Post by Pixie on May 11, 2021 18:00:06 GMT -5
Feelings are so disgusting.
If any of y'all would be willing to read my tale and respond, then let it be so lol.
First day of junior year, I met him. I did not think much of him. My science teacher had us assigned to sit next to each other. I don't know how our friendship started developing, but we started to playfully bicker. I started forming an attachment to him(??) that strengthened when I chose to sit next to him in another class of ours second semester. We talked everyday of the school year, and I feel embarrassed to admit that I had to pester him to add me back on socials. I would press my thigh against his and see if he would scoot away which he never did. I think he thought of it as some kind of game which makes me feel worse. I would ask him so many questions and he avoided a good amount of them and answered very few. I think more than anything, I wanted him to open up to me.
Yeah, my friend who sat next to us in one of our classes thought we hated each other lol.
However, overall, I think many would think of our interactions as weird, but it felt normal to me.
Anyways, as it turns out, he had a gf. It's not like he really flirted with me, but senior year (this year lol), I find out how he apparently actively cheats on her. I got this info from more than one person and I did some investigating of my own. He has a matching bio with her (an emoji), but no other evidence to signify he's in a relationship. All he did was confirm my suspicions when he sent me a chat over snap asking me to tell my friend that she looked pretty during prom. I did tell her and she had a flat reaction because she knows all of the tea. But then I was like "don't you have a gf" and he was like "did it look like I have a gf at prom" and I was like "considering all the things I've heard, idk what to believe" and then he left me on read. I caught him in a lie, but since he didn't know the extent of what I knew, he still talked to me like things were fine.
Unfortunately, I felt jealous of my friend for a hot second. I did not let my feelings affect anything, though, lol.
Like today he asked me to do the whip and the nae nae and I was like "no". He also didn't seem to hold me not setting him up with my friend against me, so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯.
I would snitch if his gf would accept my follow request that I sent like two months ago. :,)
However, the hardest part for me, personally, is that while my feelings seemed to have faded, I still feel an attachment to him and idk why. I do not think we've had a legitimate conversation since the last day of school before COVID shut everything down junior year.
It's so weird how feelings can distort the truth. Honestly, out of all the guys I've been friends with, he's the most comfortable I felt with. I thought we vibed really well, but it turns out he isn't the person I thought he was and when I look back at my memories, I played myself.
If any of y'all would be willing to read my tale and respond, then let it be so lol.
First day of junior year, I met him. I did not think much of him. My science teacher had us assigned to sit next to each other. I don't know how our friendship started developing, but we started to playfully bicker. I started forming an attachment to him(??) that strengthened when I chose to sit next to him in another class of ours second semester. We talked everyday of the school year, and I feel embarrassed to admit that I had to pester him to add me back on socials. I would press my thigh against his and see if he would scoot away which he never did. I think he thought of it as some kind of game which makes me feel worse. I would ask him so many questions and he avoided a good amount of them and answered very few. I think more than anything, I wanted him to open up to me.
Yeah, my friend who sat next to us in one of our classes thought we hated each other lol.
However, overall, I think many would think of our interactions as weird, but it felt normal to me.
Anyways, as it turns out, he had a gf. It's not like he really flirted with me, but senior year (this year lol), I find out how he apparently actively cheats on her. I got this info from more than one person and I did some investigating of my own. He has a matching bio with her (an emoji), but no other evidence to signify he's in a relationship. All he did was confirm my suspicions when he sent me a chat over snap asking me to tell my friend that she looked pretty during prom. I did tell her and she had a flat reaction because she knows all of the tea. But then I was like "don't you have a gf" and he was like "did it look like I have a gf at prom" and I was like "considering all the things I've heard, idk what to believe" and then he left me on read. I caught him in a lie, but since he didn't know the extent of what I knew, he still talked to me like things were fine.
Unfortunately, I felt jealous of my friend for a hot second. I did not let my feelings affect anything, though, lol.
Like today he asked me to do the whip and the nae nae and I was like "no". He also didn't seem to hold me not setting him up with my friend against me, so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯.
I would snitch if his gf would accept my follow request that I sent like two months ago. :,)
However, the hardest part for me, personally, is that while my feelings seemed to have faded, I still feel an attachment to him and idk why. I do not think we've had a legitimate conversation since the last day of school before COVID shut everything down junior year.
It's so weird how feelings can distort the truth. Honestly, out of all the guys I've been friends with, he's the most comfortable I felt with. I thought we vibed really well, but it turns out he isn't the person I thought he was and when I look back at my memories, I played myself.