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Post by John 3:16 on Feb 1, 2017 18:20:13 GMT -5
i seem like one of those attention whores that constantly want the spotlight don't i
in my journey away from the forums, i felt soo much better about myself, and i knew this would be the result. even though this site was my escape for a while, it turned into a place where i could only look on in sadness and wonder what went wrong with me. and now i'm back here simply because i'm addicted, and god i just... the feeling of unwant just keeps washing over me as i realized that even in otrp, which i thought i could escape to, has even failed me.
this site is making me feel so much worse than i had been before.
i'm an oversensitive person, even to things online, so when shit like this happens it aches. i truly hurt inside when people dislike me. i crave attention because my parents focused more on my troubled brother than they did on me in life, which has only begun to change recently. i'm truly thinking of leaving, maybe even deleting my account for good measure. i don't want to be here, i don't need to be here, i'm not wanted around here, but yet i still keep crawling back for more.
i don't give a **** if this doesn't make sense to you. i'm trying to let this out. i'm angry as shit, and i want to be involved. i want to be relevant. i don't want to be that one emo chick that people pretend to like. and i hate saying all of this because it makes me seem like an attention crazed person, who cuts themself for notes on tumblr. it makes me seem as though i'm throwing down the victim card, begging for views or responses. i seem so goddamn edgy when i say shit like this. everything sooo edgy these days, isn't it? shame, i wanted to be taken seriously for once and not be brushed off like i have been time and time again.
so long and goodnight ****ers.
-xoxopete
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Post by Deleted on Feb 1, 2017 18:31:40 GMT -5
So you assume I pretend to like you or think of you as an emo attention . Okay
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Post by John 3:16 on Feb 1, 2017 18:32:53 GMT -5
So you assume I pretend to like you or think of you as an emo attention . Okay it's certainly what it looks like m'dear.
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Post by Deleted on Feb 1, 2017 18:35:23 GMT -5
That mindset is the problem. I actually genuinely like you, in the present tense.
If you don't like me then I shouldn't be trying to help, but I have a reason. I like you and don't want to see you quit. Should I not?
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Post by Sour Candy on Feb 1, 2017 18:36:03 GMT -5
what
I think you might need to chill
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