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Post by Stormsong~ on Jan 17, 2017 16:21:24 GMT -5
Michi wanted to look him in the eyes and tell him that it was okay; she wanted to more than almost anything in the world, but if he saw her tears, she knew that he would likely break again, and she could not let that happen- especially not over her. She hugged him tighter and tried to comfort him by drawing small circles into his back as she tried to fight off the shaking. She was thankful that he held her so tight, so it was hard for her body to move and betray her emotions. "Darling, I'm not going to leave. You show me almost constantly that you love me. I'm more scared that you'll leave me than that you'll never love me. I'm scared that you'll block me out a," she caught herself on the word again, not wanting to agitate his guilt. "Besides, you just met me, what, a month ago at. the most? I'm the fool for falling for so fast; you're just being cautious, and I can respect that. Maybe one day, and when it comes I'll be the happiest girl in existence. Until then, I'll wait. It's not an expectation of you to say it, so please don't think it is. For me, you are enough." She stopped then, not wanting to talk anymore because her bottom lip wobbled, and she could hardly control her tears at that point.
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Post by Stormsong~ on Jan 17, 2017 16:22:55 GMT -5
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Post by Stormsong~ on Jan 17, 2017 16:24:21 GMT -5
I want to learn how to dance so bad *cries*. I suck at it, but its so pretty and emotional and UGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG Why is my body a potato I'm going to take so many dance classes in college~
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Post by Myst on Jan 17, 2017 16:26:47 GMT -5
Yeah no problem~~
And yasssss lay it on me
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Post by Myst on Jan 17, 2017 16:27:11 GMT -5
I feel that spiritually Lolz I look weird when I dance
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Post by Stormsong~ on Jan 17, 2017 16:27:21 GMT -5
Click the link I put on called "This this this this" and prepare to cry
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Post by Stormsong~ on Jan 17, 2017 16:27:58 GMT -5
I'm sure you look amazing!~
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Post by Myst on Jan 17, 2017 16:28:55 GMT -5
Ohhhh I'll watch it after this game of pool lolz
Nah I look like a lil potato
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Post by Stormsong~ on Jan 17, 2017 16:33:56 GMT -5
I see you are also addicted to that game. I played so much pool this summer, it isn't even funny
Oh shush~
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Post by Myst on Jan 17, 2017 16:36:25 GMT -5
I started again when I went to the rodeo with my friend Lolz cause they had pool tables at our hotel
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Post by Stormsong~ on Jan 17, 2017 16:42:39 GMT -5
nice It's. a fun game. What is a rodeo like?
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Post by Myst on Jan 17, 2017 17:00:34 GMT -5
A mild panic was beginning to set in, and Orion felt like he was losing control of everything. His thoughts, emotions, just everything. Whether he regained control or she took it for him, he didn't quite care at this point. As her arms tightened around him, he did what he could to keep what little control he had left on his breathing. Michiko's words felt like a stab to the heart, and he wasn't sure what to say. Even still, he started talking. "I just... I thought... I didn't. I didn't think. It was selfish and I'm sorry. It jwasn't supposed to hurt - I'm sorry." The fae fell silent, knowing he wouldn't really be able to form sentences after that.
It was a while before he spoke up again. He was at a point where he no longer wanted to address the issue, and still couldn't keep his thoughts under control. "Can... can we do something? Anything? Please."
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Post by Myst on Jan 17, 2017 17:02:18 GMT -5
Oh gosh it's so fun! I mean it's occassioanlly stressful to watch cause when they do cow wrestling sometimes the cow won't go down so their just twisting its head and like cows necks actually turn really far by nature, and they're plenty strong, but like that doesn't make it any less cringey
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Post by Stormsong~ on Jan 17, 2017 17:11:28 GMT -5
That sounds really interesting
Michiko heard the panic in his voice, and it just snapped her. She pulled back and slid off of the bench, standing and facing the wall as the silent tears streamed down her face. She wanted to help him and yet all she was doing was hurting him. She put her face in her hands as she tried to keep her anxiety from spilling over. She knew he loved her and that he would never leave her, so why did it hurt her so much that he had blocked her out? Why was she so worried that he wouldn't' feel better. She didn't answer him for the longest time as she cried- caught up in her world of anxiety. Sniffling, she shook her head and said. "I would love too, but I think it's best if I just go right now. I'm just hurting you, Orion. What if I can't be what you need? I'm not good enough to be yours." She trailed off, taking a few steps towards the door as self hatred filled her. Why couldn't she just dance with the damn fae? And yet, it wasn't that simple. He was going to leave her eventually, she knew that.
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Post by Myst on Jan 17, 2017 18:00:24 GMT -5
The fae jolted when she moved, head shooting up as she got up from the bench and left him. Where was she going? Was she finally done with him? Surely she was. Even still, he didn't want her to leave and he didn't know what to do when he suddenly found his arms empty. Anything he was feeling suddenly ceased, and he felt like he was a child again. His thoughts cleared a decent amount. As she spoke, Orion hung his head, hands moving to the sides of the bench to grip it like his life depended on it. "Please... it may not seem like it but you keep me grounded. We both have problems that we're trying to get through and..." for a moment he just stopped, drawing in a deep breath. "I need you. I won't stop you, though." He wouldn't. If she needed to be alone, then he'd let her.
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Post by Stormsong~ on Jan 17, 2017 18:10:18 GMT -5
Michiko felt heart heart break at his tone, and she finally lost it. Bawling, she ran back to him, and threw herself into his arms as hot tears ran down her face. She snuggled into his chest as she let her anxiety run rampant. "I'm so scared." She whimpered. (Dinner brb) "I don't want to lose you." She held on tight, her eyes devoid of light as the darkness took over her thoughts.
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Post by Myst on Jan 17, 2017 18:19:32 GMT -5
Orion's arms came up around her immediately, holding her close. "It's okay to be scared," he murmured, taking to rubbing her back gently. "No matter what happens, you'll always have me. Whatever happens, even if I break down and lose myself, I'll always come back to you," he murmured, kissing her head. For now, he remained devoid of emotions to better focus on her. As long as she was okay, then he would be too. "I'll always be yours, I promise."
Kkz~
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Post by Stormsong~ on Jan 17, 2017 18:40:38 GMT -5
Backerdoodles
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Post by Myst on Jan 17, 2017 18:42:23 GMT -5
Littttttt
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Post by Stormsong~ on Jan 17, 2017 18:45:23 GMT -5
Michiko sobbed in his arms for a good 10 minutes, head buried in his chest, as pitiful whimpers and the occasional small cry escaped her. Her thoughts were of her dead family, and of Orion leaving her. They even floated to the moment when the casket bearers had laid her gram in the ground. She sobbed, holding onto him for dear life as his words remained the only lining of light next to her prayers. She slid off the bench and just kind of held onto his leg like a scared little koala bear, nestling her face against his knee as she broke down and shook like a leaf as her tiny hands clamped onto his jeans and legs as if they were her only anchor in the world. She kept her face buried on his thigh as she tried to control her breathing and shake the darkness off.
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Post by Stormsong~ on Jan 17, 2017 18:45:59 GMT -5
I'M SO EXCITED>>>.> I JUST CANT HIDE IT>>>>>
Did you get to see the video yet???
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Post by Myst on Jan 17, 2017 18:53:47 GMT -5
Orion held her, murmuring soft assurances to her as she shook and cried. He continued to rub her back gently, kissing her head now and then. Eventually he found that she was now wrapped around his leg, so he took to running his fingers through his hair. By now he didn't say anything else, simply running his fingers through her hair gently as she always did for him.
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Post by Myst on Jan 17, 2017 18:54:25 GMT -5
I started it but then like a group of people I mostly enjoy showed up Lolz But it looked super good
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Post by Stormsong~ on Jan 17, 2017 19:00:06 GMT -5
Michiko smiled despite herself when she felt him petting her hair, and the thought that he was copying her actions to calm her down was just enough to pull her back. She knew in that moment that he loved her, even if he would not admit it out loud just yet. She looked up at him up at him, and the sight of her scene was surely shocking. The normally yellow sunset was ashy gray and all of the starts and birds that normally resided there had disappeared. Even the flowers that had bloomed there only minutes before were turned to stone. The only thing recognizable left was the Orion's Belt, and even that struggled to twinkle in the waste land of gray as the black of her pupil started to over come the color of her eyes. Whimpering as she felt her heart being pierced, she reached up in a silent question for a hug. Her skin was an ashy gray and growing paler by the second, and ever her hair was starting to return to it's original blonde color. (AAANNNDD I'm a a nugget muncher, so I decided to foreshadow the unseelie fae even though that's still like 20 pages off because I suck as a human being)
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Post by Stormsong~ on Jan 17, 2017 19:01:08 GMT -5
Lol, that sounds like me
It's so cute <3 I'm in love with it, and I want to dance to that with my husband someday. I literally picked up my guitar and started learning how to play it after I went to my room ^-^'
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Post by Myst on Jan 17, 2017 19:04:52 GMT -5
That's cuteeee I'm gunna watch the whole thing a bit later when I'm procrastinating on everything Lolz
I'm also in line for food so I'll respond a bit later
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Post by Stormsong~ on Jan 17, 2017 19:07:59 GMT -5
okay Have fun with food ^~^
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Post by Myst on Jan 17, 2017 21:25:11 GMT -5
OKAY SO LIKE
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Post by Myst on Jan 17, 2017 21:25:40 GMT -5
I lowkey wanted Orion to just 'casually' be like an Unseelie fae orphan child thing
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Post by Stormsong~ on Jan 17, 2017 21:27:33 GMT -5
I kinda did too >.>
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