person who I will mention, who has affected my life in more ways than she knows. She has been with me since day one on the old forums when I joined as a new member. As most of you know, when you first join, you are a little shy to talk to anyone in this whole new world, at least I was. But Hawkeyes258 came to me, talked to me, and helped bring me out of my shell. We role played together in countless rps, chatted with each other for years. She made me who I am today. Without her, I would be nothing right now, without her, I would be dead. There was a time, a few years ago, when I was really contemplating suicide because I seemed that everything I did was wrong, and everything and everybody in real life were against me. I didn't tell anybody about this, but it almost felt like Hawky sensed it, like she could tell that something was different. We talked together for hours non stop, and, right before I was about to leave, she said "Fire, I love you man." And in that instant, I realized that life isn't as bad as I thought, that I could fight through this, because there are people like Hawk in this world who would help pull you out of your darkest moments and help show you the light. I just wish I had at least half as much of an impact on Hawk as she had on me, because without her, I don't know what I would of done that day. Hawk, I will miss you most of all, I love you so much and wish you the best.
To all the forumers out there, wherever you are, i will keep you in my prayers and in my heart. I have cherished meeting all of you, no matter how much we have talked, I love you all. Farewell, my friends, this is Fireclaw3, signing off.
I'm not very good at goodbyes, so I'm going to get right to the point: I'm officially retiring from role playing and I'm leaving the forums and moving on in life. Hopefully within the next few days I'll be back on to say my final goodbyes to whoever, but other than that, I'll be gone for good. I will say this, though. Even though I'm pretty sure that I won't be back, I would like it if the mods didn't delete my account, because if I do come back, no matter how small of a chance it may be, I would like it to be on this account.
Now, I'm not going to tag many people in this post, mainly because if I mentioned every single person in here who has affected my life, then I would never finish this and I would cry non-stop. But, there is one person who I will mention, who has affected my life in more ways than she knows. She has been with me since day one on the old forums when I joined as a new member. As most of you know, when you first join, you are a little shy to talk to anyone in this whole new world, at least I was. But Hawkeyes258 came to me, talked to me, and helped bring me out of my shell. We role played together in countless rps, chatted with each other for years. She made me who I am today. Without her, I would be nothing right now, without her, I would be dead. There was a time, a few years ago, when I was really contemplating suicide because I seemed that everything I did was wrong, and everything and everybody in real life were against me. I didn't tell anybody about this, but it almost felt like Hawky sensed it, like she could tell that something was different. We talked together for hours non stop, and, right before I was about to leave, she said "Fire, I love you man." And in that instant, I realized that life isn't as bad as I thought, that I could fight through this, because there are people like Hawk in this world who would help pull you out of your darkest moments and help show you the light. I just wish I had at least half as much of an impact on Hawk as she had on me, because without her, I don't know what I would of done that day. Hawk, I will miss you most of all, I love you so much and wish you the best.
To all the forumers out there, wherever you are, i will keep you in my prayers and in my heart. I have cherished meeting all of you, no matter how much we have talked, I love you all. Farewell, my friends, this is Fireclaw3, signing off.