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Post by mintedstar/fur🦇 on Sept 5, 2021 6:47:32 GMT -5
Hello all. I used to post updates in the board I was most active in, but since I've been active across multiple boards I couldn't think of where to put this. At any rate, I wanted to give an update for my life, as that my constantly 'bad mental health' status is likely not enough anymore. So let me break down the fact that 2021 has really worn me down. And as the months progress, it's gotten worse. I just left a week where I cried 4 out of 7 days. It's been hard. For various reasons. There's been difficult situations with my family, to the point where I'm having issues talking to them about certain factors of my life. I've run into a lot of homophobia/transphobia in my personal life, which I hadn't experienced to this extent before. And to cap off an already stressful year, I've been on evac notice twice in two months. The thought of losing everything I own is not a pleasant stressor. I haven't had to evac, but it's there. Sprinkle in various other chaotic 'this year' things as well. And then add to that an impending surgery (which touches on one of my more serious triggers, so I wont discuss), and I'm a full Minty smoothie of stress this year. And it's only September. It's not all bad, don't get me wrong. I've been talking with my friends and I've also recently been looking into my school counseling. But for a while there I wasn't recognizing how much all of this year has been effecting me. So I've been trying to work on how I'm responding to it. I assure you I am okay. Headspace is fine, it's just the most painful symptom is more stress than is healthy for me and a lackluster inability to get into the things I truly enjoy. One of which is the forums. I've quite willing sold my soul to WCRP, as many of you probably know. But recently, it's been a struggle to even open the tab, never mind reply. And it has nothing to do with not wanting to be here. It simply is the fact that all my desire to reply and be active here is around, but I just can't do it. It's very hard to describe. But I've done a couple pre-checks and apparently I've got depression symptoms. Yaaaay. :/ So that would explain that. I by no means have any intention of leaving. Add to that, I don't want to try and take a break from here. This is my social group and I know closing myself off from it is not going to be a good idea. But I have been thinking about how I address my time here. But yeah, this is just an update on my life. What I'm doing. Yada yada. Doing that self-care thing. Hope y'all are doing well. <3
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Asexual
#07B04C
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Ṣanɗypaw™
The Shiny User
🎵Guess that's just the way it goes, easy come, easy go🎵
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Post by Ṣanɗypaw™ on Sept 5, 2021 9:55:22 GMT -5
Stay well Minted! Don't forget that we love our awesome mod. ❤️❤️
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Post by Chicken on Sept 5, 2021 15:18:06 GMT -5
I'm really sorry that all of that has been happening to you, I hope things improve for you soon, and I know it's difficult, but try to not let those idiotic rats who hate people for no good reason get you down, you are one of the most incredible people I have ever met, and the days are so much brighter with you in them.
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Post by Sand on Sept 5, 2021 15:42:56 GMT -5
Do what you need to do, Mint. I’m here for you all the way ❤️. If you feel the need to rant, I’m available.
pspsps if you want your soul back, we can make a deal.
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Post by 𝚜𝚙𝚊𝚛𝚔𝚜𝚌𝚊𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛 on Sept 5, 2021 16:37:48 GMT -5
Keep your head up Mint!! Do what's best for you and what you're going through. If you need anything at all just let me know! I'm always happy to lend and ear and help where I can.
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Post by mintedstar/fur🦇 on Sept 5, 2021 20:25:27 GMT -5
I'm really sorry that all of that has been happening to you, I hope things improve for you soon, and I know it's difficult, but try to not let those idiotic rats who hate people for no good reason get you down, you are one of the most incredible people I have ever met, and the days are so much brighter with you in them. Thanks. //hugs// I'm doing pretty well this week, all things considered! So I'll keep hanging in there and thank you so much for your kind words.
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Post by mintedstar/fur🦇 on Sept 5, 2021 20:26:13 GMT -5
Stay well Minted! Don't forget that we love our awesome mod. ❤️❤️ <3333
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Post by mintedstar/fur🦇 on Sept 5, 2021 20:26:55 GMT -5
Do what you need to do, Mint. I’m here for you all the way ❤️. If you feel the need to rant, I’m available. pspsps if you want your soul back, we can make a deal.Thanks a bunch! You've been the best helping me through this year, heh. Oh? Oh? And what is this deal?
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Post by Chicken on Sept 5, 2021 20:29:45 GMT -5
I'm really sorry that all of that has been happening to you, I hope things improve for you soon, and I know it's difficult, but try to not let those idiotic rats who hate people for no good reason get you down, you are one of the most incredible people I have ever met, and the days are so much brighter with you in them. Thanks. //hugs// I'm doing pretty well this week, all things considered! So I'll keep hanging in there and thank you so much for your kind words. You're welcome /hugs/ I am glad to hear that you're doing well this week! I hope yours day continue to improve If you ever need to talk, I'm usually around!
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Post by mintedstar/fur🦇 on Sept 5, 2021 20:30:39 GMT -5
Keep your head up Mint!! Do what's best for you and what you're going through. If you need anything at all just let me know! I'm always happy to lend and ear and help where I can. //hugs// Thanks Spark. That means a lot. <3 Chatting with you is always super fun.
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Post by mintedstar/fur🦇 on Sept 5, 2021 20:32:24 GMT -5
Thanks. //hugs// I'm doing pretty well this week, all things considered! So I'll keep hanging in there and thank you so much for your kind words. You're welcome /hugs/ I am glad to hear that you're doing well this week! I hope yours day continue to improve If you ever need to talk, I'm usually around! Indeed! As do I! Thanks
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Post by Chicken on Sept 5, 2021 20:38:09 GMT -5
You're welcome /hugs/ I am glad to hear that you're doing well this week! I hope yours day continue to improve If you ever need to talk, I'm usually around! Indeed! As do I! Thanks You're welcome
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Post by mintedstar/fur🦇 on Sept 7, 2021 3:44:01 GMT -5
My life would be infinitely improved by having a cat.
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Post by Chicken on Sept 7, 2021 12:32:18 GMT -5
My life would be infinitely improved by having a cat. I'll give you one of mine, separately they're great, but together, they can be a nightmare sometimes XD
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Post by Lizard 🦎 on Sept 7, 2021 21:59:23 GMT -5
Sending lots of love
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Post by mintedstar/fur🦇 on Sept 7, 2021 23:18:01 GMT -5
My life would be infinitely improved by having a cat. I'll give you one of mine, separately they're great, but together, they can be a nightmare sometimes XD I'll take either option. XD
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Post by Chicken on Sept 8, 2021 9:35:35 GMT -5
I'll give you one of mine, separately they're great, but together, they can be a nightmare sometimes XD I'll take either option. XD Okay XD I have a 5 year old female and a 2 year old male, who will be 3 in a couple of months
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Post by mintedstar/fur🦇 on Sept 8, 2021 21:48:53 GMT -5
I'll steal them both.
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Post by Chicken on Sept 8, 2021 21:58:30 GMT -5
Okay, I will find a nerd to build a matter transference machine to zap them over to you XD
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Post by mintedstar/fur🦇 on Sept 14, 2021 22:32:46 GMT -5
Okay, I will find a nerd to build a matter transference machine to zap them over to you XD Please do. And then tell me how they did it, because I'd actually be interested in knowing as a nerd myself. O:
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Post by Chicken on Sept 14, 2021 22:50:05 GMT -5
Okay, I will find a nerd to build a matter transference machine to zap them over to you XD Please do. And then tell me how they did it, because I'd actually be interested in knowing as a nerd myself. O: Okay! Haha. Or we could wait a few thousand years until their atoms transform throughout all the steps, and suddenly they form a NEW set of cats that are hopefully closer to where you are. Or we could beat up Willy Wonka and demand him to tell us how he did that TV thing where he put that annoying kid Mike in the TV.
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Post by ◽🐷✾❣◽●𝐈𝐫𝐢𝐬●◽❣✾🐷◽ on Sept 14, 2021 22:51:25 GMT -5
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StarClan leader
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Featherstar
She could now see that destiny alone could not save RiverClan. - Frostpaw, Wind
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Post by Featherstar on Sept 14, 2021 23:08:56 GMT -5
Hope you feel better Minted!
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Post by mintedstar/fur🦇 on Sept 14, 2021 23:14:44 GMT -5
Please do. And then tell me how they did it, because I'd actually be interested in knowing as a nerd myself. O: Okay! Haha. Or we could wait a few thousand years until their atoms transform throughout all the steps, and suddenly they form a NEW set of cats that are hopefully closer to where you are. Or we could beat up Willy Wonka and demand him to tell us how he did that TV thing where he put that annoying kid Mike in the TV. All of the above. Then I'll have more cats.
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Post by Chicken on Sept 14, 2021 23:22:24 GMT -5
Okay! Haha. Or we could wait a few thousand years until their atoms transform throughout all the steps, and suddenly they form a NEW set of cats that are hopefully closer to where you are. Or we could beat up Willy Wonka and demand him to tell us how he did that TV thing where he put that annoying kid Mike in the TV. All of the above. Then I'll have more cats. Yess! I wonder if you planted catnip, if cats would surround your yard?
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Post by mintedstar/fur🦇 on Sept 18, 2021 23:45:11 GMT -5
I wish they would, that'd be cute.
So, mini update: Surgery done. Mental health improved slightly, though I am ouchy. Add to that that I've been plotting my future. E.g. how to move out of this hooooooooooouse. So that's also some improvement. Though it probably wont be for another 4 years considering where I'm going to school.
Either way, it's an improvement! So I'll take it!
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Post by mintedstar/fur🦇 on Sept 26, 2021 1:50:53 GMT -5
Me @ myself: Who the heck left the money anxiety on again? :/
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Post by mintedstar/fur🦇 on Sept 29, 2021 0:22:55 GMT -5
Aaaaaaaaaaaand it's down again. :/
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Post by mintedstar/fur🦇 on Oct 1, 2021 7:24:13 GMT -5
From least important in the grand scheme of things to most important: 1) Tour in Berlin, Germany got canceled. Not really concerned about that. The email said they were concerned with us staying in a hotel. My best friend lives in Berlin, we're both vaccinated, and if I want I can visit her/stay with her. 2) Money stress just got more logical, despite the fact I've made more than expected in September. 3) The study abroad program very well might just get flat out canceled. Which relates to 4) 4) My mental health is a four letter word. I need to get out of this house. I need to see the clouds from the outside. Studying abroad is a chance to get my head straight. My family situation sucks right now. Relates to 5) 5) Due to ... //frown at 'rents // ... differences in "opinions" and junk, between now and the end of next year, I may be living on my own. Which would be fine ... if I could stay in Nevada. But housing is so short here that I'm unlikely to find a good paying job/s AND a house AND still be able to stay in school. So mental health is shot as I try looking into my options on the grounds 5) has a good chance of happens. Any combination of 4) and 5) could happen and likely both. Notes on the good stuff, because positivity: 1) I got the counselor's number at my school. I just have to have one face-to-face before I can do stuff online. Which is the only way this is going to work out. So that's good. 2) My friends rule. 'Nough said. I'm 100% unworthy of having the friend I've had, who've been helping steadying me through this very abrupt escalation of 2021. 3) If neither 4) or 5) happen, I might actually have a good opportunity for where to do my Master's? 4) I've learned more in the past couple months that I've learned in the past three years. Frankly if I respond this well, finding out this much about everything in my life, I'm going to be hard to discourage. I'm confident I'm going to be okay and have started weaving together a bunch of different backup plans and what-ifs which will hopefully keep things from collapsing around my ears. 5) I applied for three different jobs today! All of them I'm very excited for. Two are at the library again (dream job) and one as an English tutor (which I quite enjoy)! Did I mention the good friends? 'cause one of the three was tossed at me by Shiningdiamond. <3 6) So in summary, this year has been a living hell, but heck ... I'm gonna make it through okay and hopefully all the work I did this year will turn into good work later in my life. I'll work it out. It's just gonna be hard. So thanks y'all for sticking with me.
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Non-binary
#F4B548
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Dark Sun
Sage of the Stars
I'm devious, I'm devilish, I'm ever so deliciously evil
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Post by Dark Sun on Oct 1, 2021 16:49:54 GMT -5
All things considered it seems that things turned out well in the end, looking back on it. Keep on going, minty! You've got an amazing future ahead of you! Seize it! And here on WCRP, we've always got your back if you need a little support along the way.
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